The one with the bow squinted down the length of his arrow, then eased the pressure on the string as he lowered the weapon.
"Why, it"s just a boy," he said. His voice was hoa.r.s.e and rumbled with menace. He lowered the scarf from his face, revealing a mouth distorted by a vertical scar that cut across his lips. His companion threw back the hood from his head. Most of his nose had been cut off. All that was left was a mess of scarred cartilage with two holes in the center.
"Boy or not, that"s a fine horse he"s riding," he said. "He has no business with such an animal. He probably stole it himself, so there"s no sin in relieving him of what wasn"t his to begin with."
He reached for Scylla"s reins, but David pulled the horse back a step.
"I didn"t steal her," he said softly.
"What?" said the thief. "What did you say, boy? We"ll have none of your lip, or you won"t live long enough to regret the day you met us."
He brandished his sword at David. It was primitive and crudely made, and David could see the marks of the whetstone upon its blade. Scylla neighed and stepped farther away from the threat.
"I said," David repeated, "that I didn"t steal her, and she"s not going anywhere with you. Now get away from us."
"Why, you little-"
The swordsman s.n.a.t.c.hed at Scylla"s reins once again, but this time David raised her up on her hind legs, then urged her onward and down. One of her hooves struck the swordsman on the forehead, and there was a hollow, cracking sound as the man fell dead to the ground. His fellow bandit was so shocked that he failed to respond quickly enough. He was still trying to lift his bow when David spurred Scylla, his own sword now drawn and extended. He slashed at the archer, and the very tip of his sword caught the man"s throat, slicing through the rags to the flesh beneath. The bandit stumbled, and his bow fell. He raised his hand to his neck and tried to speak, but only a wet, gurgling sound emerged. Blood fountained through his fingers and scattered itself upon the snow. The front of his clothing was already drenched with red as he dropped to his knees beside his dead companion, the flow starting to ease as his heart began to fail.
David turned Scylla so that she was facing the dying man.
"I warned you!" shouted David. He was crying now, crying for Roland and his mother and his father, crying even for Georgie and Rose, for all of the things that he had lost, both those that could be named and those that could only be felt. "I asked you to leave us alone, but you wouldn"t. Now look at what it"s brought you. You idiots! You stupid, stupid men!"
The bowman"s mouth opened and closed, and his lips formed words, but no sounds came out. His eyes were fixed on the boy. David saw them narrow, as if the bowman could not quite understand what was being said or what was happening to him as he knelt in the snow, his blood pooling around him.
Then, slowly, they grew wide and calm as death gave him an explanation.
David climbed down from Scylla"s back and checked her legs to make sure that she had not injured herself during the confrontation. She seemed unhurt. There was blood on David"s sword. He thought of wiping it clean upon the ragged clothing of one of the dead men, but he did not want to touch the bodies. Neither did he want to clean it on his own clothes, for then their blood would be on him. He opened his pack and found a piece of old muslin in which Fletcher had wrapped some cheese and used the material to get rid of the blood. He tossed the bloodied cloth onto the snow before kicking the bodies of the dead men into the ditch by the side of the road. He was too weary to try to hide them better. Suddenly, he felt a rumbling in his stomach. There was a sour taste in his mouth, and his skin was slick with sweat. He stumbled away from the bodies and vomited behind a rock, retching over and over until all that he had left to bring up was foul gas.
He had killed two men. He hadn"t meant to, not really, but now they were dead because of him. The killings of the Loups and wolves at the canyon, even what he had done to the huntress in her cottage and the enchantress in her tower, had not affected him in this way. He had caused the deaths of the others, true, but now he had killed at least one of these men by tearing through his flesh with the point of a sword. Scylla"s hooves had accounted for the other, but David had been in the saddle when it happened and had raised her up and urged her on. He hadn"t even had to think about what he was doing; it had just come naturally to him, and it was that capacity for harm that frightened him more than anything else.
