14. "The Whisperer in Darkness".
15. Robert E. Howard.
16. "The Dreams in the Witch House".
17. Robert Bloch.
18. "The Shambler from the Stars".
19. "The s.p.a.ce-Eaters" by Frank Belknap Long.
20. The tale originally published as "The White Ape" was reprinted as "Arthur Jermyn".
21. On its appearance in Astounding Stories, "At the Mountains of Madness" attracted hostile comment in the letter-column.
22. After the publication of "The Shadow out of Time", Astounding Stories ran further hostile correspondence.
23.. Nash is referring to "The Haunter of the Dark" and "The Thing on the Doorstep", published in the most recent issues of Weird Tales.
With The Angels (2010)
As Cynthia drove between the ma.s.sive mossy posts where the gates used to be, Karen said "Were you little when you lived here, Auntie Jackie?"
"Not as little as I was," Cynthia said.
"That"s right," Jacqueline said while the poplars alongside the high walls darkened the car, "I"m even older than your grandmother."
Karen and Valerie giggled and then looked for other amus.e.m.e.nt. "What"s this house called, Brian?" Valerie enquired.
"The Populars," the four-year-old declared and set about punching his sisters almost before they began to laugh.
"Now, you three," Cynthia intervened. "You said you"d show Jackie how good you can be."
No doubt she meant her sister to feel more included. "Can"t we play?" said Brian as if Jacqueline were a disapproving bystander.
"I expect you may," Jacqueline said, having glanced at Cynthia. "Just don"t get yourselves dirty or do any damage or go anywhere you shouldn"t or that"s dangerous."
Brian and the eight-year-old twins barely waited for Cynthia to haul two-handed at the brake before they piled out of the Volvo and chased across the forecourt into the weedy garden. "Do try and let them be children," Cynthia murmured.
"I wasn"t aware I could change them." Jacqueline managed not to groan while she unbent her stiff limbs and clambered out of the car. "I shouldn"t think they would take much notice of me," she said, supporting herself on the hot roof as she turned to the house.
Despite the August sunlight, it seemed darker than its neighbours, not just because of the shadows of the trees, which still put her in mind of a graveyard. More than a century"s worth of winds across the moors outside the Yorkshire town had plastered the large house with grime. The windows on the topmost floor were half the size of those on the other two storeys, one reason why she"d striven in her childhood not to think they resembled the eyes of a spider, any more than the porch between the downstairs rooms looked like a voracious vertical mouth. She was far from a child now, and she strode or at any rate limped to the porch, only to have to wait for her sister to bring the keys. As Cynthia thrust one into the first rusty lock the twins scampered over, pursued by their brother. "Throw me up again," he cried.
"Where did he get that from?"
"From being a child, I should think," Cynthia said. "Don"t you remember what it was like?"
Jacqueline did, not least because of Brian"s demand. She found some breath as she watched the girls take their brother by the arms and swing him into the air. "Again," he cried.
"We"re tired now," Karen told him. "We want to see in the house."
"Maybe grandma and auntie will give you a throw if you"re good," Valerie said.
"Not just now," Jacqueline said at once.
Cynthia raised her eyebrows high enough to turn her eyes blank as she twisted the second key. The door lumbered inwards a few inches and then baulked. She was trying to nudge the obstruction aside with the door when Brian made for the gap. "Don"t," Jacqueline blurted, catching him by the shoulder.
"Good heavens, Jackie, what"s the matter now?"
"We don"t want the children in there until we know what state it"s in, do we?"
"Just see if you can squeeze past and shift whatever"s there, Brian."
Jacqueline felt unworthy of consideration. She could only watch the boy wriggle around the edge of the door and vanish into the gloom. She heard fumbling and rustling, but of course this didn"t mean some desiccated presence was at large in the vestibule. Why didn"t Brian speak? She was about to prompt him until he called "It"s just some old letters and papers."
When he reappeared with several free newspapers that looked as dusty as their news, Cynthia eased the door past him. A handful of brown envelopes contained electricity bills that grew redder as they came up to date, which made Jacqueline wonder "Won"t the lights work?"
"I expect so if we really need them." Cynthia advanced into the wide hall beyond the vestibule and poked at the nearest switch. Grit ground inside the mechanism, but the bulbs in the hall chandelier stayed as dull as the ma.s.s of crystal teardrops. "Never mind," Cynthia said, having tested every switch in the column on the wall without result. "As I say, we won"t need them."
The grimy skylight above the stairwell illuminated the hall enough to show that the dark wallpaper was even hairier than Jacqueline remembered. It had always made her think of the fur of a great spider, and now it was blotchy with damp. The children were already running up the left-hand staircase and across the first-floor landing, under which the chandelier dangled like a spider on a thread. "Don"t go out of sight," Cynthia told them, "until we see what"s what."
