It was a clear night; once at the bow I could see the stars in all their glory, too numerous to count, or spot familiar constellations. It"s a sight that"s known and loved by all those who follow the sea, and it had a special meaning for we, who manned the Orcas, for the stars were immutable, the one unchanging part of our universe.
I checked the lines, the winch, and ties in the chained-off portion of the bow, then notified the Captain by walkie-talkie that all was ready. He gave me "Very well," and told me that we"d be on the mark in five minutes. This gave me a few moments to relax, adjust my vision to the darkness, and look around.
The bow is an eerie place at night for all its beauty; there is an unreality about a large ferryboat in the dark. Between where I stood on station and the bridge superstructure towering above me there was a broad area always crowded with people in warm weather. The bridge-dominating the aft field of vision, a ghostly, unlit gray-white monolith, reflecting the moonlight with an almost unreal cast and glow. A silent, spinning radar mast on top, and the funnel, end-on, in back of the bridge, with its wing supports and mast giving it a futuristic cast, only made the scene more alien, more awesome.
I glanced around at the people on the deck. Not as many as usual, but then it was very late, and there was a chill in the air. I saw a few familiar faces, and there was some lateral shift in focus on a number of them, indicating that I was seeing at least three levels of reality that night.
Now, that last is kind of hard to explain. I"m not sure whether I understand it, either, but I well remember when I applied for this job, and the explanations I got then.
Working deck on a ferryboat is a funny place for a former English teacher, anyway. But, while I"d been, I like to think, a good teacher, I was in constant fights with the administration over their lax discipline, stuffed-shirt att.i.tudes toward teaching and teachers, and their general incompetence. The educational system isn"t made for mavericks; it"s designed to make everyone conform to bureaucratic ideals which the teacher is supposed to exemplify. One argument too many, I guess, and there I was, an unemployed teacher in a time when there are too many teachers. So I drifted. I"d lost my parents years before and there were no other close relatives, so I had no responsibilities. I"d always loved ferryboats-raised on them, loved them with the same pa.s.sion some folks like trains and trolley cars and such-and when I discovered an unskilled job opening on the old Delaware ferry I took it. The fact that I was an ex-teacher actually helped; ferry companies like to hire people who relate well to the general public. After all, deck duty is hectic when the ferry"s docking or docked, but for the rest of the time you just sort of stand there, and every tourist and traveler in the world wants to talk. If you aren"t willing to talk back and enjoy it, forget ferryboats.
And I met Joanna. I"m not sure if we were in love-maybe I was, but I"m pretty sure Joanna wasn"t capable of loving anyone. Like all the other men in her life, I was just convenient. For a while things went smoothly-I had a job I liked, and we shared the rent. She had a little daughter she doted on, father unknown, and little Harmony and I hit it off, too. We all gave each other what each needed.
It lasted a little more than a year.
In the s.p.a.ce of three weeks my neat, comfortable, complacent world came apart: First she threw that d.a.m.ned party while I was working, and a cigarette or something was left, and the apartment burned. The fire department managed to get Joanna out-but little Harmony had been asleep in a far room and they never got to her through the smoke.
I tried to comfort her, tried to console her, but I guess I was too full of my own life, my own self-importance in her reality, that I just didn"t see the signs. A couple of weeks after the fire she"d seemed to brighten up, act more like her normal self.
And, one evening, while I worked on the boat, she hanged herself.
Just a week later that d.a.m.ned bridge-tunnel put the ferry out of business, too. I"d known it was coming, of course, but I"d made few plans beyond the closing-I"d figured I could live off Joanna for a while and we"d make our decisions together.
Now here I was alone, friendless, jobless, and feeling guilty as h.e.l.l. I seriously thought about ending it all myself about then, maybe going down to the old ferryboat and blowing it and me to h.e.l.l in one symbolic act of togetherness. But, then, just when I"d sunk to such depths, I got this nice, official-looking envelope in the mail from something called the Bluewater Corporation, Southport, Maine. Just a funny logo, some blue water with an odd, misty-looking shape of a ship in it.
