Shen Nianshen knew that he had gone a bit too far, seeing Sun Tiantian, he bit his lower lip and apologized sincerely, “Sorry.”
Sun Tiantian was shocked, but she shook her head, “It"s… it"s fine.”
Xu Li, who saw the whole incident, immediately said, “That… Ah, Nian is a bit hygiene freak, he doesn"t like being touched by other people.”
Sun Tiantian was a little uncomfortable by Shen Nianshen"s reaction earlier, answered with ‘hmm", and looked at Shen Nianshen, “Sorry, I didn"t know about it.”
Shen Nianshen put his hands into his trouser pocket, his eyes looked at the distance with a depth look, “You guys have fun. I"m going back to the dorm.” After throwing these words, he walked away.
Cheng Duo was very angry. She pulled Sun Tiantian, “What the heck! Tiantian only holds his hand for a while, why he needs to be so fierce!” She checked Sun Tiantian"s condition, worriedly, “Are you alright?”
Sun Tiantian shook her head, her eyes still staring straight at Shen Nianshen"s back, “I"m okay.”
Cheng Duo took the roller skates from Sun Tiantian"s hands and threw them at Xu Li, “I don"t want to play anymore! It"s boring!” After saying that, she pulled Sun Tiantian to leave.
Xu Li hurried to follow onward, he considered of helping Shen Nianshen to explain, “Tiantian, don"t misunderstand. Ah Nian did it unintentionally, he doesn"t like being touched by others. So his reaction was a bit over the top.”
Cheng Duo was angry, “What the big deal if Tiantian only touched him a little, it"s not like Tiantian was going to eat him alive.”
“Ah Duo, never mind.” Sun Tiantian"s mood became more complicated; she talked to Xu Li, “I didn"t know that he has mysophobia. I accidentally touched him; please help me to tell him that I feel sorry.”
Xu Li didn"t know what to do; he just nodded.
Sun Tiantian smiled gratefully, “Anyway, thank you for helping me to ask him out. Don"t worry; we will remain in this club, we won"t leave you alone.”
Xu Li smiled lowly, “Thank G.o.d; you know, there had never been a single woman joined this club. All of this time, we only have that bunch of big men. All the junior always blamed me for not having charm and couldn"t recruit any girls.”
Sun Tiantian curled her lips and smiled.
Xu Li said, “Wait until the weekly briefing on Wednesday. I will let them see that I have succeeded in recruiting two beautiful girls.”
Sun Tiantian nodded and smiled faintly, “Then, see you on Wednesday!”
Xu Li: “Okay, I"ll back to the dormitory.”
Cheng Duo was still angry at Shen Nianshen, too lazy to glanced at Xu Li, she hurriedly took Sun Tiantian away, “Let"s go! Hurry up!” After saying that, she pulled Sun Tiantian to the direction of the Female Dormitory.
When he returned to the dormitory, Xu Li couldn"t find Shen Nianshen"s whereabouts; he asked his other roommate, “Where is Ah Nian?”
“Isn"t he went out to deliver the power bank for you?”
“Didn"t he went back?”
“No.”
Xu Li thought for a while and said, “Okay, I know.”
On the top floor of the Male Dormitory, Shen Nianshen leaned against the wall with his left hand in his trousers pocket. He lowered his head while his right hand was holding a cigarette.
There were no lights there; It was dark and black, only a small circle of light shined between his fingers.
He suddenly remembered the incident when he was eight years old. That night, he heard a door sound from outside; he thought his father had come back from work. He hadn"t seen his father for a long time; he bounced up from the bed happily, opened the door, and walked out of the room.
However, he didn"t find his father"s existence. All he saw was a strange man hugged each other with his mother.
He hid behind the door and saw that man kissed his mother. Later, his mother whispered, “Let"s go to the bathroom; don"t let my son hear it.” Then the two of them held each other and entered the bathroom.
He stood behind the door, listening to the strange noise coming from inside.
At that time, he was a kid; he didn"t know what his mother was doing. But in his mind, he knew that it was certainly not a good thing.
Shortly after that, his father returned.
In the middle of the night, he heard a flamed argument outside his room. He got off the bed and ran out of the room. He saw his father slapped his mother, scolded her as a lowly woman.
They argued bitterly until all the neighbors went out to see the commotion.
The next day, the two of them went to the Civil Registry Bureau to divorce.
Shen Nianshen was taken by his father to the hospital to do the paternity test. At the hospital, his father got angry again and slapped his mother.
Since then, he has never seen his father anymore.
His mother, who could not stand the gossip that befell her, left him.
n.o.body wanted him; even his mother gave up on him.
Soon after that, his grandmother came from the village to find him and took care of him. She thought that this could prevent Shen Nianshen from people who like to talk and swear from his back.
But what happened afterward wasn"t merely good things, it was quite terrible.
