"I know why I want to see him out here in the frost," Kolya cut him short in the despotic tone he was fond of adopting with "small boys," and Smurov ran to do his bidding.
Chapter 4.
The Lost Dog.
KOLYA leaned against the fence with an air of dignity, waiting for Alyosha to appear. Yes, he had long wanted to meet him. He had heard a great deal about him from the boys, but hitherto he had always maintained an appearance of disdainful indifference when he was mentioned, and he had even "criticised" what he heard about Alyosha. But secretely he had a great longing to make his acquaintance; there was something sympathetic and attractive in all he was told about Alyosha. So the present moment was important: to begin with, he had to show himself at his best, to show his independence. "Or he"ll think of me as thirteen and take me for a boy, like the rest of them. And what are these boys to him? I shall ask him when I get to know him. It"s a pity I am so short, though. Tuzikov is younger than I am, yet he is half a head taller. But I have a clever face. I am not good-looking. I know I"m hideous, but I"ve a clever face. I mustn"t talk too freely; if I fall into his arms all at once, he may think- Tfoo! how horrible if he should think- !"
Such were the thoughts that excited Kolya while he was doing his utmost to a.s.sume the most independent air. What distressed him most was his being so short; he did not mind so much his "hideous" face, as being so short. On the wall in a corner at home he had the year before made a pencil-mark to show his height, and every two months since he anxiously measured himself against it to see how much he had gained. But alas! he grew very slowly, and this sometimes reduced him almost to despair. His face was in reality by no means "hideous"; on the contrary, it was rather attractive, with a fair, pale skin, freckled. His small, lively grey eyes had a fearless look, and often glowed with feeling. He had rather high cheekbones; small, very red, but not very thick, lips; his nose was small and unmistakably turned up. "I"ve a regular pug nose, a regular pug nose," Kolya used to mutter to himself when he looked in the looking-gla.s.s, and he always left it with indignation. "But perhaps I haven"t got a clever face?" he sometimes thought, doubtful even of that. But it must not be supposed that his mind was preoccupied with his face and his height. On the contrary, however bitter the moments before the looking-gla.s.s were to him, he quickly forgot them, and forgot them for a long time, "abandoning himself entirely to ideas and to real life," as he formulated it to himself.
Alyosha came out quickly and hastened up to Kolya. Before he reached him, Kolya could see that he looked delighted. "Can he be so glad to see me?" Kolya wondered, feeling pleased. We may note here, in pa.s.sing, that Alyosha"s appearance had undergone a complete change since we saw him last. He had abandoned his ca.s.sock and was wearing now a wellcut coat, a soft, round hat, and his hair had been cropped short. All this was very becoming to him, and he looked quite handsome. His charming face always had a good-humoured expression; but there was a gentleness and serenity in his good-humour. To Kolya"s surprise, Alyosha came out to him just as he was, without an overcoat. He had evidently come in haste. He held out his hand to Kolya at once.
"Here you are at last! How anxious we"ve been to see you!"
"There were reasons which you shall know directly. Anyway, I am glad to make your acquaintance. I"ve long been hoping for an opportunity, and have heard a great deal about you," Kolya muttered, a little breathless.
"We should have met anyway. I"ve heard a great deal about you, too; but you"ve been a long time coming here."
"Tell me, how are things going?"
"Ilusha is very ill. He is certainly dying."
"How awful! You must admit that medicine is a fraud, Karamazov," cried Kolya warmly.
"Ilusha has mentioned you often, very often, even in his sleep, in delirium, you know. One can see that you used to be very, very dear to him... before the incident... with the knife.... Then there"s another reason.... Tell me, is that your dog?"
"Yes Perezvon."
"Not Zhutchka?" Alyosha looked at Kolya with eyes full of pity. "Is she lost for ever?"
