Think how she would, she could but feel as if she were ungratefully abandoning Clara. Clara had done so well by her in their three years together! There surely must be immediately forthcoming for such a remarkable person another large opportunity, and yet she couldn"t help recalling their first encounter in the particularly dull boarding-house where Clara was temporarily shelved; where, nevertheless, she had not conceded an inch of her cla.s.s, nor a ray of her l.u.s.ter to circ.u.mstance.
This surprising l.u.s.ter was the gloss of her body, the quality of her clothes and accessories, the way she traveled and the way she smiled. It was the bloom of luxury she kept about her person through all her varying surroundings. She had never to rise to the level of a new position; she was there already; and she never came down.
Flora knew it was for just her air of being ready that she had trusted Clara, and for the three years of their a.s.sociation she had never failed to find her companion ready wherever their common interests were concerned. She had no reason for not trusting Clara now, except the knowledge that, by her own approaching marriage, their interests would be separated, and her feeling that Clara"s prudence must already be by way of looking out for itself alone.
Yet Clara would do a kindness if it did not inconvenience her, and surely this morning she had been kind. Still Flora felt she didn"t want to reveal anything until she was a little surer of her own position.
When she knew better where she stood she would know what she could confide to Clara. Meanwhile, if there was any one to whom she could turn now it would surely be Harry.
Yet, if she did, what a lot of awkward explanations! She could not return the sapphire without giving a reason, and what a thing to explain--that she had not only worn it, but, in a freak, shown it to the one of all people he most objected to.
Nevertheless the most sensible thing clearly was to go through with it and confess to Harry. Then she must communicate with him at once.
No--she would wait until after breakfast. There was plenty of time. Kerr would not come until the afternoon. But after breakfast, she wondered if it wouldn"t be as well to ring him up at luncheon time? Then she would be sure of finding him at the club.
Meanwhile she dared not let the sapphire out of her grasp; and yet she could not wear it on her hand. She had thought of the tear-shaped pouch of gold which it was her custom to wear; but the slender length of chain that linked it to her neck was too frail for such a precious weight. At last she had fastened it around her neck on the strongest chain she owned, and thus she carried it all the morning under her bodice with a quieter mind than had been hers on the first day she had worn it, when there had been nothing to explain her uneasiness.
She was quite sure she was going to give back the sapphire to Harry, yet she couldn"t help picturing to herself what her meeting with Kerr would have been, supposing she had decided differently. As the morning slipped by she found herself doubting that he would come at all. Her att.i.tude of the night before had surely been enough to discourage any one. Yet if he didn"t come she knew that she would be disappointed.
She was alone at luncheon, and in a dream. She glanced now and then at the clock. She rose only ten minutes before the hour that Harry was in the habit of leaving the club. She went up-stairs slowly and stopped in front of the telephone. She touched the receiver, drew her hand back and turned away. She shut the door of her own rooms smartly after her.
She did not try to--because she couldn"t--understand her own proceeding.
She merely sat, listening, as it seemed to her, for hours.
But when at last Kerr"s card was handed in to her, it gave her a shock, as if something which couldn"t happen, and yet which she had all along expected, had come to pa.s.s.
In her instant of indecision Marrika had got away from her, but she called the girl back from the door and told her to say to Mrs. Britton that Mr. Kerr had called, but that Miss Gilsey would see him herself.
She started with a rush. Half-way down the stairs she stopped, horrified to find what her fingers were doing. They were closed around the little lump that the ring made in the bosom of her gown, and she had not known it. What if she had rushed in to Kerr with this extraordinary manifestation? What if, while she was talking to him, her hand should continue to creep up again and yet again to that place, and close around the jewel, and make it evident, even in its hiding-place? The time had come when she must even hide it from herself. And yet, to creep back up the stair when she made sure Kerr must have heard her tumultuous downward rush! It would never do to soundlessly retreat. She must go back boldly, as if she had forgotten nothing more considerable than a pocket handkerchief.
Yet before she reached the top again she found herself going tiptoe, as if she were on an expedition so secret that her own ears should not hear her footsteps. But she went direct and unhesitating. It had come to her all in a flash where she would put the sapphire. The little b.u.t.toned pocket of her bath-robe. There it hung in the bath-room on one unvarying peg, the most immovable of all her garments, safe from the excursions of Marrika"s needle or brushes, not to be disturbed for hours to come.
