"Come now. One does not forget these things at twenty or twenty-one."
She smiled at me ever so faintly, a smile that sent the winter chill of that arid spot scurrying into my veins.
"One grows old fast--in the country," was all she said.
I thought of the flying figures that I had met in Norway and Sweden. It was a moment before I spoke, and then I said the wrong thing.
"But it"s this very sort of air, they say, that makes for vigor--and--"
"Yes," she said thinly, "those who live in cities--say so."
She turned, her meagre dress flapping about her knees like a flag. But at the foot of the rickety outer steps that ran across the bare front of the shack crookedly, like a broken arm, I caught her by the wrist.
"You"ll be going to Mrs. Carn"s funeral tomorrow, Lisbeth?"
She shook her head and I thought she paled.
It was an unheard of thing for the whole population not to turn out for the funeral of one of the villagers, and Mrs. Carn, I knew, had befriended Lisbeth, in spite of Old Con"s displeasure. She must have noted my surprise, for she turned on me squarely, facing me with what seemed at the time an unnecessary display of staunchness.
"Perhaps you didn"t know," she said very softly, "that the Minister--couldn"t come--and--"
She paused, while I made some inadequate reply, for I, too, seemed caught in the sort of mirthless evasion that engulfed her.
"He--" she made a slight backwards motion of the head towards the upper room of the shack--"is going to--preach."
My startled exclamation must have disclosed all the horror I felt at this announcement, but, before I could speak again, she had gone swiftly up the rickety steps and pushed shut the flimsy board door behind her.
The next afternoon was one that I have never been able to erase from my mind, for even more vividly than my earlier impressions of Con Darton, it marked the wizardry as well as the fearfulness of his power. A hundred times during that burial service the sound of a banged door and a rasped voice sounded in my ears and the sight of a tense, hurrying figure in a black dress and a b.u.mpy red shawl moved before my eyes. The thin figure was lying there now and over it, his rusty black coat tails curving in the wind, like wings bent to trap the air, his gray eyes misty with emotion, hovered the man whose door she had never entered since that fateful day of Lisbeth"s birth. I could not but feel that the vision of him standing there told the story of his triumphs more grimly than any recital.
The service began in a sharp, fine drizzle of rain, through which his voice sang in shifting cadences, now large and full, now drooping to a premonitory whisper with an undeniably dramatic quality. In spite of myself the words stirred within me. As he read and spoke he laid aside the turns of speech that had become his through years of a.s.sociation with country folk. Almost he was another man.
"Man that is born of woman--"
The words reached down through the overlying structure of thought and habit. I felt a giving and a drawing away; saw the crowd sway to his will.
"In the midst of life we are--in death."
Again the tones woke me to a sharper sense of the scene. Tears stood in many eyes. The people had melted at his touch. They were his. For a while I lost myself in watching them, until again a changed intonation drew me back to the man before us.
"We therefore commit her body to the ground--earth to earth--ashes to ashes--dust to dust--"
My will was powerless to resist the beautifully delivered lines, to doubt the integrity of the man who uttered them. The little lumps of wet earth that he threw against the coffin struck against my heart with a sense of the futility of all things. And then as suddenly, drawn by something compellingly alive and pervading, I glanced at Jim, who stood next to me; and catching the slant of his vision followed it to the edge of the crowd, where, her thin dress clinging to her knees, her face almost blue with cold, stood Lisbeth; and there was across her eyes and mouth an expression of contempt and loathing such as I had never seen in a girl so young. Jim was watching her intently, noting, with that certain appraisal of his, the etched profile; and, with all an artist"s sensibility, reading life into the line of head and shoulders. What if--the idea went through my mind with the intensity of sudden pain--what if Jim and Lisbeth--? The sound of sobbing broke in upon my reverie. Con Darton was delivering the funeral oration.
"My friends," I heard him saying through the streams of thought that encompa.s.sed me, "we are here out of respect for a woman all of ye knew,--and whose life--and whose character--ye all--knew." He paused to give more weight to what he was about to say. "Margaret Carn was like the rest of us. She had her qualities--and she had her--failings. I want to say to you today that there"s a time fur knowing these things--and a time fur--forgettin" them." His voice on the last words dropped abruptly away. There was the sound of rain spattering among the loosened lumps of clay. "Such a time is now." His left hand dropped heavily to his side.
