These phrases burst from Mitya almost hysterically. Though Andrey was surprised at him, he kept up the conversation.
"That"s right, Dmitri Fyodorovitch, you"re quite right, one mustn"t crush or torment a man, or any kind of creature, for every creature is created by G.o.d. Take a horse, for instance, for some folks, even among us drivers, drive anyhow. Nothing will restrain them, they just force it along."
"To h.e.l.l?" Mitya interrupted, and went off into his abrupt, short laugh. "Andrey, simple soul," he seized him by the shoulders again, "tell me, will Dmitri Fyodorovitch Karamazov go to h.e.l.l, or not, what do you think?"
"I don"t know, darling, it depends on you, for you are... you see, sir, when the Son of G.o.d was nailed on the Cross and died, He went straight down to h.e.l.l from the Cross, and set free all sinners that were in agony. And the devil groaned, because he thought that he would get no more sinners in h.e.l.l. And G.o.d said to him, then, "Don"t groan, for you shall have all the mighty of the earth, the rulers, the chief judges, and the rich men, and shall be filled up as you have been in all the ages till I come again." Those were His very words..."
"A peasant legend! Capital! Whip up the left, Andrey!"
"So you see, sir, who it is h.e.l.l"s for," said Andrey, whipping up the left horse, "but you"re like a little child... that"s how we look on you... and though you"re hasty-tempered, sir, yet G.o.d will forgive you for your kind heart."
"And you, do you forgive me, Andrey?"
"What should I forgive you for, sir? You"ve never done me any harm."
"No, for everyone, for everyone, you here alone, on the road, will you forgive me for everyone? Speak, simple peasant heart!"
"Oh, sir! I feel afraid of driving you, your talk is so strange."
But Mitya did not hear. He was frantically praying and muttering to himself.
"Lord, receive me, with all my lawlessness, and do not condemn me. Let me pa.s.s by Thy judgment... do not condemn me, for I have condemned myself, do not condemn me, for I love Thee, O Lord. I am a wretch, but I love Thee. If Thou sendest me to h.e.l.l, I shall love Thee there, and from there I shall cry out that I love Thee for ever and ever.... But let me love to the end.... Here and now for just five hours... till the first light of Thy day... for I love the queen of my soul... I love her and I cannot help loving her. Thou seest my whole heart... I shall gallop up, I shall fall before her and say, "You are right to pa.s.s on and leave me. Farewell and forget your victim... never fret yourself about me!""
"Mokroe!" cried Andrey, pointing ahead with his whip.
Through the pale darkness of the night loomed a solid black ma.s.s of buildings, flung down, as it were, in the vast plain. The village of Mokroe numbered two thousand inhabitants, but at that hour all were asleep, and only here and there a few lights still twinkled.
"Drive on, Andrey, I come!" Mitya exclaimed, feverishly.
"They"re not asleep," said Andrey again, pointing with his whip to the Plastunovs" inn, which was at the entrance to the village. The six windows, looking on the street, were all brightly lighted up.
"They"re not asleep," Mitya repeated joyously. "Quicker, Andrey! Gallop! Drive up with a dash! Set the bells ringing! Let all know that I have come. I"m coming! I"m coming, too!"
Andrey lashed his exhausted team into a gallop, drove with a dash and pulled up his steaming, panting horses at the high flight of steps.
Mitya jumped out of the cart just as the innkeeper, on his way to bed, peeped out from the steps curious to see who had arrived.
"Trifon Borissovitch, is that you?"
The innkeeper bent down, looked intently, ran down the steps, and rushed up to the guest with obsequious delight.
"Dmitri Fyodorovitch, your honour! Do I see you again?"
