"We"ve run a few stories about that place," the man told Tony. "You"ll find them on our files, on microfilm. Next door, in the library."
"Oh good. Thanks." But that might mean hours of searching. "Is there anyone here who knows the background?"
The man frowned, and saw Tony realise that meant Yes. "The man who handled the last story is still on our staff," he said. "But he isn"t here now."
"Will he be here later?"
"Yes, probably. No, I"ve no idea when." As Tony left he felt the man was simply trying to prevent his colleague from being pestered.
The library was a long room, spread with sunlight. Sunlight lay dazzling on the glossy tables, cleaved shade among the bookcases; a trolley overflowed with thrillers and romances. Ploughman"s Path" Oh yes " and the librarian showed him a card file that indexed local personalities, events, areas. She snapped up a card for him, as if it were a Tarot"s answer. Ploughman"s Path: see Victor Hill, Legendry and Customs of the Severn Valley. "And there"s something on microfilm," she said, but he was anxious to make sure the book was on the shelf.
It was. It was bound in op-art blues. He carried it to a table; its blues vibrated in the sunlight. The index told him the pa.s.sage about Ploughman"s Path covered six pages. He riffled hastily past photographs of standing stones, a trough in the binding full of breadcrumbs, a crushed jagged-legged fly. Ploughman"s Path "
"Why the area bounding Ploughman"s Path should be dogged by ill luck and tragedy is not known. Folk living in the cottage nearby have sometimes reported hearing screams produced by no visible agency. Despite the similarity of this to banshee legends, no such legend appears to have grown up locally. But Ploughman"s Path, and the area bounding it furthest from the cottage (see map), has been so often visited by tragedy and misfortune that local folk dislike to even mention the name, which they fear will bring bad luck."
Furthest from the cottage. Tony relaxed. So long as the book said so, that was all right. And the last line told him why they"d behaved uneasily at the Farmer"s Rest. He read on, his curiosity unmixed now with apprehension.
But good Lord, the area was unlucky. Rumours of Roman sacrifices were only its earliest horrors. As the history of the place became more accurately doc.u.mented, the tragedies grew worse. A gallows set up within sight of the cottage, so that the couple living there must watch their seven-year-old daughter hanged for theft; it had taken her hours to die. An old woman accused of witchcraft by gossip, set on fire and left to burn alive on the path. A mute child who"d fallen down an old well: coping-stones had fallen on him, breaking his limbs and hiding him from searchers " years later his skeleton had been found. A baby caught in an animal trap. G.o.d, Tony thought. No wonder he"d heard screams.
A student was using the microfilm reader. Tony went back to the Observer building. A pear-shaped red-faced man leaned against the wall, chatting to the receptionist; he wore a tweedy pork-pie hat, a blue shirt and waistcoat, tweed trousers. "Watch out, here"s trouble," he said as Tony entered.
"Has he come in yet?" Tony asked the girl. "The man who knows about Ploughman"s Path?"
"What"s your interest?" the red-faced man demanded.
"I"m staying in the cottage near there. I"ve been hearing odd things. Cries."
"Have you now." The man pondered, frowning. "Well, you"re looking at the man who knows," he decided to say, thumping his chest. "Roy Burley. Burly Roy, that"s me. Don"t you know me" Don"t you read our paper" Time you did, then." He s.n.a.t.c.hed an Observer from a rack and stuffed it into Tony"s hand.
"You want to know about the path, eh" It"s all up here." He tapped his hat. "I"ll tell you what, though, it"s a hot day for talking. Do you fancy a drink" Tell old Puddle I"ll be back soon," he told the girl.
He thumped on the door of The Wheatsheaf. "They"ll open up. They know me here." At last a man reluctantly opened the door, glancing discouragingly at Tony. "It"s all right, Bill, don"t look so b.l.o.o.d.y glum," Roy Burley said. "He"s a friend of mine."