"Dear Mr. Dalton," the letter read. "We have just learned of the closing of the Delaware service, and we are in need of some experienced ferry people. After reviewing your qualifications, we believe that you might fit nicely into our operation, which, we guarantee, will not be put out of business by bridge or tunnel. If this prospect interests you, please come to Southport terminal at your earliest convenience for a final interview. Looking forward to seeing you soon, I remain, sincerely yours, Herbert V. Pen.o.bscot, Personnel Manager, Bluewater Corp."
I just stood there staring at the thing for I don"t know how long. A ferry job! That alone should have excited me, yet I wondered about it, particularly that line about "reviewing my qualifications" and "final interview." Funny terms. I could see why they"d look for experienced people, and all ferry folk knew when a line was closed and would naturally look for their own replacements there, but-why me? I hadn"t applied to them, hadn"t even heard of them or their line-or, for that matter, of Southport, Maine, either. Obviously they had some way of preselecting their people-very odd for this kind of a business.
I scrounged up an old atlas and tried to find it. The letterhead said "Southport-St. Michael-The Island," but I could find nothing about any such place in the atlas or almanac. If the letterhead hadn"t looked so convincing, I"d have sworn somebody was putting me on. As it was, I had nothing else to do, and it beat drinking myself to death, so I hitchhiked up.
It wasn"t easy finding Southport, I"ll tell you. Even people in nearby towns had never heard of it. The whole town was about a dozen houses, a seedy ten-unit motel, a hot dog stand, and a very small ferry terminal with a standard but surprisingly large ferry ramp and parking area.
I couldn"t believe the place warranted a ferry when I saw it; you had to go about sixty miles into the middle of nowhere on a road the highway department had deliberately engineered to miss some of the world"s prettiest scenery, and had last paved sometime before World War II, just to get there.
There was a light on in the terminal, so I went in. A grayhaired man, about fifty, was in the ticket office, and I went over and introduced myself. He looked me over carefully, and I knew I didn"t present a very good appearance.
"Sit down, Mr. Dalton," he offered in a tone that was friendly but businesslike. "My name"s McNeil. I"ve been expecting you. This really won"t take long, but the final interview includes a couple of strange questions. If you don"t want to answer any of them, feel free, but I must ask them nonetheless. Will you go along with me?"
I nodded and he fired away. It was the d.a.m.ndest job interview I"d ever had. He barely touched on my knowledge of ferries except to ask whether it mattered to me that the Orcas was a single-bridge, twin-screw affair, not a double-ender like I"d been used to. It still loaded on one end and unloaded on the other, though, through a raisable bow, and a ferry was a ferry to me and I told him so.
Most of the questions were of a personal nature, my family and friends, my att.i.tudes, and some were downright too personal.
"Have you ever contemplated or attempted suicide?" he asked me in the same tone he"d use to ask if you brushed your teeth in the morning.
I jumped. "What"s that have to do with anything?" I snapped. After all this I was beginning to see why the job was still open.
"Just answer the question," he responded, sounding almost embarra.s.sed. "I told you I had to ask them all."
Well, I couldn"t figure out what this was all about, but I finally decided, what the h.e.l.l, I had nothing to lose and it was a beautiful spot to work.
"Yes," I told him. "Thought about it, anyway." And I told him why. He just nodded thoughtfully, jotted something on a preprinted form, and continued. His next question was worse.
"Do you now believe in ghosts, devils, and/or demonic forces?" he asked in that same routine tone.
I couldn"t suppress a chuckle. "You mean the ship"s haunted?"
He didn"t smile back. "Just answer the question, please."
"No," I responded. "I"m not very religious."
Now there was a wisp of a smile there. "And suppose, with your hard-nosed rationalism, you ran into one? Or a whole bunch of them?" He leaned forward, smile gone. "Even an entire shipload of them?"