Trifon Borissovitch was a thick-set, healthy peasant, of middle height, with a rather fat face. His expression was severe and uncompromising, especially with the peasants of Mokroe, but he had the power of a.s.suming the most obsequious countenance, when he had an inkling that it was to his interest. He dressed in Russian style, with a shirt b.u.t.toning down on one side, and a full-skirted coat. He had saved a good sum of money, but was for ever dreaming of improving his position. More than half the peasants were in his clutches, everyone in the neighbourhood was in debt to him. From the neighbouring landowners he bought and rented lands which were worked by the peasants, in payment of debts which they could never shake off. He was a widower, with four grown-up daughters. One of them was already a widow and lived in the inn with her two children, his grandchildren, and worked for him like a charwoman. Another of his daughters was married to a petty official, and in one of the rooms of the inn, on the wall could be seen, among the family photographs, a miniature photograph of this official in uniform and official epaulettes. The two younger daughters used to wear fashionable blue or green dresses, fitting tight at the back, and with trains a yard long, on Church holidays or when they went to pay visits. But next morning they would get up at dawn, as usual, sweep out the rooms with a birch-broom, empty the slops, and clean up after lodgers.
In spite of the thousands of roubles he had saved, Trifon Borissovitch was very fond of emptying the pockets of a drunken guest, and remembering that not a month ago he had, in twenty-four hours, made two if not three hundred roubles out of Dmitri, when he had come on his escapade with Grushenka, he met him now with eager welcome, scenting his prey the moment Mitya drove up to the steps.
"Dmitri Fyodorovitch, dear sir, we see you once more!"
"Stay, Trifon Borissovitch," began Mitya, "first and foremost, where is she?"
"Agrafena Alexandrovna?" The inn-keeper understood at once, looking sharply into Mitya"s face. "She"s here, too..."
"With whom? With whom?"
"Some strangers. One is an official gentleman, a Pole, to judge from his speech. He sent the horses for her from here; and there"s another with him, a friend of his, or a fellow traveller, there"s no telling. They"re dressed like civilians."
"Well, are they feasting? Have they money?"
"Poor sort of a feast! Nothing to boast of, Dmitri Fyodorovitch."
"Nothing to boast of? And who are the others?"
"They"re two gentlemen from the town.... They"ve come back from Tcherny, and are putting up here. One"s quite a young gentleman, a relative of Mr. Miusov he must be, but I"ve forgotten his name... and I expect you know the other, too, a gentleman called Maximov. He"s been on a pilgrimage, so he says, to the monastery in the town. He"s travelling with this young relation of Mr. Miusov."
"Is that all?"
"Stay, listen, Trifon Borissovitch. Tell me the chief thing: What of her? How is she?"
"Oh, she"s only just come. She"s sitting with them."
"Is she cheerful? Is she laughing?"
"No, I think she"s not laughing much. She"s sitting quite dull. She"s combing the young gentleman"s hair."
"The Pole- the officer?"
"He"s not young, and he"s not an officer, either. Not him, sir. It"s the young gentleman that"s Mr. Miusov"s relation. I"ve forgotten his name."
"Kalganov?"
"That"s it, Kalganov!"
"All right. I"ll see for myself. Are they playing cards?"
"They have been playing, but they"ve left off. They"ve been drinking tea, the official gentleman asked for liqueurs."
"Stay, Trifon Borissovitch, stay, my good soul, I"ll see for myself. Now answer one more question: are the gypsies here?"
"You can"t have the gypsies now, Dmitri Fyodorovitch. The authorities have sent them away. But we"ve Jews that play the cymbals and the fiddle in the village, so one might send for them. They"d come."
"Send for them. Certainly send for them!" cried Mitya. "And you can get the girls together as you did then, Marya especially, Stepanida, too, and Arina. Two hundred roubles for a chorus!"
"Oh, for a sum like that I can get all the village together, though by now they"re asleep. Are the peasants here worth such kindness, Dmitri Fyodorovitch, or the girls either? To spend a sum like that on such coa.r.s.eness and rudeness! What"s the good of giving a peasant a cigar to smoke, the stinking ruffian! And the girls are all lousy. Besides, I"ll get my daughters up for nothing, let alone a sum like that. They"ve only just gone to bed, I"ll give them a kick and set them singing for you. You gave the peasants champagne to drink the other day, e-ech!"
