She was surprised, however, and a little bit annoyed when, on the afternoon of the next day but one, her brother Tom brought in this same Frank King to five o"clock tea. He said, with something of a blush, that he wished to tell her that her news had been true; he had heard from the Admiralty that morning, and he wished to thank her. Nan was somewhat cold in her manner; she had thought with some pride that he was not like the other gentlemen who came about the house in the afternoon. She had seen enough of them and their idleness, and aimless flirtations, and languid airs. She had taken Frank King to be of firmer stuff, and not likely to waste his time at afternoon teas.
He was kind and polite enough, no doubt, and he distributed his attentions in the most impartial manner--even including two young lady visitors to whom he was introduced; but Nan seized an early opportunity of slipping away to her own room, where she resumed certain very serious studies that occupied her mind at this time. When she came downstairs again Lieutenant King was gone.
On the following day her holiday ended, and she went down to Brighton.
Many a time she thought of the ball, and always with a pleasurable recollection. When, however, she happened to think of Frank King--and it was seldom--it was always with a slight touch of disappointment. No doubt his leave was extended; probably he was still in town, and repeating those afternoon calls in Bruton Street. As for Nan, she honestly did not care to which train of admirers he might attach himself--whether he was to be Mary"s captive or Edith"s slave. But she was disappointed.
"I did think he was a little bit different from the others," she would say to herself; and then she would turn to Mr. Lockyer"s last discoveries in spectrum a.n.a.lysis.
CHAPTER VI.
FIRST IMPRESSIONS.
"Nan, do you see that ship out there?" said Mary Beresford.
"I saw it as I came along," said Nan. This was the afternoon on which she had fallen in with Singing Sal. Nan was rather tired after her long walk, and was not inclined to show much interest in that now lessening vessel, which was slowly sinking into the dusk of the west.
"Do you know what her name is?" said Mary Beresford, still regarding her younger sister.
"No," said Nan. "I heard people say she was a man-of-war."
"That is the _Fly-by-Night_."
"Oh, indeed," said Nan, with no greater interest than before.
"And Lieutenant King has just called here," the elder sister said, pointedly.
"Oh, indeed," said Nan. "I wish I had been in; I should like to have seen him in uniform."
That was all she said, and all she thought; for now there were far more serious things than ballrooms and young lieutenants occupying Nan"s attention. She and her sisters were going abroad--she for the first time; and she was busy with foreign languages, and lives of the great painters, and catalogues, and guide-books, and dressing-cases. The world she hoped to plunge into on the following week was, in her imagination, composed of nothing but cathedrals and picture-galleries; and she could have wished that the picture-galleries might contain nothing but the labours of Botticelli and Andrea del Sarto. The clear ethereal beauty and tenderness of the one, the solemn thoughtfulness of the other: these were things that filled her mind with a mysterious gladness, as if something had been added to her own life. Rubens she cordially hated.
Of t.i.tian she had as yet seen hardly anything.
At last the wonderful day of setting out arrived, and Mr. Tom graciously consented to accompany his sisters as far as Newhaven. It was towards the afternoon that they started, in an open carriage, the maid on the box beside the coachman. Tom was making facetious remarks about south-west gales, and his two elder sisters were angrily remonstrating with him.
Nan was silent. She had not a thought for the ships and sailors out there, or for any pensive young officer bitterly saying to himself that out of sight was out of mind; and she had forgotten for a moment all about Singing Sal and her free-and-easy ways. Nan"s mind was at this time filled with Dante, and Florence, and the young Raphael, and the Doge wedding the Adriatic, and Pompeii, and Savonarola, and goodness knows what else. When they reached Newhaven--when they forced her to descend from the carriage--her eyes had a bewildered look. She had not seen Newhaven at all. She had been watching the execution of Savonarola--she standing in the middle of the great crowd in a square in Florence.
