Upon one point I am clear: the whole of this system of deliberate persecution being undertaken directly on Barnjum"s account, he is morally and legally bound to reimburse me for the heavy expense and damage which have resulted therefrom.
Hitherto I have been unable to impress Barnjum with this principle, and so my wrongs are still without redress.
I may be asked why I do not make them the basis of an action at law; but persons of any refinement will understand my reluctance to resort to legal proceedings against one with whom I have at least lived on a footing of friendship. I would fain persuade, and shrink from appealing to force; and, besides, I have not succeeded as yet in persuading any solicitor--even a shady one--to take up my case.
_A TOY TRAGEDY._
A STORY FOR CHILDREN.
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This story is mostly about dolls, and I am afraid that all boys, and a good many girls who have tried hard to forget that they ever had dolls, will not care about hearing it. Still, as I have been very careful to warn them at the very beginning, they must not blame me if they read on and find that it does not interest them.
It was after dark, and the criss-cross shadows of the high wire-fender were starting in and out on the walls and ceiling of Winifred"s nursery in the flickering firelight, and Winifred"s last new doll Ethelinda was sitting on the top of a chest of drawers, leaning back languidly against the wall.
Ethelinda was a particularly handsome doll; she had soft thick golden hair, arranged in the latest fashion, full blue eyes, with rather more expression in them than dolls" eyes generally have, a rose-leaf complexion, the least little haughty curl on her red lips, and a costume that came direct from Paris.
She ought to have been happy with all these advantages, and yet she was plainly dissatisfied; she looked disgustedly at all around her, at the coloured pictures from the ill.u.s.trated papers on the walls, the staring red dolls" house, the big Noah"s ark on the shelf, and the dingy dappled rocking-horse in the corner--she despised them all.
"I do wish I was back in Regent Street again," she sighed aloud.
There was another doll sitting quite close to her, but Ethelinda had not made the remark to him, as he did not seem at all the sort of person to be encouraged.
He was certainly odd-looking: his head was a little too big for his body, and his body was very much too big for his legs; he had fuzzy white hair, and a face which was rather like Punch"s only with all the fun taken out of it.
When anyone pinched him in the chest hard, he squeaked and shut his eyes, as if it hurt him--and very likely it did. He wore a tawdry jester"s dress of red and blue, and once he had even carried a cymbal in each hand and clapped them together every time they made him squeak; but he had always disliked being obliged to make so much noise, for he was of a quiet and retiring nature, and so he had got rid of his unmusical instruments as soon as he could.
Still, even without the cymbals, his appearance was hardly respectable, and Ethelinda was a little annoyed to find him so near her, though he never guessed her feelings, which was fortunate for him, for he had fallen in love with her.
Since he first entered the nursery he had had a good deal of knocking about, but his life there had begun to seem easier to put up with from the moment she formed part of it.
He had never dared to speak to her before, she had never given him the chance; and besides, it was quite enough for him to look at her; but now he thought she meant to be friendly and begin a conversation.
"Are you very dull here then?" he asked rather nervously.
Ethelinda stared at first; no one had introduced him, and she felt very much inclined to take no notice; however, she thought after her long silence that it might amuse her to talk to somebody, even if it was only a shabby common creature like this jester.
So she said, "Dull! You were never in Regent Street, or you wouldn"t ask such a question."
"I came from the Lowther Arcade," he said.
"Oh, really?" drawled Ethelinda; "then, of course, this would be quite a pleasant change for you."
"I don"t know," he said; "I liked the Arcade. It was so lively; a little noisy perhaps--too much top spinning, and pop-gunning, and mouth-organ playing all round one--but very cheerful. Yes, I liked the Arcade."
"Very mixed the society there, isn"t it?" she asked; "aren"t you expected to know penny things?"
"Well, there _were_ a good many penny things there," he owned, "and very amusing they were. There was a wooden bird there that used to duck his head and wag his tail when they swung a weight underneath--he would have made you laugh so!"
