"I know."
Conclusions. They threw the last big logs on the fire, and flames roared up, yellow licks breaking free among the stars. The professor felt numb all over, his heart was cold, the firelit faces were smeary primitive masks, dancing in the light. The songs were harsh and raucous, he couldn"t understand the words. The wind was chilling, and the hot skin of his arms and neck goosepimpled uncomfortably. He felt sick with alcohol, and knew it would be a while before his body could overmaster it. They threw the last big logs on the fire, and flames roared up, yellow licks breaking free among the stars. The professor felt numb all over, his heart was cold, the firelit faces were smeary primitive masks, dancing in the light. The songs were harsh and raucous, he couldn"t understand the words. The wind was chilling, and the hot skin of his arms and neck goosepimpled uncomfortably. He felt sick with alcohol, and knew it would be a while before his body could overmaster it.
The minister led him away from the fire, then up the rocky ridge. Getting him away from the students and laborers, no doubt, so he wouldn"t embarra.s.s himself. Starlight illuminated the heather and broken granite under their feet. He stumbled. He tried to explain to her what it meant, to be an archaeologist whose most important work was the discovery that a bit of their past was a falsehood.
"It"s like a mosaic," he said, drunkenly trying to follow the fugitive thought. "A puzzle with most of the pieces gone. A tapestry. And if you pull a thread out... it"s ruined. So little lasts! We need every bit we can find!"
She seemed to understand. In her student days, she told him, she had waitressed at a cafe in Montreal. Years later she had gone down the street to have a look, just for nostalgia"s sake. The cafe was gone. The street was completely different. And she couldn"t remember the names of any of the people she had worked with. "This was my own past, not all that many years ago!"
The professor nodded. Cognac was rushing through his veins, and as he looked at the minister, so beautiful in the starlight, she seemed to him a kind of muse, a spirit sent to comfort him, or frighten him, he couldn"t tell which. Clio, he thought. The muse of history. Someone he could talk to.
She laughed softly. "Sometimes it seems our lives are much longer than we usually think. So that we live through incarnations, and looking back later we have nothing but...." She waved a hand.
"Bronze pins," the professor said. "Iron rivets."
"Yes." She looked at him. Her eyes were bright in the starlight. "We need an archeology for our own lives."
Acknowledgments. Later he walked her back to the fire, now reduced to banked red coals. She put her hand to his upper arm as they walked, steadying herself, and he felt in the touch some kind of portent; but couldn"t understand it. He had drunk so much! Why be so upset about it, why? It was his job to find the truth; having found it, he should be happy! Why had no one told him what he would feel? Later he walked her back to the fire, now reduced to banked red coals. She put her hand to his upper arm as they walked, steadying herself, and he felt in the touch some kind of portent; but couldn"t understand it. He had drunk so much! Why be so upset about it, why? It was his job to find the truth; having found it, he should be happy! Why had no one told him what he would feel?
The minister said goodnight. She was off to bed; she suggested he do likewise. Her look was compa.s.sionate, her voice firm.
When she was gone he hunted down the bottle of cognac, and drank the rest of it. The fire was dying, the students and workers scattered-in the tents, or out in the night, in couples.
He walked by himself back down to the site.
Low mounds, of walls that had never been. Beyond the actual site were rounded buildings, models built by the park service, to show tourists what the "real" buildings had looked like. When Vikings had camped on the edge of the new world. Repairing their boats. Finding food. Fighting among themselves, mad with epic jealousies. Fighting the dangerous Indians. Getting killed, and then driven away from this land, so much lusher than Greenland.
A creak in the brush and he jumped, startled. It would have been like that: death in the night, creeping up on you-he turned with a jerk, and every starlit shadow bounced with hidden skraelings, their bows drawn taut, their arrows aimed at his heart. He quivered, hunched over.
But no. It hadn"t been like that. Not at all. Instead, a man with spectacles and a bag full of old junk, directing some unemployed sailors as they dug. Nondescript, taciturn, nameless; one night he would have wandered back there into the forest, perhaps fallen or had a heart attack-become a skeleton wearing leathers and sword-belt, with spectacles over the skull"s eyesockets, the anachronism that gave him away at last.... The professor staggered over the low mounds toward the trees, intent on finding that inadvertent grave....
But no. It wouldn"t be there. The taciturn figure hadn"t been like that. He would have been far away when he died, nothing to show what he had spent years of his life doing. A man in a hospital for the poor, the bronze pin in his pocket overlooked by the doctor, stolen by an undertaker"s a.s.sistant. An anonymous figure, to the grave and beyond. The creator of Vinland. Never to be found.
The professor looked around, confused and sick. There was a waist-high rock, a glacial erratic. He sat on it. Put his head on his hands. Really quite unprofessional. All those books he had read as a child. What would the minister think! Grant money. No reason to feel so bad!
At that lat.i.tude midsummer nights are short, and the party had lasted late. The sky to the east was already gray. He could see down onto the site, and its long sod roofs. On the beach, a trio of long narrow high-ended ships. Small figures in furs emerged from the longhouses and went down to the water, and he walked among them and heard their speech, a sort of dialect of Norwegian that he could mostly understand. They would leave that day, it was time to load the ships. They were going to take everything with them, they didn"t plan to return. Too many skraelings in the forest, too many quick arrow deaths. He walked among them, helping them load stores. Then a little man in a black coat scurried behind the forge, and he roared and took off after him, scooping up a rock on the way, ready to deal out a skraeling death to that black intruder.
The minister woke him with a touch of her hand. He almost fell off the rock. He shook his head; he was still drunk. The hangover wouldn"t begin for a couple more hours, though the sun was already up.
"I should have known all along," he said to her angrily. "They were stretched to the limit in Greenland, and the climate was worsening. It was amazing they got that far. Vinland"-he waved a hand at the site-"was just some dreamer"s story."
Regarding him calmly, the minister said, "I am not sure it matters."
He looked up at her. "What do you mean?"
"History is made of stories people tell. And fictions, dreams, hoaxes-they also are made of stories people tell. True or false, it"s the stories that matter to us. Certain qualities in the stories themselves make them true or false."
He shook his head. "Some things really happened in the past. And some things didn"t."
"But how can you know for sure which is which? You can"t go back and see for yourself. Maybe Vinland was the invention of this mysterious stranger of yours; maybe the Vikings came here after all, and landed somewhere else. Either way it can never be anything more than a story to us."
"But..." He swallowed. "Surely it matters whether it is a true story or not!"
She paced before him. "A friend of mine once told me something he had read in a book," she said. "It was by a man who sailed the Red Sea, long ago. He told of a servant boy on one of the dhows, who could not remember ever having been cared for. The boy had become a sailor at age three-before that, he had been a beachcomber." She stopped pacing and looked at the beach below them. "Often I imagined that little boy"s life. Surviving alone on a beach, at that age-it astonished me. It made me... happy."