They stayed the night at the hotel at Newhaven. Next morning falsified all Mr. Tom"s malicious forecasts; the weather was fine, and they had a smooth pa.s.sage across. In due time they reached Paris.
To Nan, Paris meant picture-galleries. The streets were new-looking, non-historical, filled with commonplace people; but in the picture-galleries she was with great names, in great times.
"Nan," her sisters remonstrated, "what is the use of dawdling over pictures like this? The Old Masters are all alike. There are plenty of Holy Families and broken-necked angels in England. Why don"t you put off all this till you get back to the National Gallery?"
Fortunately, Nan was the most biddable of companions. She seemed to be in dreamland. You could do what you liked with her if only you allowed her to gaze with her great eyes, and think, and be silent.
Now it is unnecessary to follow in detail the various journeyings and adventures of these three young ladies and their maid; we may pa.s.s on to a certain evening when they found themselves in Lucerne. It was an exceedingly hot evening; and after dinner the crowd in this great hotel had been glad to pour out into the s.p.a.cious verandah, which was formed by a succession of arches all hanging with evergreens. There they formed little groups round the small tables, lit up by the orange glow streaming out from the windows of the hotel, some taking coffee, some smoking, all chatting idly.
"It feels like thunder," said Mary Beresford to her sister Edith. "It would be odd if we were to have a real thunderstorm just after listening to the imitation one in the cathedral."
"The _vox humana_ stop is better at some things than at others," said Miss Edith, critically. "In the chanting the boys" voices are good, and the tenor voices are good; but the ba.s.s is too musical. You hear that it is the organ. And it vibrates too much."
"They must make a good deal of money by it," said the elder sister, "in the tourist season. I am sure there were a hundred people there."
"I wish I knew the name of the piece. I should like to try one or two of the airs."
"It was considerate of them to finish up in time to let us get back for the _table d"hote_."
"Sooner or later that organ will shake the Cathedral to bits: the vibrations were fearful. I thought there was a great deal too much noise. You lose effect when you pile up the agony like that: people only want to stop their ears to prevent their heads being split."
So they chatted on. But what was it that Nan, who had accompanied them, had heard as she sat in the great, empty, dimly-lit Cathedral, with her hands clasped, her head bent forward on them, her eyes closed? Or, rather, what was it that she saw?--for this seemed to be a picture in music. She saw a small chapel far away up in the mountains, the trembling red rays in the windows looking strange above the snow. She heard the monks at their midnight chanting--low, and sad, and distant.
And then it seemed, as she listened, as if the stars overhead were being blurred out, and a murmuring wind came down the gorge, and the air grew cold. The darkness deepened; the wind rose and moaned through the pine forests; then an angry gust swept along, so that the intoning of the monks was lost altogether. There was a rumble of distant thunder--overhead, among the unseen peaks. But still, unconscious of the threatening storm, those within the small building went on with their holy office, and there were s.n.a.t.c.hes of the clear singing of boys--so faint that you could scarcely hear; and again the strong, sad, sombre voices of the men. Then the tempest broke, fierce and terrible: the elements seemed mingled together. She lost sight of the chapel in the whirling snow; the heavens rattled overhead; and the wind swept down so that the whole earth trembled. A horror of wrath and darkness has overwhelmed the world; and what of the patient choristers now? No longer are their voices heard amid the appalling fury of the hurricane; the sudden lightning-flash reveals nothing in the blackness; the powers of evil have overcome; and the universe has lost its hope. But now there comes a lull; and suddenly--far away, and faint, and triumphant--rises the song of reliance and joy. The demons of the night mutter and moan; but the divine song rises clearer and more clear. It is the voice of faith, silver-toned and sweet; and the very heavens themselves seem to listen; and the thunders rumble away into the valleys; and the stars, shining, and calm, and benignant, come out again over the mountain-peaks.