He wiped his mouth clean with snow, then remounted Scylla and urged her forward, leaving behind him the deed, if not the memory of it. As he rode, thick flakes began to descend, settling on his clothing and on Scylla"s head and back. There was no wind. The snow fell straight and slow, adding another layer to the drifts and covering roads, trees, bushes, and bodies, the living and the dead as one beneath its veil. The corpses of the thieves were soon shrouded in white, and there they would have remained, unmourned and undiscovered, until the coming of spring, had not a wet muzzle traced their scent and revealed their remains. The wolf gave a low howl, and the forest came alive as the pack descended, tearing flesh and gnawing bones, the weak left to fight for sc.r.a.ps while the strong and fast filled their bellies. Yet there were too many now to be fed on so meager a meal. The pack had swollen so that it was many thousands strong: white wolves from the far north, who blended into the winter landscape so perfectly that only the darkness of their eyes and the redness of their jaws gave them away; black wolves from the east, said by old wives to be the spirits of witches and demons in the form of beasts; gray wolves from the forests to the west, bigger and slower than the others, who kept to their own and did not trust the others; and, finally, the Loups, who dressed like men and hungered like wolves and wanted to rule like kings. They stayed apart from the larger pack, watching from the edge of the forest as their primitive brethren snapped and fought over the entrails of the dead bandits. A female approached them from the road. In her jaws she held a sc.r.a.p of muslin, marked with drying blood. The taste of the blood had made her mouth water, and it was all that she could do not to chew it and swallow it as she walked. Now she dropped it at the feet of her leader and stepped back obediently. Leroi lifted the rag to his nose and sniffed it. The smell of the dead men"s blood was strong and sharp, but he could still detect the boy"s scent beneath it.
Leroi had last smelled the boy in the courtyard of the fortress, led there by his scouts. They had refused to climb the stairs of the tower, disturbed by what they sensed within, but Leroi had ascended, more as a display of courage for his followers than out of any great desire to discover what lay above. With its enchantments vanquished, the tower was now merely an empty sh.e.l.l at the heart of an old fortress. All that remained of its former self was a stone chamber at the very top, littered with the remains of dead men and a scattering of dust that had once been something less than human. At its center was the raised stone dais, with the bodies of Roland and Raphael lying upon it. Leroi recognized Roland"s scent, and knew that the boy"s protector was now dead. He had been tempted to tear apart the bodies of the two knights, to desecrate their resting place, but he knew that this was what an animal would do, and he was no longer an animal. He left the bodies as they were and, although he would never have admitted it to his lieutenants, he was happy to depart the chamber and the tower. There were things that he did not understand there, and they made him uneasy.
Now he stood with the bloodied rag in his claws and felt a degree of admiration for the boy whom he was hunting. How quickly you have grown, thought Leroi. Not so long ago you were a frightened child, and now you triumph where armed knights fail. You take the lives of men and wipe your blade clean to make it ready for the next killing. It is almost a pity that you have to die.
Leroi was growing more like a man and less like a wolf with each day that pa.s.sed, or so he told himself. He still had wiry hair upon his body, and his ears were pointed and his teeth sharp, but his muzzle was now little more than a swelling around his mouth, and the bones of his face were re-forming to make him look more human and less lupine. He rarely walked on all fours, except when the necessity for speed arose or when excitement at the detection of the boy"s scent had briefly overwhelmed him. That was one of the benefits of having so many to call upon: while the horse"s odor was strong, much stronger than that of the boy or that of the man, the recent snowfalls had meant that it was frequently lost to them, but by using large numbers of scouts, the scent was quickly found again each time. They had tracked him to the village, and Leroi had been tempted to attack it with the full strength of his pack, but they had picked up the spoor of the horse and the man heading east, and they knew then that the pair were no longer with the villagers. Some of his Loups had still counseled an a.s.sault on the village, for the pack was hungry, but Leroi knew that it would only waste valuable time. It suited him also to keep the appet.i.te of the pack sharp, for hunger would increase their savagery when it came time to attack the king"s castle. He recalled the man standing upon the village"s defenses, defying Leroi even as those around him cowered. Leroi had admired the gesture, just as he admired many aspects of men"s natures. This was one of the reasons was why he was so comfortable with his own transformation, but it would not prevent him from returning to the village and making an example of the man who had tried to face him down.
