"Miss Audrey, my dear--" began Pierson, in reproof, but Uncle Geoff interrupted her. He did not seem at all vexed, but rather amused. I did not like that, I would almost rather he had been vexed.
"Never mind, nurse," he said. "I like children--and grown people too for that matter--to speak out. Of course you may stay and come in the cab if you would rather, Audrey. But in that case I fear I shall not see any more of you to-night. I have one or two serious cases," he went on, turning to Pierson, "and may be very late of coming home. But no doubt Mrs. Partridge will make you comfortable, and Audrey here seems a host in herself. Good-night, little people."
He stooped and kissed us--kindly but rather hurriedly--and then he put us all into a cab, and left the servant who was with him to come after with the luggage.
"It is better not to keep them waiting," he said to Pierson as we were driving away.
"Your uncle is very kind and considering," said Pierson; she always said "considering" for "considerate." "I wonder you spoke that way to him, Miss Audrey."
"I didn"t speak any way to him," I said crossly. "I don"t see that it was very kind to want to send me away from the boys. Mother told me I was to take care of them, and I"m going to do what she told me."
"And I"m sure if you"re going to teach them to get into naughty tempers and to be so cross, they"d be better without you to take care of them,"
said Pierson.
That was her way; she always said something to make us more cross instead of saying some little gentle thing to smooth us as mamma did.
n.o.body ever made me so cross just in that kind of way as Pierson did. I am sometimes quite ashamed when I remember it. Just then I did not answer her again or say any more. I was too tired, and I felt that if I said anything else I should begin to cry again, and I didn"t want Mrs.
Partridge to see me with red eyes. Tom and Racey pressed themselves close to me in the cab, and Tom whispered, "Never mind, Audrey.
Pierson"s an ugly cross thing. We"ll do what you tell us, always--won"t we, Racey?"
And Racey said "Yes, always," and then, poor little boys, they both patted my hands and tried to comfort me. They always did like that when Pierson was cross, and I don"t think she much liked it, and I felt that it was rather a pity to vex her when she had meant to be kind, but still I didn"t feel much inclined to make friends.
So we drove on--_what_ a long way it seemed! We had never been in London before, and the streets and houses seemed as if they would never come to an end. It was a very wet evening; I dare say it looked much less dull and gloomy now than it had been earlier in the day, for the gas lighted up the streets, and the shops looked bright and cheerful. I could not but look at them with interest, what quant.i.ties there were, how nice it would have been to come to London with mother, and to have gone about buying lots of pretty things; but now it was quite different. And once when I saw from the cab-window a poor, but neatly-dressed little girl about my own size walking along by her mother, holding her hand and looking quite happy in spite of the rain, I felt so miserable I could do nothing but press more closely the two little hands that still lay in mine, and repeat to myself the promise I had made to mother. "Oh I _will_ try to take care of them and make them happy and good till you come back," and there was a great deal of comfort in the thought, especially when I went on to make, as I was very fond of doing, pictures of papa and mother coming home again, and of them saying how good Tom and Racey were, and what great care I must have taken of them. I only wished--especially since she had spoken crossly to me--that it had not been settled for Pierson to stay with us. I felt so sure I could take better care of the boys than any one else.
But my thoughts and plans were interrupted by our stopping at last.
Uncle Geoff"s house was in a street in which there were no shops. It was a dull-looking street at all times; to-night of course we could see nothing but just the house where we stopped. It looked big and dull to Tom and me as we went in; Racey, poor little fellow, didn"t know anything about how it looked, for he had fallen asleep again and had to be carried in in Pierson"s arms. The hall was a regular town house hall--you know the kind I mean--not like ours at home, which was nicely carpeted and had a pretty fireplace, where in winter there was always a bright fire to welcome you on first going in; the hall at Uncle Geoff"s was cold and dull, with just oilcloth on the floor, and a stiff hall table and hat-stand, and stiff chairs; no flower-stands or plants about, such as mother was so fond of. And the servant that opened the door was rather stiff-looking too. She was the housemaid, and her name was Sarah.
It was not generally she that had to open the door, but the footman had gone to the station you know, and perhaps Sarah was cross at having to open. And far back in the hall an oldish-looking person was standing, who came forward when she saw it was us. She was dressed in black silk, and she had a cap with lilac ribbons. She looked kind but rather fussy.
"And so these are the dear children," she said. "How do you do, little missy, and little master too; and the dear baby is asleep, I see? And how did you leave your dear papa and mamma?"
"Quite well, thank you," said Tom and I together. We squeezed each other"s hands tight; we were determined not to cry before Mrs.
Partridge, for we knew it must be her, and by the way Tom squeezed my hand I quite understood that he had not taken a fancy to Mrs. Partridge, and I squeezed his again to say I hadn"t either.
