""Well, Lord, you"ve started me out, an" now please to show me where to go."
"Then the Lord made a house appear to me, an" He said to me that I was to walk on till I saw that house, an" then go in an" ask the people to take me. An" I travelled all day, an" didn"t come to the house till late at night; but when I saw it, sure enough, I went in, an" I told the folks the Lord sent me; an" they was Quakers, an" real kind they was to me. They jes" took me in, an" did for me as kind as ef I"d been one of "em; an" after they"d giv me supper, they took me into a room where there was a great, tall, white bed; an" they told me to sleep there. Well, honey, I was kind o" skeered when they left me alone with that great white bed; "cause I never had been in a bed in my life. It never came into my mind they could mean me to sleep in it An" so I jes" camped down under it, on the floor, an" then I slep" pretty well. In the mornin", when they came in, they asked me ef I hadn"t been asleep; an" I said, "Yes I never slep" better." An" they said, "Why, you haven"t been in the bed!" An" says I, "Laws, you didn"t think o" sech a thing as my sleepin" in dat "ar" bed, did you? I never heerd o" sech a thing in my life."
"Well, ye see, honey, I stayed an" lived with "em. An" now jes" look here: instead o" keepin" my promise an" bein" good, as I told the Lord I would, jest as soon as everything got a-goin" easy, I forgot all about G.o.d.
"Pretty well don"t need no help; an" I gin" up prayin". I lived there two or three years, an" then the slaves in New York were all set free, an" ole ma.s.sa came to our house to make a visit, an" he asked me ef I didn"t want to go back an" see the folks on the ole place. An" I told him I did. So he said, ef I"d jes" git into the wagon with him, he"d carry me over. Well, jest as I was goin" out to git into the wagon, I met G.o.d! an" says I, "O G.o.d, I didn"t know as you was so great!" An" I turned right round an" come into the house, an" set down in my room; for "t was G.o.d all around me. I could feel it burnin", burnin", burnin" all around me, an" goin" through me; an" I saw I was so wicked, it seemed as ef it would burn me up. An" I said, "O somebody, somebody, stand between G.o.d an" me! for it burns me!" Then, honey, when I said so, I felt as it were somethin" like an amberill [umbrella] that came between me an" the light, an" I felt it was somebody,-somebody that stood between me an" G.o.d; an" it felt cool, like a shade; an" says I, "Who"s this that stands between me an" G.o.d? Is it old Cato?" He was a pious old preacher; but then I seemed to see Cato in the light, an" he was all polluted an" vile, like me; an" I said, "Is it old Sally?" an" then I saw her, an" she seemed jes" so. An" then says I, "Who is this?" An" then, honey, for a while it was like the sun shinin" in a pail o" water, when it moves up an" down; for I begun to feel "t was somebody that loved me; an" I tried to know him. An" I said, "I know you! I know you! I know you!"-an" then I said, "I don"t know you! I don"t know you! I don"t know you!" An" when I said, "I know you, I know you," the light came; an" when I said, "I don"t know you, I don"t know you," it went, jes" like the sun in a pail o" water. An" finally somethin" spoke out in me an" said, "This is Jesus!" An" I spoke out with all my might, an" says I, "This is Jesus! Glory be to G.o.d!" An" then the whole world grew bright, an" the trees they waved an" waved in glory, an" every little bit o" stone on the ground shone like gla.s.s; an" I shouted an" said, "Praise, praise, praise to the Lord!" An" I begun to feel sech a love in my soul as I never felt before,-love to all creatures. An" then, all of a sudden, it stopped, an" I said, "Dar"s de white folks, that have abused you an" beat you an" abused your people,-think o" them!" But then there came another rush of love through my soul, an" I cried out loud,-"Lord, Lord, I can love even de white folks!"
"Honey, I jes" walked round an" round in a dream. Jesus loved me! I knowed it,-I felt it. Jesus was my Jesus. Jesus would love me always. I didn"t dare tell n.o.body; "twas a great secret. Everything had been got away from me that I ever had; an" I thought that ef I let white folks know about this, maybe they"d get Him away,-so I said, "I"ll keep this close. I won"t let any one know.""
"But, Sojourner, had you never been told about Jesus Christ?"
"No, honey. I hadn"t heerd no preachin",-been to no meetin". n.o.body hadn"t told me. I"d kind o" heerd of Jesus, but thought he was like Gineral Lafayette, or some o" them. But one night there was a Methodist meetin" somewhere in our parts, an" I went; an" they got up an" begun for to tell der "speriences; an" de fust one begun to speak. I started, "cause he told about Jesus. "Why," says I to myself, "dat man"s found him too!" An" another got up an" spoke, an" I said, "He"s found him, too!" An" finally I said, "Why, they all know him!" I was so happy! An" then they sung this hymn": (Here Sojourner sang, in a strange, cracked voice, but evidently with all her soul and might, misp.r.o.nouncing the English, but seeming to derive as much elevation and comfort from bad English as from good):-
"There is a holy city, A world of light above, Above the stairs and regions,[45]
Built by the G.o.d of love."
