"Life," she answered.
But I knew that she was crying because Johnny Deutra was only a boy.
Then she would change into a mood of wild gayety, whip the shawl around her, and dance for me, looking a thousand times more beautiful than anyone I had ever seen. And then she would shove me out of the room, leaving me feeling as though I had witnessed some strange rite at once beautiful and unholy.
She"d sit mocking Conboy, but he"d only smile. She"d go off with her other love and my aunt powerless to stop her. As for Johnny Deutra, he was so in love that all he saw was Deolda. I don"t believe he ever thought that she was in earnest about old Conboy.
So things stood when one day Capt. Mark Hammar came driving up with Conboy to take Deolda out. Mark was his real name, but Nick was what they called him, after the "Old Nick," for he was a devil if there ever was one, a big, rollicking devil--that is, outwardly. But gossips said no crueller man ever drove a crew for the third summer into the Northern Seas. I didn"t like the way he looked at Deolda from the first, with his narrowed eyes and his smiling mouth. My aunt didn"t like the way she signaled back to him. We watched them go, my aunt saying
"No good"ll come of that!" And no good did.
All three of them came back excited and laughing. Old Conboy, tall as Mark Hammar, wide-shouldered, shambling like a bear, but a fine figure of an old fellow for all that; Mark Hammar, heavy and splendid in his sinister fashion; and between them Deolda with her big, red mouth and her sallow skin and her eyes burning as they did when she was excited.
"I"m saying to Deolda here," said Captain Hammar, coming up to my aunt, "that I"ll make a better runnin" mate than Conboy." He drew her up to him. There was something alike about them; the same devil flamed out of the eyes of both of them. Their glances met like forked lightning. "I"ve got a lot more money than him, too," said Hammar, jerking his thumb toward Conboy. He roused the devil in Deolda.
"You may have more money," said she, "but you"ll live longer! And I want to be a rich widow!"
"Stop your joking," my aunt said, sharply. "It don"t sound nice."
"Joking?" says Captain Hammar, letting his big head lunge forward. "I ain"t joking; I"m goin" to marry that girl."
My aunt said no more while they were there. She sat like a ramrod in her chair. That was one of the worst things about Deolda. We cover our bodies decently with clothes, and we ought to cover up our thoughts decently with words. But Deolda had no shame, and people with her didn"t, either. They"d say just what they were thinking about.
After they left Deolda came to Aunt Josephine and put her arms around her like a good, sweet child.
"What"s the matter, Auntie?" she asked.
"You--that"s what. I can"t stand it to hear you go on."
Deolda looked at her with a sort of wonder. "We were only saying out loud what every girl"s thinking about when she marries a man of forty-five, or when she marries a man who"s sixty-five. It"s a trade--the world"s like that."
"Let me tell you one thing," said my aunt. "You can"t fool with Capt.
Mark Hammar. It means that you give up your other sweetheart."
"That"s to be seen," said Deolda in her dark, sultry way. Then she said, as if she was talking to herself: "Life--with him--would be interesting.
He thinks he could crush me like a fly.--He can"t, though--" And then all of a sudden she burst into tears and threw herself in my aunt"s lap, sobbing: "Oh, oh! Why"s life like this? Why isn"t my Johnny grown up?
Why--don"t he--take me away--from them all?"
After that Captain Hammar kept coming to the house. He showed well enough he was serious.
"That black devil"s hypnotized her," my aunt put it.
Deolda seemed to have some awful kinship to Mark Hammar, and Johnny Deutra, who never paid much attention to old Conboy, paid attention to him. Black looks pa.s.sed between them, and I would catch "Nick" Hammar"s eyes resting on Johnny with a smiling venom that struck fear into me.
Johnny Deutra seldom came daytimes, but he came in late one afternoon and sat there looking moodily at Deolda, who flung past him with the air she had when she wore the saffron shawl. I could almost see its long fringes trailing behind her as she stood before him, one hand on her tilted hip, her head on one side.
It was a queer sort of day, a day with storm in the air, a day when all our nerves got on edge, when the possibility of danger whips the blood.
I had an uncomfortable sense of knowing that I ought to leave Deolda and Johnny and that Johnny was waiting for me to go to talk. And yet I was fascinated, as little girls are; and just as I was about to leave the room I ran into old Conboy hurrying in, his reddish hair standing on end.
