There were so many different lines, each jealous of exclusive rights of way, that the traveler hardly got used to his particular car when he had to s.n.a.t.c.h up his baggage and hustle for the connecting train, which might be on the same track or at the same sooty depot, but was more likely to be a mile away. Even the adjective "connecting" was often ironical for it was not unusual to find timetables arranged so its departure preceded our arrival by minutes, necessitating a stopover of anywhere from one hour to twelve.
If anything could have quieted my excitement on the trip it was the view through the dirt-sprayed windows. "Fruitless" and "unfilled" were the words coming oftenest to my mind. I had forgotten during the past six years just how desolate villages and towns could look when their jerrybuilt structures were sunk in apathetic age without even the false rejuvenation of newer jerrybuilding. I had forgotten the mildewed appearance of tenant farmhouses, the unconvincing attempt to appear businesslike of false-fronted stores with clutters of hopeless merchandise in their dim windows, or the inadequate bluff of factories too small for any adequate production.
We crossed the Susquehanna on an old, old stone bridge that made me think of Meade"s valiant men, bloodily bandaged many of them, somnambulistically marching northward, helpless and hopeless after the Confederate triumph at Gettysburg, their only thought to escape Jeb Stuart"s pursuing cavalry. Indeed, every square mile now carried on its surface an almost visible weight of historical memories.
York was old, gray and crabbed in the afternoon, but when I got off the train there I was too agitated with the prospect of being soon at Haggershaven to take any strong impression of the town. I inquired the way, and the surly response confirmed Barbara Haggerwells" statement of local animosity. The distance-if my information was accurate-was a matter of some ten miles.
I started off down the highway, building and demolishing daydreams, thinking of Tyss and Enfandin and Miss Haggerwells, trying to picture her father and the fellows of the haven and for the thousandth time marshaling arguments for my acceptance in the face of scornful scrutiny. The early October sun was setting on the rich red and yellow leaves of the maples and oaks; I knew the air would become chilly before long, but exertion kept me warm. I counted on arriving at the haven in plenty of time to introduce myself before bedtime.
Less than a mile out of town the highway a.s.sumed the familiar aspect of the roads around Wappinger Falls and Poughkeepsie: rutted, wavering, and with deep, unexpected holes. The rail or stone fences on either side enclosed harvested cornfields, the broken stalks a dull bra.s.s, s.m.u.tted from rain, with copper colored pumpkins scattered through them. But the rich countryside showed paradoxical signs of poverty: the fences were in poor repair and the covered wooden bridges over the creeks all had signs: DANGEROUS, TRAVEL AT YOUR OWN RISK .
There were few to share the highway with me: a farmer with an empty wagon, urging his team on and giving me a churlish glance instead of an invitation to ride; a horseman on an elegant chestnut picking his course carefully between the chuckholes, and a few tramps, each bent on his solitary way, at once defensive and aggressive. The condition of the bridges accounted for the absence of minibiles. However, just about twilight a closed carriage, complete with coachman and footman on the box, rolled haughtily by, stood for a moment outlined atop the slope up which I was trudging and then disappeared down the other side.
I paid little attention except-remembering my boyhood and my father"s smithy-to visualize automatically the coachman pulling back on the reins and the footman thrusting forward with the brake as they eased the horses downward. So when I heard first a shout and then feminine screams my instant conclusion was that the carriage had overturned on the treacherous downgrade, broken an axle, or otherwise suffered calamity.
My responsive burst of speed had almost carried me to the top when I heard the shots. First one, like the barking of an uncertain dog, followed by a volley, as though a pack were unleashed.
I ran to the side of the road, close to the field, where I could see with less chance of being seen. Already the twilight was playing tricks, distorting the shape of some objects and momentarily hiding others. It could not, however, falsify the scene in the gully below. Four men on horseback covered the carriage with drawn revolvers; a fifth, also pistol in hand, had dismounted. His horse, reins hanging down, was peacefully investigating the roadside weeds.