A girl set out beer mats; her radio sang that everything was beautiful, in its own way. Roy Burley bought two pints and vainly tried to persuade Bill to join them. "Get that down you," he told Tony. "The only way to start work. You"d think they could do without me over the road, the way some of the b.u.g.g.e.rs act. But they soon start screaming if they think my copy"s going to be late. They"d like to see me out, some of them. Unfortunately for them, I"ve got friends. There I am," he said, poking a thick finger into the newspaper: The Countryside This Week, by Countryman. "And there, and there." Social Notes, by A. Guest. Entertainments, by D. Plainman. "What"s your line of business?" he demanded.
"I"m an artist, a painter."
"Ah, the painters always come down here. And the advertising people. I"ll tell you, the other week we had a photographer ?"
By the time it was his round Tony began to suspect he was just an excuse for beers. "You were going to tell me about the screams," he said when he returned to the table.
The man"s eyes narrowed warily. "You"ve heard them. What do you think they are?"
"I was reading about the place earlier," Tony said, anxious to win his confidence. "I"m sure all those tragedies must have left an imprint somehow. A kind of recording. If there are ghosts, I think that"s what they are."
"That"s right." Roy Burley"s eyes relaxed. "I"ve always thought that. There"s a bit of science in that, it makes sense. Not like some of the things these spiritualists try to sell."
Tony opened his mouth to head him off from the next anecdote: too late. "We had one of them down here, trying to tell us about Ploughman"s Path. A spiritualist or a medium, same thing. Came expecting us all to be yokels, I shouldn"t wonder. The police weren"t having any, so he tried it on us. Murder brings these mediums swarming like flies, so I"ve heard tell."
"What murder?" Tony said, confused.
"I thought you read about it." His eyes had narrowed again. "Oh, you read the book. No, it wouldn"t be in there, too recent." He gulped beer; everything is beautiful, the radio sang. "Why, it was just about the worst thing that ever happened at Ploughman"s Path. I"ve seen pictures of what Jack the Ripper did, but this was worse. They talk about people being flayed alive, but " Christ. Put another in here, Bill."
He half-emptied the refilled gla.s.s. "They never caught him. I"d have stopped him, I can tell you," he said in vague impotent fury. "The police didn"t think he was a local man, because there wasn"t any repet.i.tions. He left no clues, n.o.body saw him. At least, not what he looked like. There was a family picnicking in the field the day before the murder, they said they kept feeling there was someone watching. He must have been waiting to catch someone alone.
I"ll tell you the one clever suggestion this medium had. These picnickers heard the scream, what you called the recording. He thought maybe the screams were what attracted the maniac there."
Attracted him there. That reminded Tony of something, but the beer was heavy on his mind. "What else did the medium have to say?"
"Oh, all sorts of rubbish. You know, this mystical stuff. Seeing patterns everywhere, saying everything is a pattern."
"Yes?"
"Oh yes," Roy Burley said irritably. "He didn"t get that one past me, though, If everything"s a pattern it has to include all the horror in the world, doesn"t it" Things like this murder" That shut him up for a bit. Then he tried to say things like that may be necessary too, to make up the pattern. These people," he said with a gesture of disgust, "you can"t talk to them."
Tony bought him another pint, restraining himself to a half. "Did he have any ideas about the screams?"
"G.o.d, I can"t remember. Do you really want to hear that rubbish" You wouldn"t have liked what he said, let me tell you. He didn"t believe in your recording idea." He wiped his frothy lips sloppily. "He came here a couple of years after the murder," he reluctantly answered Tony"s encouraging gaze. "He"d read about the tragedies. He held a three-day vigil at Ploughman"s Path, or something. Wouldn"t it be nice to have that much time to waste" He heard the screams, but " this is what I said you wouldn"t like " he said he couldn"t feel any trace of the tragedies at all."
"I don"t understand."