She turned to look at him. "But later I told this story to an expert in child development, and he just shook his head. "It probably wasn"t true," he said. Not a lie, exactly, but a...."
"A stretcher," the professor suggested.
"A stretcher, exactly. He supposed that the boy had been somewhat older, or had had some help. You know."
The professor nodded.
"But in the end," the minister said, "I found this judgment did not matter to me. In my mind I still saw that toddler, searching the tidepools for his daily food. And so for me the story lives. And that is all that matters. We judge all the stories from history like that-we value them according to how much they spur our imaginations."
The professor stared at her. He rubbed his jaw, looked around. Things had the sharp-edged clarity they sometimes get after a sleepless night, as if glowing with internal light. He said, "Someone with opinions like yours probably shouldn"t have the job that you do."
"I didn"t know I had them," the minister said. "I only just came upon them in the last couple hours, thinking about it."
The professor was surprised. "You didn"t sleep?"
She shook her head. "Who could sleep on a night like this?"
"My feeling exactly!" He almost smiled. "So. A nuit blanche, nuit blanche, you call it?" you call it?"
"Yes," she said. "A nuit blanche nuit blanche for two." And she looked down at him with that amused glance of hers, as if... as if she understood him. for two." And she looked down at him with that amused glance of hers, as if... as if she understood him.
She extended her arms toward him, grasped his hands, helped pull him to his feet. They began to walk back toward the tents, across the site of L"Anse aux Meadows. The gra.s.s was wet with dew, and very green.
"I still think," he said as they walked together, "that we want more than stories from the past. We want something not easily found-something, in fact, that the past doesn"t have. Something secret, some secret meaning... something that will give our lives a kind of sense."
She slipped a hand under his arm. "We want the Atlantis of childhood. But, failing that...." She laughed and kicked at a clump of gra.s.s; a spray of dew flashed ahead of them, containing, for just one moment, a bright little rainbow.
"A History of the Twentieth Century, with Ill.u.s.trations"
"If truth is not to be found on the shelves of the British Museum, where, I asked myself, picking up a notebook and a pencil, is truth?"-Virginia Woolf Daily doses of bright light markedly improve the mood of people suffering from depression, so every day at eight in the evening Frank Churchill went to the clinic on Park Avenue, and sat for three hours in a room illuminated with sixteen hundred watts of white light. This was not exactly like having the sun in the room, but it was bright, about the same as if sixteen bare lightbulbs hung from the ceiling. In this case the bulbs were probably long tubes, and they were hidden behind a sheet of white plastic, so it was the whole ceiling that glowed.He sat at a table and doodled with a purple pen on a pad of pink paper. And then it was eleven and he was out on the windy streets, blinking as traffic lights swam in the gloom. He walked home to a hotel room in the west Eighties. He would return to the clinic at five the next morning for a predawn treatment, but now it was time to sleep. He looked forward to that. He"d been on the treatment for three weeks, and he was tired. Though the treatment did seem to be working-as far as he could tell; improvement was supposed to average twenty percent a week, and he wasn"t sure what that would feel like.In his room the answering machine was blinking. There was a message from his agent, asking him to call immediately. It was now nearly midnight, but he pushb.u.t.toned the number and his agent answered on the first ring."You have DSPS," Frank said to him."What? What?""Delayed sleep phase syndrome. I know how to get rid of it.""Frank! Look, Frank, I"ve got a good offer for you.""Do you have a lot of lights on?""What? Oh, yeah, say, how"s that going?""I"m probably sixty percent better.""Good, good. Keep at it. Listen, I"ve got something should help you a hundred percent. A publisher in London wants you to go over there and write a book on the twentieth century.""What kind of book?""Your usual thing, Frank, but this time putting together the big picture. Reflecting on all the rest of your books, so to speak. They want to bring it out in time for the turn of the century, and go oversize, use lots of ill.u.s.trations, big print run-""A coffee table book?""People"ll want it on their coffee tables, sure, but it"s not-""I don"t want to write a coffee table book.""Frank-""What do they want, ten thousand words?""They want thirty thousand words, Frank. And they"ll pay a hundred-thousand-pound advance."That gave him pause."Why so much?""They"re new to publishing, they come from computers and this is the kind of numbers they"re used to. It"s a different scale.""That"s for sure. I still don"t want to do it.""Frank, come on, you"re the one for this! The only successor to Barbara Tuchman!" That was a blurb found on paperback editions of his work. "They want you in particular-I mean, Churchill on the twentieth century, ha ha. It"s a natural.""I don"t want to do it.""Come on, Frank. You could use the money, I thought you were having trouble with the payments-""Yeah yeah." Time for a different tack. "I"ll think it over.""They"re in a hurry, Frank.""I thought you said turn of the century!""I did, but there"s going to be a lot of this kind of book then, and they want to beat the rush. Set the standard and then keep it in print for a few years. It"ll be great.""It"ll be remaindered within a year. Remaindered before it even comes out, if I know coffee table books."His agent sighed. "Come on, Frank. You can use the money. As for the book, it"ll be as good as you make it, right? You"ve been working on this stuff your whole career, and here"s your chance to sum up. And you"ve got a lot of readers, people will listen to you." Concern made him shrill: "Don"t let what"s happened get you so down that you miss an opportunity like this! Work is the best cure for depression anyway. And this is your chance to influence how we think about what"s happened!""With a coffee table book?""G.o.d d.a.m.n it, don"t think of it that way!""How should I think of it."His agent took a deep breath, let it out, spoke very slowly. "Think of it as a hundred thousand pounds, Frank."His agent did not understand.
Nevertheless, the next morning as he sat under the bright white ceiling, doodling with a green pen on yellow paper, he decided to go to England. He didn"t want to sit in that room anymore; it scared him, because he suspected it might not be working. He was not sixty percent better. And he didn"t want to shift to drug therapy. They had found nothing wrong with his brain, no physical problems at all, and though that meant little, it did make him resistant to the idea of drugs. He had his reasons and he wanted his feelings!The light room technician thought that this att.i.tude was a good sign in itself. "Your serotonin level is normal, right? So it"s not that bad. Besides London"s a lot farther north than New York, so you"ll pick up the light you lose here. And if you need more you can always head north again, right?"