"I know you would all like it to be Zhutchka. I"ve heard all about it." Kolya smiled mysteriously. "Listen, Karamazov, I"ll tell you all about it. That"s what I came for; that"s what I asked you to come out here for, to explain the whole episode to you before we go in," he began with animation. "You see, Karamazov, Ilusha came into the preparatory cla.s.s last spring. Well, you know what our preparatory cla.s.s is- a lot of small boys. They began teasing Ilusha at once. I am two cla.s.ses higher up, and, of course, I only look on at them from a distance. I saw the boy was weak and small, but he wouldn"t give in to them; he fought with them. I saw he was proud, and his eyes were full of fire. I like children like that. And they teased him all the more. The worst of it was he was horribly dressed at the time, his breeches were too small for him, and there were holes in his boots. They worried him about it; they jeered at him. That I can"t stand. I stood up for him at once, and gave it to them hot. I beat them, but they adore me, do you know, Karamazov?" Kolya boasted impulsively; "but I am always fond of children. I"ve two chickens in my hands at home now- that"s what detained me to-day. So they left off beating Ilusha and I took him under my protection. I saw the boy was proud. I tell you that, the boy was proud; but in the end he became slavishly devoted to me: he did my slightest bidding, obeyed me as though I were G.o.d, tried to copy me. In the intervals between the cla.s.ses he used to run to me at once" and I"d go about with him. On Sundays, too. They always laugh when an older boy makes friends with a younger one like that; but that"s a prejudice. If it"s my fancy, that"s enough. I am teaching him, developing him. Why shouldn"t I develop him if I like him? Here you, Karamazov, have taken up with all these nestlings. I see you want to influence the younger generation- to develop them, to be of use to them, and I a.s.sure you this trait in your character, which I knew by hearsay, attracted me more than anything. Let us get to the point, though. I noticed that there was a sort of softness and sentimentality coming over the boy, and you know I have a positive hatred of this sheepish sentimentality, and I have had it from a baby. There were contradictions in him, too: he was proud, but he was slavishly devoted to me, and yet all at once his eyes would flash and he"d refuse to agree with me; he"d argue, fly into a rage. I used sometimes to propound certain ideas; I could see that it was not so much that he disagreed with the ideas, but that he was simply rebelling against me, because I was cool in responding to his endearments. And so, in order to train him properly, the tenderer he was, the colder I became. I did it on purpose: that was my idea. My object was to form his character, to lick him into shape, to make a man of him... and besides... no doubt, you understand me at a word. Suddenly I noticed for three days in succession he was downcast and dejected, not because of my coldness, but for something else, something more important. I wondered what the tragedy was. I have pumped him and found out that he had somehow got to know Smerdyakov, who was footman to your late father- it was before his death, of course- and he taught the little fool a silly trick- that is, a brutal, nasty trick. He told him to take a piece of bread, to stick a pin in it, and throw it to one of those hungry dogs who snap up anything without biting it, and then to watch and see what would happen. So they prepared a piece of bread like that and threw it to Zhutchka, that s.h.a.ggy dog there"s been such a fuss about. The people of the house it belonged to never fed it at all, though it barked all day. (Do you like that stupid barking, Karamazov? I can"t stand it.) So it rushed at the bread, swallowed it, and began to squeal; it turned round and round and ran away, squealing as it ran out of sight. That was Ilusha"s own account of it. He confessed it to me, and cried bitterly. He hugged me, shaking all over. He kept on repeating "He ran away squealing": the sight of that haunted him. He was tormented by remorse, I could see that. I took it seriously. I determined to give him a lesson for other things as well. So I must confess I wasn"t quite straightforward, and pretended to be more indignant perhaps than I was. "You"ve done a nasty thing," I said, "you are a scoundrel. I won"t tell of it, of course, but I shall have nothing more to do with you for a time. I"ll think it over and let you know through Smurov"- that"s the boy who"s just come with me; he"s always ready to do anything for me- "whether I will have anything to do with you in the future or whether I give