None of them attempted to stop the terrified rearing of the carriage team. Only their position, strung across the road, prevented a runaway. I could not see the footman, but the coachman, one hand still clutching the reins, was sprawled backward with his foot caught against the dashboard and his head hanging downward over the wheel.
The door on the far side of the carriage was swung open. I thought for a moment the pa.s.sengers had managed to escape. However, as the unmounted highwayman advanced, waving his pistol, the other door opened and a man and two women descended into the roadway. After slowly edging forward I could now plainly hear the gang"s obscene whistles at sight of the women.
"Well, boys, here"s something to keep us warm these cold nights. Hang on to them while I see what the mister has in his pockets."
The gentleman stepped in front, and with a slight accent said, "Take the girl by all means. She is but a peasant, a servant, and may afford you amus.e.m.e.nt. But the lady is my wife; I will pay you a good ransom for her and myself. I am Don Jaime Escobar y Gallegos, attached to the Spanish legation."
One of those on horseback said, "Well now, that"s real kind of you, Don High-me. We might have taken you up at that, was you an American. But we can"t afford no company of Spanish Marines coming looking for us, so I guess we"ll have to pa.s.s up the ransom and settle for whatever you"ve got handy. And Missus Don and the hired girl. Don"t worry about her being a peasant-we"ll treat her and the madam exactly the same."
"Madre de Dios," screamed the lady. "Mercy!"
"It will be a good ransom," said the Spaniard, "and I give you my word my government will not bother you."
"Sorry, chum," returned the gangster. "You foreigners have a nasty habit of hanging men who make a living this way. Just can"t trust you."
The man on foot took a step forward. The nearest rider swung the maid up before him and another horseman reached for her mistress. Again she screamed; her husband brushed the hand aside and put his wife behind him. At that the gangster raised his pistol and shot twice. The man and woman dropped to the ground. The maid screamed till her captor put his hand over her mouth.
"Now what did you want to do that for? Cutting our woman supply in half that way?"
"Sorry. Mighty d.a.m.n" sorry. These things always seem to happen to me."
Meanwhile another of the gang slid off his horse and the two went through the dead, stripping them of jewelry and whatever articles of clothing caught their fancy before searching the luggage and the coach itself for valuables. By the time they had finished it was fully dark and I had crept to within a few feet of them, crouching reasonably secure and practically invisible while they debated what to do with the horses. One faction was in favor of taking them along for spare mounts, the other-arguing that they were easily identifiable-for cutting them out and turning them loose. The second group prevailing, they at last galloped away.
Though I"d seen dead men on New York streets, this was in some way different from the sight of a casual corpse or the episode between Sprovis and Tolliburr. It would be too simple to say I was horrified by their ruthlessness, for I still remembered the ruthlessness of Sprovis and the ruthlessness of Don Jaime Escobar in offering the servant girl was equally shocking. The opposing sides had been united in their inhumanity; I couldn"t point to either and say, Good, or Bad. The mechanism of Tyss appeared-at least momentarily-as a satisfying moral refuge. If all action were but response to stimuli there was no necessity for making judgments.
I was thus meditating when a thrashing in the cornstalks just beyond the fence startled me into rigidity. Something that might have been a person stumbled toward the carriage, snuffling and moaning, to throw itself down by the prostrate bodies, its anguished noises growing more high-pitched and piercing.
By now I was sure this was a pa.s.senger who had jumped from the carriage at the start of the holdup, but whether man or woman it was impossible to tell. I moved forward gingerly, but somehow I must have betrayed my presence, for the creature, with a terrified groan, slumped inertly.
My hands told me it was a woman I raised from the ground and I sensed somehow that she was quite young. "Don"t be afraid, Miss," I tried to rea.s.sure her. "I"m a friend."
I could hardly leave the girl lying in the road, nor did I feel equal to carrying her to Haggershaven-which I reckoned must be about six miles further. I tried shaking her, rubbing her hands, murmuring encouragement, all the while wishing the moon would come out, feeling somehow it would be easier to revive her in the moonlight.