The pack had lost some ground when the boy and the man left the road, for Leroi had a.s.sumed that they would continue directly to the castle of the king, and half a day had been wasted before he realized his mistake. It was then only David"s good fortune that had caused the pack to miss him as he left the Fortress of Thorns, for the wolves had been wary of the forest, uncertain of the hidden things that lived within the trees, and had skirted its deepest depths in their approach to the fortress. Once Leroi was sure that n.o.body remained alive inside, he sent a dozen scouts to follow David"s trail through the forest while the main pack headed east toward the king"s castle using a longer but safer route. When the pack was reunited with the scouts, only three remained alive. Seven had been killed by the creatures that lived within the trees. The other two-and this interested Leroi greatly-had been found with their throats cut and their snouts hacked off.
"The crooked one is protecting the boy," one of Leroi"s most trusted lieutenants had growled upon hearing the news. He, too, was becoming more like a man, although in him the transformation was slower and less p.r.o.nounced.
"He thinks that he has found a new king," replied Leroi. "But we are here to bring an end to the rule of the human kings. The boy will never claim the throne."
He barked an order, and his Loups began to gather the pack, snarling and biting at those who did not respond quickly enough. Their time was near. The castle was less than a day"s march away, and once they reached it there would be meat enough for all and the b.l.o.o.d.y rule of the new king Leroi would begin.
Leroi might have been becoming something more than an animal and less than a man, but deep, deep inside he would always remain a wolf.
XXVII.
Of the Castle, and the King"s Greeting
THE DAY Pa.s.sED, a poor, sluggish thing that departed almost gratefully as night took its place. David"s spirits were low, and his back and legs ached from hours in the saddle. Still, he had managed to adjust the stirrups so that his feet fitted comfortably in them, and he had learned how to hold the reins properly from watching Roland, so he now looked more at ease on Scylla than ever before, even if the horse remained too big for him. The snow had dwindled to a few flurries, and soon would cease entirely. The land seemed to luxuriate in its silence and its whiteness, knowing that the snow had rendered it more beautiful than before.
They came to a bend in the road. Ahead of them, the far horizon was lit by a soft, yellow glow, and David knew that they were close to the king"s castle. He felt a sudden surge of energy and urged Scylla on, even though they were both weary and hungry. Scylla broke into a trot, as though already smelling hay and fresh water and a warm barn in which to rest, but almost as quickly David reined her in again and listened carefully. He had heard something, like the sound of the wind, except that the night was still. Scylla seemed to sense it too, for she whinnied and pawed at the ground. David patted her flank, trying to calm her even as he felt himself grow tense.
"Hush, Scylla," he whispered.
The noise came again, clearer now. It was the howling of a wolf. There was no way of telling how near it was, for the snow m.u.f.fled all sound, but it was close enough to be heard, and that was too close for David"s liking. There was movement from the forest to his right, and he drew his sword, already imagining white teeth and a pink tongue and snapping jaws. Instead, the Crooked Man emerged. He had a slim, curved blade in his hand. David pointed his own sword at the approaching figure and stared down its length, the tip focused on the Crooked Man"s throat.
"Put down your sword," said the Crooked Man. "You have nothing to fear from me."
But David kept his sword exactly where it was. He was pleased to see that his arm did not tremble. The Crooked Man, by contrast, took no pleasure in David"s courage.
"Very well, then," he said. "As you wish. The wolves are coming. I don"t know how long I can hold them off, but it should give you enough time to reach the castle. Stay on the road, and don"t be tempted by shortcuts."