It was impossible to take this seriously. "What kind of ghosts?" I asked him. "Chain rattlers? White sheets? Foul fiends spouting hateful gibberish?"
He shook his head negatively. "No, ordinary people, for the most part. Dressed a little odd, perhaps; talking a little odd, perhaps, but not really very odd at all. Nice folks, typical pa.s.sengers."
Cars were coming in now, and I glanced out the window at them. Ordinary-looking cars, ordinary-looking people-campers, a couple of tractor-trailer rigs, like that. Lining up. A U.S. customs man came from the direction of the motel and started talking to some of them.
"They don"t look like ghosts to me," I told McNeil.
He sighed. "Look, Mr. Dalton, I know you"re an educated man. I have to go out and start selling fares now. She"ll be in in about forty minutes, and we"ve only got a twenty-minute layover. When she"s in and loading, go aboard. Look her over. You"ll have free rein of the ship. Take the complete round trip, all stops. It"s about four hours over, twenty minutes in, and a little slower back. Don"t get off the ship, though. Keep an open mind. If you"re the one for the Orcas, and I think you are, we"ll finish our talk when you get back." He got up, took out a cash drawer and receipt load, and went to the door, then turned back to me. "I hope you"re the one," he said wearily. "I"ve interviewed over three hundred people and I"m getting sick of it."
We shook hands on that cryptic remark and I wandered around while he manned his little booth and processed the cars, campers, and trucks. A young woman came over from one of the houses and handled the few people who didn"t have cars, although how they ever got to Southport I was at a loss to know.
The amount of business was nothing short of incredible. St. Michael was in Nova Scotia, it seemed, and there were the big runs by CN from a couple of places and the Swedish one out of Portland to compete for any business. The fares were reasonable but not cheap enough to drive this far out of the way for-and to get to Southport you had to drive far out of your way.
I found a general marine atlas of the Fundy region in McNeil"s office and looked at it. Southport made it, but just barely. No designation of it as a ferry terminal, though, and no funny broken line showing a route.
For the life of me I couldn"t find a St. Michael, Nova Scotia-nor a St. Clement"s Island, either-the midstop that the schedule said it made.
There were an awful lot of cars and trucks out there now-it looked like rush hour in Manhattan. Where had all those people come from?
And then there was the blast of a great air horn and I rushed out for my first view of the Orcas -and I was stunned.
That ship, I remembered thinking, has no right to be here. Not here, not on this run.
It was huge -all gleaming white, looking brand-new, more like a cruise ship than a ferryboat. I counted three upper decks, and, as I watched, a loud clanging bell sounded electrically on her and her enormous bow lifted, revealing a grooved raising ramp, something like the bow of an old LST. It docked with very little trouble, revealing s.p.a.ce for well over a hundred cars and trucks, with small side ramps for a second level available if needed. I learned later that it was 396 feet long-longer than a football field by a third!-and could take over two hundred major vehicles and twelve hundred pa.s.sengers.
It was close to sundown on a weekday, but they loaded more than fifty vehicles, including a dozen campers, and eight big trucks. Where had they all come from, I wondered again. And why?
I walked on with the pa.s.sengers, still in something of a daze, and went up top. The lounges were s.p.a.cious and comfortable, the seats all padded and reclining. There was a large cafeteria, a newsstand, and a very nice bar at the stern of pa.s.senger deck 2. The next deck had another lounge section and a number of staterooms up front, while the top level had the bridge, crew"s quarters, and a solarium.
It was fancy; and, after it backed out, lowered its bow, and started pouring it on after clearing the harbor lights, the fastest d.a.m.ned thing I could remember, too. Except for the slight swaying and the rhythmic thrumming of the twin diesels you hardly knew you were moving. It was obviously using enormous stabilizers.
The sun was setting and I walked through the ship, just looking and relaxing. As darkness fell and the sh.o.r.eline receded into nothingness, I started noticing some very odd things, as I"d been warned.