you up for good as a scoundrel." He was tremendously upset. I must own I felt I"d gone too far as I spoke, but there was no help for it. I did what I thought best at the time. A day or two after, I sent Smurov to tell him that I would not speak to him again. That"s what we call it when two schoolfellows refuse to have anything more to do with one another. Secretly I only meant to send him to Coventry for a few days and then, if I saw signs of repentance, to hold out my hand to him again. That was my intention. But what do you think happened? He heard Smurov"s message, his eyes flashed. "Tell Kra.s.sotkin for me," he cried, "that I will throw bread with pins to all the dogs- all- all of them!" "So he"s going in for a little temper. We must smoke it out of him." And I began to treat him with contempt; whenever I met him I turned away or smiled sarcastically. And just then that affair with his father happened. You remember? You must realise that he was fearfully worked up by what had happened already. The boys, seeing I"d given him up, set on him and taunted him, shouting, "Wisp of tow, wisp of tow!" And he had soon regular skirmishes with them, which I am very sorry for. They seem to have given him one very bad beating. One day he flew at them all as they were coming out of school. I stood a few yards off, looking on. And, I swear, I don"t remember that I laughed; it was quite the other way, I felt awfully sorry for him; in another minute I would have run up to take his part. But he suddenly met my eyes. I don"t know what he fancied; but he pulled out a penknife, rushed at me, and struck at my thigh, here in my right leg. I didn"t move. I don"t mind owning I am plucky sometimes, Karamazov. I simply looked at him contemptuously, as though to say, "This is how you repay all my kindness! Do it again if you like, I"m at your service." But he didn"t stab me again; he broke down; he was frightened at what he had done; he threw away the knife, burst out crying, and ran away. I did not sneak on him, of course, and I made them all keep quiet, so it shouldn"t come to the ears of the masters. I didn"t even tell my mother till it had healed up. And the wound was a mere scratch. And then I heard that the same day he"d been throwing stones and had bitten your finger- but you understand now what a state he was in! Well, it can"t be helped: it was stupid of me not to come and forgive him- that is, to make it up with him- when he was taken ill. I am sorry for it now. But I had a special reason. So now I"ve told you all about it... but I"m afraid it was stupid of me."
"Oh, what a pity," exclaimed Alyosha, with feeling, "that I didn"t know before what terms you were on with him, or I"d have come to you long ago to beg you to go to him with me. Would you believe it, when he was feverish he talked about you in delirium. I didn"t know how much you were to him! And you"ve really not succeeded in finding that dog? His father and the boys have been hunting all over the town for it. Would you believe it, since he"s been ill, I"ve three times heard him repeat with tears, "It"s because I killed Zhutchka, father, that I am ill now. G.o.d is punishing me for it." He can"t get that idea out of his head. And if the dog were found and proved to be alive, one might almost fancy the joy would cure him. We have all rested our hopes on you."
"Tell me, what made you hope that I should be the one to find him?" Kolya asked, with great curiosity. "Why did you reckon on me rather than anyone else?"
"There was a report that you were looking for the dog, and that you would bring it when you"d found it. Smurov said something of the sort. We"ve all been trying to persuade Ilusha that the dog is alive, that it"s been seen. The boys brought him a live hare: he just looked at it, with a faint smile, and asked them to set it free in the fields. And so we did. His father has just this moment come back, bringing him a mastiff pup, hoping to comfort him with that; but I think it only makes it worse."
"Tell me, Karamazov, what sort of man is the father? I know him, but what do you make of him- a mountebank, a buffoon?"
"Oh no; there are people of deep feeling who have been somehow crushed. Buffoonery in them is a form of resentful irony against those to whom they daren"t speak the truth, from having been for years humiliated and intimidated by them. Believe me, Kra.s.sotkin, that sort of buffoonery is sometimes tragic in the extreme. His whole life now is centred in Ilusha, and if Ilusha dies, he will either go mad with grief or kill himself. I feel almost certain of that when I look at him now."
"I understand you, Karamazov. I see you understand human nature," Kolya added, with feeling.
