At first, she was convinced the man had robbed her; and she gave him to understand that she thought so. But he showed her the receipt in a perfect rage.
"Look there," he said, "and remember to whom you are talking!"
On the receipt she read in fact these words: "Advanced, two hundred francs." Convinced of the injustice of her accusations, Henrietta had to make her apologies, and hardly succeeded by means of a ten-franc-piece in soothing the man"s wounded feelings.
Alas! the poor girl did not know that one is always at liberty to pledge an article only for a given sum, a part of its real value; and she was too inexperienced in such matters to notice the reference to that mode of p.a.w.ning on her receipt. However, it was one of those mishaps for poor Henrietta which cannot be mended, and from which we never recover. She lost two months" existence, the very time, perhaps, that was needed till Daniel"s return. Still the day when the rent was due came, and she paid her hundred francs. The second day after that, she was once more without money, and, according to Mrs. Cheva.s.sat"s elegant expression, forced to "live on her poor possessions." But the p.a.w.nbroker had too cruelly disappointed her calculations: she would not resort to him again, and risk a second disappointment.
This time she thought she would, instead of p.a.w.ning, sell, her gold- dressing-case; and she requested the obliging lady below to procure her a purchaser. At first Mrs. Cheva.s.sat raised a host of objections.
"To sell such a pretty toy!" she said, "it"s murder! Just think, you"ll never see it again. If, on the other hand, you carry it to "Uncle" you can take it out again as soon as you have a little money."
But she lost her pains, she saw and at last consented to bring up a kind of dealer in toilet-articles, an excellent honest man, she declared, in whom one could put the most absolute confidence. And he really showed himself worthy of her warm recommendation; for he offered instantly five hundred francs for the dressing-case, which was not worth much more than three times as much. Nor was this his last bid. After an hour"s irritating discussions, after having ten times pretended to leave the room, he drew with many sighs his portemonnaie from its secret home, and counted upon the table the seven hundred francs in gold upon which Henrietta had stoutly insisted.
That was enough to pay Mrs. Cheva.s.sat for four months" board.
"But no," said the poor young girl to herself, "that would be pusillanimous in the highest degree."
And that very evening she summoned all her courage, and told the formidable woman in a firm tone of voice, that henceforth she would only take one meal, dinner. She had chosen this half-way measure in order not to avoid a scene, for that she knew she could not hope for, but a regular falling-out.
Contrary to all expectations, the concierge"s wife appeared neither surprised nor angry. She only shrugged her shoulders as she said,- "As you like, my "little p.u.s.s.y-cat." Only believe me, it is no use economizing in one"s eating."
From the day of this coup d"etat, Henrietta went down every morning herself to buy her penny-roll and the little supply of milk which const.i.tuted her breakfast. For the rest of the day she did not leave her room, busying herself with her great work; and nothing broke in upon the distressing monotony of her life but the weekly visits of M. de Brevan.
For he did not forget his threat; and every week Henrietta was sure to see him come. He came in with a solemn air, and coldly asked if she had reflected since he had had the honor of presenting his respects to her. She did not answer him ordinarily, except by a look of contempt; but he did not seem in the least disconcerted. He bowed respectfully, and invariably said, before leaving the room,- "Next time, then; I can wait. Oh! I have time; I can wait."
If he hoped thus to conquer Henrietta more promptly, he was entirely mistaken. This periodical insult acted only as an inducement to keep up her wrath and to increase her energy. Her pride rose at the thought of this unceasing struggle; and she swore that she would be victorious. It was this sentiment which inspired her with a thought, which, in its results, was destined to have a decisive influence on her future.
It was now the end of June, and she saw with trembling her little treasure grow smaller and smaller; when one day she asked Mrs. Cheva.s.sat, who seemed to be of unusually good-humor, if she could not procure her some work. She told her that she was considered quite skilful in all kinds of needlework.
But the woman laughed at the first words, and said,- "Leave me alone! Are hands like yours made to work?"
And when Henrietta insisted, and showed her, as a proof of what she could do, the embroidery which she had commenced, she replied,- "That is very pretty; but embroidering from morning till night would not enable a fairy to keep a canary-bird."
