"I wish I had known you before; of late I have been alone--with none to advise or guide me; for, she, whose affectionate heart, whose tender look, and whose gentle monition, were ever with me--she--alas, my dear aunt, how few know what the bitterness is--when forced to struggle against strong but misguided wills, whether of our own or others"; to feel that we are without a mother--that that gentle voice is silent forever; that that well in the desert of life--a mother"s heart--is forever closed to us; that that protecting angel of our steps is departed from us--never, never to return."
As she uttered these words in deep grief, it might have been observed, that Lady Gourlay shed some quiet but apparently bitter tears. It is impossible for us to enter into the heart, or its reflections; but it is not, we think, unreasonable to suppose that while Lucy dwelt so feelingly upon the loss of her mother, the other may have been thinking upon that of her child.
"My dear girl," she exclaimed, "let the affectionate compact which I have just proposed be ratified between us. My heart, at all events, has already ratified it. I shall be as a mother to you, and you shall be to me as a daughter."
"I know not, my dear aunt," replied Lucy, "whether to consider you more affectionate than generous. How few of our s.e.x, after--after--that is, considering the enmities--in fact, how a relative, placed as you unhappily are, would take me to her heart as you have done."
"Perhaps, my child, I were incapable of it, if that heart had never been touched and softened by affliction. As it is, Lucy, let me say to you, as one who probably knows the world better, do not look, as most young persons like you do, upon the trials you are at present forced to suffer, as if they were the sharpest and heaviest in the world. Time, my love, and perhaps other trials of a still severer character, may one day teach you to think that your grief and impatience were out of proportion to what you then underwent. May He who afflicts his people for their good, prevent that this ever should be so in your case; but, even if it should, remember that G.o.d loveth whom he chasteneth. And above all things, my dear child, never, never, never despair in his providence.
Dry your eyes, my love," she added, with a smile of affection and encouragement, that Lucy felt to be contagious by its cheering influence upon her; "dry your tears, and turn round to the light until I contemplate more clearly and distinctly that beauty of which I have heard so much."
Lucy obeyed her with all the simplicity of a child, and turned round so as to place herself in the position required by the aunt; but whilst she did so, need we say that the blushes followed each other beautifully and fast over her timid but sparkling countenance?
"I do not wonder, my dear girl, that public rumor has borne its ample testimony to your beauty. I have never seen either it or your figure surpa.s.sed; but it is here, my dear," she added, placing her hand upon her heart, "where the jewel that gives value to so fair a casket lies."
"How happy I am, my dear aunt," replied Lucy, anxious to change the subject, since I know you. The very consciousness of it is a consolation."
"And I trust, Lucy, we shall all yet be happy. When the dispensations ripen, then comes the harvest of the blessings."
The old footman now entered, saying: "Here is a note, my lady," and he presented one, "which the gentleman desired me to deliver on your ladyship"s return."
Lady Gourlay took the note, saying: "Will you excuse me, my dear niece?--this, I believe, is on a subject that is not merely near to, but in the innermost recesses of my heart."
Lucy now took that opportunity on her part of contemplating the features of her aunt; but, as we have already described them elsewhere, it is unnecessary to do so here. She was, however, much struck with their chaste but melancholy beauty; for it cannot be disputed, that sorrow and affliction, while they impair the complexion of the most lovely, very frequently communicate to it a charm so deep and touching, that in point of fact, the heart that suffers within is taught to speak in the mournful, grave, and tender expression, which they leave behind them as their traces. As Lucy surveyed her aunt"s features, which had been moulded by calamity into an expression of settled sorrow--an expression which no cheerfulness could remove, however it might diminish it, she was surprised to observe at first a singular degree of sweetness appear; next a mild serenity; and lastly, she saw that that serenity gradually kindled into a radiance that might, in the hands of a painter, have expressed the joy of the Virgin Mother on finding her lost Son in the Temple. This, however, was again succeeded by a paleness, that for a moment alarmed Lucy, but which was soon lost in a gush of joyful tears.
On looking at her niece, who did not presume to make any inquiry as to the cause of this extraordinary emotion, Lady Gourlay saw that her eyes at least were seeking, by the wonder they expressed, for the cause of it.
"May the name," she exclaimed, "of the just and merciful G.o.d be praised forever! Here, my darling, is a note, in which I am informed upon the best authority, that my child--my boy, is yet alive--and was seen but very recently. Dear G.o.d of all goodness, is my weak and worn heart capable of bearing this returning tide of happiness!"
Nature, however, gave way; and after several struggles and throbbings, she sank into insensibility. To ring for a.s.sistance, to apply all kinds of restoratives; and to tend her until she revived, and afterwards, were offices which Lucy discharged with equal prompt.i.tude and tenderness.
On recovering, she took the hand of the latter in hers, and said, with a smile full of grat.i.tude, joy, and sweetness, "Our first thanks are always due to G.o.d, and to him my heart offers them up; but, oh, how feebly! Thanks to you, also, Lucy, for your kindness; and many thanks for your goodness in giving me the pleasure of knowing you. I trust that we shall both see and enjoy better and happier days. Your visit has been propitious to me, and brought, if I may so say, an unexpected dawn of happiness to the widowed mother"s heart."