"And as soon as I saw you with a dog, I thought it was Zhutchka you were bringing."
"Wait a bit, Karamazov, perhaps we shall find it yet; but this is Perezvon. I"ll let him go in now and perhaps it will amuse Ilusha more than the mastiff pup. Wait a bit, Karamazov, you will know something in a minute. But, I say, I am keeping you here!" Kolya cried suddenly. "You"ve no overcoat on in this bitter cold. You see what an egoist I am. Oh, we are all egoists, Karamazov!"
"Don"t trouble; it is cold, but I don"t often catch cold. Let us go in, though, and, by the way, what is your name? I know you are called Kolya, but what else?"
"Nikolay- Nikolay Ivanovitch Kra.s.sotkin, or, as they say in official doc.u.ments, "Kra.s.sotkin son."" Kolya laughed for some reason, but added suddenly, "Of course I hate my name Nikolay."
"Why so?"
"It"s so trivial, so ordinary."
"You are thirteen?" asked Alyosha.
"No, fourteen- that is, I shall be fourteen very soon, in a fortnight. I"ll confess one weakness of mine, Karamazov, just to you, since it"s our first meeting, so that you may understand my character at once. I hate being asked my age, more than that... and in fact... there"s a libellous story going about me, that last week I played robbers with the preparatory boys. It"s a fact that I did play with them, but it"s a perfect libel to say I did it for my own amus.e.m.e.nt. I have reasons for believing that you"ve heard the story; but I wasn"t playing for my own amus.e.m.e.nt, it was for the sake of the children, because they couldn"t think of anything to do by themselves. But they"ve always got some silly tale. This is an awful town for gossip, I can tell you."
"But what if you had been playing for your own amus.e.m.e.nt, what"s the harm?"
"Come, I say, for my own amus.e.m.e.nt! You don"t play horses, do you?"
"But you must look at it like this," said Alyosha, smiling. "Grown-up people go to the theatre and there the adventures of all sorts of heroes are represented- sometimes there are robbers and battles, too- and isn"t that just the same thing, in a different form, of course? And young people"s games of soldiers or robbers in their playtime are also art in its first stage. You know, they spring from the growing artistic instincts of the young. And sometimes these games are much better than performances in the theatre; the only difference is that people go there to look at the actors, while in these games the young people are the actors themselves. But that"s only natural."
"You think so? Is that your idea?" Kolya looked at him intently. "Oh, you know, that"s rather an interesting view. When I go home, I"ll think it over. I"ll admit I thought I might learn something from you. I"ve come to learn of you, Karamazov," Kolya concluded, in a voice full of spontaneous feeling.
"And I of you," said Alyosha, smiling and pressing his hand.
Kolya was much pleased with Alyosha. What struck him most was that he treated him exactly like an equal and that he talked to him just as if he were "quite grown up."
"I"ll show you something directly, Karamazov; it"s a theatrical performance, too," he said, laughing nervously. "That"s why I"ve come."
"Let us go first to the people of the house, on the left. All the boys leave their coats in there, because the room is small and hot."
"Oh, I"m only coming in for a minute. I"ll keep on my overcoat. Perezvon will stay here in the pa.s.sage and be dead. Ici, Perezvon, lie down and be dead! You see how he"s dead. I"ll go in first and explore, then I"ll whistle to him when I think fit, and you"ll see, he"ll dash in like mad. Only Smurov must not forget to open the door at the moment. I"ll arrange it all and you"ll see something."
Chapter 5.
By Ilusha"s Bedside.
