He talked about this, he chaffed her about it for the rest of his visit: he had at last found a topic after his own heart. If her mother considered that he might be the emblem of their redemption he was an engine of the most primitive construction. He stayed and stayed; he struck Rose as on the point of bringing out something for which he had not quite, as he would have said, the cheek. Sometimes she thought he was going to begin: "By the way, my mother told me to propose to you." At other moments he seemed charged with the admission: "I say, of course I really know what you"re trying to do for her," nodding at the door: "therefore hadn"t we better speak of it frankly, so that I can help you with my mother, and more particularly with my sister Gwendolen, who"s the difficult one? The fact is, you see, they won"t do anything for nothing. If you"ll accept me they"ll call, but they won"t call without something "down."" Mr. Mangler departed without their speaking frankly, and Rose Tramore had a hot hour during which she almost entertained, vindictively, the project of "accepting" the limpid youth until after she should have got her mother into circulation. The cream of the vision was that she might break with him later. She could read that this was what her mother would have liked, but the next time he came the door was closed to him, and the next and the next.
In August there was nothing to do but to go abroad, with the sense on Rose"s part that the battle was still all to fight; for a round of country visits was not in prospect, and English watering-places const.i.tuted one of the few subjects on which the girl had heard her mother express herself with disgust. Continental autumns had been indeed for years, one of the various forms of Mrs. Tramore"s atonement, but Rose could only infer that such fruit as they had borne was bitter. The stony stare of Belgravia could be practised at Homburg; and somehow it was inveterately only gentlemen who sat next to her at the table d"hote at Cadenabbia. Gentlemen had never been of any use to Mrs. Tramore for getting back into society; they had only helped her effectually to get out of it. She once dropped, to her daughter, in a moralising mood, the remark that it was astonishing how many of them one could know without its doing one any good. Fifty of them--even very clever ones--represented a value inferior to that of one stupid woman. Rose wondered at the offhand way in which her mother could talk of fifty clever men; it seemed to her that the whole world couldn"t contain such a number. She had a sombre sense that mankind must be dull and mean. These cogitations took place in a cold hotel, in an eternal Swiss rain, and they had a flat echo in the transalpine valleys, as the lonely ladies went vaguely down to the Italian lakes and cities. Rose guided their course, at moments, with a kind of aimless ferocity; she moved abruptly, feeling vulgar and hating their life, though dest.i.tute of any definite vision of another life that would have been open to her.
She had set herself a task and she clung to it; but she appeared to herself despicably idle. She had succeeded in not going to Homburg waters, where London was trying to wash away some of its stains; that would be too staring an advertis.e.m.e.nt of their situation. The main difference in situations to her now was the difference of being more or less pitied, at the best an intolerable danger; so that the places she preferred were the unsuspicious ones. She wanted to triumph with contempt, not with submission.
One morning in September, coming with her mother out of the marble church at Milan, she perceived that a gentleman who had just pa.s.sed her on his way into the cathedral and whose face she had not noticed, had quickly raised his hat, with a suppressed e.j.a.c.u.l.a.t.i.o.n. She involuntarily glanced back; the gentleman had paused, again uncovering, and Captain Jay stood saluting her in the Italian sunshine. "Oh, good-morning!" she said, and walked on, pursuing her course; her mother was a little in front. She overtook her in a moment, with an unreasonable sense, like a gust of cold air, that men were worse than ever, for Captain Jay had apparently moved into the church. Her mother turned as they met, and suddenly, as she looked back, an expression of peculiar sweetness came into this lady"s eyes.
It made Rose"s take the same direction and rest a second time on Captain Jay, who was planted just where he had stood a minute before.
He immediately came forward, asking Rose with great gravity if he might speak to her a moment, while Mrs. Tramore went her way again.
He had the expression of a man who wished to say something very important; yet his next words were simple enough and consisted of the remark that he had not seen her for a year.
"Is it really so much as that?" asked Rose.
"Very nearly. I would have looked you up, but in the first place I have been very little in London, and in the second I believed it wouldn"t have done any good."
"You should have put that first," said the girl. "It wouldn"t have done any good."
He was silent over this a moment, in his customary deciphering way; but the view he took of it did not prevent him from inquiring, as she slowly followed her mother, if he mightn"t walk with her now. She answered with a laugh that it wouldn"t do any good but that he might do as he liked. He replied without the slightest manifestation of levity that it would do more good than if he didn"t, and they strolled together, with Mrs. Tramore well before them, across the big, amusing piazza, where the front of the cathedral makes a sort of builded light. He asked a question or two and he explained his own presence: having a month"s holiday, the first clear time for several years, he had just popped over the Alps. He inquired if Rose had recent news of the old lady in Hill Street, and it was the only tortuous thing she had ever heard him say.