There was probably some truth in what she said, exaggerated as it sounded; and the poor girl hastened to add that she understood other kinds of work also. She was a first-cla.s.s musician, for instance, and fully able to give music-lessons, or teach singing, if she could only get pupils. At these words a ray of diabolic satisfaction lighted up the old woman"s eyes; and she cried out,- "What, my "p.u.s.s.y-cat," could you play dancing-music, like those artists who go to the large parties of fashionable people?"
"Certainly!"
"Well, that is a talent worth something! Why did you not tell me before? I will think of it, and you shall see."
On the next Sat.u.r.day, early in the morning, she appeared in Henrietta"s room with the bright face of a bearer of good news.
"I have thought of you," she said as soon as she entered.
"Ah!"
"We have a tenant in the house who is going to give a large party to-night. I have mentioned you to her; and she says she will give you thirty francs if you will make her guests jump. Thirty francs! That"s a big sum; and besides, if they are pleased, you will get more customers."
"In what part of the house does she live?"
"In the second story of the back building, looking upon the yard. Mrs. Hilaire, a very nice person, and so good! there is no one like her. You would have to be there at nine o"clock precisely."
"I"ll come."
Quite happy, and full of hope, Henrietta spent a part of the afternoon in mending her only dress, a black silk dress, much worn unfortunately, and already often repaired. Still, by much skill and patience, she had managed to look quite respectable when she rang the bell at Mrs. Hilaire"s door. She was shown into a room furnished with odd furniture, but brilliantly lighted, in which seven or eight ladies in flaming costumes, and as many fashionable gentlemen, were smoking and taking coffee. Both ladies and gentlemen had just risen from table; there was no mistaking it from their eyes and the sound of their voices.
"Look! there is the musician from the garret!" exclaimed a large, dark-skinned woman, pretty, but very vulgar, who seemed to be Mrs. Hilaire.
And, turning to Henrietta, she asked,- "Will you take a little gla.s.s of something, my darling?"
The poor girl blushed crimson, and, painfully embarra.s.sed, declined, and asked pardon for declining; when the lady broke in rather rudely, and said,- "You are not thirsty? Very well. You"ll drink after some time. In the meantime will you play us a quadrille? and mark the time, please."
Then imitating with distressing accuracy the barking voice of masters of ceremonies at public b.a.l.l.s, she called out,- "Take your positions, take your positions: a quadrille!"
Henrietta had taken her seat at the piano. She turned her back to the dancers; but she had before her a mirror, in which she saw every gesture of Mrs. Hilaire and her guests. And then she became quite sure of what she had suspected from the beginning. She understood into what company she had been inveigled by the concierge"s wife. She had, however, sufficient self-control to finish the quadrille. But, when the last figure had been danced, she rose; and, walking up to the mistress of the house, said, stammering painfully, and in extreme embarra.s.sment,- "Please excuse me, madam, I have to leave. I feel very unwell. I could not play any more."
"How funny!" cried one of the gentlemen. "Here is our ball at an end!"
But the young woman said,- "Hush, Julius! Don"t you see how pale she is,-pale like death, the poor child! What is the matter with you, darling? Is it the heat that makes you feel badly? It is stifling hot here."
And, when Henrietta was at the door, she said,- "Oh, wait! I do not trouble people for nothing. Come, Julius, turn your pockets inside out, and give the little one a twenty-franc-piece."
The poor girl was almost outside, when she turned, and said,- "Thank you, madam; but you owe me nothing."
It was high time for Henrietta to leave. Her first surprise had been followed by mad anger, which drove the blood to her head, and made her weep bitter tears. She knew now that Mrs. Cheva.s.sat had caught her in this trap. What could the wretched woman have meant?
Carried away by an irresistible impulse, and no longer mistress of herself, Henrietta rushed down stairs, and broke like a whirlwind into the little box of the concierge, crying out,- "How could you dare to send me to such people? You knew all about it. You are a wretch!"
Master Cheva.s.sat was the first to rise, and said,- "What is the matter? Do you know to whom you are talking?"
But his wife interrupted him with a gesture, and, turning to Henrietta, said with cynic laughter,- "Well, what next? Are these people not good enough for you; eh? In the first place, I am tired of your ways, my "p.u.s.s.y-cat." When one is a beggar, as you are, one stays at home like a good girl; and one does not run away with a young man, and gad about the world with lovers."