THE room inhabited by the family of the retired captain Snegiryov is already familiar to the reader. It was close and crowded at that moment with a number of visitors. Several boys were sitting with Ilusha, and though all of them, like Smurov, were prepared to deny that it was Alyosha who had brought them and reconciled them with Ilusha, it was really the fact. All the art he had used had been to take them, one by one, to Ilusha, without "sheepish sentimentality," appearing to do so casually and without design. It was a great consolation to Ilusha in his suffering. He was greatly touched by seeing the almost tender affection and sympathy shown him by these boys, who had been his enemies. Kra.s.sotkin was the only one missing and his absence was a heavy load on Ilusha"s heart. Perhaps the bitterest of all his bitter memories was his stabbing Kra.s.sotkin, who had been his one friend and protector. Clever little Smurov, who was the first to make it up with Ilusha, thought it was so. But when Smurov hinted to Kra.s.sotkin that Alyosha wanted to come and see him about something, the latter cut him short, bidding Smurov tell "Karamazov" at once that he knew best what to do, that he wanted no one"s advice, and that, if he went to see Ilusha, he would choose his own time for he had "his own reasons."
That was a fortnight before this Sunday. That was why Alyosha had not been to see him, as he had meant to. But though he waited he sent Smurov to him twice again. Both times Kra.s.sotkin met him with a curt, impatient refusal, sending Alyosha a message not to bother him any more, that if he came himself, he, Kra.s.sotkin, would not go to Ilusha at all. Up to the very last day, Smurov did not know that Kolya meant to go to Ilusha that morning, and only the evening before, as he parted from Smurov, Kolya abruptly told him to wait at home for him next morning, for he would go with him to the Snegiryovs, but warned him on no account to say he was coming, as he wanted to drop in casually. Smurov obeyed. Smurov"s fancy that Kolya would bring back the lost dog was based on the words Kolya had dropped that "they must be a.s.ses not to find the dog, if it was alive." When Smurov, waiting for an opportunity, timidly hinted at his guess about the dog, Kra.s.sotkin flew into a violent rage. "I"m not such an a.s.s as to go hunting about the town for other people"s dogs when I"ve got a dog of my own! And how can you imagine a dog could be alive after swallowing a pin? Sheepish sentimentality, thats what it is!
For the last fortnight Ilusha had not left his little bed under the ikons in the corner. He had not been to school since the day he met Alyosha and bit his finger. He was taken ill the same day, though for a month afterwards he was sometimes able to get up and walk about the room and pa.s.sage. But latterly he had become so weak that he could not move without help from his father. His father was terribly concerned about him. He even gave up drinking and was almost crazy with terror that his boy would die. And often, especially after leading him round the room on his arm and putting him back to bed, he would run to a dark corner in the pa.s.sage and, leaning his head against the wall, he would break into paroxysms of violent weeping, stifling his sobs that they might not be heard by Ilusha.
Returning to the room, he would usually begin doing something to amuse and comfort his precious boy: he would tell him stories, funny anecdotes, or would mimic comic people he had happened to meet, even imitate the howls and cries of animals. But Ilusha could not bear to see his father fooling and playing the buffoon. Though the boy tried not to show how he disliked it, he saw with an aching heart that his father was an object of contempt, and he was continually haunted by the memory of the "wisp of tow" and that "terrible day."
Nina, Ilusha"s gentle, crippled sister, did not like her father"s buffoonery either (Varvara had been gone for some time past to Petersburg to study at the university). But the half-imbecile mother was greatly diverted and laughed heartily when her husband began capering about or performing something. It was the only way she could be amused; all the rest of the time she was grumbling and complaining that now everyone had forgotten her, that no one treated her with respect, that she was slighted, and so on. But during the last few days she had completely changed. She began looking constantly at Ilusha"s bed in the corner and seemed lost in thought. She was more silent, quieter, and, if she cried, she cried quietly so as not to be heard. The captain noticed the change in her with mournful perplexity. The boys" visits at first only angered her, but later on their merry shouts and stories began to divert her, and at last she liked them so much that, if the boys had given up coming, she would have felt dreary without them. When the children told some story or played a game, she laughed and clapped her hands. She called some of them to her and kissed them. She was particularly fond of Smurov.