"I tell you there is more rejoicing in Heaven over one sinner who repenteth than over ninety-and-nine--"
I grabbed Jim"s arm to a.s.sure myself of something warm and human. But his eyes were still fixed on Lisbeth, whose gaze was in turn riveted on her father"s face. It occurred to me with a swift sense of helplessness that she and I were probably the only two who could even vaguely realize any of the inner motives of Con Darton"s mind, as we certainly were the only persons who knew how great a wrong had been done to Margaret Carn"s memory that day. To the rest she was stamped forever as a lying gossip, forgiven by the very man she had striven to harm. I shuddered; and Jim, feeling it, turned to me and drew me towards Lisbeth. Outside of the scattering crowd she saw us and greeted me gravely; then gave her hand to Jim with a little quickening gesture of trust.
We went down the road together, taking the longest way to the foot of the hill, Jim loquacious, eager; Lisbeth silent. The rain had melted into a soft mist, and through it her face took on a greater remoteness, a pallid, elfin quality. At the foot of the hill, which had to be climbed again to reach the old farmhouse, she stopped, glancing up to the plank where the turkeys were already roosting.
"Not going up the hill, Lisbeth?" I asked.
She shook her head.
"We live here now," she said.
"Not--?"
"All the year round.--It"s cheaper," she added with that little touch of staunchness that had become hers.
"But it"s too--"
I was cut short by the look of anguish in her eyes, the most poignant sign of emotion that I had seen her show since my return. There was an awkward silence, while I stood looking at her, thinking of nothing so much as how her head would look against a worn, gold Florentine background, instead of silhouetted against these flat unchanging stretches of unbending roads and red barns. It seemed that she and Jim were saying something to each other. Then just as she turned to go, he stopped her.
"You"ll forgive me, because I"m an old friend of Tom"s," he was urging, "if I ask you to drive to town with Tom and myself for supper."
There was an incongruity in the request that could not have escaped either of them. I could see the color mounting to her temples and then ebbing away, leaving her whiter than before. Her lips parted to answer, but closed again st.u.r.dily.
"It couldn"t--be arranged. If it could, I should have liked to," she supplemented stiffly.
It was a stiffness that made me want to cry out to the hilltops in rebellion.
"But suppose it _could_ be arranged?" suggested Jim.
She looked away from us.
"It couldn"t be," she replied in that same inflectionless voice.
It was her voice that cut so sharply. I reflected that it was only in the very old that we could bear that look of dead desire, that absence of all seeking, that was settling over her face.
"But you"ll try," insisted Jim. "You won"t say no now?"
With one reddened hand she smoothed the surface of her dress. "I"ll try," she promised faintly.
Dinner over, prompted perhaps by a desire to look the old place over by myself, perhaps half inclined to pay a visit to Con, I left Jim in the library to his own devices, and stepped out alone along the road. The air was clear now, and the sleet had frozen to a thin crystal layer, a presage of winter, which glistened under the clear stars and sent them shivering up at me again. As I neared the mill house, I could hear voices through its scanty boarding, and decided, for the moment, to go on, following the bed of the creek, when an intonation, oddly familiar, brought me up like the crack of a whip. It is strange the power that sounds have to transport us, and again I saw a withered woman with straw-colored hair and a small, oblong bundle in a patch-work quilt.
But, as I drew nearer, my thoughts were all for Lisbeth.
"Have my girl in town with that young _puppy_!" Old Con was rasping at her. "I know these artist-fellows, I tell you and--"
He ripped out an oath that took me bounding up the steps. My hand on the front door k.n.o.b, however, I paused, catching sight of Lisbeth through the window. She was standing with her back towards the inner door her moth-like dress blending oddly with the pallor of her cheeks, the smudgy glow of the lamp light laying little warm patches on her hair.
But it was her eyes, wide and dark, that stopped me. There was pain in them, and purport, a certain fierce intention, that made me wonder if I could not serve her better where I was. And, as I waited, her voice seeped thinly through the boarding.
"I don"t believe it."--Her voice came quietly, almost without intonation. "Tom Breighton wouldn"t be his friend then.--They"re both fine and straight--and--"
"They are, are they?" he jeered. "Ye"ve learned to tell such things out here in th" country, I suppose--"
"There are things," she retorted, "I"ve learned."
He began drawling his words again, as he always did when he had got himself under control.