"Well, you know these people are shupposed to be sens.h.i.tive to sush things." When he"d finished laughing at himself he said, "Oh, he had an explanation, he was full of them. He tried to tell the police and me that the real tragedy hadn"t happened yet. He wanted us to believe he could see it in the future. Of course he couldn"t say what or when. Do you know what he tried to make out" That there was something so awful in the future it was echoing back somehow, a sort of ghost in reverse. All the tragedies were just echoes, you see. He even made out the place was trying to make this final thing happen, so it could get rid of it at last. It had to make the worst thing possible happen, to purge itself. That was where the traces of the tragedies had gone " the psychic energy, he called it. The place had converted all that energy, to help it make the thing happen. Oh, he was a real comedian."
"But what about the screams?"
"Same kind of echo. Haven"t you ever heard an echo on a record before you hear the sound" He tried to say the screams were like that, coming back from the future. He was entertaining, I"ll give him that. He had all sorts of charts, he"d worked out some kind of numerical pattern, the frequency of the tragedies or something. Didn"t impress me. They"re like statistics, those things, you can make them mean anything." His eyes had narrowed, gazing inward. "I ended up laughing at him. He went off very upset. Well, I had to get rid of him, I"d better things to do than listen to him. It wasn"t my fault he was killed," he said angrily, "whatever some people may say."
"Why, how was he killed?"
"Oh, he went back to Ploughman"s Path. If he was so upset he shouldn"t have been driving. There were some children playing near the path. He must have meant to chase them away, but he lost control of the car, crashed at the end of the path. His legs were trapped and he caught fire. Of course he could have fitted that into his pattern," he mused. "I suppose he"d have said that was what the third scream meant."
Tony started. He fought back the shadows of beer, of the pub. "How do you mean, the third scream?"
"That was to do with his charts. He"d heard three screams in his vigil. He"d worked out that three screams meant it was time for a tragedy. He tried to show me, but I wasn"t looking. What"s the matter" Don"t be going yet, it"s my round. What"s up, how many screams have you heard?"
"I don"t know," Tony blurted. "Maybe I dreamt one." As he hurried out he saw Roy Burley picking up his abandoned beer, saying, "Aren"t you going to finish this?"
It was all right. There was nothing to worry about, he"d just better be getting back to the cottage. The key groped clumsily for the ignition. The rusty yellow of Camside rolled back, rushed by green. Tony felt as if he were floating in a stationary car, as the road wheeled by beneath him " as if he were sitting in the front stalls before a cinema screen, as the road poured through the screen, as the blank of a curve hurtled at him: look out! Nearly. He slowed. No need to take risks. But his mind was full of the memory of someone watching from the trees, perhaps drawn there by the screams.
Puffy clouds lazed above the hills. As the Farmer"s Rest whipped by Tony glimpsed the cottage and the field, laid out minutely below; the trees at Ploughman"s Path were a tight band of green. He skidded into the side road, fighting the wheel; the road seemed absurdly narrow. Scents of blossoms billowed thickly at him. A few birds sang elaborately, otherwise the pa.s.sing countryside was silent, deserted, weighed down by heat.
The trunks of the trees at the end of Ploughman"s Path were twitching nervously, incessantly. He squeezed his eyes shut. Only heat-haze. Slow down. Nearly home now.
He slammed the car door, which sprang open. Never mind. He ran up the path and thrust the gate back, breaking its latch. The door of the cottage was ajar. He halted in the front room. The cottage seemed full of his harsh panting.
Di"s typescript was scattered over the carpet. The dark chairs sat fatly; one lay on its side, its fake leather ripped. Beside it a small object glistened red. He picked it up, staining his fingers. Though it was thick with blood he recognised Di"s wedding ring.
When he rushed out after searching the cottage he saw the trail at once. As he forced his way through the fence, sobbing dryly, barbed wire clawed at him. He ran across the field, stumbling and falling, towards Ploughman"s Path. The discoloured gra.s.s of the trail painted his trouser-cuffs and hands red. The trees of Ploughman"s Path shook violently, with terror or with eagerness. The trail touched their trunks, leading him beneath the foliage to what lay on the path.
