But with Norma it was different. She was brought into sharp contact with another girl, only slightly her senior, who had everything that this new turn of fortune had given Norma herself, and a thousand times more.
Norma saw older women, the important and influential matrons of the social world, paying court to the promised wife of Acton Liggett. Norma knew that while Alice and Chris were always attentive to her own little affairs, the solving of Leslie"s problems they regarded as their own sacred obligation. Norma had hours and hours of this new enchanting leisure to fill; she could be at anybody"s beck and call. But Leslie, she saw, was only too busy. Everybody was claiming Leslie; she was needed in forty places at once; she must fly from one obligation to another, and be thanked for sparing just a few minutes here and there from her crowded days.
Mrs. Melrose had immediately made Norma an allowance, an allowance so big that when Norma first told Aunt Kate about it, it was with a sense of shame. Norma had her check-book, and need ask n.o.body for spending money. More than that her generous old patron insisted that she use all the family charge accounts freely: "You mustn"t think of paying in any shop!" said Aunt Marianna and Aunt Alice, earnestly.
But Leslie was immensely rich in her own right. The hour in which Norma realized this was one of real wretchedness. Chris was her innocent informant.
It was only two or three days before the wedding, a warm day of rustling leaves and moving shadows, in late May. The united families were still in town, but plans for escape to the country were made for the very day after the event. Norma had been fighting a little sense of hurt pride because she was not to be included among Leslie"s wedding attendants.
She knew that Aunt Marianna had suggested it to Leslie, some weeks before, and that the bride had quite justifiably reminded her grandmother that the eight maids, the special maid and matron of honour, and the two little pages, had all been already asked to perform their little service of affection, and that a readjustment now would be difficult. So Norma had been excluded from the luncheons, the discussions of frocks and bouquets, and the final exciting rehearsals in the big Park Avenue church.
She had chanced to be thinking of all these things on the day when Chris made a casual allusion to "needing" Leslie.
"The poor kid has got a stupid morning coming to-morrow, I"m afraid!" he had said, adding, in answer to Norma"s raised eyebrows, "Business. She has to sign some papers, and alter her will--and I want all that done before they go away!"
"Has Leslie a will?" Norma had asked.
"My child, what did you suppose she had? Leslie inherited practically all of her Grandfather Melrose"s estate. At least, her father, Theodore, did, and Leslie gets it direct through him. Of course your Aunt Annie got her slice, and my wife hers, but the bulk was left to the son. Poor Teddy! he didn"t get much out of it. But during her minority the executors--of which I happen to be one--almost doubled it for Leslie.
And to-morrow Judge Lee and I have got to go over certain matters with her."
He had been idling at the piano, while Alice dozed in the heat, and Norma played with a magazine. Now he had turned back to his music, and Norma had apparently resumed her reading. But she really had been shaken by a storm of pa.s.sionate jealousy.
Jealousy is in its nature selfish, and the old Norma of Aunt Kate"s little group had not been a selfish girl. But Norma had had a few weeks now of a world governed by a different standard. There was no necessity here, none of the pure beauty of sacrifice and service and insufficiency. This was a world of superfluities, a standard of excess.
To have merely meals, clothing, comfort, and ease was not enough here.
All these must be had in superabundance, and she was the best woman and the happiest who had gowns she could not wear, jewels lying idle, money stored away in banks, and servants standing about uselessly for hours, that the momentary needs of them might be instantly met.
The poison of this creed had reached Norma, in spite of herself. She was young, and she had always been beloved in her own group for what she honestly gave of cheer and service and friendship. It hurt her that n.o.body needed what she could give now, and she hated the very memory of Leslie"s wedding.
But when that was over, Mrs. Melrose had taken her to Newport, whither Alice was carefully moved every June. Leslie was gone now, and Norma free from p.r.i.c.king reminders of her supremacy, and as old friends of Mrs. Melrose began to include her in the summer"s merrymaking, she had some happy times. But even here the cloven hoof intruded.
Norma had always imagined this group as being full of friendly women and admiring men, as offering her a hundred friendships where the old life had offered one. She discovered slowly, and with pained surprise, that although there were plenty of girls, they were not especially anxious for intimacy with her, and that the men she met were not, somehow, "real." They were absorbed in amus.e.m.e.nt, polo and yachting, they moved about a great deal, and they neither had, nor desired to have, any genuine work or interest in life. She began to see Leslie"s wisdom in making an early and suitable marriage. As a matron, Leslie was established; she could entertain, she had dignified duties and interests, and while Norma felt awkward and bashful in asking young men to dine with Aunt Marianna, Acton brought his friends to his home, and Leslie had her girl friends there, and the whole thing was infinitely simpler and pleasanter.