For all his pretended compa.s.sion for Mitya, Trifon Borissovitch had hidden half a dozen bottles of champagne on that last occasion, and had picked up a hundred-rouble note under the table, and it had remained in his clutches.
"Trifon Borissovitch, I sent more than one thousand flying last time I was here. Do you remember?"
"You did send it flying. I may well remember. You must have left three thousand behind you."
"Well, I"ve come to do the same again, do you see?"
And he pulled out his roll of notes, and held them up before the innkeeper"s nose.
Now, listen and remember. In an hour"s time the wine will arrive, savouries, pies, and sweets- bring them all up at once. That box Andrey has got is to be brought up at once, too. Open it, and hand champagne immediately. And the girls, we must have the girls, Marya especially."
He turned to the cart and pulled out the box of pistols.
"Here, Andrey, let"s settle. Here"s fifteen roubles for the drive, and fifty for vodka... for your readiness, for your love.... Remember Karamazov!"
"I"m afraid, sir," Andrey. "Give me five roubles extra, but more I won"t take. Trifon Borissovitch, bear witness. Forgive my foolish words..."
"What are you afraid of?" asked Mitya, scanning him. "Well, go to the devil, if that"s it?" he cried, flinging him five roubles. "Now, Trifon Borissovitch, take me up quietly and let me first get a look at them, so that they don"t see me. Where are they? In the blue room?"
Trifon Borissovitch looked apprehensively at Mitya, but at once obediently did his bidding. Leading him into the pa.s.sage, he went himself into the first large room, adjoining that in which the visitors were sitting, and took the light away. Then he stealthily led Mitya in, and put him in a corner in the dark, whence he could freely watch the company without being seen. But Mitya did not look long, and, indeed, he could not see them; he saw her, his heart throbbed violently, and all was dark before his eyes.
She was sitting sideways to the table in a low chair, and beside her, on the sofa, was the pretty youth, Kalganov. She was holding his hand and seemed to be laughing, while he, seeming vexed and not looking at her, was saying something in a loud voice to Maximov, who sat the other side of the table, facing Grushenka. Maximov was laughing violently at something. On the sofa sat he, and on a chair by the sofa there was another stranger. The one on the sofa was lolling backwards, smoking a pipe, and Mitya had an impression of a stoutish, broad-faced, short little man, who was apparently angry about something. His friend, the other stranger, struck Mitya as extraordinarily tall, but he could make out nothing more. He caught his breath. He could not bear it for a minute, he put the pistol-case on a chest, and with a throbbing heart he walked, feeling cold all over, straight into the blue room to face the company.
"Aie!" shrieked Grushenka, the first to notice him.
Chapter 7.
The First and Rightful Lover.
WITH his long, rapid strides, Mitya walked straight up to the table.
"Gentlemen," he said in a loud voice, almost shouting, yet stammering at every word, "I... I"m all right! Don"t be afraid!" he exclaimed, "I- there"s nothing the matter," he turned suddenly to Grushenka, who had shrunk back in her chair towards Kalganov, and clasped his hand tightly. "I... I"m coming, too. I"m here till morning. Gentlemen, may I stay with you till morning? Only till morning, for the last time, in this same room?"
So he finished, turning to the fat little man, with the pipe, sitting on the sofa. The latter removed his pipe from his lips with dignity and observed severely: "Panie,* we"re here in private. There are other rooms."
* Pan and Panie mean Mr. in Polish. Pani means Mrs., Panovie, gentlemen.
"Why, it"s you, Dmitri Fyodorovitch! What do you mean?" answered Kalgonov suddenly. "Sit down with us. How are you?"
"Delighted to see you, dear... and precious fellow, I always thought a lot of you." Mitya responded, joyfully and eagerly, at once holding out his hand across the table.
"Aie! How tight you squeeze! You"ve quite broken my fingers," laughed Kalganov.
"He always squeezes like that, always," Grushenka put in gaily, with a timid smile, seeming suddenly convinced from Mitya"s face that he was not going to make a scene. She was watching him with intense curiosity and still some uneasiness. She was impressed by something about him, and indeed the last thing she expected of him was that he would come in and speak like this at such a moment.