He called Charles and Rya Dowland to ask if he could stay with them. It turned out they were leaving for Florida the next day, but they invited him to stay anyway; they liked having their flat occupied while they were gone. Frank had done that before, he still had the key on his key-ring. "Thanks," he said. It would be better this way, actually. He didn"t feel like talking.So he packed his backpack, including camping gear with the clothes, and the next morning flew to London. It was strange how one traveled these days: he got into a moving chamber outside his hotel, then shifted from one chamber to the next for several hours, only stepping outdoors again when he emerged from the Camden tube station, some hundred yards from Charles and Rya"s flat.The ghost of his old pleasure brushed him as he crossed Camden High Street and walked by the cinema, listening to London"s voices. This had been his method for years: come to London, stay with Charles and Rya until he found digs, do his research and writing at the British Museum, visit the used bookstores at Charing Cross, spend the evenings at Charles and Rya"s, watching TV and talking. It had been that way for four books, over the course of twenty years.The flat was located above a butcher shop. Every wall in it was covered with stuffed bookshelves, and there were shelves nailed up over the toilet, the bath, and the head of the guest bed. In the unlikely event of an earthquake the guest would be buried in a hundred histories of London.Frank threw his pack on the guest bed and went past the English poets downstairs. The living room was nearly filled by a table stacked with papers and books. The side street below was an open-air produce market, and he could hear the voices of the vendors as they packed up for the day. The sun hadn"t set, though it was past nine; these late May days were already long. It was almost like still being in therapy.He went downstairs and bought vegetables and rice, then went back up and cooked them. The kitchen windows were the color of sunset, and the little flat glowed, evoking its owners so strongly that it was almost as if they were there. Suddenly he wished they were.After eating he turned on the CD player and put on some Handel. He opened the living room drapes and settled into Charles"s armchair, a gla.s.s of Bulgarian wine in his hand, an open notebook on his knee. He watched salmon light leak out of the clouds to the north, and tried to think about the causes of the First World War.
In the morning he woke to the dull thump thump thump thump thump thump of frozen slabs of meat being rendered by an axe. He went downstairs and ate cereal while leafing through the of frozen slabs of meat being rendered by an axe. He went downstairs and ate cereal while leafing through the Guardian, Guardian, then took the tube to Tottenham Court Road and walked to the British Museum. then took the tube to Tottenham Court Road and walked to the British Museum.Because of The Belle epoque The Belle epoque he had already done his research on the pre-war period, but writing in the British Library was a ritual he didn"t want to break; it made him part of a tradition, back to Marx and beyond. He showed his still-valid reader"s ticket to a librarian and then found an empty seat in his usual row; in fact he had written much of he had already done his research on the pre-war period, but writing in the British Library was a ritual he didn"t want to break; it made him part of a tradition, back to Marx and beyond. He showed his still-valid reader"s ticket to a librarian and then found an empty seat in his usual row; in fact he had written much of Entre Deux Guerres Entre Deux Guerres in that very carrel, under the frontal lobes of the great skull dome. He opened a notebook and stared at the page. Slowly he wrote, in that very carrel, under the frontal lobes of the great skull dome. He opened a notebook and stared at the page. Slowly he wrote, 1900 to 1914. 1900 to 1914. Then he stared at the page. Then he stared at the page.His earlier book had tended to focus on the sumptuous excesses of the pre-war European ruling cla.s.s, as a young and clearly leftist reviewer in the Guardian Guardian had rather sharply pointed out. To the extent that he had delved into the causes of the Great War, he had subscribed to the usual theory; that it had been the result of rising nationalism, diplomatic brinksmanship, and several deceptive precedents in the previous two decades. The Spanish-American War, the Russo-j.a.panese War, and the two Balkan wars had all remained localized and non-catastrophic; and there had been several "incidents," the Moroccan affair and the like, that had brought the two great alliances to the brink, but not toppled them over. So when Austria-Hungary made impossible demands to Serbia after the a.s.sa.s.sination of Ferdinand, no one could have known that the situation would domino into the trenches and their slaughter. had rather sharply pointed out. To the extent that he had delved into the causes of the Great War, he had subscribed to the usual theory; that it had been the result of rising nationalism, diplomatic brinksmanship, and several deceptive precedents in the previous two decades. The Spanish-American War, the Russo-j.a.panese War, and the two Balkan wars had all remained localized and non-catastrophic; and there had been several "incidents," the Moroccan affair and the like, that had brought the two great alliances to the brink, but not toppled them over. So when Austria-Hungary made impossible demands to Serbia after the a.s.sa.s.sination of Ferdinand, no one could have known that the situation would domino into the trenches and their slaughter.History as accident. Well, no doubt there was a lot of truth in that. But now he found himself thinking of the crowds in the streets of all the major cities, cheering the news of the war"s outbreak; of the disappearance of pacifism, which had seemed such a force; of, in short, the apparently unanimous support for war among the prosperous citizens of the European powers. Support for a war that had no real reason to be!
There was something irreducibly mysterious about that, and this time he decided he would admit it, and discuss it. That would require a consideration of the preceding century, the Pax Europeana; Pax Europeana; which in fact had been a century of b.l.o.o.d.y subjugation, the high point of imperialism, with most of the world falling to the great powers. These powers had prospered at the expense of their colonies, who had suffered in abject misery. Then the powers had spent their profits building weapons, and used the weapons on each other, and destroyed themselves. There was something weirdly just about that development, as when a ma.s.s murderer finally turns the gun on himself. Punishment, an end to guilt, an end to pain. Could that really explain it? While staying in Washington with his dying father, Frank had visited the Lincoln Memorial, and there on the right hand wall had been Lincoln"s Second Inaugural Address, carved in capital letters with the commas omitted, an oddity which somehow added to the speech"s Biblical ma.s.siveness, as when it spoke of the ongoing war: "YET IF G.o.d WILLS THAT IT CONTINUE UNTIL ALL THE WEALTH PILED BY THE BONDSMAN"S TWO HUNDRED AND FIFTY YEARS OF UNREQUITED TOIL SHALL BE SUNK AND UNTIL EVERY DROP OF BLOOD DRAWN WITH THE LASH SHALL BE PAID BY ANOTHER DRAWN WITH THE SWORD AS WAS SAID THREE THOUSAND YEARS AGO SO STILL IT MUST BE SAID "THE JUDGMENTS OF THE LORD ARE TRUE AND RIGHTEOUS ALTOGETHER."" which in fact had been a century of b.l.o.o.d.y subjugation, the high point of imperialism, with most of the world falling to the great powers. These powers had prospered at the expense of their colonies, who had suffered in abject misery. Then the powers had spent their profits building weapons, and used the weapons on each other, and destroyed themselves. There was something weirdly just about that development, as when a ma.s.s murderer finally turns the gun on himself. Punishment, an end to guilt, an end to pain. Could that really explain it? While staying in Washington with his dying father, Frank had visited the Lincoln Memorial, and there on the right hand wall had been Lincoln"s Second Inaugural Address, carved in capital letters with the commas omitted, an oddity which somehow added to the speech"s Biblical ma.s.siveness, as when it spoke of the ongoing war: "YET IF G.o.d WILLS THAT IT CONTINUE UNTIL ALL THE WEALTH PILED BY THE BONDSMAN"S TWO HUNDRED AND FIFTY YEARS OF UNREQUITED TOIL SHALL BE SUNK AND UNTIL EVERY DROP OF BLOOD DRAWN WITH THE LASH SHALL BE PAID BY ANOTHER DRAWN WITH THE SWORD AS WAS SAID THREE THOUSAND YEARS AGO SO STILL IT MUST BE SAID "THE JUDGMENTS OF THE LORD ARE TRUE AND RIGHTEOUS ALTOGETHER.""