At last she stirred and began whimpering again. Repeating that I was not one of the gang, I urged her to get up and come with me. I couldn"t tell whether she understood or not for she merely moaned at intervals. I managed to get her arm over my shoulder and, supporting her around the waist, began walking again, impeded by my valise on one side and the girl on the other.
I could only guess how much time had been taken by the holdup and how slow my progress to Haggershaven would be. It did not seem I could arrive before midnight unless, which was unlikely, I could leave the girl at a hospitable farmhouse. And I could not imagine a more awkward hour to explain the company of a strange female.
We had made perhaps a mile-a slow and arduous one-when the moon at last came up. The light showed my companion even younger than I had thought, and extraordinarily beautiful. Her eyes were closed in a sort of troubled sleep, and she continued to moan, though at less frequent intervals.
I had just decided to stop for a moment"s rest when we came upon one of the horses. He had trailed one of the clumsily cut traces and caught it on the stump of a broken sapling. Though still trembling he was over the worst of his fright; after patting and soothing him I got us onto his back and we proceeded in more comfortable fashion.
It wasn"t hard to find Haggershaven; the sideroad to it was well kept and far smoother than the highway. We pa.s.sed between what looked to be freshly plowed fields and came to a fair sized group of buildings, in some of which I was relieved to see lighted windows. The girl had still not spoken; her eyes remained closed and she moaned occasionally.
Dogs warned of our approach. From a dark doorway a figure came forward with a rifle under his arm. "Who is it?"
"Hodge Backmaker-I"ve got a girl here who was in a holdup. She"s had a bad shock."
He hitched the horse to a post. I lifted the girl down. "I"m Asa Dorn," he said. "Let"s go into the main kitchen-it"s warm there. Here, take my arm."
She made no response and I half-carried her, with Dorn trying helpfully to share her weight. The building through which we led her was obviously an old farmhouse, having been enlarged and remodelled a number of times. Gas lights revealed Asa Dorn as perhaps 30, with very broad shoulders and very long arms, and a dark, rather melancholy face. "There"s been a gang operating around here," he informed me, "that"s why I was on guard with the gun. Must be the same one."
We bustled the girl into a chair before a great fieldstone fireplace which gave the big room its look of welcome, though the even heat came from sets of steampipes under the windows. "Should we give her some soup? Or tea? Or should I get Barbara, or one of the others?"
His fluttering brushed the outside of my mind. My attention was concentrated on the girl, who looked no more than sixteen or seventeen, perhaps because she was severely dressed in some school uniform. Long, thick black hair hung softly in loose curls around her shoulders. Her face, which seemed made to reflect emotions-full, mobile lips, faintly slanted eyes, high nostrils-was instead impa.s.sive, devoid of vitality and this unnatural pa.s.sivity was heightened by the dark eyes, now wide open and expressionless. Her mouth moved slowly, as though to form words, but nothing came forth except the faintest of guttural sounds.
"Why," exclaimed Dorn, "she"s... dumb!"
She looked agonizedly toward him. I patted her arm helplessly.
"I"ll go get-" he began.
A door opened and Barbara Haggerwells blinked at us. "I thought I heard..." Then she caught sight of the girl. Her face set in those lines of strange anger I had seen in the bookstore. "Really, Mr. Backmaker, I thought I"d explained there were no facilities here for this sort of thing."
Dorn broke in. "But Barbara, she"s been in a holdup. She"s dumb-"
Fury made her ugly. "Is that an additional attraction? Dumb or not, get the s.l.u.t out of here! Get her out right now, I say!"
"Barbara, you"re not listening. You don"t understand."
She turned her back on him and faced me. "I should have remembered you were a ladies" man, Mr. Self-taught Backmaker. No doubt you imagined Haggershaven as some obscene liberty hall. Well, it isn"t! You"ll be wasting any further time you spend here. Get out!"
I suppose-recalling the scene with Little Aggie-I was less astonished by her frenzy than I might have been. Besides, her rage and misunderstanding were anti-climactic after the succession of excitements I had been through that day. Instead of amazement or outrage I felt only vague puzzlement and tired annoyance.