"Chase me." Brian ran down the other stairs, one of which rattled like a lid beneath the heavy carpet. "Chase," he cried and dashed across the hall to race upstairs again.
"Don"t keep running up and down unless you want to make me ill," Jacqueline"s grandmother would have said. The incessant rumble of footsteps might have presaged a storm on the way to turning the hall even gloomier, so that Jacqueline strode as steadily as she could towards the nearest room. She had to pa.s.s one of the hall mirrors, which appeared to show a dark blotch hovering in wait for the children. The shapeless sagging darkness at the top of the grimy oval was a stain, and she needn"t have waited to see the children run downstairs out of its reach. "Do you want the mirror?" Cynthia said. "I expect it would clean up."
"I don"t know what I want from this house," Jacqueline said.
She mustn"t say she would prefer the children not to be in it. She couldn"t even suggest sending them outside in case the garden concealed dangers-broken gla.s.s, rusty metal, holes in the ground. The children were staying with Cynthia while her son and his partner holidayed in Morocco, but couldn"t she have chosen a better time to go through the house before it was put up for sale? She frowned at Jacqueline and then followed her into the dining-room.
Although the heavy curtains were tied back from the large windows, the room wasn"t much brighter than the hall. It was steeped in the shadows of the poplars, and the tall panes were spotted with earth. A spider"s nest of a chandelier loomed above the long table set for an elaborate dinner for six. That had been Cynthia"s idea when they"d moved their parents to the rest home; she"d meant to convince any thieves that the house was still occupied, but to Jacqueline it felt like preserving a past that she"d hoped to outgrow. She remembered being made to sit up stiffly at the table, to hold her utensils just so, to cover her lap nicely with her napkin, not to speak or to make the slightest noise with any of her food. Too much of this upbringing had lodged inside her, but was that why she felt uneasy with the children in the house? "Are you taking anything out of here?" Cynthia said.
"There"s nothing here for me, Cynthia. You have whatever you want and don"t worry about me."
Cynthia gazed at her as they headed for the breakfast room. The chandelier stirred as the children ran above it once again, but Jacqueline told herself that was nothing like her nightmares-at least, not very like. She was unnerved to hear Cynthia exclaim "There it is."
The breakfast room was borrowing light from the large back garden, but not much, since the overgrown expanse lay in the shadow of the house. The weighty table had spread its wings and was attended by six straight-backed ponderous chairs, but Cynthia was holding out her hands to the high chair in the darkest corner of the room. "Do you remember sitting in that?" she apparently hoped. "I think I do."
"I wouldn"t," Jacqueline said.
She hadn"t needed it to make her feel restricted at the table, where breakfast with her grandparents had been as formal as dinner. "Nothing here either," she declared and limped into the hall.
The mirror on the far side was discoloured too. She glimpsed the children"s blurred shapes streaming up into a pendulous darkness and heard the agitated jangle of the chandelier as she made for the lounge. The leather suite looked immovable with age, and only the television went some way towards bringing the room up to date, though the screen was as blank as an uninscribed stone. She remembered having to sit silent for hours while her parents and grandparents listened to the radio for news about the war-her grandmother hadn"t liked children out of her sight in the house. The dresser was still full of china she"d been forbidden to venture near, which was grey with dust and the dimness. Cynthia had been allowed to crawl around the room- indulged for being younger or because their grandmother liked babies in the house. "I"ll leave you to it," she said as Cynthia followed her in.
She was hoping to find more light in the kitchen, but it didn"t show her much that she wanted to see. While the refrigerator was relatively modern, not to mention tall enough for somebody to stand in, it felt out of place. The black iron range still occupied most of one wall, and the old stained marble sink projected from another. Ma.s.sive cabinets and heavy chests of drawers helped box in the hulking table scored by knives. It used to remind her of an operating table, even though she hadn"t thought she would grow up to be a nurse. She was distracted by the children as they ran into the kitchen. "Can we have a drink?" Karen said for all of them.
"May we?" Valerie amended.
"Please." Once she"d been echoed Jacqueline said "I"ll find you some gla.s.ses. Let the tap run."
When she opened a cupboard she thought for a moment that the stack of plates was covered by a greyish doily. Several objects as long as a baby"s fingers but thinner even than their bones flinched out of sight, and she saw the plates were draped with a ma.s.s of cobwebs. She slammed the door as Karen used both hands to twist the cold tap. It uttered a dry gurgle rather too reminiscent of sounds she used to hear while working in the geriatric ward, and she wondered if the supply had been turned off. Then a gout of dark liquid spattered the sink, and a gush of rusty water darkened the marble. As Karen struggled to shut it off Valerie enquired "Did you have to drink that, auntie?"