Lucy was about to reply, when the old footman came to say that the lady who had accompanied her was waiting below in the chaise. She accordingly bade her farewell, only for a time she said, and after a tender embrace, she went down to Mrs. Mainwaring who respectfully declined on that occasion to be presented to Lady Gourlay, in consequence of the number of purchases she had yet to make, and the time it would occupy to make them.
CHAPTER XXVIII. Innocence and Affection overcome by Fraud and Hypocrisy
--Lucy yields at Last.
Not many minutes after Mrs. Mainwaring"s interview with the baronet, Gibson entered the library, and handed him a letter on which was stamped the Ballytrain postmark. On looking at it, he paused for a moment:
"Who the d------ can this come from?" he said. "I am not aware of having any particular correspondence at present, in or about Ballytrain. Here, however, is a seal; let me see what it is. What the d------, again? are these a pair of a.s.ses" ears or wings? Certainly, if the impression be correct, the former; and what is here? A fox. Very good, perfectly intelligible; a fox, with a pair of a.s.ses" ears upon him! intimating a combination of knavery and folly. "Gad, this must be from Crackenfudge, of whom it is the type and exponent. For a thousand, it contains a list of his qualifications for the magisterial honors for which he is so ambitious. Well, well; I believe every man has an ambition for something. Mine is to see my daughter a countess, that she may trample with velvet slippers on the necks of those who would trample on hers if she were beneath them. This fellow, now, who is both slave and tyrant, will play all sorts of oppressive pranks upon the poor, by whom he knows that he is despised; and for that very reason, along with others, will he punish them. That, however, is, after all, but natural; and on this very account, curse me, but I shall try and shove the beggarly scoundrel up to the point of his paltry ambition. I like ambition. The man who has no object of ambition of any kind is unfit for life. Come, then, wax, deliver up thy trust.""
With a dark grin of contempt, and a kind of sarcastic gratification, he perused the doc.u.ment, which ran as follows:
"My dear Sir Tomas,--In a letter, which a" had the honer of receiving from you, in consequence of your very great kindness in condescending to kick me out of your house, on the occasion of my last visit to Red Hall, you were pleased to express a wish that a" would send you up as arthentic a list as a" could conveniently make up of my qualifications for the magistracey. Deed, a"m sore yet, Sir Tomas, and wouldn"t it be a good joke, as my friend Dr. Twig says, if the soreness should remain until it is cured by the Komission, which he thinks would wipe out all recollection of the pain and the punishment. And he says, too, that this application of it would be putting it to a most proper and legutimate use; the only use, he insists, to which it ought to be put. But a" don"t go that far, because a" think it would be an honerable dockiment, not only to my posterity, meaning my legutimate progenitors, if a" should happen to have any; but, also and moreover, to the good taste and judgment, and respect for the honer and integrity of the Bench, manifested by those who attributed to place me on it.
"A" now come to Klaim No. I, for the magistracey: In the first place a"m not without expeyrience, having been in the habit of acting as a magistrate in a private way, and upon my own responsibility, for several years. A" established a kourt in a little vilage, which--and this is a strong point in my feavor now-a-days--which a" meself have depopilated; and a" trust that the depopilation won"t be ovelueked. To this kourt a" com-peled all me taunts to atend. They were obliged to summon one another as often as they kould, and much oftener than they wished, and for the slightest kauses. A" presided in it purseondlly; and a"ll tell you why. My system was a fine system, indeed. That is to say, a" fined them ether on the one side or the tother, but most generally on both, and then a" put the fines into my own pocet. My tenints a" know didn"t like this kind of law very much--but if they didn"t a" did; and a" made them feel that a" was their landlord. No man was a faverite with me that didn"t frequent my kourt, and for this resin, in order to stand well with me, they fought like kat and dog. Now, you know, it was my bisness to enkorage this, for the more they fought and disputed, the more a"
fined them.
"In fact, a" done everything in my power, to enlitin my tenints. For instance, a" taught them the doktrine of tresp.i.s.s. If a" found that a stranger tuck the sheltry side of my hedge, to blow his nose, I fined him half-a-crown, as can be proved by proper and undeniable testomony.
A" mention all these matters to satisfy you that a" have practis as a magistrate, and won"t have my duties to lern when a"m called upon to discharge them.
"Klaim No. II. is as follows: A"m very unpopilar with the people, which is a great thing in itself, as a" think no man ought to be risen to the bench that"s not unpopilar; because, when popilar, he"s likely to feavor them, and symperthize with them--wherein his first duty is always to konsider them in the rong. Nether am a" popilar with the gentry and magistrates of the kountry, because they despise me, and say that a"m this, that and tother; that a"m mean and tyrannical; that a" changed my name from pride, and that a"m overbearing and ignorant. Now this last charge of ignorance brings me to Klaim No. III.
