"I can"t always read the German writing," explained Anna.
"But surely a woman of your own age, who isn"t such a simpleton as the parson, is the best adviser you can have."
"But you laugh at the letters, and they are all so unhappy."
Trudi went back to Lohm early that day. "She has taken it into her head that I am not to read the letters," she said to her brother with no little indignation.
"It would be a great breach of confidence if she allowed you to," he replied; which was so unsatisfactory that she drove into Stralsund that very afternoon, and consoled herself with the pliable Bibi.
Bibi"s nose seemed more unsuccessful than ever after having had Anna"s before her for nearly a week; but then the richness of the girl! And such a good-natured, generous girl, who would adore her sister-in-law and make her presents. Contemplating the good Bibi in her afternoon splendour from Paris, Trudi"s heart stirred within her at the thought of all that was within Axel"s reach if only he could be induced to put out his hand and take it. Anna would never marry him, Trudi was certain--would never marry anyone, being completely engrossed by her philanthropic follies; but if she did, what was her probable income compared to Bibi"s? And Axel would never look at Bibi so long as that other girl lived next door to him; n.o.body could expect him to. Anna was too pretty; it was not fair. And Bibi was so very plain; which was not fair either.
The Regierungsprasidentin, a cousin by marriage of Bibi"s, but a member of an ancient family of the Mark, was delighted to see Trudi and to question her about the new and eccentric arrival. Trudi had offered to take Anna to call on this lady, and had explained that it was her duty to call; but Anna had said there was no hurry, and had talked of some day, and had been manifestly bored by the prospect of making new acquaintances.
"Is she quite--quite in her right senses?" asked the Regierungsprasidentin, when Trudi had described all they had been doing in Anna"s house, and all Anna meant to do with her money, and had made her description so smart and diverting that the Regierungsprasidentin, an alert little lady, with ears perpetually p.r.i.c.ked up in the hope of catching gossip, felt that she had not enjoyed an afternoon so much for years.
Bibi sat listening with her mouth wide open. It was an artless way of hers when she was much interested in a conversation, and was deplored by those who wished her well.
"Oh, yes, she is quite in her senses. Rather too sure she knows best, always, but quite in her senses."
"Then she is very religious?"
"Not in the ordinary way, I should think. She goes in for nature. _Gott in der Natur_, and that sort of thing. If the sun shines more than usual she goes and stands in it, and turns up her eyes and gushes. There"s a crocus in the garden, and when we came to it yesterday she stopped in front of it and rhapsodised for ten minutes about things that have nothing to do with crocuses--chiefly about the _lieben Gott_. And all in English, of course, and it sounds worse in English."
"But then, my dear, she _is_ religious?"
"Oh, well, the pastor would not call it religion. It"s a sort of huddle-muddle pantheism as far as it is anything at all." From which it will be seen that Trudi was even more frank about her friends behind their backs than she was to their faces.
She drove back to Lohm in a discontented frame of mind. "What"s the good of anything?" was the mood she was in. She had over-tired herself helping Anna, and she was afraid that being so much in cold rooms and pa.s.sages, and washing in hard water, had made her skin coa.r.s.e. She had caught sight of herself in a gla.s.s as she was leaving the Regierungsprasidentin, and had been disconcerted by finding that she did not look as pretty as she felt. Nor was she consoled for this by the consciousness that she had been unusually amusing at Anna"s expense; for she was only too certain that the Regierungsprasidentin, when repeating all she had told her to her friends, would add that Trudi Hasdorf had terribly _eingepackt_--dreadful word, descriptive of the faded state immediately preceding wrinkles, and held in just abhorrence by every self-respecting woman. Of what earthly use was it to be cleverer and more amusing than other people if at the same time you had _eingepackt_?
"What a stupid world it is," thought Trudi, driving along the _chaussee_ in the early April twilight. A mist lay over the sea, and the pale sickle of the young moon rose ghost-like above the white shroud. Inland the stars were faintly shining, and all the earth beneath was damp and fragrant. It was Sat.u.r.day evening, and the two bells of Lohm church were plaintively ringing their reminder to the countryside that the week"s work was ended and G.o.d"s day came next. "Oh, the stupid world," thought Trudi. "If I stay here I shall be bored to death--that Estcourt child and her governess have got on to my nerves--horrid fat child with turned-in toes, and flabby, boneless woman, only held together by her hairpins. I am sick of governesses and children--wherever one goes, there they are. If I go home, there are those noisy little boys and Fraulein Schultz worrying all day, and then there"s that tiresome Bill coming in to meals. Anna and Bibi are just in the position I would like to be in--no husbands and children, and lots of money." And staring straight before her, with eyes dark with envy, she fell into gloomy musings on the beauty of Bibi"s dress, and the blindness of fate, throwing away a dress like that on a Bibi, when it was so eminently suited to tall, slim women like herself; and it was fortunate for Axel"s peace that when she reached Lohm the first thing she saw was a letter from the objectionable Bill telling her to come home, because the foreign prince who was honorary colonel of the regiment was expected immediately in Hanover, and there were to be great doings in his honour.