Thereupon she took advantage of the fact that Henrietta had paused upon the threshold, to push her brutally out of the room at the risk of throwing her down, and fiercely banged the door. An hour afterwards the poor girl vehemently reproached herself for her pa.s.sion.
"Alas!" she said to herself, weeping, "the weak, the unhappy, have no right to complain. Who knows what this wicked woman will now do to avenge herself?"
She found it out the second day afterwards.
Coming down a little before seven o"clock, in order to buy her roll and her milk for breakfast, she met at the entrance-door Mrs. Hilaire, face to face. At the sight of the poor girl, that irascible woman turned as red as a poppy, and, rushing up to her, seized her by the arm, and shook it furiously, crying out at the same time with the full force of her lungs,- "Ah, it is you, miserable beggar, who go and tell stories on me! Oh, what wickedness! A beggar whom I had sent for to allow her to earn thirty francs! And I must needs think she is sick, and pity her, and ask Julius to give her a twenty-franc-piece."
Henrietta felt that she ought not to blame this woman, who, after all, had shown her nothing but kindness. But she was thoroughly frightened, and tried to get away. The woman, however, held her fast, and cried still louder, till several tenants came to the open windows.
"They"ll make you pay for that, my darling," she yelled, amid foul oaths, which her wrath carried along with it, as a torrent floats down stones and debris. "They"ll make you pay for it! You"ll have to clear out of here, I tell you!"
And the threat was not an idle one. That very afternoon the same lamentable scene was repeated; and so it went on every morning and every day. Mrs. Hilaire had friends in the house, who took up the quarrel, and fell upon Henrietta whenever she appeared. They lay in wait for her by turns; and she no sooner ventured upon the staircase than the shouts began; so that the unfortunate girl no longer dared leave the house. Early in the morning, as soon as the door was opened, she ran out to buy her daily provisions; then, running up swiftly, she barricaded herself in her chamber, and never stirred out again.
Surely, there was no lack of desire on her part to leave the house. But where should she go? Besides, the unknown frightened her; might it not have still greater terrors in reserve for her?
At last she was entirely without money.
In July her rent had cost her a hundred francs, and she had been compelled to buy a dress in place of her merino dress, which was falling to pieces. In the first days of August she was at the end of her resources. Nor would she have been able to make them last so long, even if she had not, ever since that evening at Mrs. Hilaire"s, done entirely without the expensive board of Mrs. Cheva.s.sat. Even this rupture, at which Henrietta had at first rejoiced, became now to her a source of overwhelming trouble. She had still a few things that she might sell,-a brooch, her cashmere, her watch, and her ear-rings; but she did not know how and to whom she could sell them.
All the stories by which the wicked woman down stairs had tried to frighten her from going herself to the p.a.w.nbroker came back to her mind; and she saw herself, at the first attempt, arrested by the police, examined, and carried back to her father, handed over to Sarah and Sir Thorn, and- Still want pressed her hard; and at last, after long hesitation, one evening, at dark, she slipped out to find a purchaser. What she was looking for was one of those dark little shops in which men lie in wait for their prey, whom the police always suspects, and carefully watches. She found one such as she desired. An old woman with spectacles on her nose, without even asking her name, and evidently taking her to be a thief, gave her, for her brooch and her ear-rings, a hundred and forty francs.
What was this sum of money? A nothing; Henrietta understood that perfectly. And hence, overcoming all her reserve and her reluctance, she vowed she would try every thing in her power to obtain work.
She kept her word, sustained by a secret hope of triumphing, by dint of energy and perseverance, over fate itself. She went from store to store, from door to door, so to say, soliciting employment, as she would have asked for alms, promising to do any thing that might be wanted, in return merely for her board and lodging. But it was written that every thing should turn against her. Her beauty, her charms, her distinguished appearance, her very manner of speaking, were so many obstacles in her way. Who could think of engaging a girl as a servant, who looked like a d.u.c.h.ess? So that all her prayers only met with cold faces, shrugging of shoulders, and ironical smiles. She was refused everywhere. It is true that now and then some gallant clerk replied to her application by a declaration of love.
Chance had thrown into her hands one of those small handbills which bill-stickers paste upon the gutters, and in which workwomen are "wanted." Henceforth she spent her days in looking up these handbills, and in going to places from which they were issued. But here she met with the same difficulties. There was no end of questions.