First of all, there seemed to be a whole lot more people on board than I"d remembered loading, and there certainly hadn"t been any number staying on from the last run. They all looked real and solid enough, and very ordinary, but there was something decidedly weird about them, too.
Many seemed to be totally unaware of each other"s existence, for one thing. Some seemed to shimmer occasionally, others were a little blurred or indistinct to my eyes no matter how I rubbed them.
And, once in a while, they"d walk through each other.
Yes, I"m serious. One big fellow in a flowered aloha shirt and brown pants carrying a tray of soft drinks from the cafeteria to his wife and three kids in the lounge didn"t seem to notice this woman in a white tee shirt and jeans walking right into him, nor did she seem aware of him, either.
And they met, and I braced for the collision and spilled drinks-and it didn"t happen. They walked right through each other, just as if they didn"t exist, and continued obliviously on. Not one drop of soda was spilled, not one spot of mustard was splotched.
There were other things, too. Most of the people were dressed normally for summer, but occasionally I"d see people in fairly heavy coats and jackets. Some of the fashions were different, too-some people were overdressed in old-fashioned styles, others wildly underdressed, a couple of the women frankly wearing nothing but the bottoms of string bikinis and a see-through short cape of some kind.
I know I couldn"t take my eyes off them for a while, until I got the message that they knew they were being stared at and didn"t particularly like it. But they were generally ignored by the others.
There were strange accents, too. Not just the expected Maine tw.a.n.g and Canadian accents, or even just the French Canadian accents-those were normal. But there were some really odd ones, ones where I picked out only a few words, which sounded like English, French, Spanish, and Nordic languages all intermixed and often with weird results.
And men with pigtails and long, braided hair, and women with shaved heads or, occasionally, beards.
It was weird.
Frankly, it scared me a little, and I found the purser and introduced myself.
The officer, a good-looking young man named Gifford Hanley, a Canadian from his speech, seemed delighted that I"d seen all this and not the least bit disturbed.
"Well, well, well!" he almost beamed. "Maybe we"ve found our new man at last, eh? Not b.l.o.o.d.y soon enough, either! We"ve been working short-handed for too long and it"s getting to the others."
He took me up to the bridge-one of the most modern I"d ever seen-and introduced me to the captain and helmsman. They all asked me what I thought of the Orcas and how I liked the sea, and none of them would answer my questions on the unusual pa.s.sengers.
Well, there was a St. Clement"s Island. A big one, too, from the looks of it, and a fair amount of traffic getting off and wanting on. Some of the vehicles that got on were odd, too; many of the cars looked unfamiliar in design, the trucks also odd, and there were even several horse-drawn wagons!
The island had that same quality as some of the pa.s.sengers, too. It never seemed to be quite in focus just beyond the ferry terminal, and lights seemed to shift, so that where I thought there were houses or a motel suddenly they were somewhere else, of a different intensity. I was willing to swear that the motel had two stories; later it seemed over on the left, and four stories high, then further back, still later, with a single story.
Even the lighthouse as we sped out of the harbor changed; one time it looked very tall with a house at its base; then, suddenly, it was short and tubby, then an automated light that seemed to be out in the water with no sign of an island.
This continued for most of the trip. St. Michael looked like a carbon copy of Southport, the pa.s.sengers and vehicles as bizarre-and numerous-and there seemed to be a lot of customs men in different uniforms dashing about, totally ignoring some vehicles while processing others.
The trip back was equally strange. The newsstand contained some books and magazines that were odd to say the least, and papers with strange names and stranger headlines.
This time there were even Indians aboard, speaking odd tongues. Some looked straight out of The Last of the Mohicans, complete with wild haircut, others dressed from little to heavy, despite the fact that it was July and very warm and humid.
And, just before we were to make the red and green channel markers and turn into Southport, I saw the girl die for the first time.
She was dressed in red tee shirt, yellow shorts, and sandals; she had long brown hair, was rather short and stocky, and wore oversized granny gla.s.ses.
