"Are you high?" Robbie laughed. "I can"t just take off. I have a job."
"You get vacation time, right? You can take a week. It"ll be great, man. The realtor says it"s already in the 80s down there. Warm water, a beach-what more you want?"
"Uh, maybe a beach with people besides you and Leonard?" Robbie searched in vain for another beer. "I couldn"t go anyway-next week"s Zach"s spring break."
"Yeah?" Emery shook his head. "So, you"re going to be at the store all day, and he"ll be home getting stoned. Bring him. We"ll put him to work."
Leonard frowned, but Robbie looked thoughtful. "Yeah, you"re right. I hadn"t thought of that. I can"t really leave him alone. I guess I"ll think about it."
"Don"t think, just do it. It"s Wednesday, tell "em you"re taking off next week. They gonna fire you?"
"Maybe."
"I"m not babysitting some-" Leonard started.
Emery cut him off. "You got that nitrate loaded? Let"s see it."
They filed into the workroom. Leonard sat at the Steenbeck. The others watched as he adjusted the film on its sprockets. He turned to Robbie, then indicated the black projection box in the center of the deck.
"Emery knows all this, so I"m just telling you. That"s a quartz halogen lamp. I haven"t turned it on yet, because if the frame was just sitting there it might incinerate the film, and us. But there"s only about four seconds of footage, so we"re going to take our chances and watch it, once. Maybe you remember it from the gallery?"
Robbie nodded. "Yeah, I saw it a bunch of times. Not as much as The Head, but enough."
"Good. Hit that light, would you, Emery? Everyone ready? Blink and you"ll miss it."
Robbie craned his neck, staring at a blank white screen. There was a whir, the stutter of film running through a projector.
At the bottom of the frame the horizon lurched, bright flickers that might be an expanse of water. Then a blurred image, faded sepia and amber, etched with blotches and something resembling a beetle leg: the absurd contraption Robbie recognized as the original Bellerophon Bellerophon. Only it was moving-it was flying-its countless gears and propellers and wings spinning and whirring and flapping all at once, so it seemed the entire thing would vibrate into a thousand pieces. Beneath the fuselage, a dark figure perched precariously atop the velocipede, legs like black scissors slicing at the air. From the left corner of the frame leaped a flare of light, like a shooting star or burning firecracker tossed at the pedaling figure. The pilot listed to one side, and- Nothing. The film ended as abruptly as it had begun. Leonard quickly reached to turn off the lamp, and immediately removed the film from the take-up drive.
Robbie felt his neck p.r.i.c.kle-he"d forgotten how weird, uncanny even, the footage was.
"Jesus, that"s some bizarre s.h.i.t," said Emery.
"It doesn"t even look real." Robbie watched as Leonard coiled the film and slid it in a canister. "I mean, the guy, he looks fake."
Emery nodded. "Yeah, I know. It looks like one of those old silents, The Lost World The Lost World or something. But it"s not. I used to watch it back when it ran a hundred times a day in our gallery, the way you used to watch The Head. And it"s definitely real. At least the pilot, McCauley-that"s a real guy. I got a big magnifier once and just stood there and watched it over and over again. He was breathing, I could see it. And the plane, it"s real too, far as I could tell. The thing I can"t figure is, who the h.e.l.l shot that footage? And what was the angle?" or something. But it"s not. I used to watch it back when it ran a hundred times a day in our gallery, the way you used to watch The Head. And it"s definitely real. At least the pilot, McCauley-that"s a real guy. I got a big magnifier once and just stood there and watched it over and over again. He was breathing, I could see it. And the plane, it"s real too, far as I could tell. The thing I can"t figure is, who the h.e.l.l shot that footage? And what was the angle?"
Robbie stared at the empty screen, then shut his eyes. He tried to recall the rest of the film from when it played in the General Aviation gallery: the swift, jerky trajectory of that eerie little vehicle with its bizarre pilot, a man in a black suit and bowler hat; then the flash from the corner of the screen, and the man toppling from his perch into the white and empty air. The last thing you saw was a tiny hand at the bottom of the frame, then some blank leader, followed by the words THE MAIDEN FLIGHT OF MCCAULEY"S "BELLEROPHON" (1901). And the whole thing began again.