CHAPTER XI
Norma had indeed chanced to make one girl friend, and one of whom Leslie and Alice, and even Annie, heartily approved. Caroline, the seventeen-year-old daughter of the Peter Craigies, was not a debutante yet, but she would be the most prominent, because the richest, of them all next winter. Caroline was a heavy-lidded, slow-witted girl, whose chief companions in life had been servants, foreign-born governesses, and music-masters. Norma had been seated next to her at the international tennis tournament, and had befriended the squirming and bashful Caroline from sheer goodness of heart. They had criticized the players, and Caroline had laughed the almost hysteric, shaken laugh that so worried her mother, and had blurted confidences to Norma in her childish way.
The next day there had been an invitation for Norma to lunch with Caroline, and Mrs. von Behrens had promptly given another luncheon for both girls. Norma was pleased, for a few weeks, with her first social conquest, but after that Caroline became a dead weight upon her. She hated the flattery, the inanities, the utter dulness of the great Craigie mansion, and she began to have a restless conviction that time spent with Caroline was time lost.
The friendship had cost her dear, too. Norma hated, even months later to remember just what she had paid for it.
In August a letter from Rose had reached her at Newport, announcing Rose"s approaching marriage. Harry Redding"s sister Mary was engaged to a most satisfactory young man of Italian lineage, one Joe Popini, and Mrs. Redding would hereafter divide her time between the households of her daughter and her son. Harry, thus free to marry, had persuaded Rose to wait no longer; the event was to be on a Monday not quite two weeks ahead, and Norma was please, _please_, PLEASE to come down as soon as she could.
Norma had read this letter with a sensation of pain at her heart. She felt so far away from them nowadays; she felt almost a certain reluctance to dovetail this life of softness and perfume and amus.e.m.e.nt in upon the old life. But she would go. She would go, of course!
And then she had suddenly remembered that on the Monday before Rose"s wedding, the Craigies" splendid yacht was to put to sea for a four- or five-days" cruise, and that Caroline had asked her to go--the only other young person besides the daughter of the house. And great persons were going, visiting n.o.bility from England, a young American Croesus and his wife, a tenor from the Metropolitan. Annie had been delighted with this invitation; even Leslie, just returned from California and Hawaii, had expressed an almost surprised satisfaction in the Craigies"
friendliness.
If they got back Friday night, then Norma could go down to the city early Sat.u.r.day morning, and have two days with Rose and Aunt Kate. But if the yacht did not return until Sat.u.r.day--well, even then there would be time. She and Rose could get through a tremendous lot of talking in twenty-four hours. And the voyage certainly would not be prolonged over Sat.u.r.day, for had not Mrs. Craigie said, in Norma"s hearing, that Sat.u.r.day was the very latest minute to which she could postpone the meeting for the big charity lawn party?
So Norma and the enslaved Caroline continued to plan for their sea trip, and Norma commissioned Chris to order Rose"s wedding present at Gorham"s.
Mrs. von Behrens had been a trifle distant with the newcomer in the family until now, but the day before the cruise began she extended just a little of her royal graciousness toward Norma. Like Leslie, Norma admired her Aunt Annie enormously, and hungered for her most casual word.
"You"ve plenty of frocks, Kiddie?" asked Annie. "One uses them up at the rate of about three a day!"
"Oh!"--Norma widened her innocent eyes--"I"ve a wardrobe trunk full of them: white skirts and white shoes and hats!"
"Well, I didn"t suppose you had them tied in a handkerchief!" Annie had responded, with her quiet smile. "See if that fits you!"
They had been up in Mrs. von Behrens"s big bedroom, where that lady was looking at a newly arrived box of gowns. "That" was the frail, embroidered coat of what Norma thought the prettiest linen suit she had ever seen.
"It"s charming on you, you little slender thing," Annie had said. "The skirt will be too long; will you pin it, Keating? And see that it goes at once to my mother"s house."
Keating had pinned, admired. And Norma, turning herself before the mirror, with her eyes shy with pleasure and grat.i.tude, had known that she was gaining ground.
So they had started radiantly on the cruise. But after the first few miraculous hours of gliding along beneath the gay awnings that had all been almost astonishingly disappointing, too. Caroline, to begin with, was a dreadful weight upon her young guest. Caroline for breakfast, luncheon, and dinner; Caroline retiring and rising, became almost hateful. Caroline always wanted to do something, when Norma could have dreamed and idled in her deck chair by the hour. It must be deck golf or deck tennis, or they must go up and tease dignified and courteous Captain Burns, "because he was such an old duck," or they must hara.s.s one or two of the older people into bridge. Norma did not play bridge well, and she hated it, and hated Caroline"s way of paying for her losses almost more than paying them herself.