She left, all smiles, the next morning by the first train.
"Miss Estcourt will miss you," said Axel, "and will wonder why you did not say good-bye. I am afraid your journey will be unpleasant, too, to-day. I wish you had stayed till to-morrow."
"Oh, I don"t mind the Sunday people once in a way," said Trudi gaily.
"And please tell Anna how it was I had to go so suddenly. I have started her, at least, with the workmen and people she wants. I shall see her in a few weeks again, you know, when Bill is at the man[oe]uvres."
"A few weeks! Six months."
"Well, six months. You must both try to exist without me for that time."
"You seem very pleased to be off," he said, smiling, as she climbed briskly into the dog-cart and took the reins, while her maid, with her arms full of bags, was hoisted up behind.
"Oh, so pleased!" said Trudi, looking down at him with sparkling eyes.
"Princes and parties are jollier any day than whitewash and the better life."
"And brothers."
"Oh--brothers. By the way, I never saw Bibi look better than she did yesterday. She has improved so much n.o.body would know----"
"You will miss your train," said Axel, pulling out his watch.
"Well, good-bye then, _alter Junge_. Work hard, do your duty, and don"t let your thoughts linger too much round strange young ladies. They never do, I think you said? Well, so much the better, for it"s no good, no good, no good!" And Trudi, who was in tremendous spirits, put her whip to the brim of her hat by way of a parting salute, touched up the cobs, and rattled off down the drive on the road to Jungbluth and glory. She turned her head before she finally disappeared, to call back her oracular "No good!" once again to Axel, who stood watching her from the steps of his solitary house.
CHAPTER XII
So Anna was left to herself again. She was astonished at the rapidity of Trudi"s movements. Within one week she had heard of her, met her, liked her, begun to like her less, and lost her. She had flashed across the Kleinwalde horizon, and left a trail of workmen and new servants behind, with whom Anna was now occupied, unaided, from morning till night. Miss Leech and Letty did all they could, but their German being restricted to quotations from the _Erl-Konig_ and the _Lied von der Glocke_, it could not be brought to bear with any profitable results on the workmen. The servants, too, were a perplexity to Anna. Their cheapness was extraordinary, but their quality curious. Her new parlourmaid--for she felt unequal to coping with German men-servants--wore her arms naked all day long. Anna thought she had tucked up her sleeves in her zeal for thoroughness, but when she appeared with the afternoon coffee--the local tea was undrinkable--she still had bare arms; and, examining her more closely, Anna saw that it was her usual state, for her dress was sleeveless. Nor was her want of sleeves her only peculiarity. Anna began to wonder whether her house would ever be ready for the twelve.
The answers to the philanthropic advertis.e.m.e.nt were in a proportion of fifty to one answer to the advertis.e.m.e.nt for a companion. There were fifty ladies without means willing to be idle, to one lady without means willing to work. It worried Anna terribly, being obliged by want of room and money to limit the number to twelve. She could hardly bear to read the letters, knowing that nearly all had to be rejected. "See how many sad lives are being dragged through while we are so comfortable," she said to Manske, when he brought round fresh piles of letters to add to those already heaped on her table.
He shook his head in perplexity. He was bewildered by the ma.s.ses of answers, by the apparent universality of impoverishment and hopelessness among Christian ladies of good family.
He could not come himself more than once a day, and the letters arrived by every post; so in the afternoon he sent Herr Klutz, the young cleric of poetic promptings, who had celebrated Anna on her arrival in a poem which for freshness and spontaneousness equalled, he considered, the best sonnets that had ever been written. What a joy it was to a youth of imagination, to a poet who thought his features not unlike Goethe"s, and who regarded it as by no means an improbability that his brain should turn out to be stamped with the same resemblance, to walk daily through the gleaming, whispering forest, swinging his stick and composing s.n.a.t.c.hes not unworthy of her of whom they treated, his face towards the magic _Schloss_ and its enchanted princess, and his pockets full of her letters! Herr Klutz"s coat was clerical, but his brown felt hat and the flower in his b.u.t.tonhole were typical of the worldliness within. "A poet," he a.s.sured himself often, "is a citizen of the world, and is not to be narrowed down to any one circle or creed." But he did not expound this view to the good man who was helping him to prepare for the examination that would make him a full-fledged pastor, and received his frequent blessings, and a.s.sisted at prayers and intercessions of which he was the subject, with outward decorum.
