"Something like that," said Dukhi. "It was a long time ago-before I came here."
"My father says it wasn"t a prince, but a commoner. Are you a commoner, Dukhi?"
"A commoner? What"s that, chhota sahib?"
"I"m not sure. Someone very poor, I suppose."
"Then I must be a commoner," said Dukhi.
"Were you in love with the Rani?" I asked.
Dukhi was so startled that he dropped his hoe and lost his balance; the first time I"d seen him lose his poise while squatting on his haunches.
"Don"t say such things, chhota sahib!"
"Why not?"
"You"ll get me into trouble."
"Then it must be true."
Dukhi threw up his hands in mock despair and started collecting his implements.
"It"s true, it"s true!" I cried, dancing round him, and then I ran indoors to Ayah and said, "Ayah, Dukhi was in love with the Rani!"
Ayah gave a shriek of laughter, then looked very serious and put her finger against my lips.
"Don"t say such things," she said. "Dukhi is of a very low caste. People won"t like it if they hear what you say. And besides, the Rani told you her prince died and turned into a snake. Well, Dukhi hasn"t become a snake as yet, has he?"
True, Dukhi didn"t look as though he could be anything but a gardener; but I wasn"t satisfied with his denials or with Ayah"s attempts to still my tongue. Hadn"t Dukhi sent the Rani a nosegay?
When my father came home, he looked quite pleased with himself.
"What have you brought for me?" was the first question I asked.
He had brought me some new books, a dart-board, and a train set; and in my excitement over examining these gifts, I forgot to ask about the result of his trip.
It was during tiffin that he told me what had happened-and what was going to happen.
"We"ll be going away soon," he said. "I"ve joined the Royal Air Force. I"ll have to work in Delhi."
"Oh! Will you be in the war, Dad? Will you fly a plane?"
"No, I"m too old to be flying planes. I"ll be forty years old in July. The RAF, will be giving me what they call intelligence work-decoding secret messages and things like that and I don"t suppose I"ll be able to tell you much about it."
This didn"t sound as exciting as flying planes; but it sounded important and rather mysterious.
"Well, I hope it"s interesting," I said. "Is Delhi a good place to live in?"
"I"m not sure. It will be very hot by the middle of April. And you won"t be able to stay with me, Ruskin-not at first, anyway, not until I can get married quarters and then, only if your mother returns. . . . Meanwhile, you"ll stay with your grandmother in Dehra." He must have seen the disappointment in my face because he quickly added: "Of course I"ll come to see you often. Dehra isn"t far from Delhi-only a night"s train journey."
But I was dismayed. It wasn"t that I didn"t want to stay with my grandmother, but I had grown so used to sharing my father"s life and even watching him at work, that the thought of being separated from him was unbearable.
"Not as bad as going to boarding-school," he said. "And that"s the only alternative."
"Not boarding-school," I said quickly, "I"ll run away from boarding-school."
"Well, you won"t want to run away from your grandmother. She"s very fond of you. And if you come with me to Delhi, you"ll be alone all day in a stuffy little hut, while I"m away at work. Sometimes I may have to go on tour-then what happens?"
"I don"t mind being on my own." And this was true: I had already grown accustomed to having my own room and my own trunk and my own bookshelf and I felt as though I was about to lose these things.
"Will Ayah come too?" I asked.
My father looked thoughtful. "Would you like that?"
"Ayah must come," I said firmly. "Otherwise I"ll run away."
"I"ll have to ask her," said my father.
Ayah, it turned out, was quite ready to come with us: in fact, she was indignant that Father should have considered leaving her behind. She had brought me up since my mother went away, and she wasn"t going to hand over charge to any upstart aunt or governess. She was pleased and excited at the prospect of the move, and this helped to raise my spirits.
"What is Dehra like?" I asked my father.
"It"s a green place," he said. "It lies in a valley in the foothills of the Himalayas, and it"s surrounded by forests. There are lots of trees in Dehra."
"Does Grandmother"s house have trees?"
"Yes. There"s a big jackfruit tree in the garden. Your grandmother planted it when I was a boy. And there"s an old banyan tree, which is good to climb. And there are fruit trees, lichis, mangoes, papayas."
"Are there any books?"
"Grandmother"s books won"t interest you. But I"ll be bringing you books from Delhi, whenever I come to see you."
I was beginning to look forward to the move. Changing houses had always been fun. Changing towns ought to be fun, too.
A few days before we left, I went to say goodbye to the Rani.
"I"m going away," I said.