Norma could not lie lazily with her book, raising her eyes to the exquisite beauty of the slowly tipping sea, revelling in coolness and airiness, because Caroline, fussing beside her, had never read a book through in her life. The guest did not know, even now, that Caroline had been a mental problem for years, that Caroline"s family had consulted great psycho-a.n.a.lysts about her, and had watched the girl"s self-centredness, her odd slyness, her hysteric emotions, with deep concern. She did not know, even now, that the Cragies were anxious to encourage this first reaching out, in Caroline, toward a member of her own s.e.x, and that her fancies for members of the opposite s.e.x--for severely indifferent teachers, for shocked and unresponsive chauffeurs--were among the family problems, a part of the girl"s unfortunate under-development. Caroline"s family was innocently surprised to realize that her mind had not developed under the care of maids who were absorbed in their own affairs, and foreigners who would not have been free to attend her had they not been impecunious and unsuccessful in more lucrative ways. They had left her to Mademoiselles and Frauleins quite complacently, but they did not wish her to be like these too-sullen or too-vivacious ladies.
So they welcomed her friendship with Norma, and Caroline"s pa.s.sionate desire to be with her friend was not to find any opposition on the part of her own family. Little Miss Sheridan had an occasional kindly word from Caroline"s mother, a stout woman, middle-aged at thirty-five, and good-natured smiles from Caroline"s father, a well-groomed young man.
And socially, this meant that the Melroses" young protegee was made.
But Norma did not realize all this. She only knew that all the charm and beauty of the yacht were wasted on her. Everyone ate too much, talked too much, played, flirted, and dressed too much. The women seldom made their appearance until noon; in the afternoons there was bridge until six, and much squabbling and writing of checks on the forward deck, with iced drinks continually being brought up from the bar. At six the women loitered off to dress for dinner, but the men went on playing for another half hour. The sun sank in a blaze of splendour; the wonderful twilight fell; but the yacht might have been boxed up in an armoury for all that her pa.s.sengers saw of the sea.
After the elaborate dinner, with its ices and hot rolls, its warm wines and chilled champagne, cards began again, and unless the ocean was so still that they might dance, bridge continued until after midnight.
Norma"s happiest times had been when she arose early, at perhaps seven, and after dressing noiselessly in their little bathroom, crept upstairs without waking Caroline. Sunshine would be flooding the ocean, or perhaps the vessel would be nosing her way through a luminous fog--but it was always beautiful. The decks, drying in the soft air, would be ordered, inviting, deserted. Great waves of smooth water would flow evenly past, curving themselves with lessening ripples into the great even circle of the sea. A gentle breeze would stir the leaves of the potted plants on the deck and flap the fringes of the awnings.
Norma, hanging on the railing, would look down upon a group of maids and stewards laughing and talking on the open deck below. These were happy, she would reflect, animated by a thousand honest emotions that never crept to the luxurious cabins above. They would be waiting for breakfast, all freshly ap.r.o.ned and brushed, all as pleased with the _Seagirl_ as if they had been her owners.
On the fifth day, Friday, she had been almost sick with longing to hear some mention of going back. Surely--surely, she reasoned, they had all said that they must get back on Friday night! If the plan had changed, Norma had determined to ask them to run into harbour somewhere, and put her on sh.o.r.e. She was so tired of Caroline, so tired of wasting time, so headachy from the heavy meals and lack of exercise!
Late on Friday afternoon some idle remark of her hostess had a.s.sured her that the yacht would not make Greble light until Monday. They were ploughing north now, to play along the Maine coast; the yachting party was a great success, and n.o.body wanted to go home.
Norma, goaded out of her customary shyness, had pleaded her cousin"s marriage. Couldn"t they run into Portland--or somewhere?--and let her go down by train? But Caroline had protested most affectionately and noisily against this, and Caroline"s mother said sweetly that she couldn"t think of letting Norma do that alone--Annie von Behrens would never forgive her! However, she would speak to Captain Burns, and see what could be done. Anyway, Mrs. Craigie had finished, with her comfortable laugh, Norma had only to tell her cousin that she was out with friends on their yacht, and they had been delayed. Surely that was excuse enough for any one?
It was with difficulty that Norma had kept the tears out of her eyes.
She had not wanted an excuse to stay away from Rose"s wedding. Her heart had burned with shame and anger and helplessness. She could hardly believe, crying herself to sleep on Friday night, that two whole days were still to spare before Monday, and that she was helpless to use them. Her mind worked madly, her thoughts rushing to and fro with a desperation worthy an actual prisoner.
On Sat.u.r.day evening, after a day of such homesickness and heavy-heartedness as she had never known before in her life, she had realized that they were in some port, lying a short half mile from sh.o.r.e.
It was about ten o"clock, warm and star-lighted; there was no moon.
Norma had slipped from the deck, where Caroline was playing bridge, and had gone to the lowered gang-plank. Captain Burns was there, going over what appeared to be invoices, with the head steward.
"Captain," Norma had said, her heart pounding, "can"t you put me on sh.o.r.e? I must be in New York to-morrow--it"s very important! If I get a coat, will you let me go in when you go?"
He had measured her with his usual polite, impersonal gaze.