"I have had no communication of any kind from her since I parted with you under her roof. Hasn"t she mentioned that?" said Rose.
"I haven"t seen her."
"I thought you were such great friends."
Bertram Jay hesitated a moment. "Well, not so much now."
"What has she done to you?" Rose demanded.
He fidgeted a little, as if he were thinking of something that made him unconscious of her question; then, with mild violence, he brought out the inquiry: "Miss Tramore, are you happy?"
She was startled by the words, for she on her side had been reflecting--reflecting that he had broken with her grandmother and that this pointed to a reason. It suggested at least that he wouldn"t now be so much like a mouthpiece for that cold ancestral tone. She turned off his question--said it never was a fair one, as you gave yourself away however you answered it. When he repeated "You give yourself away?" as if he didn"t understand, she remembered that he had not read the funny American books. This brought them to a silence, for she had enlightened him only by another laugh, and he was evidently preparing another question, which he wished carefully to disconnect from the former. Presently, just as they were coming near Mrs. Tramore, it arrived in the words "Is this lady your mother?" On Rose"s a.s.senting, with the addition that she was travelling with her, he said: "Will you be so kind as to introduce me to her?" They were so close to Mrs. Tramore that she probably heard, but she floated away with a single stroke of her paddle and an inattentive poise of her head. It was a striking exhibition of the famous tact, for Rose delayed to answer, which was exactly what might have made her mother wish to turn; and indeed when at last the girl spoke she only said to her companion: "Why do you ask me that?"
"Because I desire the pleasure of making her acquaintance."
Rose had stopped, and in the middle of the square they stood looking at each other. "Do you remember what you said to me the last time I saw you?"
"Oh, don"t speak of that!"
"It"s better to speak of it now than to speak of it later."
Bertram Jay looked round him, as if to see whether any one would hear; but the bright foreignness gave him a sense of safety, and he unexpectedly exclaimed: "Miss Tramore, I love you more than ever!"
"Then you ought to have come to see us," declared the girl, quickly walking on.
"You treated me the last time as if I were positively offensive to you."
"So I did, but you know my reason."
"Because I protested against the course you were taking? I did, I did!" the young man rang out, as if he still, a little, stuck to that.
His tone made Rose say gaily: "Perhaps you do so yet?"
"I can"t tell till I"ve seen more of your circ.u.mstances," he replied with eminent honesty.
The girl stared; her light laugh filled the air. "And it"s in order to see more of them and judge that you wish to make my mother"s acquaintance?"
He coloured at this and he evaded; then he broke out with a confused "Miss Tramore, let me stay with you a little!" which made her stop again.
"Your company will do us great honour, but there must be a rigid condition attached to our acceptance of it."
"Kindly mention it," said Captain Jay, staring at the facade of the cathedral.
"You don"t take us on trial."
"On trial?"
"You don"t make an observation to me--not a single one, ever, ever!-- on the matter that, in Hill Street, we had our last words about."
Captain Jay appeared to be counting the thousand pinnacles of the church. "I think you really must be right," he remarked at last.
"There you are!" cried Rose Tramore, and walked rapidly away.
He caught up with her, he laid his hand upon her arm to stay her.
"If you"re going to Venice, let me go to Venice with you!"
"You don"t even understand my condition."
"I"m sure you"re right, then: you must be right about everything."
"That"s not in the least true, and I don"t care a fig whether you"re sure or not. Please let me go."
He had barred her way, he kept her longer. "I"ll go and speak to your mother myself!"
Even in the midst of another emotion she was amused at the air of audacity accompanying this declaration. Poor Captain Jay might have been on the point of marching up to a battery. She looked at him a moment; then she said: "You"ll be disappointed!"
"Disappointed?"
"She"s much more proper than grandmamma, because she"s much more amiable."
"Dear Miss Tramore--dear Miss Tramore!" the young man murmured helplessly.
"You"ll see for yourself. Only there"s another condition," Rose went on.
"Another?" he cried, with discouragement and alarm.
"You must understand thoroughly, before you throw in your lot with us even for a few days, what our position really is."
"Is it very bad?" asked Bertram Jay artlessly.
"No one has anything to do with us, no one speaks to us, no one looks at us."