"And why did he not come with you?"
"He said--I think he said he was under obligations to Mr. Pomeroy."
"Pomeroy? Pomeroy?" the lawyer repeated slowly. "But sure, my dear, if he was a villain, still, having the clergyman with you you should have been safe. This Mr. Pomeroy was not in the same case as Mr. Dunborough.
He could not have been deep in love after knowing you a dozen hours."
"I think," she said, but mechanically, as if her mind ran on something else, "that he knew who I was, and wished to make me marry him."
"Who you were!" Mr. Fishwick repeated; and--and he groaned.
The sudden check was strange, and Julia should have remarked it. But she did not; and after a short silence, "How could he know?" Mr. Fishwick asked faintly.
"I don"t know," she answered, in the same absent manner. Then with an effort which was apparent in her tone, "Lord Almeric Doyley was there,"
she said. "He was there too."
"Ah!" the lawyer replied, accepting the fact with remarkable apathy.
Perhaps his thoughts also were far away. "He was there, was he?"
"Yes," she said. "He was there, and he--" then, in a changed tone, "Did you say that Sir George was behind us?"
"He should be," he answered; and, occupied as she was with her own trouble, she was struck with the gloom of the attorney"s tone. "We settled," he continued, "as soon as we learned where the men had left you, that I should start for Calne and make inquiries there, and they should start an hour later for Chippenham and do the same there. Which reminds me that we should be nearing Calne. You would like to rest there?"
"I would rather go forward to Marlborough," she answered feverishly, "if you could send to Chippenham to tell them I am safe? I would rather go back at once, and quietly."
"To be sure," he said, patting her hand. "To be sure, to be sure," he repeated, his voice shaking as if he wrestled with some emotion.
"You"ll he glad to be with--with your mother."
Julia wondered a little at his tone, but in the main he had described her feelings. She had gone through so many things that, courageous as she was, she longed for rest and a little time to think. She a.s.sented in silence therefore, and, wonderful to relate, he fell silent too, and remained so until they reached Calne. There the inn was roused; a messenger was despatched to Chippenham; and while a relay of horses was prepared he made her enter the house and eat and drink. Had he stayed at that, and preserved when he re-entered the carriage the discreet silence he had maintained before, it is probable that she would have fallen asleep in sheer weariness, and deferred to the calmer hours of the morning the problem that occupied her. But as they settled themselves in their corners, and the carriage rolled out of the town, the attorney muttered that he did not doubt Sir George would be at Marlborough to breakfast. This set the girl"s mind running. She moved restlessly, and presently, "When did you hear what had happened to me?" she asked.
"A few minutes after you were carried off," he answered; "but until Sir George appeared, a quarter of an hour later, nothing was done."
"And he started in pursuit?" To hear it gave her a delicious thrill between pain and pleasure.
"Well, at first, to confess the truth," Mr. Fishwick answered humbly, "I thought it was his doing, and--"
"You did?" she cried in surprise.
"Yes, I did; even I did. And until we met Mr. Dunborough, and Sir George got the truth from him--I had no certainty. More shame to me!"
She bit her lips to keep back the confession that rose to them, and for a little while was silent. Then, to his astonishment, "Will he ever forgive me?" she cried, her voice tremulous. "How shall I tell him? I was mad--I must have been mad."
"My dear child," the attorney answered in alarm, "compose yourself. What is it? What is the matter?"
"I, too thought it was he! I, even I. I thought that he wanted to rid himself of me," she cried, pouring forth her confession in shame and abas.e.m.e.nt. "There! I can hardly bear to tell you in the dark, and how shall I tell him in the light?"
"Tut-tut!" Mr. Fishwick answered. "What need to tell any one? Thoughts are free."
"Oh, but"--she laughed hysterically--"I was not free, and I--what do you think I did?" She was growing more and more excited.
"Tut-tut!" the lawyer said. "What matter?"
"I promised--to marry some one else."
"Good Lord!" he said. The words were forced from him.
"Some one else!" she repeated. "I was asked to be my lady, and it tempted me! Think! It tempted me," she continued with a second laugh, bitterly contemptuous. "Oh, what a worm--what a thing I am! It tempted me. To be my lady, and to have my jewels, and to go to Ranelagh and the masquerades! To have my box at the King"s House and my frolic in the pit! And my woman as ugly as I liked--if he might have my lips! Think of it, think of it! That anyone should be so low! Or no, no, no!" she cried in a different tone. "Don"t believe me! I am not that! I am not so vile!
But I thought he had tricked me, I thought he had cheated me, I thought that this was his work, and I was mad! I think I was mad!"
"Dear, dear," Mr. Fishwick said rubbing his head. His tone was sympathetic; yet, strange to relate, there was no real smack of sorrow in it. Nay, an acute ear might have caught a note of relief, of hope, almost of eagerness. "Dear, dear, to be sure!" he continued; "I suppose--it was Lord Almeric Doyley, the n.o.bleman I saw at Oxford?"
"Yes!"
"And you don"t know what to do, child?"
"To do?" she exclaimed.
"Which--I mean which you shall accept. Really," Mr. Fishwick continued, his brain succ.u.mbing to a kind of vertigo as he caught himself balancing the pretensions of Sir George and Lord Almeric, "it is a very remarkable position for any young lady to enjoy, however born. Such a choice--"
"Choice!" she cried fiercely, out of the darkness. "There is no choice.
Don"t you understand? I told him No, no, no, a thousand times No!"
Mr. Fishwick sighed. "But I understood you to say," he answered meekly, "that you did not know what to do."
"How to tell Sir George! How to tell him."
Mr. Fishwick was silent a moment. Then he said earnestly, "I would not tell him. Take my advice, child. No harm has been done. You said No to the other."
"I said Yes," she retorted.
"But I thought--"
"And then I said No," she cried, between tears and foolish laughter.
"Cannot you understand?"
Mr. Fishwick could not; but, "Anyway, do not tell him," he said. "There is no need, and before marriage men think much of that at which they laugh afterwards."
"And much of a woman of whom they think nothing afterwards," she answered.
"Yet do not tell him," he pleaded. From the sound of his voice she knew that he was leaning forward. "Or at least wait. Take the advice of one older than you, who knows the world, and wait."
"And talk to him, listen to him, smile on his suit with a lie in my heart? Never?" she cried. Then with a new strange pride, a faint touch of stateliness in her tone, "You forget who I am, Mr. Fishwick," she said. "I am as much a Soane as he is, and it becomes me to--to remember that. Believe me, I would far rather resign all hope of entering his house, though I love him, than enter it with a secret in my heart."
Mr. Fishwick groaned. He told himself that this would be the last straw.
This would give Sir George the handle he needed. She would never enter that house.
"I have not been true to him," she said. "But I will be true now."
"The truth is--is very costly," Mr. Fishwick murmured almost under his breath. "I don"t know that poor people can always afford it, child."