A frightening thought, from that dark part of Lincoln that was never far from the surface. But as a theory of the Great War"s origin it still struck him as inadequate. It was possible to believe it of the kings and presidents, the generals and diplomats, the imperial officers around the world; they had known what they were doing, and so might have been impelled by unconscious guilt to ma.s.s suicide. But the common citizen at home, ecstatic in the streets at the outbreak of general war? That seemed more likely to be just another manifestation of the hatred of the other. All my problems are your fault! He and Andrea had said that to each other a lot. Everyone did.And yet... it still seemed to him that the causes were eluding him, as they had everyone else. Perhaps it was a simple pleasure in destruction. What is the primal response to an edifice? Knock it down. What is the primal response to a stranger? Attack him.But he was losing his drift, falling away into the metaphysics of "human nature." That would be a constant problem in an essay of this length. And whatever the causes, there stood the year 1914, irreducible, inexplicable, unchangeable. "AND THE WAR CAME."
In his previous books he had never written about the wars. He was among those who believed that real history occurred in peacetime, and that in war you might as well roll dice or skip ahead to the peace treaty. For anyone but a military historian, what was interesting would begin again only when the war ended.Now he wasn"t so sure. Current views of the Belle epoque were distorted because one only saw it through the lens of the war that ended it; which meant that the Great War was somehow more powerful than the Belle epoque, or at least more powerful than he had thought. It seemed he would have to write about it, this time, to make sense of the century. And so he would have to research it.He walked up to the central catalogue tables. The room darkened as the sun went behind clouds, and he felt a chill.
For a long time the numbers alone staggered him. To overwhelm trench defenses, artillery bombardments of the most astonishing size were brought to bear: on the Somme the British put a gun every twenty yards along a fourteen-mile front, and fired a million and a half sh.e.l.ls. In April 1917 the French fired six million sh.e.l.ls. The Germans" Big Bertha shot sh.e.l.ls seventy-five miles high, essentially into s.p.a.ce. Verdun was a "battle" that lasted ten months, and killed almost a million men.The British section of the front was ninety miles long. Every day of the war, about seven thousand men along that front were killed or wounded-not in any battle in particular, but just as the result of incidental sniper fire or bombardment. It was called "wastage."Frank stopped reading, his mind suddenly filled with the image of the Vietnam Memorial. He had visited it right after leaving the Lincoln Memorial, and the sight of all those names engraved on the black granite plates had powerfully affected him. For a moment it had seemed possible to imagine all those people, a little white line for each.But at the end of every month or two of the Great War, the British had had a whole Vietnam Memorial"s worth of dead. Every month or two, for fifty-one months.
He filled out book request slips and gave them to the librarians in the central ring of desks, then picked up the books he had requested the day before, and took them back to his carrel. He skimmed the books and took notes, mostly writing down figures and statistics. British factories produced two hundred and fifty million sh.e.l.ls. The major battles all killed a half million or more. About ten million men died on the field of battle, ten million more by revolution, disease, and starvation.Occasionally he would stop reading and try to write; but he never got far. Once he wrote several pages on the economy of the war. The organization of agriculture and business, especially in Germany under Rathenau and England under Lloyd George, reminded him very strongly of the postmodern economy now running things. One could trace the roots of late capitalism to Great War innovations found in Rathenau"s Kriegsrohstoffabteilung Kriegsrohstoffabteilung (the "War Raw Stuff Department"), or in his (the "War Raw Stuff Department"), or in his Zentral Einkaufs-Gesellschaft. Zentral Einkaufs-Gesellschaft. All business had been organized to fight the enemy; but when the war was over and the enemy vanquished, the organization remained. People continued to sacrifice the fruits of their work, but now they did it for the corporations that had taken the wartime governments" positions in the system. All business had been organized to fight the enemy; but when the war was over and the enemy vanquished, the organization remained. People continued to sacrifice the fruits of their work, but now they did it for the corporations that had taken the wartime governments" positions in the system.So much of the twentieth century, there already in the Great War. And then the Armistice was signed, at eleven a.m. on November 11th, 1918. That morning at the front the two sides exchanged bombardments as usual, so that by eleven a.m. many people had died.That evening Frank hurried home, just beating a thundershower. The air was as dark as smoky gla.s.s.
And the war never ended.This idea, that the two world wars were actually one, was not original to him. Winston Churchill said it at the time, as did the n.a.z.i Alfred Rosenberg. They saw the twenties and thirties as an interregnum, a pause to regroup in the middle of a two-part conflict. The eye of a hurricane.Nine o"clock one morning and Frank was still at the Dowlands", lingering over cereal and paging through the Guardian, Guardian, and then through his notebooks. Every morning he seemed to get a later start, and although it was May, the days didn"t seem to be getting any longer. Rather the reverse. and then through his notebooks. Every morning he seemed to get a later start, and although it was May, the days didn"t seem to be getting any longer. Rather the reverse.There were arguments against the view that it was a single war. The twenties did not seem very ominous, at least after the Treaty of Locarno in 1925: Germany had survived its financial collapse, and everywhere economic recovery seemed strong. But the thirties showed the real state of things: the depression, the new democracies falling to fascism, the brutal Spanish Civil War; the starvation of the kulaks; the terrible sense of fatality in the air. The sense of slipping on a slope, falling helplessly back into war.
But this time it was different. Total War. Total War. German military strategists had coined the phrase in the 1890s, while a.n.a.lyzing Sherman"s campaign in Georgia. And they felt they were waging total war when they torpedoed neutral ships in 1915. But they were wrong; the Great War was not total war. In 1914 the rumor that German soldiers had killed eight Belgian nuns was enough to shock all civilization, and later when the German military strategists had coined the phrase in the 1890s, while a.n.a.lyzing Sherman"s campaign in Georgia. And they felt they were waging total war when they torpedoed neutral ships in 1915. But they were wrong; the Great War was not total war. In 1914 the rumor that German soldiers had killed eight Belgian nuns was enough to shock all civilization, and later when the Lusitania Lusitania was sunk, objections were so fierce that the Germans agreed to leave pa.s.senger ships alone. This could only happen in a world where people still held the notion that in war armies fought armies and soldiers killed soldiers, while civilians suffered privation and perhaps got killed accidentally, but were never deliberately targeted. This was how European wars had been fought for centuries: diplomacy by other means. was sunk, objections were so fierce that the Germans agreed to leave pa.s.senger ships alone. This could only happen in a world where people still held the notion that in war armies fought armies and soldiers killed soldiers, while civilians suffered privation and perhaps got killed accidentally, but were never deliberately targeted. This was how European wars had been fought for centuries: diplomacy by other means.In 1939, this changed. Perhaps it changed only because the capability for total war had emerged from the technological base, in the form of ma.s.s long-range aerial bombardment. Perhaps on the other hand it was a matter of learning the lessons of the Great War, digesting its implications. Stalin"s murder of the kulaks, for instance: five million Ukrainian peasants, killed because Stalin wanted to collectivize agriculture. Food was deliberately shipped out of that breadbasket region, emergency supplies withheld, hidden stockpiles destroyed; and several thousand villages disappeared as all their occupants starved. This was total war.