Shen Nianshen went to school; her cla.s.smates said that his mother had stolen someone else"s husband, he certainly wasn"t that different from her mother, and he was an illegitimate child. No one cared about him; no one talked to him; even no one willing to sit with him. The teacher also didn"t like him; they always looked at him detestably.
Shen Nianshen always sat in the last row near the trash can; he spent his childhood in loneliness and unspeakable despair.
He would never forget that night; when he saw his mother making out with another man.
He saw it and heard it with his own eyes. Over the years, all of them couldn"t be erased from his memory.
Even a decade had been pa.s.sed; each time he woke up from his nightmares, the fears and despair in his childhood always swallowed him; just like waves in the sea.
All of these were the biggest secret that he hid inside his heart, a scar that was unseen and couldn"t be revealed.
Because of his mother, in recent years, he always had a physiological resistance towards women"s touch. He wanted to get out of his childhood fear; he tried it hard. However, there was no way, also no use. Because he still hadn"t succeeded.
The past was indeed like a big wave in the sea.
In the darkness, Shen Nianshen"s eyes turned red; his throat felt hot like a blazing fire; the pain was so intense in his chest that he couldn"t breathe.
He closed his eyes, leaned his head and body against the wall, trying to swallow all his emotions and bitterness.
After some time, he finally regained his calmness.
He crushed the cigarette with his hand, turned around and prepared to get down.
When he was at the threshold of the stairs, he coincidentally met Xu Li, who was going upstairs.
As soon as Xu Li saw him, he was very enthusiastic, “I know you must be here!”
Shen Nianshen only answered ‘hmm", put back his hands into his pants pockets, and walked down the stairs.
Xu Li followed him, “That … Tiantian wants me to convey to you that she was sorry. She didn"t know that you are a hygiene freak; she didn"t intend to touch you.”
Shen Nianshen pulled his lips, didn"t say anything.
Xu Li turned his head to look at him; this person never shows any expressions or emotions.
Xu Li swallowed hard and said impatiently, “But you pushed her too hard, she almost fell to the ground. After all, she just a little girl.”
Shen Nianshen pursed his lips tightly, his eyes a little deep, but remained silent.
Xu Li noticed that it was no use to talk with him; he pulled his hair depressedly. For a moment, he didn"t know what to say, so he shut his mouth down.
When the dormitory lights turned off, Sun Tiantian lay on the bed and couldn"t fell asleep.
Cheng Duo was still angry, her voice came through, “Shen Nianshen is too arrogant! What so great of being the best student if he doesn"t know how to respect others! Tiantian, I think you better forget him. It"s obvious, some people born with handsome faces, but their characters are incompatible! “
Sun Tiantian blinked while staring at the ceiling, silent.
Cheng Duo stuck her head out of the mosquito net, “Hey, Tiantian, why aren"t you talking? What are you thinking about?”
Sun Tiantian sighed, “I don"t think about anything.”
“Don"t tell me that you still plan to chase after him?” Cheng Duo asked.
Sun Tiantian pursed her lips for a moment didn"t know how to answer this question.
Cheng Duo waited for a moment, seeing Sun Tiantian not answering, she lay back on his bed, “If it were me, I would give up on him.”
Sun Tiantian rarely turned quiet. After time pa.s.sed, then she only sighed slowly.
The next day, Monday.
This morning"s cla.s.s was at the Sansi Building, Introduction of The Art cla.s.s, and her cla.s.s was in 6608.
On the way to cla.s.s, Cheng Duo asked Sun Tiantian, “About yesterday, how was your decision?”
“What decision?”
“Shen Nianshen, do you still like him?”
Sun Tiantian pursed her lips, didn"t answer.
Cheng Duo looked at her again and paused; she could only sigh, “I don"t know how to blame him, just a little touch, why should he becomes so excessive.”
As the words flowed, she looked up and saw a familiar face.
Em…
Sun Tiantian also saw him, “You… have you finished your cla.s.s?”
When Shen Nianshen was going to leave the lecture hall, he saw Sun Tiantian and answered with a ‘hmm".
Sun Tiantian looked at him, for the first time, she didn"t know what to say. After going through last night, her courage seemed to lessen.
Strangely enough, Shen Nianshen didn"t leave immediately, the two of them stared at each other for a moment.
Sun Tiantian felt a little awkward and said, “I have a cla.s.s. Bye.”
After saying that, she pa.s.sed through Shen Nianshen and walked into the building.
As she pa.s.sed, she suddenly heard, “Sun Tiantian.”
Sun Tiantian stopped, her body stiffened. She turned and looked at Shen Nianshen.
Shen Nianshen suddenly lowered his backpack on one shoulder, opened it, and took out a box of milk from there.
What happened afterward made Sun Tiantian stunned, and her eyes wide open.