"How lovely!" said the Rani. "I wish I could go away!"
"Why don"t you?"
"They won"t let me. They"re afraid to let me out of the palace."
"What are they afraid of, Your Highness?"
"That I might run away. Run away, far far away, to the land where the leopards are learning to pray."
Gosh, I thought, she"s really quite crazy . . . But then she was silent, and started smoking a small hookah.
She drew on the hookah, looked at me, and asked: "Where is your mother?"
"I haven"t one."
"Everyone has a mother. Did yours die?"
"No. She went away."
She drew on her hookah again and then said, very sweetly, "Don"t go away . . ."
"I must," I said. "It"s because of the war."
"What war? Is there a war on? You see, no one tells me anything."
"It"s between us and Hitler," I said.
"And who is. .h.i.tler?"
"He"s a German."
"I knew a German once, Dr Schreinherr, he had beautiful hands."
"Was he an artist?"
"He was a dentist."
The Rani got up from her couch and accompanied me out on to the balcony. When we looked down at the garden, we could see Dukhi weeding a flower-bed. Both of us gazed down at him in silence, and I wondered what the Rani would say if I asked her if she had ever been in love with the palace gardener. Ayah had told me it would be an insulting question; so I held my peace. But as I walked slowly down the spiral staircase, the Rani"s voice came after me.
"Thank him," she said. "Thank him for the beautiful rose."
The Girl From Copenhagen.
This is not a love story; but it is a story about love. You will know what I mean.
When I was living and working in London I knew a Vietnamese girl called Phuong. She studied at the Polytechnic. During the summer vacations she joined a group of students-some of them English, most of them French, German, Indian and African-picking raspberries for a few pounds a week, and drinking in some real English country air. Late one summer, on her return from a farm, she introduced me to Ulla, a sixteen-year-old Danish girl who had come over to England for a similar holiday.
"Please look after Ulla for a few days," said Phuong. "She doesn"t know anyone in London."
"But I want to look after you," I protested. I had been infatuated with Phuong for some time; but, though she was rather fond of me, she did not reciprocate my advances, and it was possible that she had conceived of Ulla as a device to get rid of me for a little while.
"This is Ulla," said Phuong, thrusting a blonde child into my arms. "Bye, and don"t get up to any mischief!"
Phuong disappeared, and I was left alone with Ulla at the entrance to the Charing Cross Underground Station. She grinned at me, and I smiled back rather nervously. She had blue eyes and a smooth, tanned skin. She was small for a Scandinavian girl, reaching only to my shoulders, and her figure was slim and boyish. She was carrying a small travelling-bag. It gave me an excuse to do something.
"We"d better leave your bag somewhere," I said, taking it from her.
And after depositing it in the left-luggage office, we were back on the pavement, grinning at each other.
"Well, Ulla," I said. "How many days do you have in London."
"Only two. Then I go back to Copenhagen."
"Good. Well, what would you like to do?"
"Eat. I"m hungry."
I wasn"t hungry; but there"s nothing like a meal to help two strangers grow acquainted. We went to a small and not very expensive Indian restaurant off Fitzroy Square, and burnt our tongues on an orange-coloured Hyderabad chicken curry. We had to cool off with a Tamil Koykotay before we could talk.
"What do you do in Copenhagen?" I asked.
"I go to school. I"m joining the University next year."
"And your parents?"
"They have a bookshop."
"Then you must have done a lot of reading."
"Oh, no, I don"t read much. I can"t sit in one place for long. I like swimming and tennis and going to the theatre."
"But you have to sit in a theatre."
"Yes, but that"s different."
"It"s not sitting that you mind, but sitting and reading."
"Yes, you are right. But most Danish girls like reading-they read more books than English girls."
"You are probably right," I said.
As I was out of a job just then, and had time on my hands, we were able to feed the pigeons in Trafalgar Square and while away the afternoon in a coffee-bar, before going on to a theatre. Ulla was wearing tight jeans and an abbreviated duffle coat, and as she had brought little else with her, she wore this outfit to the theatre. It created quite a stir in the foyer, but Ulla was completely unconscious of the stares she received. She enjoyed the play, laughed loudly in all the wrong places, and clapped her hands when no one else did.
The lunch and the theatre had lightened my wallet, and dinner consisted of baked beans on toast in a small snack-bar. After picking up Ulla"s bag, I offered to take her back to Phuong"s place.
"Why there?" she said. "Phuong must have gone to bed."
"Yes, but aren"t you staying with her?"
"Oh, no. She did not ask me."