Every morning Frank leafed around in the big catalogue volumes, as if he might find some other twentieth century. He filled out his slips, picked up the books requested the previous day, took them back to his carrel. He spent more time reading than writing. The days were cloudy, and it was dim under the great dome. His notes were getting scrambled. He had stopped working in chronological order, and kept returning compulsively to the Great War, even though the front wave of his reading was well into World War Two.Twenty million had died in the first war, fifty million in the second. Civilian deaths made the bulk of the difference. Near the end of the war, thousands of bombs were dropped on cities in the hope of starting firestorms, in which the atmosphere itself was in effect ignited, as in Dresden, Berlin, Tokyo. Civilians were the target now, and strategic bombing made them easy to hit. Hiroshima and Nagasaki were in that sense a kind of exclamation point, at the end of a sentence which the war had been saying all along: we will kill your families at home. War is war, as Sherman said; if you want peace, surrender! And they did.After two bombs. Nagasaki was bombed three days after Hiroshima, before the j.a.panese had time to understand the damage and respond. Dropping the bomb on Hiroshima was endlessly debated in the literature, but Frank found few who even attempted a defense of Nagasaki. Truman and his advisors did it, people said, to a) show Stalin they had more than one bomb, and b) show Stalin that they would use the bomb even as a threat or warning only, as Nagasaki demonstrated. A Vietnam Memorial"s worth of civilians in an instantaneous flash, just so Stalin would take Truman seriously. Which he did.When the crew of the Enola Gay Enola Gay landed, they celebrated with a barbeque. landed, they celebrated with a barbeque.
In the evenings Frank sat in the Dowland flat in silence. He did not read, but watched the evening summer light leak out of the sky to the north. The days were getting shorter. He needed the therapy, he could feel it. More light! Someone had said that on their deathbed-Newton, Galileo, Spinoza, someone like that. No doubt they had been depressed at the time.He missed Charles and Rya. He would feel better, he was sure, if he had them there to talk with. That was the thing about friends, after all: they lasted and you could talk. That was the definition of friendship.But Charles and Rya were in Florida. And in the dusk he saw that the walls of books in the flat functioned like lead lining in a radioactive environment, all those recorded thoughts forming a kind of shield against poisonous reality. The best shield available, perhaps. But now it was failing, at least for him; the books appeared to be nothing more than their spines.And then one evening in a premature blue sunset it seemed that the whole flat had gone transparent, and that he was sitting in an armchair, suspended over a vast and shadowy city.
The Holocaust, like Hiroshima and Nagasaki, had precedents. Russians with Ukrainians, Turks with Armenians, white settlers with Native Americans. But the mechanized efficiency of the Germans" murder of the Jews was something new and horrible. There was a book in his stack on the designers of the death camps, the architects, engineers, builders. Were these functionaries less or more obscene than the mad doctors, the s.a.d.i.s.tic guards? He couldn"t decide.And then there was the sheer number of them, the six million. It was hard to comprehend it. He read that there was a library in Jerusalem where they had taken on the task of recording all they could find about every one of the six million. Walking up Charing Cross Road that afternoon he thought of that and stopped short. All those names in one library, another transparent room, another memorial. For a second he caught a glimpse of how many people that was, a whole London"s worth. Then it faded and he was left on a street corner, looking both ways to make sure he didn"t get run over.As he continued walking he tried to calculate how many Vietnam Memorials it would take to list the six million. Roughly two per hundred thousand; thus twenty per million. So, one hundred and twenty. Count them one by one, step by step.
He took to hanging out through the evenings in pubs. The Wellington was as good as any, and was frequented occasionally by some acquaintances he had met through Charles and Rya. He sat with them and listened to them talk, but often he found himself distracted by his day"s reading. So the conversations tumbled along without him, and the Brits, slightly more tolerant than Americans of eccentricity, did not make him feel unwelcome.The pubs were noisy and filled with light. Scores of people moved about in them, talking, smoking, drinking. A different kind of lead-lined room. He didn"t drink beer, and so at first remained sober; but then he discovered the hard cider that pubs carried. He liked it and drank it like the others drank their beer, and got quite drunk. After that he sometimes became very talkative, telling the rest things about the twentieth century that they already knew, and they would nod and contribute some other bit of information, to be polite, then change the subject back to whatever they had been discussing before, gently and without snubbing him.But most of the time when he drank he only got more remote from their talk, which jumped about faster than he could follow. And each morning after, he would wake late and slow, head pounding, the day already there and a lot of the morning light missed in sleep. Depressives were not supposed to drink at all. So finally he quit going to the Wellington, and instead ate at the pubs closest to the Dowlands". One was called The Halfway House, the other World"s End, a poor choice as far as names were concerned, but he ate at World"s End anyway, and afterwards would sit at a corner table and nurse a whisky and stare at page after page of notes, chewing the end of a pen to plastic shrapnel.
