Of all the amazing statements that had ever been made to Carley, this one seemed the most remarkable.
"What"d you wear thet onnatural white dress fer?" he demanded, as if he had a right to be her judge.
"Unnatural?" echoed Carley.
"Sh.o.r.e. Thet"s what I said. Any woman"s dress without top or bottom is onnatural. It"s not right. Why, you looked like--like"--here he floundered for adequate expression--"like one of the devil"s angels. An"
I want to hear why you wore it."
"For the same reason I"d wear any dress," she felt forced to reply.
"Pretty Eyes, thet"s a lie. An" you know it"s a lie. You wore thet white dress to knock the daylights out of men. Only you ain"t honest enough to say so.... Even me or my kind! Even us, who"re dirt under your little feet. But all the same we"re men, an" mebbe better men than you think.
If you had to put that dress on, why didn"t you stay in your room? Naw, you had to come down an" strut around an" show off your beauty. An" I ask you--if you"re a nice girl like Flo Hutter--what"d you wear it fer?"
Carley not only was mute; she felt rise and burn in her a singular shame and surprise.
"I"m only a sheep dipper," went on Ruff, "but I ain"t no fool. A fellar doesn"t have to live East an" wear swell clothes to have sense. Mebbe you"ll learn thet the West is bigger"n you think. A man"s a man East or West. But if your Eastern men stand for such dresses as thet white one they"d do well to come out West awhile, like your lover, Glenn Kilbourne. I"ve been rustlin" round here ten years, an" I never before seen a dress like yours--an" I never heerd of a girl bein" insulted, either. Mebbe you think I insulted you. Wal, I didn"t. Fer I reckon nothin" could insult you in thet dress.... An" my last hunch is this, Pretty Eyes. You"re not what a hombre like me calls either square or game. Adios."
His bulky figure darkened the doorway, pa.s.sed out, and the light of the sky streamed into the cabin again. Carley sat staring. She heard Ruff"s spurs tinkle, then the ring of steel on stirrup, a sodden leathery sound as he mounted, and after that a rapid pound of hoofs, quickly dying away.
He was gone. She had escaped something raw and violent. Dazedly she realized it, with unutterable relief. And she sat there slowly gathering the nervous force that had been shattered. Every word that he had uttered was stamped in startling characters upon her consciousness.
But she was still under the deadening influence of shock. This raw experience was the worst the West had yet dealt her. It brought back former states of revulsion and formed them in one whole irrefutable and d.a.m.ning judgment that seemed to blot out the vaguely dawning and growing happy susceptibilities. It was, perhaps, just as well to have her mind reverted to realistic fact. The presence of Haze Ruff, the astounding truth of the contact with his huge sheep-defiled hands, had been profanation and degradation under which she sickened with fear and shame. Yet hovering back of her shame and rising anger seemed to be a pale, monstrous, and indefinable thought, insistent and accusing, with which she must sooner or later reckon. It might have been the voice of the new side of her nature, but at that moment of outraged womanhood, and of revolt against the West, she would not listen. It might, too, have been the still small voice of conscience. But decision of mind and energy coming to her then, she threw off the burden of emotion and perplexity, and forced herself into composure before the arrival of Glenn.
The dust had ceased to blow, although the wind had by no means died away. Sunset marked the west in old rose and gold, a vast flare. Carley espied a horseman far down the road, and presently recognized both rider and steed. He was coming fast. She went out and, mounting her mustang, she rode out to meet Glenn. It did not appeal to her to wait for him at the cabin; besides hoof tracks other than those made by her mustang might have been noticed by Glenn. Presently he came up to her and pulled his loping horse.
"h.e.l.lo! I sure was worried," was his greeting, as his gloved hand went out to her. "Did you run into that sandstorm?"
"It ran into me, Glenn, and buried me," she laughed.
His fine eyes lingered on her face with glad and warm glance, and the keen, apprehensive penetration of a lover.
"Well, under all that dust you look scared," he said.
"Scared! I was worse than that. When I first ran into the flying dirt I was only afraid I"d lose my way--and my complexion. But when the worst of the storm hit me--then I feared I"d lose my breath."
"Did you face that sand and ride through it all?" he queried.
"No, not all. But enough. I went through the worst of it before I reached the cabin," she replied.
"Wasn"t it great?"
"Yes--great bother and annoyance," she said, laconically.
Whereupon he reached with long, arm and wrapped it round her as they rocked side by side. Demonstrations of this nature were infrequent with Glenn. Despite losing one foot out of a stirrup and her seat in the saddle Carley rather encouraged it. He kissed her dusty face, and then set her back.
"By George! Carley, sometimes I think you"ve changed since you"ve been here," he said, with warmth. "To go through that sandstorm without one kick--one knock at my West!"
"Glenn, I always think of what Flo says--the worst is yet to come,"
replied Carley, trying to hide her unreasonable and tumultuous pleasure at words of praise from him.