She pa.s.sed through her bedroom, through her dressing-room into the bath-room. The robe was hanging behind the door. It took her a moment to draw out the ring and disentangle its chain, and while she was doing this she became aware of movings to and fro in her bedroom. She drew the door half open, the better to conceal herself behind it, and at the same time, through the widened crack of the jamb, to keep an eye on the dressing-room, and hurried lest Marrika should surprise her. But nevertheless she had barely slipped the ring into the little pocket and refastened the flap, when Clara opened the bedroom door and stood looking into the dressing-room.
Flora experienced a sharp start of surprise, and then of wonder. Here was Clara again seeking her out! Here she stood, brushed and polished, and finished to a pitch of virtue, again taking Flora at a disadvantage, hiding behind her own door. But at the least she was grateful that Clara had not seen her. She stood a minute collecting herself. She wasn"t doing anything she need be ashamed of, or that she need explain, or that need even awaken suspicion. But before she could take her courage in both hands and come out of her retreat, Clara had reached the middle of the dressing-room, and stood still.
Her lifted veil made a fine mist above the l.u.s.ter of her eyes. She was perfect to the tips of her immaculate white gloves, and she wore the simple, sober look of a person who thinks himself alone. Then it wasn"t Flora, Clara was looking for! She was looking all around--over the surface of every object in the room. Presently she went up to the dressing-table. She laid her gloved hands upon it, and looked at the small objects strewn over its top. She took a step backward and opened the top drawer. She reached into it, and delicately explored.
Flora could see the white gloves going to and fro among her white handkerchiefs, could see them find, open and examine the contents of her jewel-box. And the only thing that kept her from shrieking out was the feeling that this abominable thing which was being enacted before her eyes couldn"t be a fact at all.
Clara took out an old pocket-book, shiny with years, shook from it a shower of receipts, newspaper clippings, verses. She let them lie. She took out a long violet box with a perfumer"s seal upon it. It held a bunch of dried violets. She took out a bonbonniere of gold filigree. It was empty. A powder box, a glove box, a froth of lace, a handful of jewelers" boxes, a jewel flung loose into the drawer. This she pounced upon. It was a brooch! She let it fall--turned to the chiffonier; upended the two vases of Venetian gla.s.s, lifted the lids of jars and boxes, finally came to the drawers. One by one she took them out, turned the contents of each rapidly over, and left them standing, gaping white ruffles and lace upon the floor. She took up daintily, in her white kid fingers, slippers, shook them upside down. She opened the door of the closet, and disappeared within. There was audible the flutterings of all the distressed garments, with little busy pauses. Then Clara came out, with her hat a little crooked; and stood in the middle of the room still with her absorbed and sober face, looking over the gaping drawers, pulled out and rifled, with their contents heaped up and streaming over the floor.
Her eye fell upon the waste basket. She turned it upside down, and stooped over the litter. She gathered it up in her white gloves and dropped it back. Then, for the first time, she glanced at the bath-room door; stood looking at it, as if it had occurred to her to look in the soap dish. Then she turned again to the room, to the dressing-table. She put back the paste-board jewelers" boxes, the jeweled pin, the laces, which she shook out and folded daintily, the glove and powder boxes, the gold bonbonniere, the long violet box, the leather pocket-book,--each deftly and unhesitatingly in the place from which she had taken it, and all the heaps of white handkerchiefs.
One by one she laid back in the chiffonier drawers, the garments, properly and neatly folded, that she had so hastily s.n.a.t.c.hed out of them. The sun, streaming full into the room, caught gleams in her pale hair, and struck blindingly upon the heaps of white around her, and made two dazzling points of her gloved hands that moved as deftly as hands uncovered. She slid back the last drawer into the chiffonier, and rose from her knees, lightly dusting off the front of her gown; went to the closet door and closed it. She stood before it a moment with a face perplexed and thoughtful, then turned alertly toward the outer door. As she pa.s.sed the mirror she looked into it, and touched her hat straight again, but the action was subconscious. Clara wasn"t thinking of it.
Flora stood as if she were afraid to move, while Clara crossed her bedroom, stopped, went on and closed the outer door behind her. And even after that soft little concussion she stood still, burning, choking, struggling with the overwhelming force of an affront whose import she did not yet realize. Out in her sunny dressing-room all the outraged furniture stood meek and in order, frauding the eye to believe that nothing had happened! She felt she couldn"t look things in the face a moment longer. She hid her face in the folds of her dressing-gown.