More howls came, closer now.
"Why are you helping me?" asked David.
"I"ve been helping you all along," replied the Crooked Man. "You were just too willful to understand. I have shadowed your path and saved your life, all so you could reach the castle. Now go to the king. He is expecting you. Go!"
And with that, the Crooked Man bounded away from David, skirting the edge of the forest, his blade making a whistling sound as he sliced at the air, already killing wolves in his mind. David watched him until he was out of sight, then, with no other choice but to do as he was advised, he urged Scylla toward the light ahead. The Crooked Man watched him go from a hollow at the base of an old oak. It had been so much more difficult than he had antic.i.p.ated, but the boy would soon be where he was supposed to be, and the Crooked Man would be one step closer to his reward.
"Georgie Porgie, pudding and pie," he sang. He licked his lips. "Georgie pudding, and Georgie pie." He giggled, then covered his mouth to stifle the laugh. He was not alone. Harsh breathing came from close by, and a plume of breath formed in the darkness. The Crooked Man curled up into a ball, only his knife hand remaining outstretched, half buried beneath the snow.
And as the wolf scout pa.s.sed by, he slit it from throat to tail, and its entrails steamed in the chill night air.
The road twisted and turned, narrowing as David drew nearer to his destination. Sheer faces of rock rose up on either side of him, creating a canyon through which the pounding of Scylla"s hooves echoed, for the snow had not fallen as thickly here, the ground sheltered by the walls above. Then David was clear of the canyon, and before him stretched a valley with a river running through it. By its banks, about a mile or so distant, stood a great castle with high, thick walls and many towers and buildings. Lights glowed in its windows, and fires were lit upon its battlements. David could see soldiers on guard. As he watched, the portcullis was raised and a group of twelve hors.e.m.e.n emerged. They crossed the drawbridge and turned in David"s direction, riding fast. Still fearful of the wolves, David rode down to meet them. As soon as they saw him, the hors.e.m.e.n urged their horses on until they reached him and surrounded him, the men at the rear turning to face the canyon, spears at the ready in case any threat should emerge from that direction.
"We have been waiting for you," announced one of the men. He was older than the others, and he bore the scars of old battles upon his face. Gray-brown hair curled from beneath his helmet, and he wore a silver breastplate studded with bronze under his dark cloak. "We are to bring you to the safety of the king"s chambers. Come now."
David rode with them, hemmed in on all sides by armed riders so that he felt at once both protected and a prisoner. They arrived at the drawbridge without incident and pa.s.sed into the castle, the portcullis instantly lowering behind them. Servants came and helped David to dismount. They wrapped him in a cloak of soft, black fur and gave him a hot, sweet drink in a silver cup to warm him. One of them took Scylla by the reins. David was about to stop him when the leader of the hors.e.m.e.n intervened.
"They will take good care of your horse, and she will be stabled close to where you sleep. I am Duncan, Captain of the King"s Guard. Have no fear. You are safe with us, an honored guest of the king."
He asked David to follow him. David did so, staying behind him as they left the outer courtyard and moved deeper into the castle. There were more people here than he had seen in his entire travels so far, and he was an object of interest to all of them. Serving girls stopped and whispered about him behind their hands. Old men bowed slightly as he pa.s.sed, and small boys looked at him with something like awe.
"They have heard a great deal about you," said Duncan.
"How?" asked David.
But all Duncan would say was that the king had his ways.