"Well, Deolda," said he, "Captain Hammar"s gone down the Cape all of a sudden. He told me to tell you good-by for him. Deolda, for G.o.d"s sake, marry me before he comes back! He"ll kill you, that"s what he"ll do.
It"s not for my sake I"m asking you--it"s for your sake!"
She looked at him with her big black eyes. "I believe you mean that, Conboy. I believe I"ll do it. But I"ll be fair and square with you as you are with me. You"d better let me be; you know what I"m like. I won"t make you happy; I never pretended I would. And as for him killing me, how do you know, Conboy, I mightn"t lose my temper first?"
"He"ll break you," said Conboy. "G.o.d! but he"s a man without pity! Don"t you know how he drives his men? Don"t you know the stories about his first wife? He"s put some of his magic on you. You"re nothing but a poor little lamb, Deolda, playing with a wolf, for all your spirit. There"s nothing he"d stop at. Nothing," he repeated, staring at Johnny. "I wouldn"t give a cent for that Johnny Deutra"s life until I"m married to you, Deolda. I"ve seen the way Mark Hammar looks at him--you have, too.
I tell you, Mark Hammar don"t value the life of any man who stands in his way!" And the way the old man spoke lifted the hair on my head.
Then all of us were quiet, for there stood Captain Hammar himself.
"Why, Mark, I thought you"d gone down the Cape!" said Conboy.
"I lost the train," he answered.
"Well, what about that vessel you was going to buy in Gloucester?"
"I got to sail over," said Captain Hammar.
Conboy glanced out of the window. The bay was ringed around with heavy clouds; weather was making. Storm signals were flying up on Town Hill, and down the harbor a fleet of scared vessels were making for port.
"You can"t go out in that, Mark," says Conboy.
"I"ve got the money," says Mark Hammar, "and I"m going to go. If I don"t get down there that crazy Portygee"ll have sold that vessel to some one else. It ain"t every day you can buy a vessel like that for the price.
He let me know about it first, but he won"t wait long, and he"s got to have the cash in his hands. He"s up to some crooked work or he wouldn"t "a" sent the boy down with the letter; he"d "a" sent it by post, or telegraphed even. He"s let me know about it first, but he won"t wait. It was getting the money strapped up that made me late. I had to wait for the old cashier to get back from his dinner."
"You and your money"ll be in the bottom of the bay, that"s where you"ll be," said Conboy.
"If I"d taken in sail for every little bit o" wind I"d encountered in my life," said Mark Hammar, "I"d not be where I am now. So I just thought I"d come and run in on Deolda before I left, seeing as I"m going to marry her when I get back."
Johnny Deutra undid his long length from the chair. He was a tall, heavy boy, making up in looks for what he lacked in head. He came and stood over Mark Hammar. He said:
"I"ve had enough of this. I"ve had just enough of you two hanging around Deolda. She"s my woman--I"m going to marry Deolda myself. n.o.body else is going to touch her; so just as soon as you two want to clear out you can."
There was silence so that you could hear a pin drop. And then the wind that had been making hit the house like the blow of a fist and went screaming down the road. Deolda didn"t see or hear; she was just looking at Johnny. He went to her.
"Don"t you listen to "em, Deolda. I"ll make money for you; I"ll make more than any of "em. It"s right you should want it. Tell "em that you"re going to marry me, Deolda. Clear "em out."
That was where he made his mistake. _He_ should have cleared them out.
Now Captain Hammar spoke:
"You"re quite a little man, ain"t you, Johnny? Here"s where you got a chance to prove it. You can make a hundred dollars tonight by taking the _Anita_ across to Gloucester with me. We"ll start right off."
Everyone was quiet. Then old Conboy cried out:
"Don"t go, Mark. Don"t go! Why, it"s _murder_ to tempt that boy out there."
At the word "murder" Deolda drew her breath in and clapped her hand over her mouth, her eyes staring at Johnny Deutra. "Nick" Hammar pretended he hadn"t noticed. He sat smiling at Johnny.
"We-ll," he drawled. "How about it, Johnny? Goin"?"
Johnny had been studying, his eyes on the floor.