THE BOY WITH.
NO BOOTS.
Sheila Jeffries.
To my two stars, Pete and Jade, in memory of "Grandad".
Chapter One.
THE TREACLE JAR.
Annie waited at her garden gate, an earthenware jar clutched in her swollen red hands. If she stared deep into the landscape, she sometimes glimpsed the shine of Freddie"s hair as he bobbed along the lane below the tall elm trees. Her face was hot with anxiety. Under the stained ap.r.o.n, Annie"s heart was dark with guilt. A woman of your age, Annie. Dependent on a seven-year-old child! But that"s what she was. And only Freddie knew why.
Freddie had rescued her when she"d been clinging to the railings outside the Post Office, too terrified to move. He"d led her home on her stone feet, plod by plod, and stilled her trembling with his bright unwavering gaze.
On that October afternoon, Freddie"s footsteps were slower and slower as he trudged home from school. His face was purple, half of it a bruise from where Mr Price had thrown a book at him for daydreaming, and the other half a brighter purple from the blackberries he"d been eating. His four pockets bulged with wet beechnuts, and he smelled of autumn. Blisters scorched his small feet from walking a mile to school and a mile home in a pair of wooden clogs.
"Don"t you dare take them off," Annie had warned.
"No, Mother."
"If you do, then you take your socks off, too, and walk barefoot, and I"m not darning them, Freddie. Understand?"
"Yes, Mother."
He dreaded being given the job of darning his own socks with the long bodkin threaded with scratchy grey wool, the smooth wooden darning egg, and the hours of misery, weaving and picking and unpicking, and being scolded as he worked in the square of light from the cottage window.
Freddie paused in the lane. He didn"t want to go home. It wasn"t that he didn"t want to see his mother. It was what she would make him do.
The west wind was swishing the elm trees, their oval leaves flickering through the blue air to a.s.semble in thick drifts that filled the lane with gold. Freddie sighed. If only he could paint it. What he longed for most was a paintbox and a brush, but where would he get paper? Tonight he had to do his homework on lavatory paper, a roll of thin tracing paper, shiny one side and dull on the other.
He sat down in his favourite gateway, sinking into the inviting toastiness of fallen leaves. He scruffed them up with his small hands, covering his knees until he had completely buried his legs. Like a Babe in the Wood, an afternoon babe. Perhaps he would nod off to sleep in the drowsy sunshine. Freddie leaned back against the elm trunk and studied the colours on the wooden gate, a glaze of lime green, little hoops of silver, burning blotches of mustard-coloured lichen. This hot and textured colour framed the Somerset landscape with its lines of pollarded willows notating the fields like a page of music dip-dyed in the mystic blue of the Mendip Hills.
Freddie decided to eat ten of his precious beechnuts to fill the ache in his stomach. He counted them out carefully, laying them in a line along the lower bar of the gate. Then he peeled them, the brittle cases gleaming auburn in the sun, and cupped the tiny triangular nuts in his hand. He put them into his mouth all at once. That way they tasted nuttier and made more of a mouthful. Freddie liked autumn. He liked the mellow sun and the apple orchards, and the morning puddles curled with interesting ice. Autumn was full of ripe berries and hazelnuts. One morning Freddie had found a mushroom the size of a dinner plate growing in the field. Annie had fried it in goose fat and seven of them had feasted on it.
He sat for longer than it took to eat the ten beechnuts, licking the crumbs from his teeth, and picking "old man"s beard" from the hedge. His blue inquisitive eyes stared into its tendrils, wondering at the wisps of fluff protecting the cl.u.s.tered dark seeds. He picked a rose hip and twirled its leathery scarlet fruit thoughtfully between his finger and thumb. He noticed that its black top was a perfect pentagon, and Mr Price had drawn a pentagon on the blackboard that day for them to copy on their slates.
"Like a haystack," he"d said. "A pentagon. Like a haystack." That was before he threw the Palgrave"s Golden Treasury at Freddie"s head.
"Stupid boy daydreaming again! Is that how you"re going to live your life?"
The bruise ached and his eye hurt when he blinked. The longer he sat buried in the golden elm leaves, the drowsier Freddie became. The bees buzzed deeper, and the starlings began their four o"clock twittering, filling the half-bare poplars with a black rippling as if someone had scattered them into the light. Freddie listened, and through the mosaic of the starlings" song, he could hear Annie calling him.
"Freddie! Fred!"
A little wind-blown voice from such a huge woman, the cry was a blend of anger and genuine desperate need. Freddie sighed and shoved his feet into the hated clogs.
"Coming."
He clumped down the lane, hearing the church clock striking four. Why was he late? He could see the cottage now with its sagging thatch. He heard the chickens muttering and smelled the c.o.ke oven. Tiredness draped its threadbare cloak over his small shoulder blades. He longed to go inside and creep to the brown corner by the window and read his brown book, and disappear into the brown comfort of home.