Down stone corridors they went, past spitting torches and luxuriously furnished chambers. Now the servants were replaced by courtiers, serious men with gold around their necks and papers in their hands. They stared at David with a mixture of expressions: happiness, worry, suspicion, even fear. Finally, Duncan and David arrived at a pair of great doors, carved with images of dragons and doves. Soldiers stood guard at either side, each armed with a long pike. As David and Duncan approached, the soldiers opened the doors for them, revealing a large room lined with marble pillars, its floors covered with beautifully woven carpets. Tapestries hung from the walls, giving the chamber a feeling of warmth. They depicted battles and weddings, funerals and coronations. There were more courtiers here, and more soldiers, forming two lines between which David and Duncan pa.s.sed, until they found themselves at the foot of a throne raised upon three stone steps. On the throne sat an old, old man. A gold crown lay on his brow, inset with red jewels, but it seemed to weigh heavily on him, and the skin was red and raw where the metal touched his forehead. His eyes were half closed, and his breathing was very shallow.
Duncan fell to one knee and bowed his head. He tugged at David"s leg as a hint that he should do the same. David, of course, had never been before a king and was not sure how to behave, so he followed Duncan "s example, only peering up from under the fringe of his hair so that he could see the old man.
"Your Majesty," said Duncan. "He is here."
The king stirred, and opened his eyes a little wider.
"Come closer," he said to David.
David wasn"t sure if he was supposed to rise to his feet or stay kneeling and just shuffle along. He didn"t want to offend anyone or get in any trouble.
"You may stand," said the king. "Come, let me see you."
David stood and approached the dais. The king beckoned him with a wrinkled finger, and David climbed the steps until he was facing the old man. With a great effort, the king leaned forward and gripped David"s shoulder, the weight of his entire upper body seeming to rest upon the boy. He weighed hardly anything at all, and David was reminded of the drained husks of the knights in the Fortress of Thorns.
"You have come a long way," said the king. "Few men could have achieved what you have managed to accomplish."
David did not know how to respond. "Thank you" didn"t seem right, and anyway he didn"t feel particularly proud of himself. Roland and the Woodsman were both dead, and the bodies of the two thieves lay somewhere on the road, hidden by snow. He wondered if the king knew about them too. The king seemed to know a great deal for someone who was supposed to be losing control of his kingdom.
In the end, David settled upon saying, "I"m happy to be here, Your Majesty," and he imagined the ghost of Roland being impressed by this act of diplomacy.
The king smiled and nodded, as if it were not possible that someone could be unhappy unhappy to be in his company. to be in his company.
"Your Majesty," said David. "I was told that you could help me to get home. I was told that you had a book, and in it-"
The king raised a wrinkled hand, its back a chaos of purple veins and brown spots.
"All in good time," he said. "All in good time. For now, you must eat and you must rest. In the morning, we will talk again. Duncan will show you to your quarters. You will not be far from here."
With that, David"s first audience with the king was over. He retreated backward from the high throne, because he thought that turning his back on the king might be considered rude. Duncan nodded at him approvingly, then rose and bowed to the king. He guided David to a small door to the right of the throne. From there, a set of stairs led up to a gallery overlooking the chamber, and David was shown into one of the rooms leading off it. The room was enormous, with a huge bed at one end, a table and six chairs in its center, a fireplace at the other end, and three small windows that overlooked the river and the road to the castle. A change of clothing lay upon the bed, and there was food on the table: hot chicken, potatoes, three kinds of vegetables, and fresh fruit for dessert. There was also a jug of water, and what smelled to David like hot wine in a stone pot. A large tub had been placed before the fire, with a pan of glowing coals beneath it to heat the water.
"Eat all you wish, and then sleep," said Duncan. "I will come for you in the morning. If there is anything that you need, ring the bell by your bedside. The door will not be locked, but please do not leave this room. You do not know the castle, and we would not wish you to get lost."