And lo! once more she can descry the faint red rays above the snow; and she can almost see the choristers within the little building; and she listens to the silver-clear song; and her heart is filled with a strange new gladness and trust. What must she do to keep it there for ever? By what signal self-sacrifice--by what devotion of a whole life-time--by what patient and continuous duty--shall she secure to herself this divine peace, so that the storms and terrors and trials of the world may sweep by it powerless and unregarded?
When she rose and blindly followed her sisters, she was all trembling, and there was a great lump in her throat. She was, indeed, in that half-hysterical state in which rash resolves are sometimes made that may determine the course of a human life. But Nan had the sense to know that she was in this state; and she had enough firmness of character to enable her to reason with herself. She walked, silent, with her sisters from the Cathedral to the hotel; and she was reasoning with herself all the time. She was saying to herself that she had had a glimpse, an impression of something divinely beautiful and touching, that at some time or other might influence or even determine her course of life. When that time came she could remember. But not now--_not now_. She was not going to resolve to become a Catholic, or join a sisterhood, or give herself up to the service of the poor, merely because this wonderful music had filled her heart with emotion. It was necessary that she should think of something hard and practical--something that would be the embodiment of common sense. She would force herself to think of that.
And, casting about, she determined to think--about Singing Sal!
It was rather hard upon Sal, who had a touch of vanity, and was quite conscious of what she deemed the romantic side of her way of life, that she should be taken as the sort of incarnation of the prosaic.
Nevertheless, all through that _table d"hote_ dinner, Nan kept to her self-imposed task, and was busying herself about the wages of the coastguardsmen, and the probable cost of mackerel, and the chances of Sal"s having to face a westerly squall of wind and rain when she was breasting the steep hill rising from Newhaven. Was Sal singing that night before the Old Ship? Or was she in the little _cul-de-sac_ near the Town-hall where the public-house was that the fishermen called in at on their way home? Nan was apparently dining at the _table d"hote_ of a hotel in Lucerne; but in reality she spent that evening in Brighton.
And she was still thinking of Brighton when, as has been related, there was a migration from the dining-saloon to the verandah outside; so that she did not hear much of what her sisters were saying.
"We are certainly going to have a real thunderstorm after the imitation one," Miss Beresford repeated. "Do you hear that?"
There was a low rumble of thunder; likewise some pattering of rain-drops on the leaves outside.
"It won"t be half as fine though," said the musical sister.
There was a sudden white flash of light that revealed in a surprising manner the sharp outline of Pilatus; then darkness and a crashing peal of thunder. The rain began to pour; and some pa.s.sers by took shelter under the densely-foliaged trees fronting the gravelled terrace of the hotel.
The light that came through the tall windows fell on those dark figures; but dimly.
Nan had been thinking so much of Brighton, and Sal, and the downs, and ships and sailors, that when this orange glow fell on a gentleman whom she thought she recognised as Lieutenant Frank King she was scarcely astonished. She looked hard through the dusk; yes, surely it was he.
"Mary," she said, but without any great interest, "isn"t that Lieutenant King standing by that farthest tree?"
The eldest sister also peered through the obscurity.
"Well, yes, it is. What an extraordinary thing! Oh, I remember, he said he was going abroad. But what a curious coincidence! Why don"t you go and speak to him, Nan?"
"Why should I go and speak to him?" said Nan. "I should only get wet."
"What can have brought him here?" said Edith.
"Not his ship, at all events," said Mary Beresford, smartly. "It"s only Shakspeare who can create seaports inland."
"You ought to know better than that," said Nan with some asperity, for she was very valiant in protecting her intellectual heroes against the attacks of a flippant criticism. "You ought to know that at one time the Kingdom of Bohemia had seaports on the Adriatic; every school-girl knows that nowadays."
"They didn"t when I was at school," said Mary Beresford. "But aren"t you going to speak to Lieutenant King, Nan?"
"Oh, he won"t want to be bothered with a lot of girls," said Nan; and she refused to stir.