I wasn"t paying much attention, really, just watching her looking over the side at the wake, when, before I could even cry out, she suddenly climbed up on the rail and plunged in, very near the stern.
I screamed, and heard her body hit the water and then heard her howl of terror as she dropped close enough so that the propwash caught her, sucked her under, and cut her to pieces.
Several people on the afterdeck looked at me quizzically, but only one or two seemed to realize that a woman had just died.
There was little I could do, but I ran back to Hanley, breathless.
He just nodded sadly.
"Take it easy, man," he said gently. "She"s dead, and there"s no use going back for the body. Believe me, we know. It won"t be there."
I was shocked, badly upset. "How do you know that?" I snapped.
"Because we did it every time the last four times she killed herself and we never found the body then, either," he replied sadly.
I had my mouth open, ready to retort, to say something, but he got up, put on his officer"s hat and coat, and said, "Excuse me. I have to supervise the unloading," and walked out.
As soon as I got off the ship it was like some sort of dreamy fog had lifted from me. Everything looked suddenly bright and clear, and the people and vehicles looked normal. I made my way to the small ferry terminal building.
When they"d loaded and the ship was gone again, I waited for McNeil to return to his office. It looked much the same really, but a few things seemed different. I couldn"t quite put my finger on it, but there was something odd-like the paneling had been rosewood before, and was now walnut. Small things, but nagging ones.
McNeil came back after seeing the ship clear. It ran almost constantly, according to the schedule.
I glanced out the window as he approached and noticed uniformed customs men checking out the debarked vehicles. They seemed to have different uniforms than I"d remembered.
Then the ticket agent entered the office and I got another shock. He had a beard.
No, it was the same man, all right. No question about it. But the man I"d talked to less than nine hours before had been clean-shaven.
I turned to where the navigation atlas lay, just where I"d put it, still open to the Southport page.
It showed a ferry line from Southport to a rather substantial St. Clement"s Island now. But nothing to Nova Scotia.
I turned to the bearded McNeil, who was watching me with mild amus.e.m.e.nt in his eyes.
"What the h.e.l.l is going on here?" I demanded.
He went over and sat down in his swivel chair. "Want the job?" he asked. "It"s yours if you do."
I couldn"t believe his att.i.tude. "I want an explanation, d.a.m.n it!" I fumed.
He chuckled. "I told you I"d give you one if you wanted. Now, you"ll have to bear with me, since I"m only repeating what the Company tells me, and I"m not sure I have it all clear myself."
I sat down in the other chair. "Go ahead," I told him.
He sighed. "Well, let"s start off by saying that there"s been a Bluewater corporation ferry on this run since the mid-1800s-steam packet at first, of course. The Orcas is the eleventh ship in the service, put on a year and a half ago."
He reached over, grabbed a cigarette, lit it, and continued.
"Well, anyway, it was a normal operation until about 1910 or so. That"s when they started noticing that their counts were off, that there seemed to be more pa.s.sengers than the manifests called for, different freight, and all that. As it continued, the crews started noticing more and more of the kind of stuff you saw, and things got crazy for them, too. Southport was a big fishing and lobstering town then-n.o.body does that any more, the whole economy"s the ferry.
"Well, anyway, one time this crewman goes crazy, says the woman in his house isn"t his wife. A few days later another comes home to find that he has four kids-and he was only married a week before. And so on."
I felt my skin starting to crawl slightly.
"So, they send some big shots up. The men are absolutely nuts, but they believe what they claim. Soon everybody who works the ship is spooked, and this can"t be dismissed. The experts go for a ride and can"t find anything wrong, but now two of the crewmen claim that it is their wife, or their kid, or somesuch. Got to be a pain, though, getting crewmen. We finally had to center on loners-people without family, friends, or close personal ties. It kept getting worse each trip. Had a h.e.l.l of a time keeping men for a while, and that"s why it"s so hard to recruit new ones."