We were so essentially unlike in almost every particular--I, with my innate refinement and high culture, my over-fastidious exclusiveness in the choice of a.s.sociates; and he, a big, red, coa.r.s.e brute, with neither sweetness nor light, who knew himself a Philistine, and seemed to like it--we were so unlike, that I often asked him, with a genuine desire for information, _what_ had I in common with him?
[Footnote 1: Reprinted from _Temple Bar_ for March 1879, by permission of the Proprietors.]
And yet it will scarcely be believed, perhaps, that with such good reasons for keeping apart, we were continually seeking one another"s company with a zest that knew no satiety. The only explanation I can offer for such a phenomenon is, that our mutual antipathy had become so much a part of ourselves, that we could not let it perish for lack of nourishment.
Perhaps we were not conscious of this at the time, and when we agreed to go on a walking tour together in North Wales, I think it was chiefly because we knew that we could devise no surer means of annoying one another; but, however that may be, in an ill-starred day for my own peace of mind, we started upon a journey from which but one of us was fated to return.
I pa.s.s by the painful experiences of the first few days of that unhappy tour. I will say nothing of Barnjum"s grovelling animalism, of his consummate selfishness, his more than bucolic indifference to the charms of Nature, nor even of the mean and sordid way in which he contrived to let me in for railway tickets and hotel bills.
I wish to tell my melancholy story with perfect impartiality, and I am sure that I am not reduced to exciting any prejudice to secure the sympathies of all readers.
I shall pa.s.s, then, to the memorable day when my disgust, so long pent up, so imperfectly concealed, culminated in one grand outburst of a not ign.o.ble indignation, to the hour when I summoned up moral courage to sever the bonds which linked us so unequally.
I remember it so well, that brilliant morning in June when we left the Temperance Hotel, Doldwyddlm, and scaled in sulky silence the craggy heights of Cader Idris, which, I presume, still overhang that picturesque village, while, as we ascended, an ever-changing and ever-improving panorama unrolled itself before my delighted eyes.
The air up there was keen and bracing, and I recollect that I could not repress an aesthetic shudder at the crude and primitive tone which Barnjum"s nose had a.s.sumed under atmospheric influences. I mentioned this (for we still maintained the outward forms of friendship), when he retorted, with the brutal personality which formed so strong an ingredient of his character, that if I could only see myself in that suit of mine, and that hat (referring to the dress I was then wearing), I should feel the propriety of letting his nose alone. To which I replied, with a sarcasm that I feel now was a little too crushing, that I had every intention of doing so, as it was quite painful enough to merely contemplate such a spectacle; and he, evidently meaning to be offensive, remarked, that no one could help his nose getting red, but that any man in my position could at least _dress_ like a gentleman I took no notice of this insult; a Bunting (I don"t think I mentioned before that my name is Philibert Bunting)--a Bunting can afford to pa.s.s such insinuations by; indeed, I find it actually cheaper to do so, and I flattered myself that my dress was distinguished by a sort of studied looseness, that would appeal at once to a cultivated and artistic eye, though of course Barnjum"s hard and shallow organs could not be expected to appreciate it.
I overlooked it, then, and presently we found ourselves skirting the edge of a huge chasm, whose steep sides sloped sheer down into the slate-blue waters of the lake below.
How can I hope to give an idea of the magnificent view which met our eyes as we stood there--a view of which, as far as I am aware, no description has ever yet been attempted?
To our right towered the Peaks of Dolgelly, with their saw-like outline cutting the blue sky with a faint grating sound, while the shreds of white cloud lay below in drifts. At our feet were the sun-lit waters of the lake, upon which danced a fleet of brown-sailed herring-boats; beyond was the plain of Capel Curig, and there, over on the left, sparkled the falls of Y-Dydd.
As I took all this in I felt a longing to say something worthy of the occasion. Being possessed of a considerable fund of carefully-dried and selected humour, I frequently amuse myself by a species of intellectual exercise, which consists in so framing a remark that a word or more therein may bear two entirely opposite constructions; and some of the quaint names of the vicinity seemed to me just then admirably adapted for this purpose.
