"I wish to meet the Duke--not as Lady Garribardine"s secretary; that would prejudice him too much, naturally! I want to meet him in the evening at dinner as a guest. I want to talk to him and see for myself what he is like, and if he is as wonderful as he looks. Only you could arrange this. If you asked him to dinner and asked me and Miss Arabella or Miss Gwendoline d"Estaire it would be possible, would it not?"
He was staring at her now, overcome by her masterly frankness. No--she would never deceive him, he realised that and also that nothing of his will could ever impose upon hers. He knew he was impotent as a factor in the determining of her plans; all he could do to keep her favour was to fall in with them.
Her face, white as a lily in the growing dusk, was calm and cold and beautiful. He had never desired her more--but that fastidiousness in him, that power of detachment which could appreciate skill even when exercised against his own interests, a.s.serted itself, and helped him.
She was so wonderful a character, he must a.s.sist her even to his own pain.
"I suppose it would be possible--Beatrice goes down to Allerton to-morrow until after Easter. I expect I could arrange it for Friday night if I can only get the Duke--he will be awfully busy these days--but perhaps if I ask him at once I might catch him--" Then he thought a moment--"Yes--I"ve got a new case of miniatures I bought last week at an odd sale. I could beguile him on the pretext of giving me his opinion as to whether or no two of them are really Cosways. You see to what a state of abject slavery you have reduced me."
"No, I have not--you are being merely a loyal friend."
"To-night at dinner I will ask my aunt if you may dine--I have some boring country friends coming in any case that night and she will let me have you to help to entertain them, I expect. You are supposed to be extraordinarily talented as an entertainer of bores!"
He could not keep some of the bitterness he was feeling out of his voice. Katherine looked at him reproachfully.
"I thought you would perhaps have understood--and been kind."
He responded at once to her tone.
"Darling--I will--you know it. I will show you that I am indeed your devoted friend; will that please you?"
She inwardly appreciated his sacrifice and her eyes shone softly upon him.
His face was haggard and looked hungry--its expression would have surprised the many women who had loved him, and on whom he had turned a transient smile.
"Yes, that will please me," and her voice was sweet. "Now tell me about him. I remember to have read in the papers some time ago that the d.u.c.h.ess had died."
"He has had an awful life--the d.u.c.h.ess was mad. She was a Thorval, a cousin of my wife"s, and went more or less off her head soon after they were married about twenty-eight years ago. Then for more than fifteen years she was extremely peculiar, but not quite bad enough to be entirely shut up. Only of course it made it impossible for him to have friends or to entertain and enjoy his great position. Then she became quite mad and had to be isolated and by this time Adeliza, the only child, began to show signs of derangement, too, and so he had the horror of seeing the same thing occurring over again. About two years ago the d.u.c.h.ess died and fortunately soon after Adeliza caught scarlet fever and died also, just before you came to my aunt"s--and then Mordryn started on a long voyage round the world to try and make a break and forget--and he has been abroad ever since, and only returned last night."
"Poor man, then he did not obtain much pleasure from his great position?"
"Not in England--but one must suppose that he has had some kind of consolations in all these years. He was often in Paris and has always been extremely attractive, but he is a great gentleman, and there have never been any scandals about him."
"And now all those ugly shadows have been removed from his life and he is free--" Katherine drew in her breath a little.
"Yes, he is free," Gerard concurred gloomily. "He is a most intimate friend of my aunt"s; you will see him constantly at Blissington."
"Where I am the secretary--yes. Ah! if you knew how I long sometimes to be--myself--and not to have to act meekness--Ah! you would know then how grateful I shall be if you can give me this one evening of happiness."
He was touched, she so seldom showed any emotion. He felt rewarded for some of his sufferings.
"You shall have as perfect a time as I can secure for you, Katherine, dear girl--" and he bent forward and took her hand. "You would adorn any position in the world--but if Mordryn were not a most splendid character I would not help you to meet him--He is--One of the finest in the world--and I will try--I promise you I will try not to let any jealous envy stand in your way."
"You are a dear after all," and she returned the pressure of his fingers before she drew hers away.
There was a strange light in her eyes as she walked up the stairs to her room in Berkeley Square. A wonderful vista had suddenly opened itself before her, with a mountain in the distance all of shining gold. It seemed that it must always have been there but that some mist had hidden it which was now rolled away.
What if she should be able to reach this splendid gilded mountain top--some day?----
A glorious end to aim at in any case, and she shut her white teeth firmly--and sitting down by her open window began steadily to think.
That night fate held a surprise in store for her. She was going to the theatre with Matilda, a periodical treat which that sister greatly enjoyed. They went in the dress circle and saw the show, two un.o.bserved units in the crowd. As it was for Matilda"s pleasure she was left to choose what she would see. It was always either a Lyceum melodrama or a musical comedy, and this night it chanced to be the latter, and one newly put on, so the audience was less remarkably homely than usual.
Who and what were the audiences at theatres? This Katherine often asked herself. And while Matilda enjoyed what was happening on the stage, she studied the types around her.
Who invented such hairdressing? Who designed such clothes? Whence came they and whither did they go?
This particular night Katherine and Matilda were rather at the side of the dress circle a row or two back, so that they could see a good deal of the stalls; and towards the end of the first act Katherine"s languid attention suddenly became riveted upon two particularly well brushed male heads in the front row. Their owners must have come in while she had been looking at the stage. There was something quite uniquely spruce about young Englishmen"s heads, she knew, and they were all very much alike of a certain cla.s.s, but the fairer of these two was painfully familiar; it belonged to Lord Algy and to no one else. He had returned from Egypt then! He was there within a few yards of her. Oh! why was it such pain to see him again?
Her heart beat to suffocation, she felt every pulse in her body tingle with excitement, and then she felt a little sick--and for a few minutes she could not have risen from her seat.
Matilda turned for a moment and exclaimed:
"Oh, my goodness gracious! Kitten! Whatever is the matter, dear?"
Then Katherine recollected herself and answered a little shakily:
"I don"t know--the heat I suppose--I am all right now though, and isn"t this a funny scene! Don"t let us talk and spoil it."
And Matilda, rea.s.sured, gladly again turned to the stage. So Katherine sat on, fighting her battle alone. She forced herself to look at her whilom lover with calm--and watch every movement of his attractive head.
He appeared well and bronzed and handsomer than ever, she could see as he turned to speak to his companion, and she almost fancied she could hear the tones of his voice. Then she made herself a.n.a.lyse things. Did she really love him still?
Then gradually she became more controlled as she realised that if she kept her eyes fixed upon him like this the magnetic power of her gaze would certainly cause him to look round presently and see her, and that above everything she did not want this to occur.
So she turned her attention to the stage and forced herself to listen to what was being sung.
The act was soon over, and then she saw Lord Algy"s perfect figure rise to go out. That was "Jack Kilcourcy" she thought, probably, with him, about whom she had so often heard--and perhaps they had come to see some special beauty in the chorus, and would go on to supper later at the Savoy or elsewhere. Oh, no!--she would not allow herself to feel any more; she had surely pa.s.sed beyond such things!
The second act came and went, and the third, and when it was over she hurried Matilda out, in a desire to escape before the stall crowd could mingle with theirs in the doorway.
It was raining a little when they came to the door, and there stood Lord Algy talking with his caressing devoted air to a lovely woman in black, whom Katherine had noticed in one of the boxes. He did not see her, as, clutching Matilda"s arm, she shrank away among the bedraggled people beyond the lights, and there she paused and turned for a last look at him, and saw him follow the lady into a smart car, the door of which was being held open by a motor groom; it had just driven up.
"We will have a taxi, Tild," she said. "Let us walk on and find one. I can"t stand an omnibus to-night."
She drove Matilda to Victoria first, and then went back to Berkeley Square, a rather damp creature in body and soul. And when she was in bed, the tears would trickle down her cheeks. It was all hateful! The dress circle--the rain--the cab--the dependence--and last of all Lord Algy and the lovely woman in black!
Then her sense of the value of things came back again; her indomitable spirit revived, and before she fell asleep she knew that once for all she had banished any lingering regrets and that she would play for the great stakes in the game of her ambition with a zest as strong as the desire for love--that love which she now realized had been mainly an affair of the senses and which was over and dead.
CHAPTER XXIII
That night after dinner when the guests had left the house in Berkeley Square, Mr. Strobridge asked his aunt if she would lend him Miss Bush for Friday night to help him to entertain some bores. Beatrice would be away, and he really felt he could not face them alone. Gwendoline or Arabella would come, too. Katherine had dined at the Strobridges" house in Brook Street once or twice before, for similar reasons, and the request therefore did not seem unusual. But Gerard knew his Seraphim too well not to be aware that when she heard that Mordryn had dined also she might suspect some plot, and would then very possibly be mildly annoyed with him, and really angry with Katherine. Every sc.r.a.p of his diplomatic gift would have to be employed over this. He was going to be at the luncheon next day which the Duke had announced his intention of attending. He must so manage the conversation that miniatures were discussed, and then in aunt"s hearing Mordryn could be asked to come and inspect them as a mere afterthought. If this failed to allay all suspicion of underlying intention in the affair, he would have boldly to tell his aunt the truth, only taking the whole credit--or blame of the idea--upon his own shoulders--No reflection must fall upon Katherine.
Her Ladyship announced casually that, yes, he might take the secretary and welcome if he returned her not too late at night; she had to be up early in the morning as she was starting on a holiday of a few days"
duration. The dutiful nephew thanked his aunt, and requested her to let Miss Bush know that she would be wanted on Friday if she would be kind enough to come.
But Lady Garribardine was preoccupied with a subject much nearer her heart, and turned to it at once.