"Who are you? Where have you been? By whom have you been employed?" and finally, always the same distressing answer,- "We cannot employ persons like you."
Then she went to an employment agency. She had noticed one which displayed at the door a huge placard, on which places were offered from thirty-five up to a thousand francs a month. She went up stairs. A very loquacious gentleman made her first deposit a considerable sum, and then told her he had exactly what she wanted. She went ten times back to the office, and always in vain. After an eleventh appointment, he gave her the address of two houses, in one of which he a.s.sured her she would certainly be employed. These two houses turned out to be two small shops, where pretty young ladies were wanted to pour out absinthe, and to wait upon the customers.
This was Henrietta"s last effort. For ten months she had now been struggling with a kind of helpless fury against inconquerable difficulties, and at last the springs of her energy had lost their elasticity. Now, crushed in body and mind, overwhelmed and conquered, she gave up.
It lacked still eighteen months before she would become of age. Since she had escaped from her father"s house, she had not received a line from Daniel, although she had constantly written to him, and she had, of course, no means of ascertaining the date of his return. She had once, following M. de Brevan"s advice, summoned courage enough to go to the navy department, and there to inquire if they had any news about "The Conquest." A clerk had replied to her, with a joke, that "The Conquest" might be afloat yet "a year or two." How could the poor girl wait till then? Why should she any longer maintain the useless struggle? She felt acute pains in her chest; she coughed; and, after walking a few yards, her legs gave way under her, and she broke out in cold perspiration. She now spent her days almost always in bed, shivering with chills, or plunged in a kind of stupor, during which her mind was filled with dismal visions. She felt as if the very sources of life were drying up within her, and as if all her blood was, drop by drop, oozing out of her through an open wound.
"If I could die thus!" she thought.
This was the last favor she asked of G.o.d. Henceforth, a miracle alone could save her; and she hardly wished to be saved. A perfect indifference and intense distaste of every thing filled her soul. She thought she had exhausted all that man can suffer; and there was nothing left for her to fear.
A last misfortune which now befell her did not elicit even a sigh from her. One afternoon, while she had been down stairs, she had left the window open. The wind had suddenly sprung up, slammed the blinds, and thus upset a chair. On this chair hung her cashmere; it fell into the fireplace, in which a little fire was still burning; and when she came back she found the shawl half-burnt to ashes. It was the only article of value which she still possessed; and she might at any time have procured several hundred francs for it.
"Well," she said, "what does it matter? It means three months taken from my life; that is all."
And she did not think of it any more; she did not even trouble herself about the rent, which became due in October.
"I shall not be able to pay it," she said to herself. "Mrs. Cheva.s.sat will give me notice, and then the hour will have come."
Still, to her great surprise, the worthy woman from below did not scold her for not having the money ready, and even promised she would make the owner of the house give her time. This inexplicable forbearance gave Henrietta a week"s respite. But at last, one morning, she woke up, having not a cent left, having nothing even, she thought, that she could get money for, and being very hungry.
"Well," she thought, as if announcing to her own soul that the catastrophe had at last come, "all I need now is a few minutes" courage."
She said so in her mind; but in reality she was chilled to the heart by the fearful certainty that the crisis had really come: she felt as if the executioner were at the door of the room, ready to announce her sentence of death. And yet, for a month now, she had thought of suicide only; and the evening before she had thought it over with a kind of delight.
"I am surely not such a coward?" she said to herself in a fit of rage.
Yes, she was afraid. Yes, she told herself in vain that there was no other choice left to her but that between death and Sir Thorn, or M. de Brevan. She was terrified.
Alas! she was only twenty years old; she had never felt such exuberance of life within her; she wanted to live,-to live a month more, a week, a day!
If only her shawl had not been burnt! Then, examining with haggard eyes her chamber, she saw that exquisite piece of embroidery which she had undertaken. It was a dress, covered all over with work of marvellous delicacy and exquisite outlines. Unfortunately, it was far from being finished.
"Never mind!" she said to herself; "perhaps they will give me something for it."
And, wrapping the dress up hastily, she hurried to offer it for sale to the old woman who had already bought her ear-rings, and then her watch. The fearful old hag seemed to be overcome with surprise when she saw this marvel of skill.
"That"s very fine," she said; "why, it is magnificent! and, if it were finished, it would be worth a mint of money; but as it is no one would want it."