I was about to gauge my dull-witted companion"s capacity by some such test, when he forestalled me.
"You ought to live up here, Bunting," said he; "you were made for this identical old mountain."
I was not displeased, for, Londoner as I am, I have the nerve and steadiness of a practised mountaineer.
"Perhaps I was," I said good-humouredly; "but how did _you_ find it out?"
"I"ll tell you," he replied, with one of his odious grins. "This is Cader Idris, ain"t it? well, and you"re a _cad awry dressed_, ain"t you?
Cader Idrissed, see?" (he was dastard enough to explain) "That"s how _I_ get at it!"
He must have been laboriously leading up to that for the last ten minutes!
I solemnly declare that it was not the personal outrage that roused me; I simply felt that a paltry verbal quibble of that description, emitted amidst such scenery and at that alt.i.tude, required a protest in the name of indignant Nature, and I protested accordingly, although with an impetuosity which I afterwards regretted, and of which I cannot even now entirely approve.
He happened to be standing on the brink of an abyss, and had just turned his back upon me, as, with a vigorous thrust of my right foot, I launched him into the blue aether, with the chuckle at his unhallowed jest still hovering upon his lips.
I am aware that by such an act I took a liberty which, under ordinary circ.u.mstances, even the licence of a life-long friendship would scarcely have justified; but I thought it only due to myself to let him see plainly that I desired our acquaintanceship to cease from that instant, and Barnjum was the kind of man upon whom a more delicate hint would have been distinctly thrown away.
I watched his progress with some interest as he rebounded from point to point during his descent. I waited--punctiliously, perhaps, until the echoes he had aroused had died away on the breeze, and then, slowly and thoughtfully, I retraced my steps, and left a spot which was already becoming a.s.sociated for me with memories the reverse of pleasurable.
I took the next up-train, and before I reached town had succeeded in dismissing the incident from my mind, or if I thought of it at all, it was only to indulge relief at the reflection that I had shaken off Barnjum for ever.
But when I had paid my cab, and was taking out my latch-key, a curious thing happened--the driver called me back.
"Beg pardon, sir," he said hoa.r.s.ely, "but I think you"ve bin and left something white in my cab!"
I turned and looked in: there, grinning at me from the interior of the hansom, over the folding-doors, was the wraith of Barnjum!
I had presence of mind enough to thank the man for his honesty, and go upstairs to my rooms with as little noise as possible. Barnjum"s ghost, as I expected, followed me in, and sat down coolly before the fire, in my arm-chair, thus giving me an opportunity of subjecting the apparition to a thorough examination.
It was quite the conventional ghost, filmy, transparent, and, though wanting firmness in outline, a really pa.s.sable likeness of Barnjum.
Before I retired to rest I had thrown both my boots and the contents of my bookcase completely through the thing, without appearing to cause it more than a temporary inconvenience--which convinced me that it was indeed a being from another world.
Its choice of garments struck me even then as decidedly unusual. I am not narrow; I cheerfully allow that, a.s.suming the necessity for apparitions at all, it is well that they should be clothed in robes of some kind; but Barnjum"s ghost delighted in a combination of costume which set the fitness of things at defiance.
It wore that evening, for instance, to the best of my recollection, striped pantaloons, a surplice, and an immense c.o.c.ked hat; but on subsequent occasions its changes of costume were so rapid and eccentric, that I ceased to pay much attention to them, and could only explain them on the supposition that somewhere in s.p.a.ce there exists a supernatural store in the nature of a theatrical wardrobe, and that Barnjum"s ghost had the run of it.
I had not been in very long before my landlady came up to see if I wanted anything, and of course as soon as she came in, she saw the wraith. At first she objected to it very strongly, declaring that she would not have such nasty things in _her_ house, and if I wanted to keep ghosts, I had better go somewhere else; but I pacified her at last by representing that it would give her no extra trouble, and that I was only taking care of it for a friend.
When she had gone, however, I sat up till late, thinking calmly over my position, and the complications which might be expected to ensue from it.