It was huge. More than anything else it looked like a tattered cut-out silhouette of a woman"s body. It gleamed red beneath the trees; its torso was perhaps three feet wide. On the width of the silhouette"s head two eyes were arranged neatly.
The scream ripped the silence of the path, an outraged cry of horror beyond words. It startled him into stumbling forward. He felt numb and dull. His mind refused to grasp what he was seeing; it was like nothing he"d ever seen. There was most of the head, in the crotch of a tree. Other things dangled from branches.
His lips seemed glued together. Since reaching the path he had made no sound. He hadn"t screamed, but he"d heard himself scream. At last he recognised that all the screams had been his voice.
He began to turn about rapidly, staring dull-eyed, seeking a direction in which he could look without being confronted with horror. There was none. He stood aimlessly, staring down near his feet, at a reddened gag.
As all the trees quivered like columns of water he heard movement behind him.
Though he had no will to live, it took him a long time to turn. He knew the pattern had reached its completion, and he was afraid. He had to close his eyes before he could turn, for he could still hear the scream he was about to utter.
Baby (1976).
When the old woman reached the shops Dutton began to lag further behind. Though his hands were as deep in his pockets as they could go, they were shaking. It"s all right, he told himself, stay behind. The last thing you want is for her to notice you now. But he knew he"d fallen behind because he was losing his nerve.
The November wind blundered out of the side streets and shook him. As he hurried across each intersection, head trembling deep in his collar, he couldn"t help searching the doorways for Tommy, Maud, even old Frank, anyone with a bottle. But n.o.body sat against the dull paint of the doors, beneath the bricked-up windows; nothing moved except tangles of sodden paper and leaves. No, he thought, trying to seize his mind before it began to shake like his body. He hadn"t stayed sober for so long to lapse now, when he was so close to what he"d stayed sober for.
She"d drawn ahead; he was four blocks behind now. Not far enough behind. He"d better dodge into the next side street before she looked back and saw him. But then one of the shopkeepers might see him hiding and call the police. Or she might turn somewhere while he was hiding, and he would lose her. The stubble on his cheeks crawled with sweat, which clung to the whole of his body; he couldn"t tell if it was boiling or frozen. For a couple of steps he limped rapidly to catch up with the old woman, then he held himself back. She was about to look at him.
Fear flashed through him as if his sweat were charged. He made himself gaze at the shops, at the stalls outside: water chestnuts, capsic.u.ms, aubergines, dhal-the little notices on sticks said so, but they were alien to him; they didn"t help him hold on to his mind. Their price-flags fluttered, tiny and nerve-racking as the p.r.i.c.kling of his cheeks.
Then he heard the pram. Its sound was deep in the bl.u.s.tering of the wind, but it was unmistakable. He"d heard it too often, coming towards the house, fading into the room below his. It sounded like the start of a rusty metal yawn, abruptly interrupted by a brief squeal, over and over. It was the sound of his goal, of the reason why he"d stayed sober all night. He brought the pockets of his coat together, propping the iron bar more securely against his chest inside the coat.
She had reached the maze of marshy ground and broken houses beyond the shops. At last, Dutton thought, and began to run. The bar thumped his chest until it bruised. His trousers chafed his thighs like sandpaper, his calves throbbed, but he ran stumbling past the morose shoppers, the defiantly cheerful shopkeepers, the continuing almost ghostly trade of the street. As soon as she was out of sight of the shops, near one of the dilapidated houses, he would have her. At once he halted, drenched in sweat. He couldn"t do it.
He stood laughing mirthlessly at himself as newspapers swooped at him. He was going to kill the old woman, was he? Him, who hadn"t been able to keep a job for more than a week for years? Him, who had known he wasn"t going to keep a job before he started working at it, until the social security had reluctantly agreed with him? Him, who could boast of nothing but the book he cashed weekly at the post office? He was going to kill her?
His mind sounded like his mother. Too much so to dishearten him entirely: it wasn"t him, he could answer back. He remembered when he"d started drinking seriously. He"d felt then that if the social security took an interest in him he would be able to hold down a job; but they hadn"t bothered to conceal their indifference, and soon after that they"d given him his book. But now it was different. He didn"t need anyone"s encouragement. He"d proved that by not touching a drink since yesterday afternoon. If he could do that, he could do anything.