She consented, however, to give twenty francs for it, solely from love of art, she said; for it was money thrown away. These twenty francs were, for Henrietta, an unexpected release.
"It will last me a month," she thought, determined to live on dry bread only; "and who can tell what a month may bring forth?"
And this unfortunate girl had an inheritance from her mother of more than a million! If she had but known it, if she had but had a single friend to advise her in her inexperience! But she had been faithful to her vow never to let her secret be known to a living soul; and the most terrible anguish had never torn from her a single complaint.
M. de Brevan knew this full well; for he had continued his weekly visits with implacable regularity. This perseverance, which had at first served to maintain Henrietta"s courage, had now become a source of unspeakable torture.
"Ah, I shall be avenged!" she said to him one day. "Daniel will come back."
But he, shrugging his shoulders, had answered,- "If you count upon that alone, you may as well surrender, and become my wife at once."
She turned her head from him with an expression of ineffable disgust. Rather the icy arms of Death! And still the pulsations of her heart were apparently counted. Since the end of November her twenty francs had been exhausted; and to prolong her existence she had had to resort to the last desperate expedients of extreme poverty. All that she possessed, all that she could carry from her chamber without being stopped by the concierge, she had sold, piece by piece, bit after bit, for ten cents, for five cents, for a roll. Her linen had been sacrificed first; then the covering of her bed, her curtains, her sheets. The mattress had gone the way of the rest,-the wool from the inside first, carried off by handfuls; then the ticking.
Thus, on the 25th of December, she found herself in a chamber as utterly denuded as if a fire had raged there; while she herself had on her body but a single petticoat under her thin alpaca dress, without a rag to cover herself in these wintry nights. Two evenings before, when terror triumphed over her resolution for a time, she had written her father a long letter. He had made no reply. Last night she had again written in these words:- "I am hungry, and I have no bread. If by tomorrow at noon you have not come to my a.s.sistance, at one o"clock you will have ceased to have a daughter."
Tortured by cold and hunger, emaciated, and almost dying, she had waited for an answer. At noon nothing had come. She gave herself time till four o"clock. Four o"clock, and no answer.
"I must make an end of it," she said to herself.
Her preparations had been made. She had told the Cerberus below that she would be out all the evening; and she had procured a considerable stock of charcoal. She wrote two letters,-one to her father, the other to M. de Brevan.
After that she closed hermetically all the openings in her room, kindled two small fires, and, having commended her soul to G.o.d, stretched herself out on her bed. It was five o"clock.
A dense, bitter vapor spread slowly through the room; and the candle ceased to give a visible light. Then she felt as if an iron screw were tightening on her temples. She was suffocating, and felt a desire to sleep; but in her stomach she suffered intense pains.
Then strange and incoherent thoughts arose deliriously in her head; her ears were filled with confused noises; her pulse beat with extraordinary vehemence; nausea nearly convulsed her; and from time to time she fancied terrific explosions were breaking her skull to pieces.
The candle went out. Maddened by a sensation of dying, she tried to rise; but she could not. She wanted to cry; but her voice ended in a rattle in her throat.
Then her ideas became utterly confused. Respiration ceased. It was all over. She was suffering no longer.
XX.
Thus a few minutes longer, and all was really over. Count Ville- Handry"s daughter was dying! Count Ville-Handry"s daughter was dead!
But at that very hour the tenant of the fourth story, Papa Ravinet, the second-hand dealer, was going to his dinner. If he had gone down as usually, by the front staircase, no noise would have reached him. But Providence was awake. That evening he went down the back stairs, and heard the death-rattle of the poor dying girl. In our beautiful egotistical days, many a man, in the place of this old man, would not have gone out of his way. He, on the contrary, hurried down to inform the concierge. Many a man, again, would have been quieted by the apparent calmness of the Cheva.s.sat couple, and would have been satisfied with their a.s.surance that Henrietta was not at home. He, however, insisted, and, in spite of the evident reluctance of the concierge and his wife, compelled them to go up, and brought out, by his words first, and then by his example, one tenant after another.
It was he likewise, who, while the concierge and the other people were deliberating, directed what was to be done for the dying girl, and who hastened to fetch from his magazine a mattress, sheets, blankets, wood to make a fire, in fact, every thing that was needed in that bare chamber.