"Carley Burch, you don"t know yourself," he declared, enigmatically.
"What woman knows herself? But do you know me?"
"Not I. Yet sometimes I see depths in you--wonderful possibilities--submerged under your poise--under your fixed, complacent idle att.i.tude toward life."
This seemed for Carley to be dangerously skating near thin ice, but she could not resist a retort:
"Depths in me? Why I am a shallow, transparent stream like your West Fork! ... And as for possibilities--may I ask what of them you imagine you see?"
"As a girl, before you were claimed by the world, you were earnest at heart. You had big hopes and dreams. And you had intellect, too. But you have wasted your talents, Carley. Having money, and spending it, living for pleasure, you have not realized your powers.... Now, don"t look hurt. I"m not censuring you. It"s just the way of modern life. And most of your friends have been more careless, thoughtless, useless than you.
The aim of their existence is to be comfortable, free from work, worry, pain. They want pleasure, luxury. And what a pity it is! The best of you girls regard marriage as an escape, instead of responsibility. You don"t marry to get your shoulders square against the old wheel of American progress--to help some man make good--to bring a troop of healthy American kids into the world. You bare your shoulders to the gaze of the mult.i.tude and like it best if you are strung with pearls."
"Glenn, you distress me when you talk like this," replied Carley, soberly. "You did not use to talk so. It seems to me you are bitter against women."
"Oh no, Carley! I am only sad," he said. "I only see where once I was blind. American women are the finest on earth, but as a race, if they don"t change, they"re doomed to extinction."
"How can you say such things?" demanded Carley, with spirit.
"I say them because they are true. Carley, on the level now, tell me how many of your immediate friends have children."
Put to a test, Carley rapidly went over in mind her circle of friends, with the result that she was somewhat shocked and amazed to realize how few of them were even married, and how the babies of her acquaintance were limited to three. It was not easy to admit this to Glenn.
"My dear," replied he, "if that does not show you the handwriting on the wall, nothing ever will."
"A girl has to find a husband, doesn"t she?" asked Carley, roused to defense of her s.e.x. "And if she"s anybody she has to find one in her set. Well, husbands are not plentiful. Marriage certainly is not the end of existence these days. We have to get along somehow. The high cost of living is no inconsderable factor today. Do you know that most of the better-cla.s.s apartment houses in New York will not take children? Women are not all to blame. Take the speed mania. Men must have automobiles.
I know one girl who wanted a baby, but her husband wanted a car. They couldn"t afford both."
"Carley, I"m not blaming women more than men," returned Glenn. "I don"t know that I blame them as a cla.s.s. But in my own mind I have worked it all out. Every man or woman who is genuinely American should read the signs of the times, realize the crisis, and meet it in an American way.
Otherwise we are done as a race. Money is G.o.d in the older countries.
But it should never become G.o.d in America. If it does we will make the fall of Rome pale into insignificance."
"Glenn, let"s put off the argument," appealed Carley. "I"m not--just up to fighting you today. Oh--you needn"t smile. I"m not showing a yellow streak, as Flo puts it. I"ll fight you some other time."
"You"re right, Carley," he a.s.sented. "Here we are loafing six or seven miles from home. Let"s rustle along."
Riding fast with Glenn was something Carley had only of late added to her achievements. She had greatest pride in it. So she urged her mustang to keep pace with Glenn"s horse and gave herself up to the thrill of the motion and feel of wind and sense of flying along. At a good swinging lope Calico covered ground swiftly and did not tire. Carley rode the two miles to the rim of the canyon, keeping alongside of Glenn all the way.
Indeed, for one long level stretch she and Glenn held hands. When they arrived at the descent, which necessitated slow and careful riding, she was hot and tingling and breathless, worked by the action into an exuberance of pleasure. Glenn complimented her riding as well as her rosy cheeks. There was indeed a sweetness in working at a task as she had worked to learn to ride in Western fashion. Every turn of her mind seemed to confront her with sobering ant.i.theses of thought. Why had she come to love to ride down a lonely desert road, through ragged cedars where the wind whipped her face with fragrant wild breath, if at the same time she hated the West? Could she hate a country, however barren and rough, if it had saved the health and happiness of her future husband? Verily there were problems for Carley to solve.
Early twilight purple lay low in the hollows and clefts of the canyon.
Over the western rim a pale ghost of the evening star seemed to smile at Carley, to bid her look and look. Like a strain of distant music, the dreamy hum of falling water, the murmur and melody of the stream, came again to Carley"s sensitive ear.
"Do you love this?" asked Glenn, when they reached the green-forested canyon floor, with the yellow road winding away into the purple shadows.
"Yes, both the ride--and you," flashed Carley, contrarily. She knew he had meant the deep-walled canyon with its brooding solitude.
"But I want you to love Arizona," he said.
"Glenn, I"m a faithful creature. You should be glad of that. I love New York."