"It was like someone was in the air next to him," said Robbie. "Unless he only got six feet off the ground. I always a.s.sumed it was faked."
"It wasn"t faked," said Leonard. "The cameraman was on the beach filming. It was a windy day, they were hoping that would help give the plane some lift but there must have been a sudden gust. When the Bellerophon Bellerophon went into the ocean, the cameraman dove in to save McCauley. They both drowned. They never found the bodies, or the wreckage. Only the camera with the film." went into the ocean, the cameraman dove in to save McCauley. They both drowned. They never found the bodies, or the wreckage. Only the camera with the film."
"Who found it?" asked Robbie.
"We don"t know." Leonard sighed, his shoulders slumping. "We don"t know anything. Not the name of the cameraman, nothing. When Maggie and I ran the original footage, the leader said "Maiden Flight of McCauley"s Bellerophon Bellerophon." The can had the date and "Cowana Island" written on it. So Maggie and I went down there to research it. A weird place. Hardly any people, and this was in the summer. There"s a tiny historical society on the island, but we couldn"t find anything about McCauley or the aircraft. No newspaper accounts, no gravestones. The only thing we did find was in a diary kept by the guy who delivered the mail back then. On May 13, 1901, he wrote that it was a very windy day and two men had drowned while attempting to launch a flying machine on the beach. Someone must have found the camera afterward. Somebody processed the film, and somehow it found its way to the museum."
Robbie followed Leonard into the next room. "What was that weird flash of light?"
"I don"t know." Leonard stared out a gla.s.s door into the parking lot. "But it"s not overexposure or lens flare or anything like that. It"s something the cameraman actually filmed. Water, maybe-if it was a windy day, a big wave might have come up onto the beach or something."
"I always thought it was fire. Like a rocket or some kind of flare."
Leonard nodded. "That"s what Maggie thought, too. The mailman-mostly all he wrote about was the weather. Which if you were relying on a horse-drawn cart makes sense. About two weeks before he mentioned the flying machine, he described something that sounds like a major meteor shower."
"And Maggie thought it was. .h.i.t by a meteor?"
"No." Leonard sighed. "She thought it was something else. The weird thing is, a few years ago I checked online, and it turns out there was an unusual amount of meteor activity in 1901."
Robbie raised an eyebrow. "Meaning?"
Leonard said nothing. Finally he opened the door and walked outside. The others trailed after him.
They reached the edge of the parking lot, where cracked tarmac gave way to stony ground. Leonard glanced back, then stooped. He brushed away a few stray leaves and tufts of dead gra.s.s, set the film canister down and unscrewed the metal lid. He picked up one end of the coil of film, gently tugging until it trailed a few inches across the ground. Then he withdrew a lighter, flicked it and held the flame to the tail of film.
"What the-" began Robbie.
There was a dull whoosh whoosh, like the sound of a gas burner igniting. A plume of crimson and gold leaped from the canister, writhing in the air within a ball of black smoke. Leonard staggered to his feet, covering his head as he backed away.
"Leonard!" Emery grabbed him roughly, then turned and raced to the house.
Before Robbie could move, a strong chemical stink surrounded him. The flames shrank to a shining thread that lashed at the smoke, then faded into flecks of ash. Robbie ducked his head, coughing. He grasped Leonard"s arm and tried to drag him away, glanced up to see Emery running toward them with a fire extinguisher.
"Sorry," gasped Leonard. He made a slashing motion through the smoke, which dispersed. The flames were gone. Leonard"s face was black with ash. Robbie touched his own cheek gingerly, looked at his fingers and saw they were coated with something dark and oily.
Emery halted, panting, and stared at the twisted remains of the film can. On the ground beside it, a glowing thread wormed toward a dead leaf, then expired in a gray wisp. Emery raised the fire extinguisher threateningly, set it down and stomped on the canister.
"Good thing you didn"t do that in the museum," said Robbie. He let go of Leonard"s arm.
"Don"t think it didn"t cross my mind," said Leonard, and walked back inside.
They left Friday evening. Robbie got the week off, after giving his dubious boss a long story about a dying relative down south. Zach shouted and broke a lamp when informed he would be accompanying his father on a trip during his spring vacation.