Dorn, after getting Barbara out of the room, offered stumbling explanations ("Overwork, overwork") which jolted between the patent loyalty prodding him to cover her defects and a painful desire to distract my mind from the episode. Only when we were relieved of our responsibilities by the arrival of several women who effectually sealed the girl away from all further masculine contact and he took me to Mr. Haggerwells" study, did his nervousness somewhat abate.
Thomas Haggerwells, large-boned like his daughter, with the ginger hair faded, and a florid, handsome complexion, made me welcome, but he seemed to have something else on his mind. Finally he stopped abruptly in the middle of a sentence and turned to Dorn. "Ace, Barbara is quite upset."
I thought this extreme understatement, but Dorn merely nodded. "Misunderstanding, Mr. H," and he explained the situation.
Mr. Haggerwells began pacing the flowered carpet. "Of course, of course. Naturally we can"t turn the poor girl out. But how can I explain to Barbara? She... she came to me," he said half proudly, half apprehensively. "I don"t know quite-" He pulled himself together. "Excuse me, Mr. Backmaker. My daughter is high-strung. I"m afraid I"m allowing concern to interfere with our conversation...."
"Not at all, sir," I said. "I"m very tired, if you"ll excuse me...?"
"Of course, of course," he answered with evident relief. "Ace will show you your room. Sleep well-we will talk more tomorrow. And Ace-come back here afterward, will you?"
Barbara Haggerwells certainly seemed to have both Ace Dorn and her father pretty well cowed, I thought, as I lay awake. But it was neither Barbara nor overstimulation from all I"d been through that day which caused my insomnia. A torment, successfully suppressed for some hours, invaded me. The chance the hold-up gang could have been supplied with Sprovis" firearms was remote far beyond probability; connecting the trip of the Escobars with the counterfeiting of Spanish pesetas was fantasy. But what is logic? I could not quench my feeling of responsibility with ridicule, nor charge myself merely with perverse arrogance in magnifying my trivial errands into accountability for all that flowed from the Grand Army. Guilty men cannot sleep because they feel guilty. It is the feeling, not the abstract guilt, which keeps them awake.
At last however, I slept, only to dream Barbara Haggerwells was a great fish pursuing me over endless roads on which my feet bogged in clinging, tenacious mud. But in the clear autumn morning my notions of the night before dwindled, even if they failed to disappear entirely.
How shall I write of Haggershaven as my eyes first saw it twenty-two years ago? Of the rolling acres of rich plowed land, interrupted here and there by stone outcroppings worn smooth and round by time, and trees in woodlots or standing alone, strong and unperturbed? Or the main building, grown from the original farmhouse into a great, rambling eccentricity stopping short of monstrosity only because of its complete innocence of pretence? Shall I describe the two dormitories, severely functional, escaping harshness only because they had not been built by carpenters, and though st.u.r.dy enough, betrayed the amateur touch? Or the cottages and apartments-two, four, at most six rooms-for the married fellows and their families? These were scattered all over, some so avid for privacy that one could pa.s.s unknowing within feet of the concealing woods, others bold in the sunshine on knolls or on the level.
I could tell of the small shops, the miniature laboratories, the inadequate observatory, the dozens of outbuildings. But these things were not the haven. They were merely the least of its possessions. For Haggershaven was not a material place at all, but a spiritual freedom. Its limits were only the limits of what its fellows could do and think and inquire. It was circ.u.mscribed only by the outside world, not by internal rules and taboos, compet.i.tion or curriculum.
Its history was not only a link with the past, but a possible hint of what might have been if the War of Southron Independence had not interrupted the American pattern. Barbara"s great-great-grandfather, Herbert Haggerwells, had been a Confederate major from North Carolina who had fallen in love with the then fat Pennsylvania countryside. After the war he had put everything-not much by Southron standards, but a fortune in depreciated, soon to be repudiated, United States greenbacks-into the farm which became the nucleus of Haggershaven. Then he married a local girl and became completely a Northerner.