But his mother was there, as he knew she would be, standing at the wicket gate, brandishing the dreaded jar. She was like the earthenware jar, solid as fired clay, but old, the glaze cracked, the smile chipped, the knowledge gone stale inside. In that moment, Freddie felt glad he had a mother to soak up his tiredness. He leaned on her, his cheek against the heavy damp ap.r.o.n, which smelled of cheese. He could sometimes make her be a proper mother, even when she didn"t want to be. He made cracks in her earthenware armour.
She pushed him away.
"Get on down the shop," she said. "They"ve got some treacle."
"I want a drink." Freddie turned on the garden tap and guzzled the cold bright water.
"Hurry up. The queue will be long. Don"t come back until you"ve got some."
It was no use appealing. Freddie digested Annie"s expression as he took the jar with both hands. He saw the frustration in her eyes. Then a spark, a frown of concern.
"Freddie?"
"Yes Mother."
"What happened to your face?"
"Mr Price threw a book at me."
"What for?"
"Daydreaming."
"Serves you right. You go on now and get that treacle."
Freddie turned and walked off as smartly as he could, his little back square with anger. Not again. Please not again, Mother. Every day I have to stand in that queue. Why me? I"m tired out from school. I"m starving hungry. I get cold in the queue. Do I have to? Why can"t I have boots? Why is there a war? I didn"t want the war, did I?
The sunlight was lengthening bars of amber gold as Freddie reached the village. He walked past the blue-lias cottages with their scrubbed hamstone sills, past the church with its monster yew tree covered in mistle thrushes squabbling over the berries. The street was full of leaves. Freddie could hear the queue even before he saw it, an aggrieved babbling. It was long, wrapped around the market cross like a k.n.o.bbly scarf, mostly women in long skirts and shawls, a few children. There was no playing, but only queuing, and shuffling forward.
Between shuffles, Freddie ate beechnuts, leaving a trail of husks behind him. He stood there frozen for what seemed like hours, but the church clock was striking five by the time he reached the shop, terrified it would close and send him home shamefaced with an empty jar.
He could see the Hessian sacks on the floor of the shop, and the shadowed eyes of Mrs Borden as she ladled the gleaming sepia-dark treacle into people"s jars. She was reaching deeper and deeper into the barrel, and counting the queue as she looked out of the shop. People were grumbling as they came away with less and less treacle. Freddie knew why his mother wanted it so much. Black treacle was the only kind of sugar you could get in the 191418 war. She used it to sweeten the baking, and for making hot drinks, or for something to spread on the thick yellow cornbread. It was as bitter as the cornbread was bland, but better than nothing. Freddie felt those words had been stamped on his head the day he was born. Better than nothing.
"There"s just a spoonful left, Freddie." Mrs Borden looked at him with a face like a squashed apple. "It"s so difficult to judge it right, and you were last in the queue."
"I can help you sc.r.a.pe it." Freddie leaned over to look in the barrel, his heart already pounding with anxiety about how to face his mother with nothing.
Mrs Borden handed him a wooden spatula and he reached into the barrel and sc.r.a.ped the dark streaks from the sides.
"Don"t get it in your hair, dear. Such lovely blond hair you"ve got."
Together they sc.r.a.ped the ladle, and the handle of the ladle, and around the lip of the barrel. Finally he had a pathetic dollop of treacle, which hardly covered the base of the earthenware jar.
"Better than nothing."
"Yes. Better than nothing, Freddie. Come earlier tomorrow, dear. We"ve got corn meal coming in."
Freddie nodded. He couldn"t speak. Mrs Borden patted him on the shoulder with a hand deeply ingrained with dark treacle, and smiled at him kindly. He backed away in case he cried. It seemed to Freddie that no one was allowed to cry because of the war. Everyone beamed stoically, especially the women.
His tiredness deepened as he trudged home, as if he dragged its cloak through heavy mud. The afternoon had darkened and the sky shone like the inside of a saucepan lid. Flocks of yellow hammers fluttered along the hedges, and barn owls circled low across the fields, their plumage cream and silent.
Freddie felt giddy with hunger and anxiety as he pushed open the door of the cottage. Annie was stoking the c.o.ke oven, her huge arms glistening in the firelight. On the table was a bowl of something she had mixed, waiting for the treacle. Freddie stood in the doorway, close to the heavy curtain, its fusty folds comfortingly dark. Suddenly the firelit room rocked like a boat. He fell forward onto the stone floor. The earthenware jar smashed, and so did his head. He heard Annie"s scream fly past him and disappear into the whirling darkness.
Chapter Two.
LIES.