The Fighting Never Stopped, as one book"s t.i.tle put it. But the atomic bomb meant that the second half of the century looked different than the first. Some, Americans for the most part, called it the as one book"s t.i.tle put it. But the atomic bomb meant that the second half of the century looked different than the first. Some, Americans for the most part, called it the Pax Americana. Pax Americana. But most called it the Cold War, 19451989. And not that cold, either. Under the umbrella of the superpower stalemate local conflicts flared everywhere, wars which compared to the two big ones looked small; but there had been over a hundred of them all told, killing about 350,000 people a year, for a total of around fifteen million, some said twenty; it was hard to count. Most occurred in the big ten: the two Vietnam wars, the two Indo-Pakistan wars, the Korean war, the Algerian war, the civil war in Sudan, the ma.s.sacres in Indonesia in 1965, the Biafran war, and the Iran-Iraq war. Then another ten million civilians had been starved by deliberate military action; so that the total for the period was about the equal of the Great War itself. Though it had taken ten times as long to compile. Improvement of a sort. But most called it the Cold War, 19451989. And not that cold, either. Under the umbrella of the superpower stalemate local conflicts flared everywhere, wars which compared to the two big ones looked small; but there had been over a hundred of them all told, killing about 350,000 people a year, for a total of around fifteen million, some said twenty; it was hard to count. Most occurred in the big ten: the two Vietnam wars, the two Indo-Pakistan wars, the Korean war, the Algerian war, the civil war in Sudan, the ma.s.sacres in Indonesia in 1965, the Biafran war, and the Iran-Iraq war. Then another ten million civilians had been starved by deliberate military action; so that the total for the period was about the equal of the Great War itself. Though it had taken ten times as long to compile. Improvement of a sort.And thus perhaps the rise of atrocity war, as if the horror of individualized murders could compensate for the lack of sheer number. And maybe it could; because now his research consisted of a succession of accounts and color photos of rape, dismemberment, torture-bodies of individual people, in their own clothes, scattered on the ground in pools of blood. Vietnamese villages, erupting in napalm. Cambodia, Uganda, Tibet-Tibet was genocide again, paced to escape the world"s notice, a few villages destroyed every year in a process called thamzing, thamzing, or reeducation: the villages seized by the Chinese and the villagers killed by a variety of methods, "burying alive, hanging, beheading, disemboweling, scalding, crucifixion, quartering, stoning, small children forced to shoot their parents; pregnant women given forced abortions, the fetuses piled in mounds on the village squares." or reeducation: the villages seized by the Chinese and the villagers killed by a variety of methods, "burying alive, hanging, beheading, disemboweling, scalding, crucifixion, quartering, stoning, small children forced to shoot their parents; pregnant women given forced abortions, the fetuses piled in mounds on the village squares."
Meanwhile power on the planet continued to shift into fewer hands. The Second World War had been the only thing to successfully end the Depression, a fact leaders remembered; so the economic consolidation begun in the First War continued through the Second War and the Cold War, yoking the whole world into a war economy.At first 1989 had looked like a break away from that. But now, just seven years later, the Cold War losers all looked like Germany in 1922, their money worthless, their shelves empty, their democracies crumbling to juntas. Except this time the juntas had corporate sponsors; multinational banks ran the old Soviet bloc just as they did the Third World, with "austerity measures" enforced in the name of "the free market," meaning half the world went to sleep hungry every night to pay off debts to millionaires. While temperatures still rose, populations still soared, "local conflicts" still burned in twenty different places.One morning Frank lingered over cereal, reluctant to leave the flat. He opened the Guardian Guardian and read that the year"s defense budgets worldwide would total around a trillion dollars. "More light," he said, swallowing hard. It was a dark, rainy day. He could feel his pupils enlarging, making the effort. The days were surely getting shorter, even though it was May; and the air was getting darker, as if London"s Victorian fogs had returned, coal smoke in the fabric of reality. and read that the year"s defense budgets worldwide would total around a trillion dollars. "More light," he said, swallowing hard. It was a dark, rainy day. He could feel his pupils enlarging, making the effort. The days were surely getting shorter, even though it was May; and the air was getting darker, as if London"s Victorian fogs had returned, coal smoke in the fabric of reality.He flipped the page and started an article on the conflict in Sri Lanka. Singhalese and Tamils had been fighting for a generation now, and some time in the previous week, a husband and wife had emerged from their house in the morning to find the heads of their six sons arranged on their lawn. He threw the paper aside and walked through soot down the streets.
He got to the British Museum on automatic pilot. Waiting for him at the top of the stack was a book containing estimates of total war deaths for the century. About a hundred million people.He found himself on the dark streets of London again, thinking of numbers. All day he walked, unable to gather his thoughts. And that night as he fell asleep the calculations returned, in a dream or a hypnogogic vision: it would take two thousand Vietnam Memorials to list the century"s war dead. From above he saw himself walking the Mall in Washington, D.C., and the whole park from the Capitol to the Lincoln Memorial was dotted with the black Vs of Vietnam Memorials, as if a flock of giant stealth birds had landed on it. All night he walked past black wing walls, moving west toward the white tomb on the river.
The next day the first book on the stack concerned the war between China and j.a.pan, 19311945. Like most of Asian history this war was poorly remembered in the West, but it had been huge. The whole Korean nation became in effect a slave labor camp in the j.a.panese war effort, and the j.a.panese concentration camps in Manchuria had killed as many Chinese as the Germans had killed Jews. These deaths included thousands in the style of Mengele and the n.a.z.i doctors, caused by "scientific" medical torture. j.a.panese experimenters had for instance performed transfusions in which they drained Chinese prisoners of their blood and replaced it with horses" blood, to see how long the prisoners would live. Survival rates varied from twenty minutes to six hours, with the subjects in agony throughout.Frank closed that book and put it down. He picked the next one out of the gloom and peered at it. A heavy old thing, bound in dark green leather, with a dull gold pattern inlaid on the spine and boards. A History of the Nineteenth Century, with Ill.u.s.trations History of the Nineteenth Century, with Ill.u.s.trations-the latter tinted photos, their colors faded and dim. Published in 1902 by George Newnes Ltd; last century"s equivalent of his own project, apparently. Curiosity about that had caused him to request the t.i.tle. He opened it and thumbed through, and on the last page the text caught his eye: "I believe that Man is good. I believe that we stand at the dawn of a century that will be more peaceful and prosperous than any in history."
He put down the book and left the British Museum. In a red phone box he located the nearest car rental agency, an Avis outlet near Westminster. He took the Tube and walked to this agency, and there he rented a blue Ford Sierra station wagon. The steering wheel was on the right, of course. Frank had never driven in Great Britain before, and he sat behind the wheel trying to hide his uneasiness from the agent. The clutch, brake, and gas pedal were left-to-right as usual, thank G.o.d. And the gear shift was arranged the same, though one did have to operate it with the left hand.Awkwardly he shoved the gearshift into first and drove out of the garage, turning left and driving down the left side of the street. It was weird. But the oddity of sitting on the right insured that he wouldn"t forget the necessity of driving on the left. He pulled to the curb and perused the Avis street map of London, plotted a course, got back in traffic, and drove to Camden High Street. He parked below the Dowlands" and went upstairs and packed, then took his backpack down to the car. He returned to leave a note: Gone to the land of the midnight sun. Gone to the land of the midnight sun. Then he went down to the car and drove north, onto the highways and out of London. Then he went down to the car and drove north, onto the highways and out of London.
