"Too bad I forgot those young people wanted to get off at Music Hall,"
he was thinking to himself. "I don"t see how I came to do it. That chap looked as if he wanted to complain of me, and I don"t know as I blame him. I"d have said I was sorry if he hadn"t been so sharp with his tongue. I hope he won"t complain just now. "Twould be a pretty bad time for me to get into trouble, with Mary and the baby both sick. I"m too sleepy to be good for much, that"s a fact. Sitting up three nights running takes hold of a fellow somehow when he"s at work all day. The rent"s paid, that"s one thing, if it hasn"t left me but half a dollar to my name. Hullo!" He was struck by a sudden distinct recollection of the coins he had returned. "Why, I gave him fifty cents too much!"
He glanced up at the dial which indicated the fares and began to count the change in his pocket. He knew exactly how much money he had had at the beginning of the trip. He counted carefully. Then he plunged his hand into the heavy canvas pocket of his coat. Perhaps he had half a dollar there. No, it was empty!
He faced the fact reluctantly. Fifty cents short, ten fares! Gone into the pocket of the young gentleman with the fur collar! The conductor"s hand shook as he put the money back in his pocket. It meant--what did it mean? He drew a long breath.
Christmas Eve! A dark dreary little room upstairs in a noisy tenement house. A pale, thin woman on a shabby lounge vainly trying to quiet a fretful child. The child is thin and pale, too, with a hard, racking cough. There is a small fire in the stove, a very small fire; coal is so high. The medicine stands on the shelf. "Medicine won"t do much good,"
the doctor had said; "he needs beef and cream."
Jim"s heart sank at the thought. He could almost hear the baby asking: "Isn"t papa coming soon? Isn"t he, mamma?"
"Poor little kid!" Jim said, softly, under his breath. "And I shan"t have a thing to take home to him; nor Mary"s violets, either. It"ll be the first Christmas _that_ ever happened. I suppose that chap would think it was ridiculous for me to be buying violets. He wouldn"t understand what the flowers mean to Mary. Perhaps he didn"t notice I gave him too much. That kind don"t know how much they have. They just pull it out as if it was newspaper."
The conductor went out into the snow to help the nurse, who was a.s.sisting the old gentleman to the ground. Then the car swung on again.
Jim turned up the collar of his coat about his ears and stamped his feet. There was the florist"s shop where he had meant to buy the violets, and the toy-shop was just around the corner.
A thought flashed across his tired brain. "Plenty of men would do it; they do it every day. n.o.body ever would be the poorer for it. This car will be crowded going home. I needn"t ring in every fare; n.o.body could tell. But Mary! She wouldn"t touch those violets if she knew. And she"d know. I"d have to tell her. I couldn"t keep it from her, she"s that quick."
He jumped off to adjust the trolley with a curious sense of unreality.
It couldn"t be that he was really going home this Christmas Eve with empty hands. Well, they must all suffer together for his carelessness.
It was his own fault, but it was hard. And he was so tired!
To his amazement he found his eyes were blurred as he watched the people crowding into the car. What! Was he going to cry like a baby--he, a great burly man of thirty years?
"It"s no use," he thought. "I couldn"t do it. The first time I gave Mary violets was the night she said she"d marry me. I told her then I"d do my best to make her proud of me. I guess she wouldn"t be very proud of a man who could cheat. She"d rather starve than have a ribbon she couldn"t pay for."
He rang up a dozen fares with a steady hand. The temptation was over.
Six more strokes--then nine without a falter. He even imagined the bell rang more distinctly than usual, even encouragingly.
The car stopped. Jim flung the door open with a triumphant sweep of his arm. He felt ready to face the world. But the baby--his arm dropped. It was hard.
He turned to help the young girl who was waiting at the step. Through the whirling snow he saw her eager face, with a quick recognition lighting the steady eyes, and wondered dimly, as he stood with his hand on the signal-strap, where he could have seen her before. He knew immediately.
"There was a mistake," she said, with a shy tremor in her voice. "You gave us too much change and here it is." She held out to Jim the piece of silver which had given him such an unhappy quarter of an hour.
He took it like one dazed. Would the young lady think he was crazy to care so much about so small a coin? He must say something. "Thank you, miss," he stammered as well as he could. "You see, I thought it was gone--and there"s the baby--and it"s Christmas Eve--and my wife"s sick--and you can"t understand----"
It certainly was not remarkable that she couldn"t.