He shoved past a woman wheeling a pramful of groceries, and ran faster to outdistance the trembling that spread through his body. His shoes crackled faintly with the plastic bags in which his feet were wrapped. He was going to kill her, because of the contemptuous way she"d looked at him in the hall, exactly as his mother had used to; because while he was suffering poverty, she had chosen worse and flaunted her happiness; because although her coat had acquired a thick hem of mud from trailing, though the coat gaped like frayed lips between her shoulders, she was always smiling secretly, una.s.sailably. He let the thoughts seep through his mind, gathering darkly and heavily in the depths. He was going to kill her-because she looked too old for life, too ugly and wizened to live; because she walked as if to do so were a punishment; because her smile must be a paralysed grimace of pain, after all; because her tuneless crooning often kept him awake half the night, though he stamped on her ceiling; because he needed her secret wealth. She had turned and was coming back towards him, past the shops. His face huddled into his collar as he stumbled away, across the road. That was enough. He"d tried, he couldn"t do more. If circ.u.mstances hadn"t saved him he would have failed. He would have been arrested, and for nothing. He shifted the bar uneasily within his coat, anxious to be rid of it. He gazed at the burst husk of a premature firework, lying trampled on the pavement. It reminded him of himself. He turned hastily as the old woman came opposite him, and stared in a toy-shop window.
An orange baby with fat wrinkled dusty joints stared back at him. Beside it, reflected in a dark gap among the early Christmas toys and fireworks for tomorrow night, he saw the old woman. She had pushed her pram alongside a greengrocer"s stall; now she let it go. Dutton peered closer, frowning.
He was sure she hadn"t pushed the pram before letting go. Yet it had sped away, past the greengrocer"s stall, then halted suddenly. He was still peering when she wheeled it out of the reflection, into the depths full of toys. He began to follow her at once, hardly shaking. Even if he hadn"t needed her wealth to give him a chance in life, he had to know what was in that pram.
What wealth? How did he know about it? He struggled to remember. Betty, no, Maud had told him, the day she hadn"t drunk too much to recall. She"d read about the old woman in the paper, years ago: about how she"d been swindled by a man whom n.o.body could trace. She"d given the man her money, her jewels, her house, and her relatives had set the police on him. But then she had been in the paper herself, saying she hadn"t been swindled at all, that it was none of their business what she"d gained from the trade; and Maud supposed they"d believed her, because that was the last she had seen of the woman in the paper.
But soon after that Maud had seen her in town, wheeling her pram and smiling to herself. She"d often seen her in the crowds, and then the old woman had moved into the room beneath Dutton, older and wearier now but still smiling. "That shows she got something out of it," Maud said. "What else has she got to smile about? But where she keeps it, that"s the thing." She"d shown Dutton a bit she had kept of the paper, and it did look like the old woman, smiling up from a blot of fluff and sweat.
The old woman had nearly reached home now. Dutton stumbled over a paving-stone that had cracked and collapsed like ice on a pool. The iron bar nudged his chest impatiently, tearing his skin. Nearly there now. He had to remember why he was doing this. If he could hold all that in his mind he would be able to kill her. He muttered; his furred tongue crawled in his mouth like a dying caterpillar. He must remember.
He"d gone into her room one day. A month ago, two? Never mind! he thought viciously. He"d been drunk enough to take the risk, not too drunk to make sense of what he"d found. He"d staggered into the house and straight into her room. Since he knew she didn"t lock the door, he"d expected to find nothing; yet he was astonished to find so little. In the strained light through the encrusted window, stained patches of wallpaper slumped and bulged. The bed knelt at one corner, for a leg had given way; the dirty sheets had slipped down to conceal the damage. Otherwise the room was bare, no sign even of the pram. The pram. Of course.