Until it became imperceptible with daily custom, I used to stare at his portrait in the library, picturing in idle fancy a possible meeting on the battlefield with this aristocratic gentleman with his curling mustache and daggerlike imperial, and my own plebeian Granpa Hodgins. But the likelihood they had ever come face to face was infinitely remote; I, who had studied both their likenesses, was the only link between them.
Major Haggerwells had patronized several writers and artists, but it was his son who, seeing the deterioration of Northern colleges, had invited a few restive scholars to make their home with him. They were free to pursue their studies under an elastic arrangement which permitted them to be self-supporting through work on the farm.
Thomas Haggerwells" father had organized the scheme further, attracting a larger number of schoolmen who contributed greatly to the material progress of the haven. They patented inventions, marketless at home, which brought regular royalties from more industrialized countries. Agronomists improved the haven"s crops and took in a steady income from seed. Chemists found ways of utilizing otherwise wasted by-products; proceeds from scholarly works-and one more popular than scholarly-added to the funds. In his will, Volney Haggerwells left the property to the fellowship.
Except for the scene after my arrival, I didn"t see Barbara again for some ten days. Even then it was but a glimpse, caught as she was hurrying in one direction and I sauntering in another. She threw me a single frigid glance and went on. Later, I was talking with Mr. Haggerwells-who had proved to be not quite an amateur of history, but more than a dabbler-when, without knocking, she burst into the room.
"Father, I-" Then she caught sight of me. "Sorry. I didn"t know you were entertaining."
His tone was that of one caught in a guilty act. "Come in, come in, Barbara. Hodgins is, after all, something of a protege of yours."
"Really, Father!" She was regal. Wounded, scornful, but majestic. "I"m sure I don"t know enough about self-taught pundits to sponsor them. It seems too bad they have to waste your time-"
He flushed. "Please, Barbara. You really... really must control..."
Her aloof scorn became open anger. "Must I? Must I? And stand by while every pretentious swindler usurps your attention? Oh, I don"t ask for any special favors as your daughter-I know too well I have none coming. But I should think at least the consideration due a fellow of the haven would prompt ordinary courtesy even when no natural affection is forthcoming!"
"Barbara, please! Oh, my dear girl, how can you...?"
But she was gone, leaving him obviously distressed and me puzzled. Not at her lack of control so much as her accusation that he lacked a father"s love for her. Nothing was clearer than his pride in her achievements or his protective, baffled tenderness. It did not seem possible that so wilful a misunderstanding could be maintained.
From Ace I learned this tortured jealousy was a fixture of her character. Barbara had created feuds, slandered and reviled fellows who had been guilty of nothing but trying to interest her father in some project in which she herself was not concerned. I learned much more also-much he had no desire to convey. But he was a poor hand at concealing anything, and it was clear he was helplessly subject to her, but without the usual kindly anesthetic of illusion. I guessed he had enjoyed her favors, but she evidently didn"t bother to hide the fact that the privilege was not exclusive; perhaps, indeed, she insisted on his knowing. I gathered she was a fiercely moral polyandrist, demanding absolute fidelity without offering the slightest hope of reciprocal single-mindedness.
VII.
Among those at the haven was an Oliver Midbin, a student of what he chose to call the new and revolutionary science of Emotional Pathology. Tall and thin, with an incongruous little potbelly like an enlarged and far-slipped Adam"s-apple, he pounced on me as a readymade and captive audience for his theories.
"Now this case of pseudo-aphonia-"
"He means the dumb girl," explained Ace, aside.
"Nonsense," said Midbin. "Pseudo-aphonia. Purely of an emotional nature. Of course, if you take her to some medical quack he"ll convince himself and you and certainly her that there"s some impairment of the vocal cords-"
"I"m not the girl"s guardian, Mr. Midbin-"
"Doctor. Philosophiae, Gottingen. Trivial matter."
"Excuse me, Dr. Midbin. Anyway, I"m not her guardian so I"m not taking her anywhere. But-just as a theoretical question-suppose examination did reveal a physical impairment?"