"Well, den ye see, after a while I thought I"d go back an" see de folks on de ole place. Well, you know, de law had pa.s.sed dat de culled folks was all free; an" my old missis, she had a daughter married about dis time who went to live in Alabama,-an" what did she do but give her my son, a boy about de age of dis yer, for her to take down to Alabama? When I got back to de ole place, they told me about it, an" I went right up to see ole missis, an" says I,-
""Missis, have you been an" sent my son away down to Alabama?"
""Yes, I have," says she; "he"s gone to live with your young missis."
""O Missis," says I, "how could you do it?"
""Poh!" says she, "what a fuss you make about a little n.i.g.g.e.r. Got more of "em now than you know what to do with."
"I tell you, I stretched up. I felt as tall as the world!
""Missis, says I, "I"ll have my son back agin!"
"She laughed.
""You will, you n.i.g.g.e.r? How you goin" to do it? You ha"n"t got no money."
""No, Missis,-but G.o.d has,-an" you"ll see He"ll help me!"-an" I turned round an" went out.
"O, but I was angry to have her speak to me so haughty an" so scornful, as ef my chile wasn"t worth anything. I said to G.o.d, "O Lord, render unto her double! It was a dreadful prayer, an" I didn"t know how true it would come.
"Well, I didn"t rightly know which way to turn; but I went to the Lord, an" I said to Him, "O Lord, ef I was as rich as you be, an" you was as poor as I be, I"d help you,-you know I would; and, oh, do help me!" An" I felt sure then that He would.
"Well, I talked with people, an" they said I must git the case before a grand jury. So I went into the town when they was holdin" a court, to see ef I could find any grand jury. An" I stood round the court-house, an" when they was a-comin" out, I walked right up to the grandest-lookin" one I could see, an" says I to him,-
""Sir, be you a grand jury?"
"An" then he wanted to know why I asked, an" I told him all about it; an" he asked me all sorts of questions, an" finally he says to me,-
""I think, ef you pay me ten dollars, that I"d agree to get your son for you." An" says he, pointin" to a house over the way, "You go "long an" tell your story to the folks in that house, an" I guess they"ll give you the money."
"Well, I went, an" I told them, an" they gave me twenty dollars; an" then I thought to myself, "Ef ten dollars will git him, twenty dollars will git him sartin." So I carried it to the man all out, an" said,-
""Take it all,-only be sure an" git him."
"Well, finally they got the boy brought back; an" then they tried to frighten him, an" to make him say that I wasn"t his mammy, an" that he didn"t know me; but they couldn"t make it out. They gave him to me, an" I took him an" carried him home; an" when I came to take off his clothes, there was his poor little back all covered with scars an" hard lumps, where they flogged him.
"Well, you see, honey, I told you how I prayed the Lord to render unto her double. Well, it came true; for I was up at ole missis" house not long after, an" I heerd "em readin" a letter to her how her daughter"s husband had murdered her,-how he"d thrown her down an" stamped the life out of her, when he was in liquor; an" my ole missis, she giv a screech, an" fell flat on the floor. Then says I, "O Lord, I didn"t mean all that! You took me up too quick."
"Well, I went in an" tended that poor critter all night. She was out of her mind,-a-cryin", an" callin" for her daughter; an" I held her poor ole head on my arm, an" watched for her as ef she"d been my babby. An" I watched by her, an" took care on her all through her sickness after that, an" she died in my arms, poor thing!"
In the spring of 1851, a Woman"s Rights Convention was held in Akron, Ohio. The newspapers had ridiculed such conventions, and they were looked upon as legitimate subjects for ridicule. They had been vilified and caricatured, but there was a desire through that section of the country to hear what the women would have to say for themselves, and the church in which the meeting was held was consequently crowded. Sojourner Truth was there. Mrs. Gage was president of the meeting. She said:-
"The leaders of the movement, tremblingly alive to every appearance of evil that might spring up in their midst, were many of them almost thrown into panics on the first day of the meeting, by seeing a tall, gaunt black woman, in a gray dress and uncouth sun-bonnet, march deliberately into the church and up the aisle with an air of a queen, and take her seat on the pulpit steps. A buzz of disapprobation was heard all over the house, and such words as these fell upon listening ears: "An Abolition affair! Woman"s Rights and n.i.g.g.e.rs!" "We told you so!" "Go it, old darkey!"
"The second day the work waxed warm. Methodist, Baptist, Episcopal, and Presbyterian, and Universalist ministers came in to hear and discuss the resolutions brought forth. One claimed superior rights and privileges for man because of superior intellect; another, because of the manhood of Christ. If G.o.d had desired the equality of woman, he would have given some token of his will through the birth, life, and death of the Saviour. Another gave a theological view of the sin of our first mother. There were few women in those days who dared to speak in meeting"; and the august teachers of the people, with long-winded bombast, were seeming to get the better of us, while the boys in the galleries and sneerers among the pews were enjoying hugely the discomfiture, as they supposed, of the strong-minded. Some of the tender-skinned friends were growing indignant and on the point of losing dignity, and the atmosphere of the Convention betokened a storm.