He had tried to glimpse what was in the pram. He"d pressed his cheek against his window whenever he heard her approaching, but each time the pram"s hood was in the way. Once he"d run downstairs and peered into the pram as she opened her door, but she had pulled the pram away like a chair in a practical joke, and gazed at him with amazement, amus.e.m.e.nt, profound contempt.
And last week, in the street, he"d been so drunk he had reeled at her and wrenched the pram"s handle from her grasp. He"d staggered around to look beneath the hood-but she had already kicked the pram, sending it sailing down a canted side road, and had flown screaming at him, her nails aimed straight for his eyes. When he"d fallen in the gutter she had turned away, laughing with the crowd. As he had pushed himself unsteadily to his feet, his hand deep in sodden litter, he was sure he"d glimpsed the pram halting inches short of crashing into a wall, apparently by itself.
He had decided then, as his hand slithered in the pulp. In his mind she"d joined the people who were laughing inwardly at him: the social security, the clerks in the post office. Only she was laughing aloud, encouraging the crowd to laugh. He would kill her for that. He"d persuaded himself for days that he would. She"d soon have no reason to laugh at his poverty, at the book he hid crumpled in his hand as he waited in the post office. And last night, writhing on his bed amid the darkly crawling walls, listening to her incessant contented wailing, he"d known that he would kill her.
He would kill her. Now.
He was running, his hands gloved in his pockets and swinging together before him at the end of the metal bar, running past a shop whose windows were boarded up with dislocated doors, past the faintly whistling waste ground and, beneath his window in the side of the house, a dormant restlessly creaking bonfire taller than himself. She must have reached her room by now.
The street was deserted. Bricks lay in the roadway, unmoved by the tugging of the wind. He wavered on the front step, listening for sounds in the house. The baby wasn"t crying in the cellar, which meant those people must be out; n.o.body was in the kitchen; even if the old man in the room opposite Dutton"s were home, he was deaf. Dutton floundered into the hall, then halted as if at the end of a chain.
He couldn"t do it here. He stared at the smudged and faded whorls of the wallpaper, the patterns of numbers scribbled above the patch where the telephone had used to be, the way the stairs turned sharply in the gloom just below the landing. The bar hung half out of his coat. He could have killed her beyond the shops, but this was too familiar. He couldn"t imagine a killing here, where everything suffocated even the thought of change-everything, even the creaking of the floorboards.
The floorboards were creaking. She would hear them. All at once he felt he was drowning in sweat. She would come out and see the iron bar, and know what he"d meant to do. She would call the police. He pulled out the bar, tearing a b.u.t.ton-hole, and blundered into her room.
The old woman was at the far end of the room, her back to him. She was turning away from the pram, stooped over as if holding an object against her belly. From her mouth came the sound that had kept him awake so often, a contented lulling sound. For the first time he could hear what she was saying. "Baby," she was crooning, "baby." She might have been speaking to a lover or a child.
In a moment she would see him. He limped swiftly forward, his padding footsteps puffing up dust to discolour the dim light more, and swung the iron bar at her head.
He"d forgotten how heavy the bar was. It pulled him down towards her, by his weakened arms. He felt her head give, and heard a m.u.f.fled crackling beneath her hair. Momentarily, as he clung to the bar as it rested in her head against the wall, he was face to face with her, with her eyes and mouth as they worked spasmodically and went slack.
He recoiled, most of all because there was the beginning of a wry smile in her eyes until they faded. Then she fell with a great flat thud, shockingly heavy and loud. Dust rolled out from beneath her, rising about Dutton"s face as he fought a sneeze, settling on the dark patch that was spreading over the old woman"s colourless hair.
Dutton closed his eyes and gripped the bar, propping it against the wall, resting his forehead on the lukewarm metal. His stomach writhed, worse than in the mornings, sending convulsions through his whole body. At last he managed to open his eyes and look down again. She lay with one cheek in the dust, her hair darkening, her arms sprawled on either side of her. They had been holding nothing to her belly. In the dim light she looked like a sleeping drunk, a sack, almost nothing at all. Dutton remembered the crackling of her head and found himself giggling hysterically, uncontrollably.