He appeared delighted, and rubbed his hands together. "Oh, it would. I a.s.sure you it would. These fellows always find what they"re looking for. If your disposition is sour they"ll find warts on your duodenum-in a post-mortem. Whereas Emotional Pathology deals with the sour disposition and lets the warts, if any, take care of themselves. Matter is a function of the mind. People are dumb or blind or deaf for a purpose. Now what purpose can the girl have in being dumb?"
"No conversation?" I suggested. I didn"t doubt Midbin was an authority, but his manner made flippancy almost irresistible.
"I shall find out," he said firmly. "This is bound to be a simpler maladjustment than Barbara"s-"
"Aw, come on," protested Ace.
"Nonsense, Dorn. Nonsense. Reticence is part of those medical ethics by which the quacks conceal incompetence. Mumbo jumbo to keep the layman from asking annoying questions. Priestly, not scientific approach. Art and mystery of phlebotomy. Don"t hold back knowledge-publish it to the world."
"I just think Barbara wouldn"t want her private thoughts published to the world."
"Of course not, of course not. Why? Because she"s unhappy with her hatred for her dead mother. Exaggerated possessiveness for her father makes her miserable. Her fantasy-"
"Midbin!"
"Her fantasy of going back to childhood in order to injure her mother is a sick notion she cherishes the way a dog licks a wound. Ventilate it. Ventilate it. Now, this girl"s case is bound to be simpler. Bring her around tomorrow and we"ll begin."
"Me?" I asked.
"Who else? You"re the only one she doesn"t seem to distrust."
It was annoying to have the girl"s puppylike devotion observed. I realized she saw me as the only link with a normal past, but I a.s.sumed that after a few days she would turn naturally to the women who took such obvious pleasure in fussing over her affliction. Yet she merely suffered their attentions; no matter how I tried to avoid her she sought me out, running to me with muted, voiceless cries which should have been touching but were only painful.
Mr. Haggerwells had reported her presence to the sheriff"s office at York where complete lack of interest was evinced. He had also telegraphed the Spanish legation who replied they knew no other Escobars than Don Jaime and his wife. The girl might be a servant or a stranger; it was no concern of His Most Catholic Majesty.
The school uniform made it unlikely she was a servant but beyond this, little was deducible. She did not respond to questions in either Spanish or English, giving no indication of understanding their meaning. When offered pencil and paper she handled them curiously, then let them slide to the floor.
Midbin"s method of treatment was bizarre as any I"d heard of. His subjects were supposed to relax on a couch and say whatever came into their minds. This was the technique he had used with Barbara, as he informed me at length and in detail, and it had produced the story of her matricidal fantasy-which I found so shocking, but which he regarded with true scientific detachment-but little else.
Since this couldn"t work with the dumb girl, he had to experiment with modifications. Reclining on a couch seemed to be basic however, so with my reluctant a.s.sistance, which consisted only in being present, she was persuaded to comply. But there was no question of relaxation; she lay there warily, tense and stiff, even with her eyes closed.
Again, looking at her lying there so rigidly, I could not but admit she was beautiful. But the admission was made quite dispa.s.sionately; the lovely young lines evoked no l.u.s.t. I felt only vexation because her plight kept me from the wonders of Haggershaven.
It seemed to me I had to cram everything into short days, for I was sure the fellows would never accept me. I realized that these autumn weeks, spent in casual conversation or joining the familiar preparations for rural winter, were a period of thorough and critical examination of my fitness. There was nothing I could do to sway the decision; I could only say, when the opportunity offered, that Haggershaven was literally a revelation to me, an island of civilization in the midst of a chaotic and brutal sea. My dream was to make a landfall there.
Certainly my meager background and sc.r.a.ps of reading would not persuade the men and women of the haven; I could only hope they might see some promise in me. Against this I put Barbara"s enmity, a hostility now exacerbated by rage at Oliver Midbin for daring to devote to another the attention which had been her due. Already I had learned something of her persistence and I was sure she could move enough of the fellows to vote against me to insure my rejection.