Shelby fluttered his way through the corridors and drawing rooms of the rich, and his later work, if you will notice, always touches upon what is called smart society. We heard that he never mentioned his newspaper days--that he was not a little ashamed of having spent so many months bending over a typewriter in a dingy, cluttered office. Yet it was there he had learned to write; and had he been true to the best traditions of those days of exciting a.s.signments, how far he might have gone on the long literary road!
The war came. Of course Shelby was beyond the draft age--quite far beyond it; but he had no ties, was in perfect physical condition, and he might have found in the trenches another contact that would have made a thorough man of him. Again, he had always loved England and the English so dearly that it would not have been surprising had he offered his services in some way to that country when she and her allies so needed a.s.sistance. But the lists of those who offered their lives then may be searched in vain for Shelby"s name.
I heard vaguely that he had gone to Borneo in September, 1914; and there he remained, "to avoid such a nasty mess as the world had come to." You see, his was a process of evasion. He loved romance when it was sweet and beautiful; but he had not the vision to understand that there is also a hard, stern, iron romance--the romance of men"s companionships in difficult places.
How he did it, I never knew; but he returned from Borneo a year later, and handed to his publishers a novel called "The Blowing Rose," which dealt, as its t.i.tle would indicate, with anything but the War--a sentimental tale of the old South, full of lattices and siestas through long, slow afternoons, and whispered words of love, and light conversations at dusk, and all that sort of rot. And all the while, outside his door the guns were booming; at the gates of the world a perilous storm had broken. The earth was on fire; but while Rome burned, he, like Nero, played a fiddle--and was content.
Then he wrote a comedy of British manners, and nothing would do but that he must himself journey to London in war-time to see about its production there.
Stanton and I happened to see him the day before he sailed. We met him face to face on Fifth Avenue, and he bowed to us. We returned the salute, little dreaming that never again would we see him.
For Shelby sailed on the _Lusitania_.
There must be a hiatus here, too; for no one saw him die. The story runs that he must have been in his cabin when the awful moment came--that he was drowned like a rat in a trap. I wonder. And I wonder if he knew in that agonizing instant that he was doomed? But was it not better to die than to emerge again from so great a calamity--so historical an episode--as he had once before emerged, and find himself again inarticulate? At least there can be some glory for him now; for one likes to think that, after all, he might have told us how he felt in so supreme a moment, and linked it, through his delicate art, with his San Francisco sensations. Could those have been revived, and put upon paper?
Could Shelby ever have made a fine gesture, know himself as we knew him, and told the truth.
I doubt it. For, looking over his published works tonight, I find only one or two epigrams worthy of a brief existence. And one of those I am sure he filched from an English wit, and redressed it for his purposes.
That was the only time he cared for American tailoring.
But poor Shelby! Vicarious, indeed, were all the experiences, save two, of his shallow days. But in the face of each, he was speechless. There is a law of averages, a law of compensation, you know. The balance wheel turns; the tides change; the sands of occasion shift. Fate gave this man one overwhelmingly glorious chance to say something. He was mute. The second time she sealed his lips forever.
THE WALLOW OF THE SEA[21]
By MARY HEATON VORSE
(From _Harper"s Magazine_)
After twenty years I saw Deolda Costa again, Deolda who, when I was a girl, had meant to me beauty and romance. There she sat before me, large, mountainous, her lithe gypsy body clothed in fat. Her dark eyes, beautiful as ever, still with a hint of wildness, met mine proudly. And as she looked at me the old doubts rose again in my mind, a cold chill crawled up my back as I thought what was locked in Deolda"s heart. My mind went back to that night twenty years ago, with the rain beating its devil"s tattoo against the window, when all night long I sat holding Deolda"s hand while she never spoke or stirred the hours through, but stared with her crazy, s.m.u.t-rimmed eyes out into the storm where Johnny Deutra was. I heard again the shuttle of her feet weaving up and down the room through the long hours.
It was a strange thing to see Deolda after having known her as I did.
There she was, with her delight of life all changed into youngsters and fat. There she was, heavy as a monument, and the devil in her divided among her children--though Deolda had plenty of devil to divide.
My first thought was: "Here"s the end of romance. To think that you once were love, pa.s.sion, and maybe even carried death in your hand--and when I look at you now!"
Then the thought came to me, "After all, it is a greater romance that she should have triumphed completely, that the weakness of remorse has never set its fangs in her heart." She had seized the one loophole that life had given her and had infused her relentless courage into another"s veins.
I was at the bottom of Deolda Costa"s coming to live with my aunt Josephine Kingsbury, for I had been what my mother called "peaked," and was sent down to the seash.o.r.e to visit her. And suddenly I, an inland child, found myself in a world of romance whose very colors were changed. I had lived in a world of swimming green with faint blue distance; hills ringed us mildly; wide, green fields lapped up to our houses; islands of shade trees dotted the fields.