Duncan bowed to him, then left. David took off his shoes. He ate nearly all of the chicken and most of the fruit, and he tried the hot wine but didn"t much care for it. In a little closet beside his bed he found a wooden bench with a round hole cut in it, which pa.s.sed for a toilet. The smell was terrible, even with the bouquets of flowers and herbs that had been hung from hooks on the wall. David did what he had to do as quickly as possible, holding his breath for the entire time, then dashed out and closed the door firmly behind him before breathing again. He took off his clothes and sword and washed in the tub, then dressed himself in a stiff cotton nightshirt. Before he climbed into bed, he went to the door and opened it softly. The throne room beneath was now empty of guards, the king no longer present. However, a guard was walking along the gallery, his back to David, and David could see another guard on the opposite side. The thick walls blocked out all sound, so it was as if he and the guards were the only people alive in the castle. David closed the bedroom door and fell, exhausted, into bed. Within seconds, he was sound asleep.
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David woke suddenly, and for a few moments he was unsure of where he was. He thought that he was back in his own bed, and he looked around for his books and his games, but they were nowhere to be seen. Then, quickly, everything came back to him. He sat up and saw that fresh wood had been stacked on the fire while he was sleeping. The remains of his supper and the plates that he had used had all been taken away. Even the tub and hot pan had been removed, all without waking him from his slumbers.
David had no idea how early or late it was, but he guessed that it was the middle of the night. The castle felt as if it was asleep, and when he glanced out of his window he saw a wan moon wreathed by wisps of cloud. Something had woken him. He had been dreaming of home, and in his dream he heard voices that did not belong in the house. At first, he had simply tried to incorporate them into his dream, the same way that the tolling of his alarm clock sometimes became the ringing of a telephone in his dream if he was very tired and very deep in sleep. Now, as he sat on his soft bed, surrounded by pillows, the low murmur of two men talking was clearer to him, and he was sure that he heard his name being spoken. He pushed back the covers on the bed and crept to the door. He tried listening at the keyhole, but the voices were too m.u.f.fled to understand clearly, so he opened the door as quietly as he could and peered outside.
The guards who had been patrolling the gallery were gone. The voices were coming from the throne room below. Keeping to the shadows, David hid himself behind a large silver urn filled with ferns and looked down on the two men. One of them was the king, but he was not seated on his throne. He was sitting on the stone steps, wearing a purple dressing gown over a nightshirt of white and gold. His head was entirely bald on top and dotted with more brown spots. Lengths of white hair hung loosely over his ears and the collar of his gown, and he trembled in the cold of the great hall.
The Crooked Man sat upon the king"s throne, his legs crossed and his fingers steepled before him. He seemed unhappy with something that the king had said, for he spit on the stone floor in disgust. David heard the spittle hiss and sizzle where it landed.
"It cannot be rushed," said the Crooked Man. "A few more hours will not kill you."
"Nothing, it seems, will kill me," said the king. "You promised an end to this. I need to rest, to sleep. I want to lie in my crypt and decay to dust. You promised me that I would be allowed to die at last."
"He thinks the book will help him," said the Crooked Man. "When he finds out that it has no value, he will listen to reason, and then we will both have our reward from him."
The king shifted position, and David saw that he had a book upon his lap. It was bound in brown leather and looked very old and ragged. The king"s fingers brushed lovingly across its cover, and his face was a mask of sadness.
"The book has value to me, me," he said.
"Then you can take it to the grave with you," said the Crooked Man, "for it will be useless to anyone else. Until that time, leave it where its presence can taunt him."
The king stood painfully and tottered down the steps. He walked to a small alcove in the wall and laid the book carefully upon a gold cushion. David had not noticed it before because drapes had been drawn across it during his meeting with the king.
"Don"t worry, Your Majesty, Majesty," said the Crooked Man, his voice full of sarcasm. "Our bargain is almost concluded."
The king frowned. "It was no bargain," he said, "not for me, and not for the one whom you took to secure it."
The Crooked Man leaped from the throne and, in a single bound, landed inches from the king. But the old man did not cower or try to move away.
"You concluded no bargain that you did not wish to conclude," said the Crooked Man. "I gave you what you desired, and I made clear what was expected of you in return."
"I was a child," said the king. "I was angry. I did not understand the harm that I was doing."