As for the captain, the presence in his room of the children, who came to cheer up Ilusha, filled his heart from the first with ecstatic joy. He even hoped that Ilusha would now get over his depression and that that would hasten his recovery. In spite of his alarm about Ilusha, he had not, till lately, felt one minute"s doubt of his boy"s ultimate recovery.
He met his little visitors with homage, waited upon them hand and foot; he was ready to be their horse and even began letting them ride on his back, but Ilusha did not like the game and it was given up. He began buying little things for them, gingerbread and nuts, gave them tea and cut them sandwiches. It must be noted that all this time he had plenty of money. He had taken the two hundred roubles from Katerina Ivanovna just as Alyosha had predicted he would. And afterwards Katerina Ivanovna, learning more about their circ.u.mstances and Ilusha"s illness, visited them herself, made the acquaintance of the family, and succeeded in fascinating the half-imbecile mother. Since then she had been lavish in helping them, and the captain, terror-stricken at the thought that his boy might be dying, forgot his pride and humbly accepted her a.s.sistance.
All this time Doctor Herzenstube, who was called in by Katerina Ivanovna, came punctually every other day, but little was gained by his visits and he dosed the invalid mercilessly. But on that Sunday morning a new doctor was expected, who had come from Moscow, where he had a great reputation. Katerina Ivanovna had sent for him from Moscow at great expense, not expressly for Ilusha, but for another object of which more will be said in its place hereafter. But, as he had come, she had asked him to see Ilusha as well, and the captain had been told to expect him. He hadn"t the slightest idea that Kolya Kra.s.sotkin was coming, though he had long wished for a visit from the boy for whom Ilusha was fretting.
At the moment when Kra.s.sotkin opened the door and came into the room, the captain and all the boys were round Ilusha"s bed, looking at a tiny mastiff pup, which had only been born the day before, though the captain had bespoken it a week ago to comfort and amuse Ilusha, who was still fretting over the lost and probably dead Zhutchka. Ilusha, who had heard three days before that he was to be presented with a puppy, not an ordinary puppy, but a pedigree mastiff (a very important point, of course), tried from delicacy of feeling to pretend that he was pleased. But his father and the boys could not help seeing that the puppy only served to recall to his little heart the thought of the unhappy dog he had killed. The puppy lay beside him feebly moving and he, smiling sadly, stroked it with his thin, pale, wasted hand. Clearly he liked the puppy, but... it wasn"t Zhutchka; if he could have had Zhutchka and the puppy, too, then he would have been completely happy.
"Kra.s.sotkin!" cried one of the boys suddenly. He was the first to see him come in.
Kra.s.sotkin"s entrance made a general sensation; the boys moved away and stood on each side of the bed, so that he could get a full view of Ilusha. The captain ran eagerly to meet Kolya.
"Please come in... you are welcome!" he said hurriedly. "Ilusha, Mr. Kra.s.sotkin has come to see you!
But Kra.s.sotkin, shaking hands with him hurriedly, instantly showed his complete knowledge of the manners of good society. He turned first to the captain"s wife sitting in her armchair, who was very ill-humoured at the moment, and was grumbling that the boys stood between her and Ilusha"s bed and did not let her see the new puppy. With the greatest courtesy he made her a bow, sc.r.a.ping his foot, and turning to Nina, he made her, as the only other lady present, a similar bow. This polite behaviour made an extremely favourable impression on the deranged lady.
"There,.you can see at once he is a young man that has been well brought up," she commented aloud, throwing up her hands; "But as for our other visitors they come in one on the top of another."
"How do you mean, mamma, one on the top of another, how is that?" muttered the captain affectionately, though a little anxious on her account.
"That"s how they ride in. They get on each other"s shoulders in the pa.s.sage and prance in like that on a respectable family. Strange sort of visitors!"
"But who"s come in like that, mamma?"
"Why, that boy came in riding on that one"s back and this one on that one"s."
