""If I should die think only this of me: (That there"s some corner of a foreign field (That is forever England. There shall be--"
He cut in on the magical little voice roughly.
"Ah, what d.a.m.ned nonsense! Do you suppose he"s happy, in his foreign field, that golden lover? Why shouldn"t even the dead be homesick? No, no--he was sick for home in Germany when he wrote that poem of mine--he"s sicker for it in Heaven, I"ll warrant." He pulled himself up swiftly at the look of amazement in Daphne"s eyes. "I"ve clean forgotten my manners," he confessed ruefully. "No, don"t get that flying look in your eyes--I swear that I"ll be good. It"s a long time--it"s a long time since I"ve talked to any one who needed gentleness. If you knew what need I had of it, you"d stay a little while, I think."
"Of course, I"ll stay," she said. "I"d love to, if you want me to."
"I want you to more than I"ve ever wanted anything that I can remember."
His tone was so matter-of-fact that Daphne thought that she must have imagined the words. "Now, can"t we make ourselves comfortable for a little while? I"d feel safer if you weren"t standing there ready for instant flight! Here"s a nice bit of gra.s.s--and the wall for a back--"
Daphne glanced anxiously at the green muslin frock. "It"s--it"s pretty hard to be comfortable without cushions," she submitted diffidently.
The man yielded again to laughter. "Are even Dryads afraid to spoil their frocks? Cushions it shall be. There are some extra ones in the chest in the East Indian room, aren"t there?"
Daphne let the basket slip through her fingers, her eyes black through sheer surprise.
"But how did you know--how did you know about the lacquer chest?" she whispered breathlessly.
""Oh, devil take me for a blundering a.s.s!" He stood considering her forlornly for a moment, and then shrugged his shoulders, with the brilliant and disarming smile. "The game"s up, thanks to my inspired lunacy! But I"m going to trust you not to say that you"ve seen me. I know about the lacquer chest because I always kept my marbles there."
"Are you--are you Stephen Fane?"
At the awed whisper the man bowed low, all mocking grace, his hand on his heart--the sun burnishing his tawny head.
"Oh-h!" breathed Daphne. She bent to pick up the wicker basket, her small face white and hard.
"Wait!" said Stephen Fane. His face was white and hard too. "You are right to go--entirely, absolutely right--but I am going to beg you to stay. I don"t know what you"ve heard about me--however vile it is, it"s less than the truth--"
"I have heard nothing of you," said Daphne, holding her gold-wreathed head high, "but five years ago I was not allowed to come to Green Gardens for weeks because I mentioned your name. I was told that it was not a name to pa.s.s decent lips."
Something terrible leaped in those burned-out eyes--and died.
"I had not thought they would use their hate to lash a child," he said.
"They were quite right--and you, too. Good night."
"Good night," replied Daphne clearly. She started down the path, but at its bend she turned to look back--because she was seventeen, and it was June, and she remembered his laughter. He was standing quite still by the golden straw beehive, but he had thrown one arm across his eyes, as though to shut out some intolerable sight. And then, with a soft little rush she was standing beside him.
"How--how do we get the cushions?" she demanded breathlessly.
Stephen Fane dropped his arm, and Daphne drew back a little at the sudden blaze of wonder in his face.
"Oh," he whispered voicelessly. "Oh, you Loveliness!" He took a step toward her, and then stood still, clinching his brown hands. Then he thrust them deep in his pockets, standing very straight. "I do think,"
he said carefully, "I do think you had better go. The fact that I have tried to make you stay simply proves the particular type of rotter that I am. Good-by--I"ll never forget that you came back."
"I am not going," said Daphne sternly. "Not if you beg me. Not if you are a devil out of h.e.l.l. Because you need me. And no matter how many wicked things you have done, there can"t be anything as wicked as going away when some one needs you. How do we get the cushions?"
"Oh, my wise Dryad!" His voice broke on laughter, but Daphne saw that his lashes were suddenly bright with tears. "Stay, then--why, even I cannot harm you. G.o.d himself can"t grudge me this little s.p.a.ce of wonder--he knows how far I"ve come for it--how I"ve fought and struggled and ached to win it--how in dirty lands and dirty places I"ve dreamed of summer twilight in a still garden--and England, England!"
"Didn"t you dream of me?" asked Daphne wistfully, with a little catch of reproach.
He laughed again, unsteadily. "Why, who could ever dream of you, my Wonder? You are a thousand, thousand dreams come true."
Daphne bestowed on him a tremulous and radiant smile. "Please let us get the cushions. I think I am a little tired."
"And I am a graceless fool! There used to be a pane of cla.s.s cut out in one of the south cas.e.m.e.nt windows. Shall we try that?"
"Please, yes. How did you find it, Stephen?" She saw again that thrill of wonder on his face, but his voice was quite steady.