"Good evening," Maximov ventured blandly on the left. Mitya rushed up to him, too.
"Good evening. You"re here, too! How glad I am to find you here, too! Gentlemen, gentlemen, I- " (He addressed the Polish gentleman with the pipe again, evidently taking him for the most important person present.) "I flew here.... I wanted to spend my last day, my last hour in this room, in this very room ... where I, too, adored... my queen.... Forgive me, Panie," he cried wildly, "I flew here and vowed- Oh, don"t be afraid, it"s my last night! Let"s drink to our good understanding. They"ll bring the wine at once.... I brought this with me." (Something made him pull out his bundle of notes.) "Allow me, panie! I want to have music, singing, a revel, as we had before. But the worm, the unnecessary worm, will crawl away, and there"ll be no more of him. I will commemorate my day of joy on my last night."
He was almost choking. There was so much, so much he wanted to say, but strange exclamations were all that came from his lips. The Pole gazed fixedly at him, at the bundle of notes in his hand; looked at Grushenka, and was in evident perplexity.
"If my suverin lady is permitting- " he was beginning.
"What does "suverin" mean? "Sovereign," I suppose?" interrupted Grushenka. "I can"t help laughing at you, the way you talk. Sit down, Mitya, what are you talking about? Don"t frighten us, please. You won"t frighten us, will you? If you won"t, I am glad to see you..."
"Me, me frighten you?" cried Mitya, flinging up his hands. "Oh, pa.s.s me by, go your way, I won"t hinder you!..."
And suddenly he surprised them all, and no doubt himself as well, by flinging himself on a chair, and bursting into tears, turning his head away to the opposite wall, while his arms clasped the back of the chair tight, as though embracing it.
"Come, come, what a fellow you are!" cried Grushenka reproachfully. "That"s just how he comes to see me- he begins talking, and I can"t make out what he means. He cried like that once before, and now he"s crying again! It"s shamefull Why are you crying? As though you had anything to cry for!" she added enigmatically, emphasising each word with some irritability.
"I... I"m not crying.... Well, good evening!" He instantly turned round in his chair, and suddenly laughed, not his abrupt wooden laugh, but a long, quivering, inaudible nervous laugh.
"Well, there you are again.... Come, cheer up, cheer up!" Grushenka said to him persuasively. "I"m very glad you"ve come, very glad, Mitya, do you hear, I"m very glad! I want him to stay here with us," she said peremptorily, addressing the whole company, though her words were obviously meant for the man sitting on the sofa. "I wish it, I wish it! And if he goes away I shall go, too!" she added with flashing eyes.
"What my queen commands is law!" p.r.o.nounced the Pole, gallantly kissing Grushenka"s hand. "I beg you, panie, to join our company," he added politely, addressing Mitya.
Mitya was jumping up with the obvious intention of delivering another tirade, but the words did not come.
"Let"s drink, Panie," he blurted out instead of making a speech. Everyone laughed.
"Good heavens! I thought he was going to begin again!" Grushenka exclaimed nervously. "Do you hear, Mitya," she went on insistently, "don"t prance about, but it"s nice you"ve brought the champagne. I want some myself, and I can"t bear liqueurs. And best of all, you"ve come yourself. We were fearfully dull here.... You"ve come for a spree again, I suppose? But put your money in your pocket. Where did you get such a lot?"
Mitya had been, all this time, holding in his hand the crumpled bundle of notes on which the eyes of all, especially of the Poles, were fixed. In confusion he thrust them hurriedly into his pocket. He flushed. At that moment the innkeeper brought in an uncorked bottle of champagne, and gla.s.ses on a tray. Mitya s.n.a.t.c.hed up the bottle, but he was so bewildered that he did not know what to do with it. Kalgonov took it from him and poured out the champagne.
