"I cannot bear to deceive Mrs. Burton, Felipe. I owe her so much; she has been kinder than I have ever told you, kinder than perhaps you imagine. Besides, I care for her a great deal and I don"t see how such a difficult idea as you have suggested can ever be arranged."
In Gerry"s last words lay her confession. Felipe had triumphed. Had she tried she might have persuaded him to face his obligation, to make the sacrifice of himself which his country demanded. She was not equal to the test.
"But I do know how to manage," Felipe answered. "And I shall be very careful. I understand certain things better than you do. I have an old nurse who is married and lives not far away. She will come with us and stay with you until the ceremony is over. Afterwards she will return and explain what we have done to Mrs. Burton and my father. You can write and beg Mrs. Burton to forgive you; she will after a time, I am sure. We will be so happy, Gerry dear. I have plenty of money, as I drew all I possessed out of the bank this afternoon. I am sure it will last us for a time and then I can get hold of more."
The thing which Gerry and Felipe were planning to do was not only a foolish thing; it held dishonor and sorrow, and yet neither of them at the time seemed to appreciate this.
"Be ready the day after tomorrow, please, Gerry. I"ll ask Mrs. Burton to allow you to go for a walk or a drive with me. I promise you there shall be no difficulties. But, quick, good-night; some one is coming."
Mrs. Burton herself was walking down the beach toward them. "Come, Gerry, please, it is time you were in bed. I was frightened when I found you were not with the other girls. Felipe, I don"t think it quite fair of you to have kept Gerry away from us so long. Will you thank your father for the roses he sent me tonight?"
Felipe held out his hand.
"You are awfully kind, Mrs. Burton, and I do deserve a scolding. Gerry and I had not realized how long we had been talking, as there are so many things we like saying to each other. Will you forgive me and let me come back soon again?"
Mrs. Burton put her arm about Gerry.
"Not too soon, please, Felipe. Goodnight."
CHAPTER XVI
Gerry"s Opportunity
The next day, weary from the long strain of the rehearsals and the final production of their play, and feeling a comfortable sense of relaxation following a labor well accomplished, the Sunrise Camp Fire members spent an unusually quiet day.
Mrs. Burton remained in her little house resting and reading.
After accomplishing the necessary domestic tasks, Mrs. Webster and the girls sat about in little groups, knitting and talking over the unexpectedly brilliant success of their play.
Of the Camp Fire girls, Gerry Williams alone kept apart from the others for the greater part of the day. Now and then she would appear with her knitting and dropping down beside some one would remain for perhaps half an hour, but seldom longer. By the end of that time she seemed to grow restless and would start off on walks by herself, but never a great distance from camp. Once disappearing inside her sleeping tent, which was unoccupied, she stayed there alone for several hours.
No one paid any particular attention to Gerry or realized that she was in an unusual frame of mind. The Camp Fire girls had spent so many months together that they did not take one another"s moods seriously; besides, Gerry was not an especial favorite or intimate with any one of the girls except Sally Ashton. And Sally frequently considered Gerry far too addicted to moods, which were disturbing to her own comfortable placidity.
Indeed, Gerry"s only real friend in the Sunrise Camp Fire, the only person who in any way understood her temperament and the circ.u.mstances of her past sufficiently well to offer her real sympathy and affection, was Mrs. Burton.
On this same day it chanced that Dan Webster was away looking after a small business matter.
Billy was engaged with his labors at the war camp. But now that the play was over Mrs. Webster was beginning to concern herself more seriously with the behavior of her erratic son. Billy had taken advantage of the absorption of his family and friends to continue to pursue his own way in an even more determined and secretive fashion.
If Mrs. Burton had not spent the day inside her house, whether or not she would have observed Gerry"s restlessness, her troubled expression, her moments of pallor and the swift flush succeeding them, no one can say.
Certainly all that day never for long did Gerry have Mrs. Burton out of her mind. First she would think of Felipe and what he had asked of her and then immediately after of Mrs. Burton"s friendship and kindness.
The facts of Gerry"s life were commonplace enough, but for that reason they seemed to Gerry the harder to endure.
Her mother and father had married when they were young and clerking together in a small village store. After Gerry"s birth they conceived the idea of becoming traveling sales people.
When Gerry was a tiny child they tried taking her about with them, often leaving her alone for long, lonely hours in strange hotel rooms. After she grew older, arrangements were made for her to board in Chicago, the city her parents visited oftener than any other. But when Gerry was fourteen her father died and a year later her mother married a little town store keeper.