My world of romance was blue and gray, with the savage dunes glittering gold in the sun. Here life was intense. Danger lurked always under the horizon. Lights, like warning eyes, flashed at night, and through the drenching fog, bells on reefs talked to invisible ships. Old men who told tales of storm and strange, savage islands, of great catches of fish, of smuggling, visited my aunt.
Then, as if this were merely the background of a drama, Deolda Costa came to live with us in a prosaic enough fashion, as a "girl to help out."
If you ask me how my aunt, a decent, law-abiding woman--a sick woman at that--took a firebrand like Deolda into her home, all I would be able to answer is: If you had seen her stand there, as I did, on the porch that morning, you wouldn"t ask the question. The doorbell rang and my aunt opened it, I tagging behind. There was a girl there who looked as though she were daring all mankind, a strange girl with skin tawny, like sand on a hot day, and dark, brooding eyes. My aunt said:
"You want to see me?"
The girl glanced up slowly under her dark brows that looked as if they had been drawn with a pencil.
"I"ve come to work for you," she said in a shy, friendly fashion. "I"m a real strong girl."
No one could have turned her away, not unless he were deaf and blind, not unless he were ready to murder happiness. I was fifteen and romantic, and I was bedazzled just as the others were. She made me think of dancing women I have heard of, and music, and of soft, starlit nights, velvet black. She was more foreign than anything I had ever seen and she meant to me what she did to plenty of others--romance. She must have meant it to my aunt, sick as she was and needing a hired girl. So when Deolda asked, in that soft way of hers:
"Shall I stay?"
"Yes," answered my aunt, reluctantly, her eyes on the girl"s lovely mouth.
While she stood there, her shoulders drooping, her eyes searching my aunt"s face, she still found time to shoot a glance like a flaming signal to Johnny Deutra, staring at her agape. I surprised the glance, and so did my aunt Josephine, who must have known she was in for nothing but trouble. And so was Johnny Deutra, for from that first glance of Deolda"s that dared him, love laid its heavy hand on his young shoulders.
"What"s your name, dear?" my aunt asked.
"Deolda Costa," said she.
"Oh, you"re one-armed Manel"s girl. I don"t remember seeing you about lately."
"I been working to New Bedford. My father an" mother both died. I came up for the funeral. I--don"t want to go back to the mills--" Then sudden fury flamed in her. "I hate the men there!" she cried. "I"d drown before I"d go back!"
"There, there, dear," my aunt soothed her. "You ain"t going back--you"re going to work for Auntie Kingsbury."
That was the way Deolda had. She never gave one any chance for an illusion about her, for there was handsome Johnny Deutra still hanging round the gate watching Deolda, and she already held my aunt"s heart in her slender hand.
My aunt went around muttering, "One-armed Manel"s girl!" She appealed to me: "She"s got to live somewhere, hasn"t she?"
I imagine that my aunt excused herself for deliberately, running into foul weather by telling herself that Deolda Was her "lot," something the Lord had sent her to take care of.
"Who was one-armed Manel?" I asked, tagging after my aunt.
"Oh, he was a queer old one-armed Portygee who lived down along," said my aunt, "clear down along under the sand dunes in a green-painted house with a garden in front of it with as many colors as Joseph"s coat. Those Costas lived "most any way." Then my aunt added, over her shoulder: "They say the old woman was a gypsy and got married to one-armed Manel jumping over a broomstick. And I wouldn"t wonder a mite if "twas true.
She was a queer looking old hag with black, piercing eyes and a proud way of walking. The boys are a wild crew. Why, I remember this girl Deolda, like a little leopard cat with blue-black shadows in her hair and eyes like saucers, selling berries at the back door!"
My uncle Ariel, Aunt Josephine"s brother, came in after a while. As he took a look at Deolda going out of the room, he said:
"P--hew! What"s that?"
"I told you I was sick and had to get a girl to help out--what with Susie visiting and all," said my aunt, very short.
"Help out? Help out! My lord! _help out!_ What"s her name--Beth Sheba?"
Now this wasn"t as silly as it sounded. I suppose what Uncle Ariel meant was that Deolda made him think of Eastern queens and Araby. But my attention was distracted by the appearance of two wild-looking boys with a green-blue sea chest which served Deolda as a trunk. I followed it to her room and started making friends with Deolda, who opened the trunk, and I glimpsed something embroidered in red flowers.
"Oh, Deolda, let me see. Oh, let me see!" I cried.
It was a saffron shawl all embroidered with splotchy red flowers as big as my hand. It made me tingle as it lay there in its crinkly folds, telling of another civilization and other lands than our somber sh.o.r.es.
The shawl and its crawling, venomous, alluring flowers marked Deolda off from us. She seemed to belong to the shawl and its scarlet insinuations.