"I hope," said Ethelinda freezingly, "I should never so far forget myself as to laugh under any circ.u.mstances--and certainly not at a _penny_ thing!"
"I wonder how much _he_ cost?" she thought; "not very much, I can see from his manner. But perhaps I can get him to tell me. Do you remember,"
she asked aloud, "what was the--ah--the premium they asked for introducing you here--did you happen to catch the amount?
"Do you mean my price?" he said; "oh, elevenpence three farthings--it was on the ticket."
"What a vulgar creature!" thought Ethelinda; "I shall really have to drop him."
"Dear me," she said,"that sounds very reasonable, very moderate indeed; but perhaps you were "reduced"?" for she thought he would be more bearable if he had cost a little more _once_.
"I don"t think so," he said; "that"s the fair selling price."
"Well, that"s very curious," said she, "because the young man at Regent Street (a most charming person, by the way) positively wouldn"t part with _me_ under thirty-five shillings, and he said so many delightful things about me that I feel quite sorry for him sometimes, when I think how he must be missing me. But then, very likely he"s saying the same thing about some other doll now!"
"I suppose he is," said the jester (he had seen something of toy-selling in his time); "it"s his business, you know."
"I don"t see how you can possibly tell," said Ethelinda, who had not expected him to agree with her; "the Lowther Arcade is not Regent Street."
The jester did not care to dispute this. "And were you very happy at Regent Street?" he asked.
"Happy?" she repeated. "Well, I don"t know; at least, one was not bored there. I was in the best set, you see, the two-guinea one, and they were always getting up something to amuse us in the window--a review, or a sham fight, or a garden-party, or something. Last winter they gave us a fancy-dress ball--I went as Mary Stuart, and was very much admired. But here----" and she finished the sentence with a disdainful little shrug.
"I don"t think you"ll find it so very bad here, when you get a little more used to it," he said; "our mistress----"
"Pray don"t use that very unpleasant word," she interrupted sharply.
"Did you never hear of "dolls" rights?" _We_ call these people "hostesses.""
"Well, our hostess, then--Winifred, she"s not unkind. She doesn"t care much about me, and that cousin of hers, Master Archie, gives me a bad time of it when I come in his way, but really she"s very polite and attentive to _you_."
"Polite and attentive!" sneered Ethelinda (and if you have never seen a doll sneer, you can have no idea how alarming it is). "I don"t call it an attention to be treated like a baby by a little chit of a girl who can"t dress herself properly yet--no style, no elegance, and actually a pinafore in the mornings!"
This is the way some of these costly lady dolls talk about their benefactresses when the gas is out and they think no one overhears them.
I don"t know whether the plain old-fashioned ones, who are not so carefully treated, but often more tenderly loved, are as bad; but it is impossible to say--dolls are exceedingly artful, and there are persons, quite clever in other things, who will tell you honestly that they do not understand them in the least.
"Then the society here," Ethelinda went on, without much consideration for the other"s feelings--perhaps she thought he was too cheap to have any--"it"s really something too dreadful for words. Why, those people in the poky little house over there, with only four rooms and a front door they can"t open, have never had the decency to call upon me. Not that I should take any notice, of course, if they did, but it just shows what they are. And the other day I actually overheard one frightful creature in a print dress, with nothing on her head but a great tin-tack, ask another horror "which she liked best--_make-believe tea or orange-juice_!""
"Well, _I_ prefer make-believe tea myself," said the jester, "because, you see, I can"t get the orange-juice down, and so it"s rather bad for the dress and complexion."
"Possibly," she said scornfully. "I"m thankful to say I"ve not been called upon to try it myself--even Miss Winifred knows better than that.
But, anyhow, it"s horribly insipid here, and I suppose it will be like this always now. I did hope once that when I went out into the world I should be a heroine and have a romance of my own."
"What is a romance?" he asked.
"I thought you wouldn"t understand me," she said; "a romance is--well, there"s champagne in it, and cigarettes, to begin with."