It was at this time Gerry Williams realized she would be forced to face the future for herself. It is true her mother and stepfather offered her a home with them and the opportunity to work in their shop. But Gerry had never cared for her mother and now hated her stepfather, while the thought of the little town store was abhorrent. Yet there was no particular reason for this att.i.tude save that Gerry had always been antagonistic to her environment for as long as she could remember.
She was so utterly unlike her own people both in appearance, manner and nature that she was a puzzle to all of them. No one of them could have told from whom she inherited her delicate prettiness, her love of luxury and refinement.
One day, learning of Mrs. Burton"s presence in Chicago, suddenly Gerry conceived the idea of going to her and applying for the position of maid. If she must work she thought that she would like better than most things to live with a famous woman and perhaps travel with her and see something of the world.
At the moment of Gerry"s arrival it chanced that by accident Mrs. Burton was at home and free from other engagements, so she decided to see and talk to her. Naturally Gerry was too young and untrained for the position she desired; moreover, Mrs. Burton had no need for the services of a maid, since Marie had been living with her a number of years. But she grew interested in her pretty guest, and feeling the need of sympathy, Gerry was glad to pour forth her story.
Ever after this visit, although no member of her family aside from her husband had been informed of the fact, Mrs. Burton had been paying Gerry"s board in Chicago during the winters, only urging her to try to educate herself for some work in the future. For several summers, as we know, Gerry had been invited to be a member of the Sunrise Camp Fire group.
Therefore in a measure Gerry realized how poor a return she would be offering should she slip away with Felipe without confessing her intention to Mrs. Burton.
Not once, but perhaps a dozen times, her mind was almost made up to find Mrs. Burton and tell her everything. For Gerry believed that by some method she could induce her friend to understand how deeply she cared for Felipe. There would be the argument of youth against their immediate marriage; but youth is not always _only_ a question of the number of years one has lived, and Gerry felt convinced that she suddenly had grown old.
Nevertheless there was always this stumbling block. How could she acknowledge her own intention and Felipe"s without betraying Felipe"s secret? To divulge the fact that he was planning to escape military service by crossing over the border into Mexico and hiding there was out of the question.
Undoubtedly Gerry should have more fully appreciated the enormity of Felipe"s purpose, his selfishness and disloyalty. Strange that she should expect to find happiness with a man who wished to begin their life together by an act of deception and cowardice! Nevertheless, by this time one must have learned to understand Gerry"s disposition sufficiently well to accept the fact that she did not _fully_ understand, so completely was she under Felipe"s influence. Yet Felipe must not be allowed to bear the entire burden of their wrong doing.
Certainly Gerry was not marrying Felipe for his sake only, but also for the happiness and the ease which she believed the future would insure her.
Notwithstanding this, since life is seldom guided by one clear motive, but by many mixed ones, Gerry was also ardently and sincerely in love.
Her failure to grasp the extent of the danger she and Felipe were facing and the possible injury to her own reputation was due to three causes.
The first of these was sheer stupidity, the second an actual lack of education and the third Gerry"s conviction that this was her solitary chance for saving Felipe from the difficulties and dangers of a soldier"s life and at the same time securing him for herself.
In the end, as one might have guessed, Gerry Williams made no confession.
Instead, in the hours when she had remained alone in her sleeping tent, she had packed a few possessions in her satchel, hiding the bag under her bed and wondering at the same time how she would ever manage to get it away the next day without exciting comment.
The next day Fortune appeared to favor Gerry, as the fickle Dame does now and then, when one had best be thwarted.
Immediately after their luncheon the Camp Fire girls decided to go upon a long walk. So much time had been given to the rehearsals of "As You Like It" that they had been exercising far less than usual in the past weeks.
The wool for knitting and materials for making bandages having recently given out, Mrs. Webster offered to go into town with Dan to buy whatever was required.
So, through a combination of quite ordinary circ.u.mstances, Sunrise camp was deserted except by Mrs. Burton, Marie and Gerry.
Mrs. Burton did not feel equal to the long hike and Gerry simply declined without giving a reason.
Since her farewell to Felipe about thirty hours before, she had received no word from him and yet this afternoon Gerry knew he would appear. Now and then she even hoped he would not come, at least not until the next day, or even the one after that.
Soon after the other girls departed, Mrs. Burton asked Gerry to sit beside her and talk while she rested in the sunshine.
A small fire was always kept burning at Sunrise camp, no matter how warm the day, for the small amount of heat made no appreciable difference and the fire was always being needed for cooking.
So Marie arranged an Indian blanket upon the ground away from the windward side of the fire and then went into her tent to write letters.