Why, she had thought that such things couldn"t happen! She had thought that people"s private belongings, like their persons, were inviolable.
They all always talked, she had talked, about such things as if they were mere nothings. They had talked about the very taking of the Crew Idol as if it were a splendid joke! But she had not dreamed what such things were like when they were near. When they were held up to you naked they were like this! In the shame of it she could no more have faced Clara than if she had surprised Clara naked.
She s.n.a.t.c.hed the ring out of the pocket of her gown and clutched it in her hand. Was there no place in the world where she could be sure of safety for this?
With trembling fingers she fastened it again to the chain about her neck. She thought of Kerr down-stairs waiting for her. Well, she would rather keep it with her. Then, at least, she would know when it was taken from her. Still in the fury of her outraged faith, she pa.s.sed through her violated rooms, and slowly along the hall and down the stairs.
XI
THE MYSTERY TAKES HUMAN FORM
He turned from the window where he had presented a long, drooping, patient back, and his warm, ironic mirth--the same that had played with her the first night--flashed out at sight of her. But after a moment another expression mixed with it, sharpened it, and fastened upon her with an incredulous intentness.
She stood on the threshold, pale, and brilliant still in her blaze of anger, equal, at last, to anything. Kerr, as he signaled to her with every lineament of his enlivened face, his interest, his defiance, his uncontrollability, was not the man of her imaginary conversations. He was not here to be used and disposed of; but, as he came toward her, the new admiration in his face was bringing her rea.s.surance that neither was she. The thought that her moment of bitter incredulity had made her formidable gave her courage to fight even him, of whom she was so much in awe; gave her courage even to smile, though she grew hot at the first words he spoke.
"You should not be brave and then run away, you know."
She thought of her rush up the stairs again. "I had to go back to see Mrs. Britton." (Oh, how she had seen her!)
It seemed to Flora that everything she had been through in the last few moments was blazoned on her face. But he only looked a little more gravely at her, though his sardonic eye-brow twitched.
"Ah, I thought you only ran back to hide in your doll"s house."
She laughed. Such a picture of her!
"Well, at any rate, now I"ve come out, what have you to say to me?"
"Now you"ve come out," he repeated, and looked at her this time with full gravity, as if he realized finally how far she"d come.
She had taken the chair in the light of the eastern windows. She lay back in the cushions, her head a little bent, her hands interlaced with a perfect imitation of quietude. The dull satin of her slender foot was the only motion about her, but the long, slow rise and fall of her breath was just too deep-drawn for repose.
He looked down upon her from his height.
"I"m sorry I frightened you last night," he said, "but I"m not sorry I came, since you"ve seen me. You needn"t have, you know, if you didn"t want to. You could have stayed in the doll"s house; and there, I suppose, you think I should never have found you--or _it_ again?"
He was silent a moment, leaning on the chair opposite, watching her with knitted forehead, while her apprehension fluttered for what he should do next. He had done away with all the amenities of meeting and attacked his point with a directness that took her breath.
"You know what I"ve come for," he said, "but now I"m here, now that I see you, I wonder if there"s something I haven"t reckoned on." He looked at her earnestly. "If you think I"ve taken advantage of you--if you say so--I"ll go away, and give you a chance to think it over."
It would have been so easy to have nodded him out, but instead she half put out her hand toward him. "No; stay."
He gave her a quick look--surprise and approbation at her courage. He dropped into a chair. "Then tell me about it."
Flora"s heart went quick and little. She held herself very still, afraid in her intense consciousness lest her slightest movement might betray her. She only moved her eyes to look up at him questioningly, suspending acknowledgment of what he meant until he should further commit himself.
"I mean the sapphire," he said. He waited.
"Yes," she answered coolly. "I saw that it interested you last night, but I couldn"t think especially why. It"s a beautiful stone."
He laughed without a sound--shook noiselessly for a minute. "Meaning that a gentleman shouldn"t pounce upon any beautiful stone he may happen to see?" He got up and moved about restlessly in the little s.p.a.ce between their two chairs. "Quite so; lay it to my being more than a gentleman; lay it to my being a crack-brained enthusiast, a confounded beauty worshiper, a vicious curio dealer, an ill-mannered a.s.s! But"--and he flashed around at her with a snap of his nervous fingers--"where did you get it?"