It would be very easy to harrow the reader"s feelings and work upon his sympathies here by a telling description of my terror and my guilty confusion at the unforeseen consequences of what I had done. But I think, in relating an experience of this kind, the straightforward way is always the best, and I do not care to heighten the effect by attributing to myself a variety of sensations which I do not remember to have actually felt at the time.
My first impression had not unnaturally been that the spectre was merely the product of overwrought nerves or indigestion, but it seemed improbable that a cabman should be plagued by a morbid activity of imagination, and that a landlady"s digestion could be delicate sufficiently to evolve a thing so far removed from the merely commonplace; and, reluctantly enough, I was forced to the conclusion that it was a real ghost, and would probably continue to haunt me to the end of my days.
Of course I was disgusted by this exhibition of petty revenge and low malice on the part of Barnjum, which might be tolerated perhaps in a Christmas annual, with a full-page ill.u.s.tration, but which, in real life and the height of summer, was a glaring anachronism.
Still, it was of no use to repine then; I resolved to look at the thing in a common-sense light--I told myself that I had made my ghost, and would have to live with it. And after all, I had much to be thankful for: Barnjum in the spirit was a decided improvement upon Barnjum in the flesh; and as the spirit did not appear to be gifted with speech, it was unlikely to tell tales.
Luckily for me, too, Barnjum was absolutely unknown about town: his only relative was an aunt resident at Camberwell, and so there was no danger of any suspicion being excited by chance recognition in the circles to which I belonged.
It would have been folly to shut one"s eyes to the fact that it might require considerable nerve to re-enter society closely attended by an obscure and fancifully-attired apparition.
Society would sneer considerably at first and make remarks, but I was full of tact and knowledge of the world, and I knew, too, that men have overcome far more formidable obstacles to social success than any against which I should be called upon to contend.
And so, instead of weakly giving way to unreasonable panic, I took the more manly course of determining to live it down, with what success I shall have presently to show.
When I went out after breakfast the next morning, Barnjum"s ghost insisted upon coming too, and followed me, to my intense annoyance, all down St. James"s Street; in fact, for many weeks it was almost constantly by my side, and rendered me the innocent victim of mingled curiosity and aversion.
I thought it best to affect to be unaware of the presence of anything of a ghostly nature, and when taxed with it, ascribed it to the diseased fancy of my interlocutor; but, by-and-by, as the whole town began to ring with the story, I found it impossible to pretend ignorance any longer.
So I gave out that it was an artfully-contrived piece of spectral mechanism, of which I was the inventor, and for which I contemplated taking out a patent; and this would have earned for me a high reputation in the scientific world if Messrs. Maskelyne and Cooke had not grown envious of my fame, declaring that they had long since antic.i.p.ated the secret of my machine, and could manufacture one in every way superior to it, which they presently did.
Then I was obliged to confide (in the strictest secrecy) to two members of the Peerage (both persons of irreproachable breeding, with whom I was at that time exceedingly intimate) that it was indeed a _bona fide_ apparition, and that I rather liked such things about me. I cannot explain how it happened, but in a very short time the story had gone the round of the clubs and drawing-rooms, and I found myself launched as a lion of the largest size--if it is strictly correct to speak of launching a lion.
I received invitations everywhere, on the tacit understanding that I was to bring my ghost, and the wraith of Barnjum, as some who read this may remember, was to be seen at all the best houses in town for the remainder of the season; while in the following autumn, I was asked down for the shooting by several wealthy _parvenus_, with a secret hope, unless I am greatly mistaken, that the ghost might conceive the idea of remaining with them permanently, thereby imparting to their brand-new palaces the necessary flavour of legend and mystery; but of course it never did.
To tell the truth, whatever novelty there was about it soon wore off--too soon, in fact, for, fickle as society is, I have no hesitation in a.s.serting that we ought to have lasted it at least a second season, if only Barnjum"s ghost had not persisted in making itself so ridiculously cheap that, in little more than a fortnight, society was as sick of it as I was myself.
And then the inconveniences which attached to my situation began to a.s.sert themselves more and more emphatically.