"Be it nown to you, then, Sir Tomas, that a" received a chollege eddycation, which is an anser in full to the play of ignorance. In fact, a" devoted meself to eddycation till my very brain began to go round like a whurli-gig; and many people say, that a" never rekovered the proper use of it since. Hundres will tell you that they would shed their blood upon the truth of it; but let any one that thinks so transact bisness with me, or bekome a tenint of mine, and he"ll find that a" can make him bleed in proving the reverse.
"A" could prove many other klaims equally strong, but a" hope it"s not necessary to seduce any more. A" do think, if the Lord Chanceseller knew of my qualifications, a" wouldn"t be long off the bench. If, then, Sir Tomas, you, who have so much influence, would write on my behalf, and rekomend me to the custus rascalorum as a proper kandi-date, I could not fail to sukceed in reaching the great point of my ambition, which is, to be accommodated with a seat--anything would satisfy me--even a close-stool--upon the magisterial bench. Amen, Sir Tomas.
"And have the honer to be,
"Your obedient and much obliged, and very thankful servant for what a"
got, as well as for what a" expect, Sir Tomas,
"Periwinkle Crackenfudge."
Sir Thomas--having perused this precious doc.u.ment, which, by the way, contains no single fact that could not be substantiated by the clearest testimony, so little are they at head-quarters acquainted with the pranks that are played off on the unfortunate people by mult.i.tudes of petty tyrants in remote districts of the country--Sir Thomas, we say, having perused the aforesaid doc.u.ment, grinned--almost laughed--with a satirical enjoyment of its contents.
"Very good," said he; "excellent: confound me, but Crackenfudge must get to the bench, if it were only for the novelty of the thing. I will this moment recommend him to Lord Cullamore, who is _custos rotulorum_ for the county, and who would as soon, by the way, cut his right hand off as recommend him to the Chancellor, if he knew the extent of his "klaims,"
as the miserable devil spells it. Yes, I will recommend him, if it were only to vex my brother baronet, Sir James B-----, who is humane, and kind, and popular, forsooth, and a staunch advocate for purity of the bench, and justice to the people! No doubt of it; I shall recommend you, Crackenfudge, and cheek by jowl with the best among them, upon the same magistorial bench, shall the doughty Crackenfudge sit."
He instantly sat down to his writing-desk, and penned as strong a recommendation as he could possibly compose to Lord Cullamore, after which he threw himself again upon the sofa, and exclaimed:
"Well, that act is done, and an iniquitous one it is; but no matter, it is gone off to the post, and I"m rid of him." Now for Lucy, and my ambition; she is unquestionably with that shameless old woman who could think of marrying at such an age. She is with her; she will hear of my illness, and as certain as life is life, and death death, she will be here soon."
In this he calculated aright, and he felt that he did so. Mrs.
Mainwaring, on the evening of their visit to the city, considered it her duty to disclose, fully and candidly, to Lucy, the state of her father"s health, that is, as it appeared to her on their interview. Lucy, who knew that he was subject to sudden attacks upon occasions of less moment, not only became alarmed, but experienced a feeling like remorse for having, as she said, abandoned him so undutifully.
"I will return immediately," she said, weeping; "he is ill: you say he speaks of me tenderly and affectionately--oh, what have I done! Should this illness prove serious--fatal--my piece of mind were gone forever. I should consider myself as a parricide--as the direct cause of his death.
My G.o.d! perhaps even now I am miserable for life--forever--forever!"
Mrs. Mainwaring soothed her as well as she could, but she refused to hear comfort, and having desired Alley Mahon to prepare their slight luggage, she took an affectionate and tearful leave of Mrs. Mainwaring, bade _adieu_ to her husband, and was about to get into the chaise, which had been ordered from the inn in Wicklow, when Mrs. Mainwaring said:
"Now, my dear Lucy, if your father should recover, and have recourse to any abuse of his authority, by attempting again to force your inclinations and consummate your misery, remember that my door, my arms, my heart, shall ever be open to you. I do not, you will observe, suggest any act of disobedience on your part; on the contrary, I am of opinion that you should suffer everything short of the last resort, by which I mean this hateful marriage with Dunroe, sooner than abandon your father"s roof. This union is a subject on which I must see him again.
Poor Lord Cullamore I respect and venerate, for I have reason to believe that he has, for one contemplated error, had an unhappy if not a remorseful life. In the meantime, even in opposition to your father"s wishes, I say it, and in confirmation of your strongest prejudices------"
"It amounts to antipathy, Mrs. Mainwaring--to hatred, to abhorrence."
"Well, my dear child, in confirmation of them all, I implore, I entreat, I conjure, and if I had authority, I would say, I command you not to unite your fate with that young profligate."
"Do not fear me, Mrs. Mainwaring; but at present I can think of nothing but poor papa and his illness; I tremble, indeed, to think how I shall find him; and, my G.o.d, to reflect that I am the guilty cause of all this!"
They then separated, and Lucy, accompanied by Alley, proceeded to town at a pace as rapid as the animals that bore them could possibly accomplish.
On arriving in town, she was about rushing upstairs to throw herself in her father"s arms, when Gibson, who observed her, approached respectfully, and said: