He might die at any moment."
And Meynell put out his hand kindly toward the woman standing in the shadow, as though to lead her.
But she stepped backward.
"I know what I"m about," she said, breathing quick. "He made a fule o" me wi" that wanton Lizzie Short, and he near killt me the last morning afore he went. And I"d been a good wife to him for fifteen year, and never a word between us till that huzzy came along. And she"s got a child by him, and he must go and throw it in my face that I"d never given him one.
And he struck and cursed me that last morning--he wished me dead, he said. And I sat and prayed G.o.d to punish him. An" He did. The roof came down on him. And now he mun die. I"ve done wi" him--and she"s done wi"
him. He"s made his bed, and he mun lig on it."
The Rector put up his hand sternly.
"Don"t! Mrs. Bateson. Those are words you"ll repent when you yourself come to die. He has sinned toward you--but remember!--he"s a young man still--in the prime of life. He has suffered horribly--and he has only a few hours or days to live. He has asked for you already to-day, he is sure to ask for you to-night. Forgive him!--ask G.o.d to help him to die in peace!"
While he spoke she stood motionless, impa.s.sive. Meynell"s voice had beautiful inflections, and he spoke with strong feeling. Few persons whom he so addressed could have remained unmoved. But Mrs. Bateson only retreated farther into the dreary little parlour, with its wool mats and antimaca.s.sars, and a tray of untasted tea on the table. She pa.s.sed her tongue round her dry lips to moisten them before she spoke, quite calmly:
"Thank you, sir. Thank you. You mean well. But we must all judge for ourselves. If there"s anything you want I can get for you, you knock twice on the floor--I shall hear you. But I"m not comin" up."
Meynell turned away discouraged, and went upstairs. In the room above lay the dying man--breathing quickly and shallowly under the influence of the drug that had been given him. The nurse had raised him on his pillows, and the window near him was open. His powerful chest was uncovered, and he seemed even in his sleep to be fighting for air. In the twelve hours that had elapsed since Meynell had last seen him he had travelled with terrible rapidity toward the end. He looked years older than in the morning; it was as though some sinister hand had been at work on the face, expanding here, contracting there, subst.i.tuting chaos and nothingness for the living man.
The Rector sat down beside him. The room was small and bare--a little strip of carpet on the boards, a few chairs, and a little table with food and nourishment beside the bed. On the mantelpiece was a large printed card containing the football fixtures of the winter before. Bateson had once been a fine player. Of late years, however, his interest had been confined to betting heavily on the various local and county matches, and it was to his ill-luck as a gambler no less than to the influence of the flimsy little woman who had led him astray that his moral break-up might be traced.
A common tale!--yet more tragic than usual. For the bedroom contained other testimonies to the habits of a ruined man. There was a hanging bookcase on the wall, and the Rector sitting by the bed could just make out the t.i.tles of the books in the dim light.
Mill, Huxley, a reprint of Tom Paine, various books by Blatchford, the sixpenny editions of "Literature and Dogma," and Renan"s "Life of Christ," some popular science volumes of Browning and Ruskin, and a group of well-thumbed books on the birds of Mercia--the little collection, hardly earned, and, to judge from its appearance, diligently read, showed that its owner had been a man of intelligence. The Rector looked from it to the figure in the bed with a pang at his heart.
All was still in the little cottage. Through the open window the Rector could see fold after fold of the Chase stretching north and west above the village. The moorland ridges shone clear under the moon, now bare, or scantily plumed by gaunt trees, and now clothed in a dense blackness of wood. Meynell, who knew every yard of the great heath and loved it well, felt himself lifted there in spirit as he looked. The "bunchberries" must just be ripening on the high ground--nestling scarlet and white amid their glossy leaves. And among them and beside them, the taller, slender bilberries, golden green; the exquisite gra.s.ses of the heath, pale pink, and silver, and purple, swaying in the winds, clothing acre after acre with a beauty beyond the looms of men; the purple heather and the ling flushing toward its bloom: and the free-limbed scattered birch trees, strongly scrawled against the sky. The scurry of the clouds over the purple sweeps of moor, the beat of the wind, and then suddenly, pools of fragrant air sun-steeped--he drew in the thought of it all, as he might have drunk the moorland breeze itself, with a thrill of pleasure, which pa.s.sed at once into a movement of soul.
"_My G.o.d--my G.o.d_!"
No other words imagined or needed. Only a leap of the heart, natural, habitual, instinctive, from the imagined beauty of the heath, to the "Eternal Fountain" of all beauty.
The hand of the dying man made a faint rustling with the sheet. Meynell, checked, rebuked almost, by the slight sound, bent his eyes again on the sleeper, and leaning forward tried to meditate and pray. But to-night he found it hard. He realized anew his physical and mental fatigue, and a certain confused clamour of thought, strangely persistent behind the more external experience alike of body and mind; like the murmur of a distant sea heard from far inland, as the bond and background of all lesser sounds.
The phrases of the letter he had found on the hall-table recurred to him whether he would or no. They were mainly legal and technical, intimating that an application had been made to the Bishop of Markborough to issue a Commission of Inquiry into certain charges made by parishioners of Upcote Minor against the Rector of the parish. The writer of the letter was one of the applicants, and gave notice of his intention to prosecute the charges named, with the utmost vigour through all the stages prescribed by ecclesiastical law.
But it was, rather, some earlier letters from the same hand--letters more familiar, intimate, and discursive--that ultimately held the Rector"s thoughts as he kept his watch. For in those letters were contained almost all the objections that a sensitive mind and heart had had to grapple with before determining on the course to which the Rector of Upcote was now committed. They were the voice of the "adversary," the "accuser."
Crude or conventional, as the form of the argument might be, it yet represented the "powers and princ.i.p.alities" to be reckoned with. If the Rector"s conscience could not sustain him against it, he was henceforth a dishonest and unhappy man; and when his lawyers had failed to protect him against its practical result--as they must no doubt fail--he would be a dispossessed priest:
"What discipline in life or what comfort in death can such a faith as yours bring to any human soul? Do, I beg of you, ask yourself this question. If the great miracles of the Creed are not true, what have you to give the wretched and the sinful? Ought you not in common human charity to make way for one who can offer the consolations, utter the warnings, or hold out the heavenly hopes from which you are debarred?"
The Rector fixed his gaze upon the sick man. It was as though the question of the letter were put to him through those parched lips. And as he looked, Bateson opened his eyes.
"Be that you, Rector?" he said, in a clear voice.
"I"ve been sitting up with you, Bateson. Can you take a little brandy and milk, do you think?"
The patient submitted, and the Rector, with a tender and skilful touch, made him comfortable on his pillows and smoothed the bedclothes.
"Where"s my wife?" he said presently, looking round the room.
"She"s sleeping downstairs."
"I want her to come up."
"Better not ask her. She seems ill and tired."
The sick man smiled--a slight and scornful smile.
"She"ll ha" time enough presently to be tired. You goa an" ask her."
"I"d rather not leave you, Bateson. You"re very ill."
"Then take that stick then, an" rap on the floor. She"ll hear tha fast enough."
The Rector hesitated, but only for a moment. He took the stick and rapped.
Almost immediately the sound of a turning key was heard through the small thinly built cottage. The door below opened and footsteps came up the stairs. But before they reached the landing the sound ceased. The two men listened in vain.
"You goa an" tell her as I"m sorry I knocked her aboot," said Bateson, eagerly. "An" she can see for hersen as I can"t aggravate her no more wi"
the other woman." He raised himself on his elbow, staring into the Rector"s face. "I"m done for--tell her that."
"Shall I tell her also, that you love her?--and you want her love?"
"Aye," said Bateson, nodding, with the same bright stare into Meynell"s eyes. "Aye!"
Meynell made him drink a little more brandy, and then he went out to the person standing motionless on the stairs.
"What did you want, sir?" said Mrs. Bateson, under her breath.
"Mrs. Bateson--he begs you to come to him! He"s sorry for his conduct--he says you can see for yourself that he can"t wrong you any more. Come--and be merciful!"
The woman paused. The Rector could see the shiver of her thin shoulders under her print dress. Then she turned and quietly descended the cottage stairway. Half way down she looked up.
"Tell him I should do him nowt but harm. I"--her voice trembled for the first time--"I doan"t bear him malice; I hope he"ll not suffer. But I"m not comin"."
"Wait a moment, Mrs. Bateson! I was to tell you that in spite of all, he loved you--and he wanted your love."
She shook her head.
"It"s no good talkin" that way. It"ll mebbe use up his strength. Tell him I"d have got Lizzie Short to come an" nurse "im, if I could. It"s her place. But he knows as she an" her man flitted a fortnight sen, an"
theer"s no address."
And she disappeared. But at the foot of the stairs--standing unseen--she said in her usual tone:
"If there was a cup o" tea, I could bring you, sir--or anythin"?"
Meynell, distressed and indignant, did not answer. He returned to the sick-room. Bateson looked up as the Rector bent once more over the bed.