By four o"clock they were overtaking him before he got round; the driver had to turn more sharply, the canvas stuck.
"Doan you do that agen!" the old waggoner scolded with stern eye; "you"ll tourn us oover!"
The engine stuck when they tried to start again; for half an hour the young driver tinkered with tools from the box, uns.c.r.e.w.i.n.g small oily "nuts," testing "wires," feeling "levers," and in desperation wiping his black, dripping hands on his hair. Twenty times he turned the "starting handle," but "she wouldn"t speak!" Then, suddenly, with a sound like a pistol-shot, the engine "fired," the machine ran backwards, upsetting the labourer, and before he could move, the central wheel ran over his ankles.
When the imbecile came to himself they were still at the corner, his feet were tied up in a jacket, he was suffering horribly, yet seemed unable to focus it; but seeing the red and yellow reaper standing close beside his head, some memory soaked his face with sweat; he fainted.
Brandy was fetched; they had lifted him on to a hurdle when he recovered again. The whole group were still at the corner. His employer stood there, stout, well-dressed, and anxious, in his grey felt hat, dark coat and trousers; the driver stood there, too, and the old waggoner. Corn was still "up" in the middle of the field. The labourer looked surprised at seeing sky before him; as a rule when he stared he saw fields. He turned his face; the men watching saw his round, boyish eyes project at sight of something red and wet and sticky (like the mess they made out sheep-killing) splashed on the stubble, while two broken boots lay oozing the same stuff in a large pool of it. Following this look, the old waggoner said slowly:
"Eh, me boy, they"m youers...." Tears were running down his stiff, dried cheeks.
"How d"you feel?" asked the farmer. His labourer blushed, then whispered to the waggoner:
"What"s "appened, Mister Collard?"
"Why, you"ve a-loarst your feet."
For yet another minute the imbecile lay panting, shy, self-conscious under his master"s eye--until an idea struck him; once more whispering to the waggoner, he said:
""Elp me oop. I"ll get "ome, w.i.l.l.y."
"You carn"t walk," said the old man simply. "You carn"t walk no moar."
Black hairs stiffened suddenly on the idiot"s chin; he had understood that in those bleeding, mangled boots his feet were lying; he began to cry. But then, catching sight of his master, smiled as though to apologise----
THE SONG
By MAY EDGINTON
(From _Lloyd"s Story Magazine_)
1922
Charlie had no true vice in him. All the same, a man may be overtaxed, over-hara.s.sed, over-routined, over-driven, over-p.r.i.c.ked, over-preached and over-starved right up to the edge; and then the fascination of the big s.p.a.ce below may easily pull him over.
But his wife"s uncle"s a.s.sertion that he must always, inwardly, have been naturally wild and bad, was as wrong as such a.s.sertions usually are, for he was no more truly vicious than his youngest baby was.
On the warm evening when he came home on that fateful autumn day, Charlie had been pushed, in the course of years, right up to the edge, and was looking into the abyss, though he was hardly aware of it, so well had he been disciplined. He emerged from a third-cla.s.s carriage of the usual train without an evening paper because his wife had shown him the decency of cutting down small personal expenses, and next morning"s papers would have the same news in anyway; he walked home up the suburban road for the four thousandth five hundredth and fiftieth time; entered quietly not to disturb the baby; rubbed his boots on the mat; answered his wife brightly and manfully; washed his hands in cold water--the hot water being saved for the baby"s bath and the washing-up in the evenings--and sat down to about the four thousandth five hundredth and fiftieth cold supper.
His wife said she was tired and seemed proud of it.
"But never mind," she said, "one must expect to be tired." He went on eating without verbally questioning her; it was an a.s.sertion to which she always held firmly. But in his soul something stirred vaguely, as if mutinous currents fretted there.
"I have been thinking," she said, "that you really ought not to buy that new suit you were considering if Maud is to go to a better school next term. I have been looking over your pepper-and-salt, and there are those people who turn suits like new. You can have that done."
"But----" he murmured.
"We ought not to think of ourselves," she added.
"I never have," said Charlie in rather a low voice.
"We ought to give a little subscription to the Parish Magazine," she continued. "The Vicar is calling round for extra subscriptions."
Charlie nodded. He was wishing he knew the football results in the evening paper.
His wife served a rice shape. She doled out jam with a careful hand and a measuring eye. "We ought to see about the garden gate," she said.
"I"ll mend it on Sat.u.r.day," Charlie replied.
"I was thinking," she said presently, "that we ought to ask Uncle Henry and Aunt round soon. They will be expecting it."
Charlie put his spoon and fork together, hesitated and then replied slowly: "Life is nothing but "ought." "Ought" to do this: "Ought" to do that."
His wife looked at him, astonished. He could see that she was grieved--or rather, aggrieved--at his glimmer of anarchy.
"Of course," she explained at last. "People can"t have what they like.
There"s one"s duty to do. Life isn"t for enjoyment, Charlie. It"s given to us ... it is given to us...."
As she paused to crystallise an idea, Charlie cut in.
"Yes," he said, "it is given to us.... What for?"
He leaned his head on his hand. He was not looking at her. He was looking at the cloth, weaving patterns upon it. And with this question something of boyhood came upon him again, and he weaved visions upon the cloth.
"To do one"s duty in," she replied gently, but rebukingly.
Charlie did not know the cla.s.sic phrase, "Cui bono." He merely repeated:
"What for?"
After supper he helped her to wash up, for the daily help left early in the afternoon; and then he asked her, idle as he knew the question to be, if she would like to come for a walk--just a short walk up the road.
She shook her head. "I ought not to leave the children."
"They"re in bed," he argued, "and Maud"s big enough to look after the others for half-an-hour. Maud"s twelve."
She shook her head. "I ought not to leave the house."
"But," he began slowly.
"I am not the kind of woman who leaves her house and children in the evenings," she said gently, but finally.
Charlie took his hat. He turned it round and round in his hands, pinching the crown in, and punching it out. He had a curious, almost uncontrollable wish to cry. For a moment it was terrible. Before it was over, she was speaking again.
"You ought not to mess your hats about like that; they don"t last half as long."