Kolya was already by Ilusha"s bedside. The sick boy turned visibly paler. He raised himself in the bed and looked intently at Kolya. Kolya had not seen his little friend for two months, and he was overwhelmed at the sight of him. He had never imagined that he would see such a wasted, yellow face, such enormous, feverishly glowing eyes and such thin little hands. He saw, with grieved surprise, Ilusha"s rapid, hard breathing and dry lips. He stepped close to him, held out his hand, and almost overwhelmed, he said: "Well, old man... how are you?" But his voice failed him, he couldn"t achieve an appearance of ease; his face suddenly twitched and the corners of his mouth quivered. Ilusha smiled a pitiful little smile, still unable to utter a word. Something moved Kolya to raise his hand and pa.s.s it over Ilusha"s hair.
"Never mind!" he murmured softly to him to cheer him up, or perhaps not knowing why he said it. For a minute they were silent again.
"Hallo, so you"ve got a new puppy?" Kolya said suddenly, in a most callous voice.
"Ye-es," answered Ilusha in a long whisper, gasping for breath.
"A black nose, that means he"ll be fierce, a good house-dog," Kolya observed gravely and stolidly, as if the only thing he cared about was the puppy and its black nose. But in reality he still had to do his utmost to control his feelings not to burst out crying like a child, and do what he would he could not control it. "When it grows up, you"ll have to keep it on the chain, I"m sure."
"He"ll be a huge dog!" cried one of the boys.
"Of course he will," "a mastiff," "large," "like this," "as big as a calf," shouted several voices.
"As big as a calf, as a real calf," chimed in the captain. "I got one like that on purpose, one of the fiercest breed, and his parents are huge and very fierce, they stand as high as this from the floor.... Sit down here, on Ilusha"s bed, or here on the bench. You are welcome, we"ve been hoping to see you a long time.... You were so kind as to come with Alexey Fyodorovitch?"
Kra.s.sotkin sat on the edge of the bed, at Ilusha"s feet. Though he had perhaps prepared a free-and-easy opening for the conversation on his way, now he completely lost the thread of it.
"No... I came with Perezvon. I"ve got a dog now, called Perezvon. A Slavonic name. He"s out there... if I whistle, he"ll run in. I"ve brought a dog, too," he said, addressing Ilusha all at once. "Do you remember Zhutchka, old man?" he suddenly fired the question at him.
Ilusha"s little face quivered. He looked with an agonised expression at Kolya. Alyosha, standing at the door, frowned and signed to Kolya not to speak of Zhutchka, but he did not or would not notice.
"Where... is Zhutchka?" Ilusha asked in a broken voice.
"Oh well, my boy, your Zhutchka"s lost and done for!"
Ilusha did not speak, but he fixed an intent gaze once more on Kolya. Alyosha, catching Kolya"s eye, signed to him vigourously again, but he turned away his eyes pretending not to have noticed.
"It must have run away and died somewhere. It must have died after a meal like that," Kolya p.r.o.nounced pitilessly, though he seemed a little breathless. "But I"ve got a dog, Perezvon... A Slavonic name... I"ve brought him to show you."
"I don"t want him!" said Ilusha suddenly.
"No, no, you really must see him... it will amuse you. I brought him on purpose.... He"s the same sort of s.h.a.ggy dog.... You allow me to call in my dog, madam?" He suddenly addressed Madame Snegiryov, with inexplicable excitement in his manner.
"I don"t want him, I don"t want him!" cried Ilusha, with a mournful break in his voice. There was a reproachful light in his eyes.
"You"d better," the captain started up from the chest by the wall on which he had just sat down, "you"d better... another time," he muttered, but Kolya could not be restrained. He hurriedly shouted to Smurov, "Open the door," and as soon as it was open, he blew his whistle. Perezvon dashed headlong into the room.
"Jump, Perezvon, beg! Beg!" shouted Kolya, jumping up, and the dog stood erect on its hind-legs by Ilusha"s bedside. What followed was a surprise to everyone: Ilusha started, lurched violently forward, bent over Perezvon and gazed at him, faint with suspense.