"With Emery and Leonard? Leonard? Are you f.u.c.king Are you f.u.c.king insane?" insane?"
Robbie was too exhausted to fight: he quickly offered to let Tyler come with them. Tyler, surprisingly, agreed, and even showed up on Friday afternoon to help load the car. Robbie made a pointed effort not to inspect the various backpacks and duffel bags the boys threw into the trunk of the battered Taurus. Alcohol, drugs, firearms: he no longer cared.
Instead he focused on the online weather report for Cowana Island: 80 degrees and sunshine, photographs of blue water, white sand, a skein of pelicans skimming above the waves. Ten hours, that wasn"t so bad. In another weak moment, he told Zach he could drive part of the way, so Robbie could sleep.
"What about me?" asked Tyler. "Can I drive?"
"Only if I never wake up," said Robbie.
Around six Emery pulled into the driveway, honking. The boys were already slumped in Robbie"s Taurus, Zach in front with earbuds dangling around his face and a knit cap pulled down over his eyes, Tyler in the back, staring blankly as though they were already on I-95.
"You ready?" Emery rolled down his window. He wore a blue flannel shirt and a gimme cap that read STARFLEET ACADEMY. In the hybrid"s pa.s.senger seat, Leonard perused a road atlas. He looked up and shot Robbie a smile.
"Hey, a road trip."
"Yeah." Robbie smiled back and patted the hybrid"s roof. "See you."
It took almost two hours just to get beyond the gravitational pull of the Washington Beltway. Farms and forest had long ago disappeared beneath an endless grid of malls and housing developments, many of them vacant. Every time Robbie turned up the radio for a song he liked, the boys complained that they could hear it through their earphones.
Only as the sky darkened and Virginia gave way to North Carolina did the world take on a faint fairy glow, distant green and yellow lights reflecting the first stars and a shining cusp of moon. Sprawl gave way to pine forest. The boys had been asleep for hours, in that amazing, self-willed hibernation they summoned whenever in the presence of adults for more than fifteen minutes. Robbie put the radio on, low, searched until he caught the echo of a melody he knew, and then another. He thought of driving with Anna beside him, a restive Zach behind them in his car seat; the aimless trips they"d make until the toddler fell asleep and they could talk or, once, park in a vacant lot and make out.
How long had it been since he"d remembered that? Years, maybe. He fought against thinking of Anna; sometimes it felt as though he fought Anna herself, her hands pummeling him as he poured another drink or staggered up to bed.
Now, though, the darkness soothed him the way those long-ago drives had lulled Zach to sleep. He felt an ache lift from his breast, as though a splinter had been dislodged; blinked and in the rearview mirror glimpsed Anna"s face, slightly turned from him as she gazed out at the pa.s.sing sky.
He started, realized he"d begun to nod off. On the dashboard his fuel indicator glowed red. He called Emery, and at the next exit pulled off 95, the Prius behind him.
After a few minutes they found a gas station set back from the road in a pine grove, with an old-fashioned pump out front and yellow light streaming through a screen door. The boys blinked awake.
"Where are we?" asked Zach.
"No idea." Robbie got out of the car. "North Carolina."
It was like stepping into a twilight garden, or some hidden biosphere at the zoo. Warmth flowed around him, violet and rustling green, scented overpoweringly of honeysuckle and wet stone. He could hear rushing water, the stirring of wind in the leaves and countless small things-frogs peeping, insects he couldn"t identify. A nightbird that made a burbling song. In the shadows behind the building, fireflies floated between kudzu-choked trees like tiny glowing fish.
For an instant he felt himself suspended in that enveloping darkness. The warm air moved through him, sweetly fragrant, pulsing with life he could neither see nor touch. He tasted something honeyed and faintly astringent in the back of his throat, and drew his breath in sharply.
"What?" demanded Zach.
"Nothing." Robbie shook his head and turned to the pump. "Just-isn"t this great?"
He filled the tank. Zach and Tyler went in search of food, and Emery strolled over.
"How you holding up?"
"I"m good. Probably let Zach drive for a while so I can catch some Zs."
