He looked at New York through a taxicab window without much interest. A large damp grey dirty place, very crowded, where he would not like to live, he thought. He managed himself and his baggage with ease and dispatch; his indifferent, dignified manner and his reckless use of money were ideally effective with porters, taxi drivers and the like. When he reached the hotel about eight oclock at night he went to his room and made himself carefully immaculate. He studied himself with a good deal of interest in the full length mirror which was set in the bath room door; for he had seldom encountered such a mirror and he had a considerable amount of vanity of which he was not at all conscious. It struck him that he was remarkably good-looking, and indeed he was more so than usual, his eyes bright, his face flushed, his whole body tense and poised with purpose and expectation.
He went down to the lobby, looked Julia up in the register, ascertained the number of her room, and made a note of it. Then he asked the telephone girl to call her and learn whether she was in.
Yes; she is in. She wants to know whos calling, please.
Tell her an old friend who wants to surprise her. He did not care to risk any evasion, and he also wanted his arrival to have its full dramatic effect.
The telephone girl transmitted his message.
She says she cant come down yet not for about half an hour.
Tell her Ill wait. If she asks for me Ill be in that little room there. He pointed to a small reception room opening off the mezzanine gallery, which he had selected in advance. He had planned everything carefully.
When he stood up to meet her she gave a little gasp, and took a step back.
Why, you! Ramon! How could you? You shouldnt have come. You know you shouldnt. I didnt mean that I had no idea.
He came forward and took her hand and led her to a settee. Despite all her protests he could see very plainly that he had scored heavily in his own favour. She was fl.u.s.tered with excitement and pleasure. Like all women, she was captivated by sudden, decisive action and loved the surprising and the dramatic.
They sat side by side, looking at each other, smiling, making unimportant remarks, and then looking at each other again. Ramon felt that she had changed. She was as pretty as ever, and never had she stirred him more strongly. But her appeal seemed more immediate than before; she seemed less remote. The innocence of her wide eyes was a little less noticeable and their flash of recklessness a little more so. It seemed to him that her mouth was larger, which may have been due to the fact that she had rouged it a little too much. She wore a pink decollete with straps over the shoulders one of which kept slipping down and had to be pulled up again.
Ramon was tremulous with a half-acknowledged antic.i.p.ation, but he held himself strongly in hand. He felt that he had an advantage over herthat he was more at ease and she less so than at any previous meetingand he meant to keep it.
But she was rapidly regaining her composure, and took refuge in a rather formal manner.
Are you going to be here long? she enquired in the conventional tone of mock-interest.
Just a week or so on business, he explained, determined not to be outpointed in the game. I had to come some time this spring, and when I got your note I thought I would come while you are here.
But Ill be here the rest of my life probably. This is where I live. You ought to have come when my husband was here. Id like to have you meet him. As it is, I cant see much of you, of course.
He refused to be put out by this coldness, but tried to strike a more intimate note.
Tell me about your marriage, he asked. Are you really happy? Do you like it?
She looked at the floor gravely.
You shouldnt ask that, of course, she reproved. Everyone who has just been married is very, very happy. No, I dont like it a darn bit.
Its not what you expected, then.
I dont know what I expected, but from the way people talk about it and write about it you would certainly think it was something wonderfullove and pa.s.sion and bliss and all that, I mean. I feel that Ive either been lied to or cheated of course, she added with a little side glance at him, I didnt exactly love my husband. She blushed and looked down again; then laughed softly and rather joyfully for a lady with a broken heart.
If mother could only hear me now! she observed. Shed faint. I dont care. Thats just the way I feel. I dont care! All my life Ive been trained and groomed and prepared for the grand and glorious event of marriage. Ive been taught its the most wonderful thing that can happen to anyone. Thats what all the books say, and all the people I know. And here it turns out to be a most uncomfortable bore.
He looked gravely sympathetic.
Do you think it would have been different withsomeone you did love? he enquired cautiously.
She gave him another quick thrilling glance.
I dont know, she said. Maybe I felt so different about you.
Their hands met on the settee and they both moved instinctively a little closer together.
Suddenly she jerked away from him, looking him in the eyes with her head thrown back and a smile of irony on her lips.
Arent we a couple of idiots? she demanded.
No! he declared with fierce emphasis, and throwing an arm about her, pounced on her lips.
Just then a bell boy pa.s.sed the door. They jerked apart and upright very self-consciously. Then they looked at each other and laughed. But their eyes quickly became deep and serious again, and their fingers entangled.
She sighed in mock exasperation.
For Heavens sake, say something! she demanded. We cant sit here and make eyes at each other all evening. Besides Im compromising my priceless reputation. Its after ten oclock. Ive got to go. She rose, and held out her hand, which he took without saying anything.
Good night, she said. I think you were mean to come and camp on me this way dumb as ever, I see well, good night.
She went to the door, stopped and looked back, smiled and disappeared.
Ramon went down to the lobby and roamed all over the two floors which const.i.tuted the public part of the hotel. He looked at everything and smoked a great many cigarettes, thus restlessly whiling away an hour. Then he went to a writing room. He collected some telegrams and letters about him and appeared to be very busy. When a bell boy went by, he rapped sharply on the desk with a fifty-cent piece, and as the boy stopped, tossed it to him.
Get me the key to 207! he ordered sharply; then turned back to his imaginary business.
Yes sir, said the boy. He returned in a few minutes with the key.
Ramon sat for a long moment looking at it, tremulous with a great antic.i.p.ation. He was divided between a conviction that she expected him and a fear that she did not. His fear proved groundless.
CHAPTER x.x.xIII
The next day they met for dinner at a little place near Washington Square where it was certain that none of Julias friends ever went. Julia was a singularly contented-looking criminal. Never, Ramon thought had her skin looked more velvety, her eyes deeper or more serene. He was a trifle haggard, but happy, and both of them were hungry.
Do you know? Ive made a discovery, she told him. I havent any conscience. I slept peacefully nearly all day, and when I waked up I considered the matter carefully I dont believe that I have any proper appreciation of the enormity of what Ive done at all. I have always thought that if anything like this ever happened to me I would go off and chloroform myself, but as a matter of fact I have no such intention of course, though, it was not my fault in the least. Youre so terrible! I simply couldnt help myself, and I dont see what I can do now thats comforting. But one thing is certain. Weve got to be awfully careful.
Thank Heaven, mother and Gordon are still in Florida and they wont dare to come North on Gordons account until it gets a good deal warmer. But we must be careful. Im not sorry, like I should be, but I sure am scared.
They sat for a long time after the meal, Ramon smoking a cigar, their knees touching under the table. He was filled with a vast contentment. He thought nothing of the troubled past, nor did he look into the obviously troubled future. He merely basked in the consciousness of a possession infinitely sweet.
Now began for them a life of clandestine adventure. Julia had a good many engagements, but she managed to give him some part of every day. They never met in the hotel, but usually took taxicabs separately and met in out-of-the-way parts of that great free wilderness of city. Ramon spent most of the time when he was not with her exploring for suitable meeting places. They became patrons of cellar restaurants in Greenwich Village, of French and Italian places far down town, of obscure Brooklyn hotels. If the regular fare at these establishments was not all they desired, Ramon would lavishly bribe the head waiter, call the proprietor into consultation if necessary, insist on getting what Julia wanted. He spent his money like a millionaire, and usually created the general impression that he was a wealthy foreigner. Every morning he had flowers sent to Julias room. Often they would take a taxi and spend hours riding about the streets with the blinds drawn, locked in each others arms.