It was a wet day, and low full clouds brushed over the land, dropping here a black broom of rain, there a Blakean shaft of sunlight. The hills were green, and the fields yellow or brown or lighter green. At first there were a lot of hills, a lot of fields. Then the highway swung by Birmingham and Manchester, and he drove by fields of rowhouses, line after line after line of them, on narrow treeless streets-all orderly and neat, and yet still among the bleakest human landscapes he had ever seen. Streets like trenches. Certainly the world was being overrun. Population densities must be near the levels set in those experiments on rats which had caused the rats to go insane. It was as good an explanation as any. Mostly males affected, in both cases: territorial hunters, bred to kill for food, now trapped in little boxes. They had gone mad. "I believe that Man is this or that," the Edwardian author had written, and why not; it couldn"t be denied that it was mostly men"s doing. The planning, the diplomacy, the fighting, the raping, the killing.The obvious thing to do was to give the running of the world over to women. There was Thatcher in the Falklands and Indira Gandhi in Bangladesh, it was true; but still it would be worth trying, it could hardly get worse! And given the maternal instinct, it would probably be better. Give every first lady her husband"s job. Perhaps every woman her man"s job. Let the men care for the children, for five thousand years or fifty thousand, one for every year of murderous patriarchy.
North of Manchester he pa.s.sed giant radio towers, and something that looked like nuclear reactor stacks. Fighter jets zoomed overhead. The twentieth century. Why hadn"t that Edwardian author been able to see it coming? Perhaps the future was simply unimaginable, then and always. Or perhaps things hadn"t looked so bad in 1902. The Edwardian, looking forward in a time of prosperity, saw more of the same; instead there had followed a century of horrors. Now one looked forward from a time of horrors; so that by a.n.a.logy, what was implied for the next century was grim beyond measure. And with the new technologies of destruction, practically anything was possible: chemical warfare, nuclear terrorism, biological holocaust; victims killed by nano-a.s.sa.s.sins flying through them, or by viruses in their drinking supply, or by a particular ringing of their telephone; or reduced to zombies by drugs or brain implants, torture or nerve gas; or simply dispatched with bullets, or starved; hi tech, low tech, the methods were endless. And the motivations would be stronger than ever; with populations rising and resources depleted, people were going to be fighting not to rule, but to survive. Some little country threatened with defeat could unleash an epidemic against its rival and accidentally kill off a continent, or everyone, it was entirely possible. The twenty-first century might make the twentieth look like nothing at all.
He would come to after reveries like that and realize that twenty or thirty or even sixty miles had pa.s.sed without him seeing a thing of the outside world. Automatic pilot, on roads that were reversed! He tried to concentrate.He was somewhere above Carlisle. The map showed two possible routes to Edinburgh: one left the highway just below Glasgow, while a smaller road left sooner and was much more direct. He chose the direct route and took an exit into a roundabout and onto the A702, a two-lane road heading northeast. Its black asphalt was wet with rain, and the clouds rushing overhead were dark. After several miles he pa.s.sed a sign that said "Scenic Route," which suggested he had chosen the wrong road, but he was unwilling to backtrack. It was probably as fast to go this way by now, just more work: frequent roundabouts, villages with traffic lights, and narrow stretches where the road was hemmed by hedges or walls. Sunset was near, he had been driving for hours; he was tired, and when black trucks rushed at him out of the spray and shadows it looked like they were going to collide with him head-on. It became an effort to stay to the left rather than the right where his instincts shrieked he should be. Right and left had to be reversed on that level, but kept the same at foot level-reversed concerning which hand went on the gearshift, but not reversed for what the gearshift did-and it all began to blur and mix, until finally a huge lorry rushed head first at him and he veered left, but hit the gas rather than the brakes. At the unexpected lurch forward he swerved farther left to be safe, and that ran his left wheels off the asphalt and into a muddy gutter, causing the car to bounce back onto the road. He hit the brakes hard and the lorry roared by his ear. The car skidded over the wet asphalt to a halt.He pulled over and turned on the emergency blinker. As he got out of the car he saw that the driver"s side mirror was gone. There was nothing there but a rectangular depression in the metal, four rivet holes slightly flared to the rear, and one larger hole for the mirror adjustment mechanism, missing as well.He went to the other side of the car to remind himself what the Sierra"s side mirrors looked like. A solid metal and plastic mounting. He walked a hundred yards back down the road, looking through the dusk for the missing one, but he couldn"t find it anywhere. The mirror was gone.
Outside Edinburgh he stopped and called Alec, a friend from years past."What? Frank Churchill? h.e.l.lo! You"re here? Come on by, then."Frank followed his directions into the city center, past the train station to a neighborhood of narrow streets. Reversed parallel parking was almost too much for him; it took four tries to get the car next to the curb. The Sierra b.u.mped over paving stones to a halt. He killed the engine and got out of the car, but his whole body continued to vibrate, a big tuning fork humming in the twilight. Shops threw their illumination over pa.s.sing cars. Butcher, baker, Indian deli.Alec lived on the third floor. "Come in, man, come in." He looked harried. "I thought you were in America! What brings you here?""I don"t know."Alec glanced sharply at him, then led him into the flat"s kitchen and living area. The window had a view across rooftops to the castle. Alec stood in the kitchen, uncharacteristically silent. Frank put down his backpack and walked over to look out at the castle, feeling awkward. In the old days he and Andrea had trained up several times to visit Alec and Suzanne, a primatologist. At that time those two had lived in a huge three-storied flat in the New Town, and when Frank and Andrea had arrived the four of them would stay up late into the night, drinking brandy and talking in a high-ceilinged Georgian living room. During one stay they had all driven into the Highlands, and another time Frank and Andrea had stayed through a festival week, the four attending as many plays as they could. But now Suzanne and Alec had gone their ways, and Frank and Andrea were divorced, and Alec lived in a different flat; and that whole life had disappeared."Did I come at a bad time?""No, actually." A clatter of dishes as Alec worked at the sink. "I"m off to dinner with some friends, you"ll join us-you haven"t eaten?""No. I won"t be-""No. You"ve met Peg and Rog before, I think. And we can use the distraction, I"m sure. We"ve all been to a funeral this morning. Friends of ours, their kid died. Crib death, you know.""Jesus. You mean it just...""Sudden infant death syndrome, yeah. Dropped him off at day care and he went off during his nap. Five months old.""Jesus.""Yeah." Alec went to the kitchen table and filled a gla.s.s from a bottle of Laphroaig. "Want a whisky?""Yes, please."Alec poured another gla.s.s, drank his down. "I suppose the idea these days is that a proper funeral helps the parents deal with it. So Tom and Elyse came in carrying the coffin, and it was about this big." He held his hands a foot apart."No.""Yeah. Never seen anything like it."They drank in silence.
The restaurant was a fashionably bohemian seafood place, set above a pub. There Frank and Alec joined Peg and Rog, another couple, and a woman named Karen. All animal behaviorists, and all headed out to Africa in the next couple of weeks-Rog and Peg to Tanzania, the rest to Rwanda. Despite their morning"s event the talk was quick, spirited, wide-ranging; Frank drank wine and listened as they discussed African politics, the problems of filming primates, rock music. Only once did the subject of the funeral come up, and then they shook their heads; there wasn"t much to say. Stiff upper lip.Frank said, "I suppose it"s better it happened now than when the kid was three or four."They stared at him. "Oh no," Peg said. "I don"t think so."
