This last was the end of an anti-s.e.x song being sung by some religionists half a block from the circle-and-cross insignia of a fe-malist temple. They reminded me only faintly of our small tribe of British monastics. Above their heads was a jumble of billboards advertising predigested foods, wrestling instruction, radio handies and the like.
I stared at the hysterical slogans with disagreeable fascination. Since the female face and form have been banned on American signs, the very letters of the advertiser"s alphabet have begun to crawl with s.e.x- the fat-bellied, big-breasted capital B, the lascivious double O. However, I reminded myself, it is chiefly the mask that so strangely accents s.e.x in America.
A British anthropologist has pointed out, that, while it took more than 5,000 years to shift the chief point of s.e.xual interest from the hips to the b.r.e.a.s.t.s, the next transition to the face has taken less than 50 years. Comparing the American style with Moslem tradition is not valid; Moslem women are compelled to wear veils, the purpose of which is to make a husband"s property private, while American women have only the compulsion of fashion and use masks to create mystery.
Theory aside, the actual origins of the trend are to be found in the anti-radiation clothing of World War III, which led to masked wrestling, now a fantastically popular sport, and that hi turn led to the current female fashion. Only a wild style at first, masks quickly became as necessary as bra.s.sieres and lipsticks had been earlier in the century.
I finally realized that I was not speculating about masks in general, but about what lay behind one in particular. That"s the devil of the things; you"re never sure whether a girl is heightening loveliness or hiding ugliness. I pictured a cool, pretty face in which fear showed only in widened eyes. Then I remembered her blonde hair, rich against the blackness of the satin mask. She"d told me to come at the twenty-second hour-10 P.M.
I climbed to my apartment near the British Consulate; the elevator shaft had been shoved out of plumb by an old blast, a nuisance in these tall New York buildings. Before it occurred to me that I would be going out again, I automatically tore a tab from the film strip under my shirt. I developed it just to be sure. It showed that the total radiation I"d taken that day was still within the safety limit. I"m not phobic about it, as so many people are these days, but there"s no point in taking chances.
I flopped down on the day bed and stared at the silent speaker and the dark screen of the video set. As always, they made me think, somewhat bitterly, of the two great nations of the world. Mutilated by each other, yet still strong, they were crippled giants poisoning the planet with their respective dreams of an impossible equality and an impossible success.
I fretfully switched on the speaker. By luck the newscaster was talking excitedly of the prospects of a b.u.mper wheat crop, sown by planes across a dust bowl moistened by seeded rains. I listened carefully to the rest of the program (it was remarkably clear of Russian telejamming) but there was no further news of interest to me. And, of course, no mention of the Moon, though everyone knows that America and Russia are racing to develop their primary bases into fortresses capable of mutual a.s.sault and the launching of alphabet-bombs toward Earth. I myself knew perfectly well that the British electronic equipment I was helping trade for American wheat was destined for use in s.p.a.ceships.
I switched off the newscast. It was growing dark and once again I pictured a tender, frightened face behind a mask. I hadn"t had a date since England. It"s exceedingly difficult to become acquainted with a girl in America, where as little as a smile, often, can set one of them yelping for the police-to say nothing of the increasingly puritanical morality and the roving gangs that keep most women indoors after dark. And naturally, the masks which are definitely not, as the Soviets claim, a last invention of capitalist degeneracy, but a sign of great psychological insecurity. The Russians have no masks, but they have their own signs of stress.
I went to the window and impatiently watched the darkness gather. I was getting very restless. After a while a ghostly violet cloud appeared to the south. My hair rose. Then I laughed. I had momentarily fancied it a radiation from the crater of the h.e.l.l-bomb, though I should instantly have known it was only the radio-induced glow in the sky over the amus.e.m.e.nt and residential area south of Inferno.
Promptly at twenty-two hours I stood before the door of my unknown girl-friend"s apartment. The electronic say-who-please said just that. I answered clearly, "Wysten Turner," wondering if she"d given my name to the mechanism. She evidently had, for the door opened. I walked into a small empty living-room, my heart pounding a bit.
The room was expensively furnished with the latest pneumatic ha.s.socks and sprawlers. There were some midgie books on the table. The one I picked up was the standard hard-boiled detective story hi which two female murderers go gunning for each other.