We hated being called master and missy, and of all things Racey hated being called "baby." Oh how angry he would have been if he had been awake! And then I didn"t like her speaking of papa and mother in that sort of way, as if she would have liked us to say they were very ill indeed--she had such a whiney way of talking. But of course we were quite civil to her; we only squeezed each other"s hands, and n.o.body could see that.
Mrs. Partridge opened a door on the right side of the hall. It led into the dining-room. A nice fire was burning there, but still it did not look cheerful--"not a bit," I said to myself again--that thought was _always_ coming into my head--"not a bit like our dining-room at home."
But still it was nice to see a fire, and Tom and I, still holding each other"s hands, went up to it and stood on the rug looking at the pleasant blaze.
"You"ve had a cold journey I"m afraid," said Mrs. Partridge.
"Yes, ma"am, very," said Tom, who fancied she was speaking to him. He blinked his eyes as he looked up to her, for he had been asleep in the train, and coming into the light was dazzling.
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"Dear me," said Mrs. Partridge at once, "what weak eyes he has! What do you do for them, nurse? He must take them of his mamma, for our young gentlemen always had lovely eyes."
"I"m sure he doesn"t get ugly eyes from mother," I said indignantly.
"Mother has beautiful eyes, and Tom has nice eyes too. They"re not weak."
"Deary me, deary me," exclaimed Mrs. Partridge, "what a very sharp-spoken young lady! I"m sure no offence was meant, only I was sorry to see little master"s eyes so red. Don"t they hurt you, my dear?"
"No thank you, ma"am," said Tom, still holding my hand very tight.
He didn"t quite understand what had been said. He was a very little boy and very sleepy. I wondered what made him say "ma"am" to Mrs. Partridge, for of course he never did in speaking to ladies. I think it must have been some confused remembrance of our playing at ladies, for Mrs.
Partridge had a sort of peepy way of talking, something like the way we did when we were pretending ladies.
Pierson had said nothing. I don"t think _she_ liked what the old housekeeper said about mother"s eyes any better than I did, but she was vexed with me already, and more vexed still, I suppose, at my "answering back" Mrs. Partridge, and so she wouldn"t speak at all.
Then Mrs. Partridge, who all the time _meant_ to be very kind to us, you see, took us up-stairs to our rooms--they were on the second floor--above what is always the drawing-room floor in a London house, I mean, and they looked to the front. But to-night of course-- I don"t know if it is right for me to say "to-night," when I mean _that_ night, but it is easier--we did not notice whether they looked to the front or not. All we did notice was that in the one which was to be the day nursery the fire was burning cheerfully, and the table was neatly spread with a white cloth for tea.
Tom, who was looking very sad, sat down on a chair by the fire and pulled me close to stand by him.
"Audrey," he whispered, "I do feel so sad, and I don"t like that Mrs.
Partridge. Audrey, I can"t eat any tea. I didn"t think it would have been nearly so bad, mother"s going away and us coming to London. I don"t like London. I think it would have been much better, Audrey, if we had died--you and I when we had the measles."
And stooping down to kiss my poor little tired brother, I saw that two big tears were forcing themselves out of his eyes; in spite of all his trying to be manly, and not to let Mrs. Partridge see him crying, he could not keep them in any longer. I threw my arms round him and kissed his poor red eyes. "Horrid old woman," I said to myself, "to say he had ugly eyes." And a feeling came over me that I can hardly say in words, that I would put my arms round Tom and Racey and never let them go till mother came back again, and that _n.o.body_ should dare to vex them or make them cry. I felt, in that minute, as if I had grown quite big and strong to take care of them--as if I were really their mother. I kissed him and kissed him, and tried to think of something to comfort him.
"Tom, dear," I said, "do come and have your things off, and try to take some tea. There are Bath buns, Tom," I added.
But Tom still shook his head.
"No thank you, Audrey," he said. "I can"t eat anything--I can"t indeed.
It would have been better, Audrey, it would really, if you and I had died."
"But poor Racey," I said. "He would have been all alone--just fancy that."
"Perhaps they would have taken him with them," said Tom dreamily. Then he put his arms round me and leant his little round head on my shoulder.
"I"m glad I"ve got _you_, Audrey," he whispered, and in that there was some comfort. Still, altogether, I felt what he said was true; it was very sad for us.
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CHAPTER IV.
THE AIR-GARDEN.
"But children, good though they may be, Must cry sometimes when they are sad."
It was not quite so bad the next morning. That is one good thing of being a child, I suppose--at least mother says so--things never are quite so bad the next morning!
We all slept very soundly; we had three nice little beds in one rather big room, which we thought a very good plan; and the first thing that woke me was feeling something b.u.mp down on the top of me all of a sudden. It was Racey. He looked quite bright and rosy, all his tiredness gone away; and then you know he was really such a _very_ little boy--only five--that he could not be expected to remember very long about poor mother going away and all our trouble.