He had to be quick. Someone might hear him. Stepping over her, he unb.u.t.toned the pram"s ap.r.o.n and pulled it back.
At first he couldn"t make out what the pram contained. He had to crane himself over, holding his body back from obscuring the light. The pram was full of groceries-cabbage, sprouts, potatoes. Dutton shook his head, bewildered, suspecting his eyes of practical joking. He pulled the pram over to the window, remembering only just in time to disguise his hand in the rag he kept as a handkerchief.
The windowpanes looked like the back of a fireplace. Dutton rubbed them with his handkerchief but succeeded only in smudging the grime. He peered into the pram again. It was still almost packed with groceries; only, near the head of the pram, there was a clear s.p.a.ce about a foot in diameter. It was empty.
He began to throw out the vegetables. Potatoes trundled thundering over the floorboards, a rolling cabbage scooped up dust in its leaves. The vegetables were fresh, yet she had entered none of the shops, and he was sure he hadn"t seen her filching. He was trying to recall what in fact he had seen when his wrapped hand touched something at the bottom of the pram: something hard, round, several round objects, a corner beneath one, a surface that struck cold through his handkerchief-gla.s.s. He lifted the corner and the framed photograph came up out of the darkness, its round transparent cargo rolling. They almost rolled off before he laid the photograph on the corner of the pram, for his grip had slackened as the globes rolled apart to let the old woman stare up at him.
She was decades younger, and there was no doubt she was the woman Maud had shown him. And here were her treasures, delivered to him on her photograph as if on a tray. He grinned wildly and stooped to admire them. He froze in that position, hunched over in disbelief.
There were four of the globes. They were transparent, full of floating specks of light that gradually settled. He stared numbly at them. Close to his eyes threads of sunlight through the window selected sparkling motes of dust, then let them go. Surely he must be wrong. Surely this wasn"t what he"d suffered all night for. But he could see no other explanation. The old woman had been wholly mad. The treasures that had kept her smiling, the treasures she had fought him for, were nothing but four fake snowstorm globes of the kind he"d seen in dozens of toy shops. He convulsed as if seized by nausea. With his wrapped hand he swept all four globes off the photograph, snarling.
They took a long time to fall. They took long enough for him to notice, and to stare at them. They seemed to be sinking through the air as slowly as dust, turning enormously like worlds, filling the whole of his attention. In each of them a faint image was appearing: in one a landscape, in another a calm and luminous face.
It must be the angle at which you held them to the light. They were falling so slowly he could catch them yet, could catch the face and the landscape which he could almost see, the other images which trembled at the very edge of recognition, images like a sweet and piercing song, approaching from inaudibility. They were falling slowly-yet he was only making to move towards them when the globes smashed on the floor, their fragments parting like petals. He heard no sound at all.
He stood shaking in the dimness. He had had enough. He felt his trembling hands wrap the stained bar in his handkerchief. The rag was large enough; it had always made a companionable bulge in his pocket. He sniffed, and wondered if the old woman"s pockets were empty. It was only when he stooped to search that he saw the enormous bulge in her coat, over her belly.
Part of his mind was warning him, but his fingers wrenched eagerly at her b.u.t.tons. He threw her coat open, in the dust. Then he recoiled, gasping. Beneath the faded flowers of her dress she was heavily pregnant.
She couldn"t be. Who would have touched her? Her coat hadn"t bulged like that in the street, he was sure. But there was no mistaking the swelling of her belly. He pushed himself away from her, his hands against the damp wall. The light was so dim and thick he felt he was struggling in mud. He gazed at the swollen lifeless body, then he turned and ran.
Still there was n.o.body in the street. He stumbled to the waste ground and thrust the wrapped bar deep in the bonfire. Tomorrow night the blood would be burned away. As he limped through the broken streets, the old woman"s room hung about him. At last, in a doorway two streets distant, he found Tommy.