The television was on. A masked girl in green was crooning a love song. Her right hand held something that blurred off into the foreground. I saw the set had a handle, which we haven"t hi England as yet, and curiously thrust my hand into the handie orifice beside the screen. Contrary to my expectations, it was not like slipping into a pulsing rubber glove, but rather as if the girl on the screen actually held my hand.
A door opened behind me. I jerked out my hand with as guilty a reaction as if I"d been caught peering through a keyhole. She stood hi the bedroom doorway. I think she was trembling. She was wearing a grey fur coat, white speckled, and a grey velvet evening mask with shirred grey lace around the eyes and mouth. Her fingernails twinkled like silver.
It hadn"t occurred to me that she"d expect us to go out.
"I should have told you," she said softly. Her mask veered nervously toward the books and the screen and the room"s dark corners. "But I can"t possibly talk to you here."
I said doubtfully, "There"s a place near the Consulate..."
"I know where we can be together and talk," she said rapidly. "If you don"t mind."
As we entered the elevator I said, "I"m afraid I dismissed the cab."
But the cab driver hadn"t gone for some reason of his own. He jumped out and smirkingly held the front
door open for us. I told him we preferred to sit in back. He sulkily opened the rear door, slammed it after us, jumped in front and slammed the door behind him.
My companion leaned forward. "Heaven," she said.
The driver switched on the turbine and televisor.
"Why did you ask if I were a British subject?" I said, to start the conversation.
She leaned away from me, tilting her mask close to the window. "See the Moon," she said in a quick, dreamy voice.
"But why, really?" I pressed, conscious of an irritation that had nothing to do with her.
"It"s edging up into the purple of the sky."
"And what"s your name?"
"The purple makes it look yellower."
Just then I became aware of the source of my irritation. It lay in the square of writhing light in the front
of the cab beside the driver.
I don"t object to ordinary wrestling matches, though they bore me, but I simply detest watching a man wrestle a woman. The fact that the bouts are generally "on the level," with the man greatly outcla.s.sed in weight and reach and the masked females young and personable, only makes them seem worse to me.
"Please turn off the screen," I requested the driver.
He shook his head without looking around. "Uh-uh, man," he said. "They"ve been grooming that babe for weeks for this bout with Little Zirk."
Infuriated, I reached forward, but my companion caught my arm. "Please," she whispered frightenedly,
shaking her head.
I settled back, frustrated. She was closer to me now, but silent and for a few moments I watched the
heaves and contortions of the powerful masked girl and her wiry masked opponent on the screen. His frantic scrambling at her reminded me of a male spider.I jerked around, facing my companion. "Why did those three men want to kill you?" I asked sharply.The eyeholes of her mask faced the screen. "Because they"re jealous of me," she whispered."Why are they jealous?"She still didn"t look at me. "Because of him.""Who?"She didn"t answer.I put my arm around her shoulders. "Are you afraid to tell me?" I asked. "What is the matter?"She still didn"t look my way. She smelled nice."See here," I said laughingly, changing my tactics, "you really should tell me something about yourself, I don"t even know what you look like." I half playfully lifted my hand to the band of her neck. She gave it an astonishingly swift slap. I pulled it away in sudden pain. There were four tiny indentations on the back. From one of them a tiny bead of blood welled out as I watched. I looked at her fingernails and saw they were actually delicate and pointed metal caps.
"I"m dreadfully sorry," I heard her say, "but you frightened me. I thought for a moment you were going to..."
At last she turned to me. Her coat had fallen open. Her evening dress was Cretan Revival, a bodice of lace beneath and supporting the b.r.e.a.s.t.s without covering them.
"Don"t be angry," she said, putting her arms around my neck. "You were wonderful this afternoon."
The soft grey velvet of her mask, moulding itself to her cheek, pressed mine. Through the mask"s lace the wet warm tip of her tongue touched my chin.
"I"m not angry," I said. "Just puzzled and anxious to help."
The cab stopped. To either side were black windows bordered by spears of broken gla.s.s. The sickly purple light showed a few ragged figures slowly moving toward us.