Doctor Stewart threw his bike against the hedge, unlatched the wicket gate and reached Annie"s cottage door in brisk strides. Sparrows chirruped in the thick ivy that covered the walls, its tendrils catching in his shock of white hair as he pushed open the door. He was used to this place. In his younger days he had delivered all four of Annie"s children in the polished attic bedroom, and he"d spent some rowdy evenings playing cards with Freddie"s dad, Levi, the two of them hunched over a green baize table while Annie pounded dough in the kitchen.
Delivering Freddie had been memorably different from most of the births Doctor Stewart had managed. The first song thrush was singing on a crystal morning in February when Freddie had emerged easily and quickly.
"An angel," Annie had gasped when Freddie was put in her arms, not crying, but staring into her soul with eyes the colour of blue cornflowers. And when Levi held his new baby son for the first time and stroked the quiff of blond hair with a gentle, grime-encrusted finger, Freddie"s intense gaze had moved the giant of a man to tears.
"He"s different," he"d mumbled. "Different from the others. He"s . . ." Levi had wanted to say "heaven-sent" but it seemed an unmanly sort of comment. Gruffly he handed the baby back to his beaming wife.
"I got to work now." Then he"d gone out and flung his hat high up into the morning sun. "A boy! A boy! After two girls, I got a boy!"
Freddie would be seven now, Doctor Stewart thought, as he pulled aside the heavy brown curtain. The kitchen floor was splattered with blood, and the broken treacle jar. He raced up the stairs.
"Where are you, Annie? It"s Doctor Stewart."
"In here. In the front bedroom."
Visibly trembling, Annie sat at Freddie"s bedside, a blood-soaked rag in her hand.
"Calm down, Annie, he"s not dead."
Numbly she moved back and let the doctor examine her precious son who lay unconscious in his little iron bed with its horsehair mattress and coa.r.s.e grey and red blanket. He examined Freddie in a methodical silence, frowning over the child"s bruised face and swelling nose. Then he peeled back the blanket and saw the boy"s thin scarred legs and blistered feet.
"Look at the state of his feet. How did they get like this?"
Annie hung her head. "We"ve no shoes for him, Doctor."
"These blisters are going septic"
Everything he said sounded like an accusation to Annie. Raising Freddie with the Great War going on had been difficult. She"d wanted a happy childhood for him, wanted him to be rosy-faced and robust like her other children had been, carefree and healthy.
"Have you got salt in the house, Annie?"
"Yes, a block in the larder."
"You must bathe his feet in warm salty water. Every day. Twice a day."
"Yes, Doctor."
"And he"s very thin. Undernourished."
Annie sat absolutely still, afraid that any small movement she made might produce another curt diagnosis. But the fat tears kept on running over her cheeks, and the suppressed need for a good cry manifested a hot pain in her throat.
"Will you tell me how this happened, Annie?"
She blurted out the story to its bitter end, only omitting the real reason why she had sent Freddie to fetch the treacle.
"Is he going to die?" she asked finally.
"Not yet. But he"s seriously concussed, malnourished and, I would say, exhausted."
Freddie"s eyelids flickered open. He stared at Doctor Stewart who shook his head and smiled rea.s.suringly.
"It"s all right. You"ll be fine. Just a b.u.mp on the nose and a little cut on your head that bled a lot. You be quiet now, Freddie. I"ll come and see you again in the morning. No school tomorrow."
"Mr Price threw a book at my head," said Freddie clearly, "and it was Palgrave"s Golden Treasury, and it"s got a poem I really like in it. Shall I say it to you? It"s about . . ."
"That"ll be the Innisfree thing," said Annie. "He knows it by heart."
"No, Freddie. Not now. You go back to sleep."
Annie sat holding Freddie"s small hand in her red fingers, watching his eyes closing. Doctor Stewart folded his stethoscope into its wooden box. "Is it worth a jar of treacle?" He laid a kindly hand on Annie"s humped shoulder, looking into her face in the October twilight. "I"m telling you Annie, you mustn"t expect Freddie to do so much when he"s undernourished."
"I know, I know." Annie began to rock herself to and fro, the gentle rhythm easing the pain of her guilt.
"You can go to the shop, Annie. While he"s at school, can"t you?"
Annie nodded, avoiding Doctor Stewart"s probing eyes. Her darkest secret was the terror she felt at going out, the way her heart hammered and the elm trees swayed towards her, and the road spun like a slow spinning top. She wasn"t ill. It was how her mother had been. Housebound. Perpetually afraid. Agoraphobic. But tell the doctor? Never. He"d have her locked up in a mental hospital. Things would have to go on as they were. She"d find a way of giving Freddie more food, and a pair of boots.
Yet Freddie knew about her phobia, though she hadn"t told him. She depended on Freddie, on his inner light, his depth and compa.s.sion. He"s only a child, she thought now, a frail child. He might die.
"Why does he get hit so often at school?"