Acutely aware that he had said something stupid, Frank tried to recover: "I mean, you know, they"ve more time to...." He shook his head, foundering.
"It"s rather comparing absolutes, isn"t it," Rog said gently."True," he said. "It is." And he drank his wine. He wanted to go on: True, he wanted to say, any death is an absolute disaster, even that of an infant too young to know what was happening; but what if you had spent your life raising six such children and then went out one morning and found their heads on your lawn? Isn"t the one more absolute than the other? He was drunk, his head hurt, his body still vibrated with the day"s drive, and the shock of the brush with the lorry; and it seemed likely that the dyslexia of exhaustion had invaded all his thinking, including his moral sense, making everything backward. So he clamped his teeth together and concentrated on the wine, his fork humming in his hand, his gla.s.s chattering against his teeth. The room was dark.
Afterwards Alec stopped at the door to his building and shook his head. "Not ready for that yet," he said. "Let"s try Preservation Hall, it"s your kind of thing on Wednesday nights. Traditional jazz."Frank and Andrea had been fans of traditional jazz. "Any good?""Good enough for tonight, eh?"The pub was within walking distance, down a wide cobblestone promenade called the Gra.s.smarket, then up Victoria Street. At the door of the pub they were stopped; there was a cover charge, the usual band had been replaced by a buffet dinner and concert, featuring several different bands. Proceeds to go to the family of a Glasgow musician, recently killed in a car crash. "Jesus Christ," Frank exclaimed, feeling like a curse. He turned to go."Might as well try it," Alec said, and pulled out his wallet. "I"ll pay.""But we"ve already eaten."Alec ignored him and gave the man twenty pounds. "Come on."Inside, a very large pub was jammed with people, and an enormous buffet table stacked with meats, breads, salads, seafood dishes. They got drinks from the bar and sat at the end of a crowded picnic table. It was noisy, the Scots accents so thick that Frank understood less than half of what he heard. A succession of local acts took the stage: the traditional jazz band that usually played, a stand-up comedian, a singer of Forties" music hall songs, a country-western group. Alec and Frank took turns going to the bar to get refills. Frank watched the bands and the crowd. All ages and types were represented. Each band said something about the late musician, who apparently had been well-known, a young rocker and quite a h.e.l.lion from the sound of it. Crashed driving home drunk after a gig, and no one a bit surprised.About midnight an obese young man seated at their table, who had been stealing food from all the plates around him, rose whalelike and surged to the stage. People cheered as he joined the band setting up. He picked up a guitar, leaned into the mike, and proceeded to rip into a selection of r&b and early rock and roll. He and his band were the best group yet, and the pub went wild. Most of the crowd got to their feet and danced in place. Next to Frank a young punk had to lean over the table to answer a gray-haired lady"s questions about how he kept his hair spiked. A Celtic wake, Frank thought, and downed his cider and howled with the rest as the fat man started up Chuck Berry"s "Rock and Roll Music."So he was feeling no pain when the band finished its last encore and he and Alec staggered off into the night, and made their way home. But it had gotten a lot colder while they were inside, and the streets were dark and empty. Preservation Hall was no more than a small wooden box of light, buried in a cold stone city. Frank looked back in its direction and saw that a streetlight reflected off the black cobblestones of the Gra.s.smarket in such a way that there were thousands of brief white squiggles underfoot, looking like names engraved on black granite, as if the whole surface of the earth were paved by a single memorial.
The next day he drove north again, across the Forth Bridge and then west along the sh.o.r.es of a loch to Fort William, and north from there through the Highlands. Above Ullapool steep ridges burst like fins out of boggy treeless hillsides. There was water everywhere, from puddles to lochs, with the Atlantic itself visible from most high points. Out to sea the tall islands of the Inner Hebrides were just visible.He continued north. He had his sleeping bag and foam pad with him, and so he parked in a scenic overlook, and cooked soup on his Bluet stove, and slept in the back of the car. He woke with the dawn and drove north. He talked to n.o.body.Eventually he reached the northwest tip of Scotland and was forced to turn east, on a road bordering the North Sea. Early that evening he arrived in Scrabster, at the northeast tip of Scotland. He drove to the docks, and found that a ferry was scheduled to leave for the Orkney Islands the next day at noon. He decided to take it.There was no secluded place to park, so he took a room in a hotel. He had dinner in the restaurant next door, fresh shrimp in mayonnaise with chips, and went to his room and slept. At six the next morning the ancient crone who ran the hotel knocked on his door and told him an unscheduled ferry was leaving in forty minutes: did he want to go? He said he did. He got up and dressed, then felt too exhausted to continue. He decided to take the regular ferry after all, took off his clothes and returned to bed. Then he realized that exhausted or not, he wasn"t going to be able to fall back asleep. Cursing, almost crying, he got up and put his clothes back on. Downstairs the old woman had fried bacon and made him two thick bacon sandwiches, as he was going to miss her regular breakfast. He ate the sandwiches sitting in the Sierra, waiting to get the car into the ferry. Once in the hold he locked the car and went up to the warm stuffy pa.s.senger cabin, and lay on padded vinyl seating and fell back asleep.He woke when they docked in Stromness. For a moment he didn"t remember getting on the ferry, and he couldn"t understand why he wasn"t in his hotel bed in Scrabster. He stared through salt-stained windows at fishing boats, amazed, and then it came to him. He was in the Orkneys.
Driving along the southern coast of the main island, he found that his mental image of the Orkneys had been entirely wrong. He had expected an extension of the Highlands; instead it was like eastern Scotland, low, rounded, and green. Most of it was cultivated or used for pasture. Green fields, fences, farmhouses. He was a bit disappointed.Then in the island"s big town of Kirkwall he drove past a Gothic cathedral-a very little Gothic cathedral, a kind of pocket cathedral. Frank had never seen anything like it. He stopped and got out to have a look. Cathedral of St. Magnus, begun in 1137. So early, and this far north! No wonder it was so small. Building it would have required craftsmen from the continent, shipped up here to a rude fishing village of drywall and turf roofs; a strange influx it must have been, a kind of cultural revolution. The finished building must have stood out like something from another planet.But as he walked around the bishop"s palace next door, and then a little museum, he learned that it might not have been such a shock for Kirkwall after all. In those days the Orkneys had been a crossroads of a sort, where Norse and Scots and English and Irish had met, infusing an indigenous culture that went right back to the Stone Age. The fields and pastures he had driven by had been worked, some of them, for five thousand years!And such faces walking the streets, so intent and vivid. His image of the local culture had been as wrong as his image of the land. He had thought he would find decrepit fishing villages, dwindling to nothing as p