"It"s... Zhutchka!" he cried suddenly, in a voice breaking with joy and suffering.
"And who did you think it was?" Kra.s.sotkin shouted with all his might, in a ringing, happy voice, and bending down he seized the dog and lifted him up to Ilusha.
"Look, old man, you see, blind of one eye and the left ear is torn, just the marks you described to me. It was by that I found him. I found him directly. He did not belong to anyone!" he explained, to the captain, to his wife, to Alyosha and then again to Ilusha. "He used to live in the Fedotovs" backyard. Though he made his home there, they did not feed him. He was a stray dog that had run away from the village... I found him.... You see, old man, he couldn"t have swallowed what you gave him. If he had, he must have died, he must have! So he must have spat it out, since he is alive. You did not see him do it. But the pin p.r.i.c.ked his tongue, that is why he squealed. He ran away squealing and you thought he"d swallowed it. He might well squeal, because the skin of dogs" mouths is so tender... tenderer than in men, much tenderer!" Kolya cried impetuously, his face glowing and radiant with delight. Ilusha could not speak. White as a sheet, he gazed open-mouthed at Kolya, with his great eyes almost starting out of his head. And if Kra.s.sotkin, who had no suspicion of it, had known what a disastrous and fatal effect such a moment might have on the sick child"s health, nothing would have induced him to play such a trick on him. But Alyosha was perhaps the only person in the room who realised it. As for the captain he behaved like a small child.
"Zhutchka! It"s Zhutchka!" he cried in a blissful voice, "Ilusha, this is Zhutchka, your Zhutchka! Mamma, this is Zhutchka!" He was almost weeping.
"And I never guessed!" cried Smurov regretfully. "Bravo, Kra.s.sotkin! I said he"d find the dog and here he"s found him."
"Here he"s found him!" another boy repeated gleefully.
"Kra.s.sotkin"s a brick! cried a third voice.
"He"s a brick, he"s a brick!" cried the other boys, and they began clapping.
"Wait, wait," Kra.s.sotkin did his utmost to shout above them all. "I"ll tell you how it happened, that"s the whole point. I found him, I took him home and hid him at once. I kept him locked up at home and did not show him to anyone till to-day. Only Smurov has known for the last fortnight, but I a.s.sured him this dog was called Perezvon and he did not guess. And meanwhile I taught the dog all sorts of tricks. You should only see all the things he can do! I trained him so as to bring you a well trained dog, in good condition, old man, so as to be able to say to you, "See, old man, what a fine dog your Zhutchka is now!" Haven"t you a bit of meat? He"ll show you a trick that will make you die with laughing. A piece of meat, haven"t you got any?"
The captain ran across the pa.s.sage to the landlady, where their cooking was done. Not to lose precious time, Kolya, in desperate haste, shouted to Perezvon, "Dead!" And the dog immediately turned round and lay on his back with its four paws in the air. The boys laughed, Ilusha looked on with the same suffering smile, but the person most delighted with the dog"s performance was "mamma." She laughed at the dog and began snapping her fingers and calling it, "Perezvon, Perezvon!"
"Nothing will make him get up, nothing!" Kolya cried triumphantly, proud of his success. "He won"t move for all the shouting in the world, but if I call to him, he"ll jump up in a minute. Ici, Perezvon!" The dog leapt up and bounded about, whining with delight. The captain ran back with a piece of cooked beef.
"Is it hot?" Kolya inquired hurriedly, with a business-like air, taking the meat. "Dogs don"t like hot things. No, it"s all right. Look, everybody, look, Ilusha, look, old man; why aren"t you looking? He does not look at him, now I"ve brought him."
The new trick consisted in making the dog stand motionless with his nose out and putting a tempting morsel of meat just on his nose. The luckless dog had to stand without moving, with the meat on his nose, as long as his master chose to keep him, without a movement, perhaps for half an hour. But he kept Perezvon only for a brief moment.