The first time he brought the letters, Anna received him with her usual kindness; but there was something in his manner that displeased her, whether it was self-a.s.surance, or conceit, or a way he had of looking at her, she could not tell, nor did she waste many seconds trying to decide; but the next day when he came he was not admitted to her presence, nor the next after that, nor for some time to come. This surprised Herr Klutz, who was of Dellwig"s opinion that the most superior woman was not equal to the average man; and take away any advantage of birth or position or wealth that she might possess, why, there she was, only a woman, a creature made to be conquered and brought into obedience to man. Being young and poetic he differed from Dellwig on one point: to Dellwig, woman was a servant; to Klutz, an admirable toy. Clearly such a creature could only be gratified by opportunities of seeing and conversing with members of the opposite s.e.x. The Miss"s conduct, therefore, in allowing her servant to take the letters from him at the door, puzzled him.
He often met Miss Leech and Letty on his way to or from Kleinwalde, and always stopped to speak to them and to teach them a few German sentences and practise his own small stock of English; and from them he easily discovered all that the young woman he favoured with his admiration was doing. Lohm, riding over to Kleinwalde to settle differences between Dellwig and the labourers, or to try offenders, met these three several times, and supposed that Klutz must be courting the governess.
The day Trudi left, Lohm had gone round to Anna and delivered his sister"s message in a slightly embellished form. "You will have everything to do now una.s.sisted," he said. "I do trust that in any difficulty you will let me help you. If the workmen are insolent, for instance, or if your new servants are dishonest or in any way give you trouble. You know it is my duty as Amtsvorsteher to interfere when such things happen."
"You are very kind," said Anna gratefully, looking up at the grave, good face, "but no one is insolent. And look--here is some one who wants to come as companion. It is the first of the answers to that advertis.e.m.e.nt that pleases me."
Lohm took the letter and photograph and examined them. "She is a Penheim, I see," he said. "It is a very good family, but some of its branches have been reduced to poverty, as so many of our old families have been."
"Don"t you think she would do very well?"
"Yes, if she is and does all she says in her letter. You might propose that she should come at first for a few weeks on trial. You may not like her, and she may not appreciate philanthropic housekeeping."
Anna laughed. "I am doubly anxious to get someone soon," she said, "because my sister-in-law wants Letty and Miss Leech."
Letty and Miss Leech heaved tragic sighs at this; they had no desire whatever to go home.
"Will you not feel rather forlorn when they are gone, and you are quite alone among strangers?"
"I shall miss them, but I don"t mean to be forlorn," said Anna, smiling.
"The courage of the little thing!" thought Lohm. "Ready to brave anything in pursuit of her ideals. It makes one ashamed of one"s own grumblings and discouragements."
Anna arranged with Frau von Penheim that she should come at once on a three months" trial; and immediately this was settled she wrote to Susie to ask what day Letty was to be sent home. She had had no communication with Susie since that angry lady"s departure. To Peter she had written, explaining her plans and her reasons, and her hopes and yearnings, and had received a hasty scrawl in reply dated from Estcourt, conveying his blessing on herself and her scheme. "Susie came straight down here," he wrote, "because of the Alderton wedding to which she was not asked, and went to bed. You know, my dear little sister, anything that makes you happy contents me. I wish you could have seen your way to benefiting reduced English ladies, for you are a long way off; but of course you have the house free over there. Don"t let Miss Leech leave you till you are perfectly satisfied with your companion. Yesterday I landed the biggest----" etc. In a word, Peter, in accordance with his invariable custom, was on her side.
The day before Frau von Penheim was to arrive, Susie"s answer to Anna"s letter came. Here it is:--
"DEAR ANNA,--Your letter surprised me, though I might have known by now what to expect of you.--Still, I was surprised that you should not even offer to make the one return in your power for all I have done for you. As I feel I have a right to some return I don"t hesitate to tell you that I think you ought to keep Letty for a year or two, or even longer. Even if you kept her till she is eighteen, and dressed her and fed her (don"t feed her too much), it would only be four years; and what are four years I should like to know, compared to the fifteen I had you on my hands? I was talking to Herr Schumpf about her the other day--his bills were so absurd that I made him take something off--and he said by all means let her stay in Germany. Everybody speaks German nowadays, and Letty will pick it up at once in that awful place of yours. I was so ill when I got back that I went to Estcourt, and had to stay in bed for days, the doctor coming every day, and sometimes twice. He said he didn"t wonder, when I told him all I had gone through. Peter was quite sorry for me. Send Miss Leech back. Give her a month"s notice for me the day you get this, and see if you can"t find some German who will go to your place--I can"t remember its wretched name without looking in my address book--and give Letty lessons every day. The rest of the time she can talk German to your twelve victims. I believe masters in Germany only charge about 6d. an hour, so it won"t ruin you. Make her take lots of exercise, and let her ride. She has outgrown her old habit, but German tailors are so cheap that a new one will cost next to nothing, and any horse that shakes her up well will do. I shall be quite happy about her diet, because I know you don"t have anything to eat. I was at the Ennistons" last night. They seemed very sorry for me being so nearly related to somebody cracked; but after all, as I tell people, I"m not responsible for my husband"s relations.--Your affectionate, SUSIE ESTCOURT.