"And you think that excuses you? As a child you saw things only in black and white, good and bad, what gave you pleasure and what brought you pain. Now you see everything in shades of gray. Even the care of your own kingdom is beyond you, so unwilling are you to decide what is right and wrong or even to admit that you can tell the difference. You knew what you were agreeing to on the day that we made our bargain. Regrets have clouded your memory, and now you seek to blame me for your own weaknesses. Mind your tongue, old man, or else I will be forced to remind you of the power that I still wield over you."
"What can you do to me that you have not already done?" asked the king. "All that is left is death, and you continue to deny that to me."
The Crooked Man leaned so close to the king that their noses touched. "Remember, and remember well: there are easy deaths and there are hard deaths. I can make your pa.s.sing as peaceful as an afternoon snooze, or as painful and lengthy as your withered body and brittle bones will allow. Never forget that."
The Crooked Man turned away and walked to the wall behind the throne. A tapestry of a unicorn hunt moved briefly in the torchlight, and then there was only the king, alone in his throne room. The old man went to the alcove, opened the book once more, and stared for a time at whatever was revealed in its pages, then closed it again and left through a doorway beneath the gallery. David was now alone. He waited for the guards to return, but they did not come. When five minutes had pa.s.sed, and all remained quiet, he took the stairs down to the throne room and padded softly across the floor to where the book lay.
So this was the book of which the Woodsman and Roland had spoken. This was the Book of Lost Things. Yet the Crooked Man had declared it to be of no value, even though the king appeared to treasure it more than his crown. Perhaps the Crooked Man was wrong, thought David. Maybe he simply did not understand what was contained within its pages.
David reached out and opened the book.
XXVIII.
Of the Book of Lost Things
THE FIRST PAGE to which David opened the book was decorated with a child"s drawing of a big house: there were trees, and a garden, and long windows. A smiling sun shone in the sky, and stick figures of a man, a woman, and a little boy held hands beside the front door. David turned another page and found a ticket stub for a show at a London theater. Underneath it, a child"s hand had written "My first play!" Across from it was a postcard of a seaside pier. It was very old and looked closer to brown-and-white than black-and-white. David turned more pages and saw flowers stuck down, and a tuft of dog hair ("Lucky, A Good Dog") and photographs and drawings and a piece of a woman"s dress and a broken chain, painted to look like gold but with the base metal showing through. There was a page from another book, depicting a knight slaying a dragon, and a poem about a cat and a mouse, written in a boy"s hand. The poem wasn"t very good, but at least it rhymed.
David couldn"t understand it. All of these things belonged in his world, not this one. They were tokens and souvenirs of a life not unlike his own. He read further, and came to a series of diary entries. Most of them were very short, describing days at school, trips to the seaside, even the discovery of a particularly large and hairy spider in a garden web. The tone of them changed as they went on, the entries growing longer and more detailed, but also bitter and angry. They spoke of the arrival of a little girl, a potential sister, into a family, and of a boy"s rage at the attention being paid to the new arrival. There was regret, and nostalgia for a time when it had been just "me and my mummy and daddy." David felt a kinship with the boy, but also a dislike for him. His anger at the girl, and at his parents for bringing her into his world, was so intense that it veered into pure hatred.
"I would do anything to be rid of her," read one entry. "I would give away all of my toys, and every book that I ever owned. I would give up my savings. I would sweep the floors every day for the rest of my life. I would sell my soul if she would just GO AWAY!!!!"
But the final entry was the shortest of them all. It said simply: "I have decided. I will do it."
Glued to the last page was a photograph of a family, its four members standing beside a vase of flowers in a photographic studio. There was a father with a bald head and a pretty mother wearing a white dress decorated with lace. At her feet sat a boy dressed in a sailor suit, who scowled at the camera as though the photographer had just said something nasty to him. Beside him, David could just make out the hem of a dress and a pair of small black shoes, but the rest of the girl"s image had been sc.r.a.ped away.