"Slowly from her seat in the corner rose Sojourner Truth, who till now had hardly lifted her head.
""Don"t let her speak!" gasped a half-dozen in my ear. She moved slowly and solemnly to the front, laid her old bonnet at her feet, and turned her great piercing eyes upon me. There was a hissing sound of disapprobation above and below. I rose and announced "Sojourner Truth," and begged the audience to keep silence a few moments. The tumult subsided at once, and every eye was fixed on this almost Amazon form, which stood nearly six feet high, head erect, and eye piercing the upper air like one in a dream. At her first word there was a profound hush. She spoke in deep tones, which, though not loud, reached every ear in the house, and away through the throng at the doors and windows.
""Well, chillen, whar dar"s so much racket dar must be som"ing out o" kilter. I tink dat "twixt de n.i.g.g.as of de Souf and de women of de Norf, all a talking about de rights, de white men will be in a fix pretty soon.
""But what"s all dis here talking "bout? Dat man ober dar say dat woman needs to be helped into carriages, and lifted ober ditches, and to hab de best place eberywhar. n.o.body eber helps me into carriages, or ober ditches or ober mud-puddles, or gives me any best place." Raising herself to her full height, and her voice to a pitch like rolling thunder, she asked, "And arn"t I a woman? Look at me. Look at my arm," and she laid bare her right arm to her shoulder, showing its tremendous muscular power. "I have ploughed, and planted, and gathered into barns, and no man could head me; and arn"t I a woman? I have borne thirteen chillen, and seen most of "em sold off into slavery, and when I cried out with a mother"s grief, none but Jesus heard; and arn"t I a woman? Den dey talks about dis ting in de head. What dis dey call it?" "Intellect," whispered some one near her. "Dat"s it, honey. What"s dat got to do wid woman"s rights or n.i.g.g.e.rs" rights? If my cup won"t hold but a pint, and yours holds a quart, wouldn"t you be mean not to let me have my little half measure full?"
"She pointed her significant finger and sent a keen glance at the minister who had made the argument. The cheering was long and loud.
""Den dat little man in black, dar, he say woman can"t have as much right as man, "cause Christ wasn"t a woman. Whar did your Christ come from?"
"Rolling thunder could not have stilled that crowd as did those deep and wonderful tones, as she stood there with outstretched arm and eye of fire. Raising her voice she repeated, "Whar did your Christ come from? From G.o.d and a woman. Man had nothing to do with him."
"O what a rebuke she gave the little man! Turning again to another objector, she took up the defence of Mother Eve. It was pointed, and witty, and solemn, and eliciting at almost every sentence deafening applause; and she ended by a.s.serting that "if de fust woman G.o.d ever made was strong enough to turn the world upside down, all herself alone, all dese togeder," and she glanced her eye over us, "ought to be able to turn it back again and git it right side up again; and now dey is asking to, the men better let "em. Bleeged to you for hearin" me, and now old Sojourner ha"n"t got notin" more to say."
"Amid roars of applause she turned to her corner, leaving more than one of us with streaming eyes and hearts beating with grat.i.tude. She had taken us up in her great strong arms and carried us over the slough of difficulty, turning the whole tide in our favor. I have never in my life seen anything like the magical influence that subdued the mobbish spirit of the day and turned the jibes and sneers of an excited crowd into notes of respect and admiration. Hundreds rushed up to shake hands with the glorious old mother and bid her G.o.d speed."
The enlistment of negro troops began at Port Royal in the fall of 1862, and by midwinter the First South Carolina, commanded by Colonel Higginson, had its ranks nearly full. There was strong prejudice in the army against employing negroes. The New Jersey troops in the department of the South were bitterly hostile. Colonel Stevenson, of Ma.s.sachusetts, a gallant officer, having imprudently given utterance to his feelings upon the subject, was arrested by General Hunter, which caused a great deal of excitement in the army, and which attracted the attention of the country to the whole subject.
The day after the arrest of Colonel Stevenson, a scene occurred in the cabin of the steamer Wyoming, plying between Beaufort and Hilton Head, which is given as a historical note. The party consisted of several ladies, one or two chaplains, fifteen or twenty officers, four newspaper correspondents, and several civilians.
A young captain in the Tenth New Jersey opened the conversation.
"I wish," said he, "that every negro was compelled to take off his hat to a white man. I consider him an inferior being."
"You differ from General Washington, who took off his hat and saluted a negro," said one of the correspondents.
"General Washington could afford to do it," said the captain, a little staggered.
"Are we to understand that in this age a captain cannot afford to equal a negro in politeness?" was the provoking question of the correspondent.
"Do you want to be buried with a n.i.g.g.e.r, and have your bones touch his in the grave?"