He moved the car, then went inside to pay. He found Leonard buying a pack of cigarettes as the boys headed out, laden with energy drinks and bags of chips. Robbie slid his credit card across the counter to a woman wearing a tank top that set off a tattoo that looked like the face of Marilyn Manson, or maybe it was Jesus.
"Do you have a restroom?"
The woman handed him a key. "Round back."
"Bathroom"s here," Robbie yelled at the boys. "We"re not stopping again."
They trailed him into a dank room with gray walls. A fluorescent light buzzed overhead. After Tyler left, Robbie and Zach stood side by side at the sink, trying to coax water from a rusted spigot to wash their hands.
"The h.e.l.l with it," said Robbie. "Let"s. .h.i.t the road. You want to drive?"
"Dad." Zach pointed at the ceiling. "Dad, look."
Robbie glanced up. A screen bulged from a small window above the sink. Something had blown against the wire mesh, a leaf or sc.r.a.p of paper.
But then the leaf moved, and he saw that it wasn"t a leaf at all but a b.u.t.terfly.
No, not a b.u.t.terfly-a moth. The biggest he"d ever seen, bigger than his hand. Its fan-shaped upper wings opened, revealing vivid golden eyespots; its trailing lower wings formed two perfect arabesques, all a milky, luminous green.
"A luna moth," breathed Robbie. "I"ve never seen one."
Zach clambered onto the sink. "It wants to get out-"
"Hang on." Robbie boosted him, bracing himself so the boy"s weight wouldn"t yank the sink from the wall. "Be careful! Don"t hurt it-"
The moth remained where it was. Robbie grunted-Zach weighed as much as he did-felt his legs trembling as the boy prised the screen from the wall, then struggled to pull it free.
"It"s stuck," he said. "I can"t get it-"
The moth fluttered weakly. One wing-tip looked ragged, as though it had been singed.
"Tear it!" Robbie cried. "Just tear the screen."
Zach wedged his fingers beneath a corner of the window frame and yanked, hard enough that he fell. Robbie caught him as the screen tore away to dangle above the sink. The luna moth crawled onto the sill.
"Go!" Zach banged on the wall. "Go on, fly!"
Like a kite catching the wind, the moth lifted. Its trailing lower wings quivered and the eyespots seemed to blink, a pallid face gazing at them from the darkness. Then it was gone.
"That was cool." For an instant, Zach"s arm draped across his father"s shoulder, so fleetingly Robbie might have imagined it. "I"m going to the car."
When the boy was gone, Robbie tried to push the screen back into place. He returned the key and went to join Leonard, smoking a cigarette at the edge of the woods. Behind them a car horn blared.
"Come on!" shouted Zach. "I"m leaving!"
"Happy trails," said Leonard.
Robbie slept fitfully in back as Zach drove, the two boys arguing about music and a girl named Eileen. After an hour he took over again.
The night ground on. The boys fell back asleep. Robbie drank one of their Red Bulls and thought of the glimmering wonder that had been the luna moth. A thin rind of emerald appeared on the horizon, deepening to copper, then gold as it overtook the sky. He began to see palmettos among the loblolly pines and pin oaks, and spiky plants he didn"t recognize. When he opened the window, the air smelled of roses, and the sea.
"Hey." He poked Zach, breathing heavily in the seat beside him. "Hey, we"re almost there."
He glanced at the directions, looked up to see the hybrid pa.s.sing him and Emery gesturing at a sandy track that veered to the left.It was bounded by barbed wire fences and clumps of cactus thick with blossoms the color of lemon cream. The pines surrendered to palmettos and prehistoric-looking trees with gnarled roots that thrust up from pools where egrets and herons stabbed at frogs.
"Look," said Robbie.
Ahead of them the road narrowed to a path barely wide enough for a single vehicle, built up with sh.e.l.ls and chunks of concrete. On one side stretched a blur of cypress and long-legged birds; on the other, an aquamarine estuary that gave way to the sea and rolling white dunes.
Robbie slowed the car to a crawl, humping across mounds of sh.e.l.ls and doing his best to avoid sinkholes. After a quarter-mile, the makeshift causeway ended. An old metal gate lay in a twisted heap on the ground, covered by creeping vines. Above it a weathered sign clung to a cypress.
WELCOME TO COWANA ISLAND NO DUNE BUGGIES.