The driver muttered, "It"s the turbine, man. We"re grounded." He sat there hunched and motionless. "Wish it had happened somewhere else."
My companion whispered, "Five dollars is the usual amount."
She looked out so shudderingly at the congregating figures that I suppressed my indignation and did as she suggested. The driver took the bill without a word. As he started up, he put his hand out the window and I heard a few coins clink on the pavement.
My companion came back into my arms, but her mask faced the television screen, where the tall girl had just pinned the convulsively kicking Little Zirk.
"I"m so frightened," she breathed.
Heaven turned out to be an equally ruinous neighborhood, but it had a club with an awning and a huge doorman uniformed like a s.p.a.ceman, but in gaudy colors. In my sensuous daze I rather liked it all. We stepped out of the cab just as a drunken old woman came down the sidewalk, her mask awry. A couple ahead of us turned their heads from the half revealed face, as if from an ugly body at the beach. As we followed them in I heard the doorman say, "Get along, grandma, and cover yourself."
Inside, everything was dimness and blue glows. She had said we could talk here, but I didn"t see how. Besides the inevitable chorus of sneezes and coughs (they say America is fifty per cent allergic these days), there was a band going full blast in the latest robop style, in which an electronic composing machine selects an arbitrary sequence of tones into which the musicians weave their raucous little
individualities.
Most of the people were in booths. The band was behind the bar. On a small platform beside them, a girl was dancing, stripped to her mask. The little cl.u.s.ter of men at the shadowy far end of the bar weren"t looking at her.
We inspected the menu in gold script on the wafl and pushed the b.u.t.tons for breast of chicken, fried shrimps and two scotches. Moments later, the serving bell tinkled. I opened the gleaming panel and took out our drinks.
The cl.u.s.ter of men at the bar filed off toward the door, but first they stared around the room. My companion had just thrown back her coat. Their look lingered on our booth. I noticed that there were three of them.
The band chased off the dancing girl with growls. I handed my companion a straw and we sipped our drinks.
"You wanted me to help you about something," I said. "Incidentally, I think you"re lovely."
She nodded quick thanks, looked around, leaned forward. "Would it be hard for me to get to England?"
"No," I replied, a bit taken aback. "Provided you have an American pa.s.sport."
"Are they difficult to get?"
"Rather," I said, surprised at her lack of information. "Your country doesn"t like its nationals to travel, though it isn"t quite as stringent as Russia."
"Could the British Consulate help me get a pa.s.sport?"
"It"s hardly their..."
"Could you?"
I realized we were being inspected. A man and two girls had paused opposite our table. The girls were
tall and wolfish-looking, with spangled masks. The man stood jauntily between them like a fox on its
hind legs.
My companion didn"t glance at them, but she sat back. I noticed that one of the girls had a big yellow bruise on her forearm. After a moment they walked to a booth in the deep shadows.
"Know them?" I asked. She didn"t reply. I finished my drink. "Fin not sure you"d like England," I said.
"The austerity"s altogether different from your American brand of misery."
She leaned forward again. "But I must get away," she whispered.
"Why?" I was getting impatient.
"Because I"m so frightened." There were chimes. I opened the panel and handed her the fried shrimps. The sauce on my breast of chicken was a delicious steaming compound of almonds, soy and ginger. But something must have been wrong with the radionic oven that had thawed and heated it, for at the first bite I crunched a kernel of ice in the meat. These delicate mechanisms need constant repair and there aren"t enough mechanics.
I put down my fork. "What are you really scared of?" I asked her. For once her mask didn"t waver away from my face. As I waited I could feel the fears gathering without her naming them, tiny dark shapes swarming through the curved night outside, converging on the radioactive pest spot of New York, dipping into the margins of the purple. I felt a sudden rush of sympathy, a desire to protect the girl opposite me. The warm feeling added itself to the infatuation engendered in the cab.
"Everything," she said finally.
I nodded and touched her hand.
"I"m afraid of the Moon," she began, her voice going dreamy and brittle as it had in the cab. "You can"t
look at it and not think of guided bombs."
"It"s the same Moon over England," I reminded her.
"But it"s not England"s Moon any more. It"s ours and Russia"s. You"re not responsible.