"Another! Another bottle!" Mitya cried to the inn-keeper, and, forgetting to clink gla.s.ses with the Pole whom he had so solemnly invited to drink to their good understanding, he drank off his gla.s.s without waiting for anyone else. His whole countenance suddenly changed. The solemn and tragic expression with which he had entered vanished completely, and a look of something childlike came into his face. He seemed to have become suddenly gentle and subdued. He looked shyly and happily at everyone, with a continual nervous little laugh, and the blissful expression of a dog who has done wrong, been punished, and forgiven. He seemed to have forgotten everything, and was looking round at everyone with a childlike smile of delight. He looked at Grushenka, laughing continually, and bringing his chair close up to her. By degrees he had gained some idea of the two Poles, though he had formed no definite conception of them yet.
The Pole on the sofa struck him by his dignified demeanour and his Polish accent; and, above all, by his pipe. "Well, what of it? It"s a good thing he"s smoking a pipe," he reflected. The Pole"s puffy, middle-aged face, with its tiny nose and two very thin, pointed, dyed and impudent-looking moustaches, had not so far roused the faintest doubts in Mitya. He was not even particularly struck by the Pole"s absurd wig made in Siberia, with love-locks foolishly combed forward over the temples. "I suppose it"s all right since he wears a wig," he went on, musing blissfully. The other, younger Pole, who was staring insolently and defiantly at the company and listening to the conversation with silent contempt, still only impressed Mitya by his great height, which was in striking contrast to the Pole on the sofa. "If he stood up he"d be six foot three." The thought flitted through Mitya"s mind. It occurred to him, too, that this Pole must be the friend of the other, as it were, a "bodyguard," and no doubt the big Pole was at the disposal of the little Pole with the pipe. But this all seemed to Mitya perfectly right and not to be questioned. In his mood of doglike submissiveness all feeling of rivalry had died away.
Grushenka"s mood and the enigmatic tone of some of her words he completely failed to grasp. All he understood, with thrilling heart, was that she was kind to him, that she had forgiven him, and made him sit by her. He was beside himself with delight, watching her sip her gla.s.s of champagne. The silence of the company seemed somehow to strike him, however, and he looked round at everyone with expectant eyes.
"Why are we sitting here though, gentlemen? Why don"t you begin doing something?" his smiling eyes seemed to ask.
"He keeps talking nonsense, and we were all laughing," Kalgonov began suddenly, as though divining his thought, and pointing to Maximov.
Mitya immediately stared at Kalgonov and then at Maximov "He"s talking nonsense?" he laughed, his short, wooden laugh, seeming suddenly delighted at something- "ha ha!"
"Yes. Would you believe it, he will have it that all our cavalry officers in the twenties married Polish women. That"s awful rot, isn"t it?"
"Polish women?" repeated Mitya, perfectly ecstatic.
Kalgonov was well aware of Mitya"s att.i.tude to Grushenka, and he guessed about the Pole, too, but that did not so much interest him, perhaps did not interest him at all; what he was interested in was Maximov. He had come here with Maximov by chance, and he met the Poles here at the inn for the first time in his life. Grushenka he knew before, and had once been with someone to see her; but she had not taken to him. But here she looked at him very affectionately: before Mitya"s arrival, she had been making much of him, but he seemed somehow to be unmoved by it. He was a boy, not over twenty, dressed like a dandy, with a very charming fair-skinned face, and splendid thick, fair hair. From his fair face looked out beautiful pale blue eyes, with an intelligent and sometimes even deep expression, beyond his age indeed, although the young man sometimes looked and talked quite like a child, and was not at all ashamed of it, even when he was aware of it himself. As a rule he was very wilful, even capricious, though always friendly. Sometimes there was something fixed and obstinate in his expression. He would look at you and listen, seeming all the while to be persistently dreaming over something else. Often he was listless and lazy; at other times he would grow excited, sometimes, apparently, over the most trivial matters.
"Only imagine, I"ve been taking him about with me for the last four days," he went on, indolently drawling his words, quite naturally though, without the slightest affectation. "Ever since your brother, do you remember, shoved him off the carriage and sent him flying. That made me take an interest in him at the time, and I took him into the country, but he keeps talking such rot I"m ashamed to be with him. I"m taking him back."