"But I do," she said, simply. "I was afraid of that. And I thought perhaps there was a baby, so I brought my Christmas present for her,"
and something else dropped into Jim"s cold hand.
"What you waiting for?" shouted the motorman from the front platform.
The girl had disappeared in the snow.
Jim rang the bell to go ahead, and gazed again at the two shining half dollars in his hand.
"I didn"t have a chance to tell her," he explained to his wife late in the evening, as he sat in a tiny rocking-chair several sizes too small for him, "that the baby wasn"t a her at all, though if I thought he"d grow up into such a lovely one as she is, I don"t know but I almost wish he was."
"Poor Jim!" said Mary, with a little laugh as she put up her hand to stroke his rough cheek. "I guess you"re tired."
"And I should say," he added, stretching out his long legs toward the few red sparks in the bottom of the grate, "I should say she had tears in her eyes, too, but I was that near crying myself I couldn"t be sure."
The little room was sweet with the odour of English violets. Asleep in the bed lay the boy, a toy horse clasped close to his breast.
"Bless her heart!" said Mary, softly.
"Well, Miss Williams," said Walter Harris, as he sprang to meet a snow-covered figure coming swiftly along the sidewalk. "I can see that you found him. You"ve lost the first number, but they won"t scold you--not this time."
The girl turned a radiant face upon him. "Thank you," she said, shaking the snowy crystals from her skirt. "I don"t care now if they do. I should have lost more than that if I had stayed."
FOOTNOTE:
[D] This story was first published in the _Youth"s Companion_, vol. 74.
VIII
TOINETTE AND THE ELVES[E]
SUSAN COOLIDGE
THE winter"s sun was nearing the horizon"s edge. Each moment the tree shadows grew longer in the forest; each moment the crimson light on the upper boughs became more red and bright. It was Christmas Eve, or would be in half an hour, when the sun should be fairly set; but it did not feel like Christmas, for the afternoon was mild and sweet, and the wind in the leafless boughs sang, as it moved about, as though to imitate the vanished birds. Soft trills and whistles, odd little shakes and twitters--it was astonishing what pretty noises the wind made, for it was in good humor, as winds should be on the Blessed Night; all its storm-tones and ba.s.s-notes were for the moment laid aside, and gently as though hushing a baby to sleep, it cooed and rustled and brushed to and fro in the leafless woods.
Toinette stood, pitcher in hand, beside the well. "Wishing Well," the people called it, for they believed that if any one standing there bowed to the East, repeated a certain rhyme and wished a wish, the wish would certainly come true. Unluckily, n.o.body knew exactly what the rhyme should be. Toinette did not; she was wishing that she did, as she stood with her eyes fixed on the bubbling water. How nice it would be! she thought. What beautiful things should be hers, if it were only to wish and to have. She would be beautiful, rich, good--oh, so good. The children should love her dearly, and never be disagreeable. Mother should not work so hard--they should all go back to France--which mother said was _si belle_. Oh, dear, how nice it would be. Meantime, the sun sank lower, and mother at home was waiting for the water, but Toinette forgot that.
Suddenly she started. A low sound of crying met her ear, and something like a tiny moan. It seemed close by but she saw nothing.
Hastily she filled her pitcher and turned to go. But again the sound came, an unmistakable sob, right under her feet. Toinette stopped short.
"What is the matter?" she called out bravely. "Is anybody there? and if there is, why don"t I see you?"
A third sob--and all at once, down on the ground beside her, a tiny figure became visible, so small that Toinette had to kneel and stoop her head to see it plainly. The figure was that of an odd little man. He wore a garb of green bright and glancing as the scales of a beetle. In his mite of a hand was a cap, out of which stuck a long pointed feather.
Two specks of tears stood on his cheeks and he fixed on Toinette a glance so sharp and so sad that it made her feel sorry and frightened and confused all at once.
"Why how funny this is!" she said, speaking to herself out loud.
"Not at all," replied the little man, in a voice as dry and crisp as the chirr of a gra.s.shopper. "Anything but funny. I wish you wouldn"t use such words. It hurts my feelings, Toinette."
"Do you know my name, then?" cried Toinette, astonished. "That"s strange. But what is the matter? Why are you crying so, little man?"
"I"m not a little man. I"m an elf," responded the dry voice; "and I think you"d cry if you had an engagement out to tea, and found yourself spiked on a great bayonet, so that you couldn"t move an inch. Look!" He turned a little as he spoke and Toinette saw a long rosethorn sticking through the back of the green robe. The little man could by no means reach the thorn, and it held him fast prisoner to the place.