"I didn"t find it; I did it! It was uncommonly useful, getting in that way sometimes, I can tell you. And, by the Lord Harry, here it is. Wait a minute, Loveliness--I"ll get through and open the south door for you--no chance that way of spoiling the frock." He swung himself up with the swift, sure grace of a cat, smiled at her--vanished--it was hardly a minute later that she heard the bolts dragging back in the south door, and he flung it wide.
The sunlight streamed into the deep hall and stretched hesitant fingers into the dusty quiet of the great East Indian room, gilding the soft tones of the faded chintz, touching very gently the polished furniture and the dim prints on the walls. He swung across the threshold without a word, Daphne tiptoeing behind him.
"How still it is," he said in a hushed voice. "How sweet it smells!"
"It"s the potpurri in the Canton jars," she told him shyly. "I always made it every summer for Lady Audrey--she thought I did it better than any one else. I think so too." She flushed at the mirth in his eyes, but held her ground st.u.r.dily. "Flowers are sweeter for you if you love them--even dead ones," she explained bravely.
"They would be dead indeed, if they were not sweet for you." Her cheeks burned bright at the low intensity of his voice, but he turned suddenly away. "Oh, there she sails--there she sails still, my beauty. Isn"t she the proud one though--straight into the wind!" He hung over the little ship model, thrilled as any child. "_The Flying Lady_--see where it"s painted on her? Grandfather gave it to me when I was seven--he had it from his father when he was six. Lord, how proud I was!" He stood back to see it better, frowning a little. "One of those ropes is wrong; any fool could tell that--" His hands hovered over it for a moment--dropped.
"No matter--the new owners are probably not seafarers! The lacquer chest is at the far end, isn"t it? Yes, here. Are three enough--four?
We"re off!" But still he lingered, sweeping the great room with his dark eyes. "It"s full of all kinds of junk--they never liked it--no period, you see. I had the run of it--I loved it as though it were alive; it was alive, for me. From Elizabeth"s day down, all the family adventurers brought their treasures here--beaten gold and hammered silver--mother-of-pearl and peac.o.c.k feathers, strange woods and stranger spices, porcelains and embroideries and blown gla.s.s. There was always an adventurer somewhere in each generation--and however far he wandered, he came back to Green Gardens to bring his treasures home. When I was a yellow-headed imp of Satan, hiding my marbles in the lacquer chest, I used to swear that when I grew up I would bring home the finest treasure of all, if I had to search the world from end to end. And now the last adventurer has come home to Green Gardens--and he has searched the world from end to end--and he is empty-handed."
"No, no," whispered Daphne. "He has brought home the greatest treasure of all, that adventurer. He has brought home the beaten gold of his love, and the hammered silver of his dreams--and he has brought them from very far."
"He had brought greater treasures than those to you, lucky room," said the last of the adventurers. "You can never be sad again--you will always be gay and proud--because for just one moment he brought you the gold of her hair and the silver of her voice."
"He is talking great nonsense, room," said a very small voice, "but it is beautiful nonsense, and I am a wicked girl, and I hope that he will talk some more. And please, I think we will go into the garden and see."
All the way back down the flagged path to the herb-garden they were quiet--even after he had arranged the cushions against the rose-red wall, even after he had stretched out at full length beside her and lighted another pipe.
After a while he said, staring at the straw hive: "There used to be a jolly little fat brown one that was a great pal of mine. How long do bees live?"
"I don"t know," she answered vaguely, and after a long pause, full of quiet, pleasant odors from the bee-garden, and the sleepy happy noises of small things tucking themselves away for the night, and the faint but poignant drift of tobacco smoke, she asked: "What was it about "honey still for tea"?"
"Oh, that!" He raised himself on one elbow so that he could see her better. "It was a poem I came across while I was in East Africa; some one sent a copy of Rupert Brooke"s things to a chap out there, and this one fastened itself around me like a vise. It starts where he"s sitting in a cafe in Berlin with a lot of German Jews around him, swallowing down their beer; and suddenly he remembers. All the lost, unforgettable beauty comes back to him in that dirty place; it gets him by the throat.
It got me, too.
""Ah, G.o.d! to see the branches stir Across the moon at Grantchester!
To smell the thrilling-sweet and rotten Unforgettable, unforgotten River-smell, and hear the breeze Sobbing in the little trees.
Oh, is the water sweet and cool, Gentle and brown, above the pool?
And laughs the immortal river still Under the mill, under the mill?
Say, is there Beauty yet to find?
And Certainty? and Quiet kind?
Deep meadows yet, for to forget The lies, and truths, and pain?--oh, yet Stands the Church clock at ten to three?
And is there honey still for tea?""
"That"s beautiful," she said, "but it hurts."
"Thank G.o.d you"ll never know how it hurts, little Golden Heart in quiet gardens. But for some of us, caught like rats in the trap of the ugly fever we called living, it was black torture and yet our dear delight to remember the deep meadows we had lost--to wonder if there was honey still for tea."
"Stephen, won"t you tell me about it--won"t that help?"