"I had to put up with a lot you wouldn"t be expected to."
"We won"t, then. Aren"t there any other drinks?"
"And things to eat," Brian said at once.
"I"m sure there"s nothing." When the children gazed at her with various degrees of patience Jacqueline opened the refrigerator, trying not to think that the compartments could harbour bodies smaller than Brian"s. All she found were a bottle of mouldering milk and half a loaf as hard as a rusk. "I"m afraid you"ll have to do without," she said.
How often had her grandmother said that? Supposedly she"d been just as parsimonious before the war. Jacqueline didn"t want to sound like her, but when Brian took hold of the handle of a drawer that was level with his head she couldn"t help blurting "Stay away from there."
At least she didn"t add "We"ve lost enough children." As the boy stepped back Cynthia hurried into the kitchen. "What are you doing now?"
"We don"t want them playing with knives, do we?" Jacqueline said.
"I know you"re too sensible, Brian."
Was that aimed just at him? As Cynthia opened the cupboards the children resumed chasing up the stairs. Presumably the creature Jacqueline had glimpsed was staying out of sight, and so were any more like it. When Cynthia made for the hall Jacqueline said "I"ll be up in a minute."
Although she didn"t linger in the kitchen, she couldn"t leave her memories behind. How many children had her grandmother lost that she"d been so afraid of losing any more? By pestering her mother Jacqueline had learned they"d been stillborn, which had reminded her how often her grandmother told her to keep still. More than once today Jacqueline had refrained from saying that to the twins and to Brian in particular. Their clamour seemed to fill the hall and resonate all the way up the house, so that she could have thought the reverberations were shaking the mirrors, disturbing the suspended ma.s.s of darkness like a web in which a spider had come to life. "Can we go up to the top now?" Brian said.
"Please don"t," Jacqueline called.
It took Cynthia"s stare to establish that the boy hadn"t been asking Jacqueline. "Why can"t we?" Karen protested, and Valerie contributed "We only want to see."
"I"m sure you can," Cynthia said. "Just wait till we"re all up there."
Before tramping into the nearest bedroom she gave her sister one more look, and Jacqueline felt as blameworthy as their grandmother used to make her feel. Why couldn"t she watch over the children from the hall? She tilted her head back on her shaky neck to gaze up the stairwell. Sometimes her grandfather would raise his eyes ceilingwards as his wife found yet another reason to rebuke Jacqueline, only for the woman to say "If you look like that you"ll see where you"re going." Presumably she"d meant heaven, and perhaps she was there now, if there was such a place. Jacqueline imagined her sailing upwards like a husk on a wind; she"d already seemed withered all those years ago, and not just physically either. Was that why Jacqueline had thought the stillbirths must be shrivelled too? They would have ended up like that, but she needn"t think about it now, if ever. She glanced towards the children and saw movement above them.
She must have seen the shadows of the treetops-thin shapes that appeared to start out of the corners under the roof before darting back into the gloom. As she tried to grasp how those shadows could reach so far beyond the confines of the skylight, Cynthia peered out of the nearest bedroom. "Jackie, aren"t you coming to look?"
Jacqueline couldn"t think for all the noise. "If you three will give us some peace for a while," she said louder than she liked. "And stay with us. We don"t want you going anywhere that isn"t safe."
"You heard your aunt," Cynthia said, sounding unnecessarily like a resentful child.
As Brian trudged after the twins to follow Cynthia into her grandmother"s bedroom Jacqueline remembered never being let in there. Later her parents had made it their room-had tried, at any rate. While they"d doubled the size of the bed, the rest of the furniture was still her grandmother"s, and she could have fancied that all the swarthy wood was helping the room glower at the intrusion. She couldn"t imagine her parents sharing a bed there, let alone performing any activity in it, but she didn"t want to think about such things at all. "Not for me," she said and made for the next room.
Not much had changed since it had been her grandfather"s, which meant it still seemed to belong to his wife. It felt like her disapproval rendered solid by not just the narrow single bed but the rest of the dark furniture that duplicated hers, having been her choice. She"d disapproved of almost anything related to Jacqueline, not least her husband playing with their granddaughter. Jacqueline avoided glancing up at any restlessness under the roof while she crossed the landing to the other front bedroom. As she gazed at the two single beds that remained since the cot had been disposed of, the children ran to cl.u.s.ter around her in the doorway. "This was your room, wasn"t it?" Valerie said.
"Yours and our grandma"s," Karen amended.
"No," Jacqueline said, "it was hers and our mother"s and father"s."
In fact she hadn"t been sent to the top floor until Cynthia was born. Their grandfather had told her she was going to stay with the angels, though his wife frowned at the idea. Jacqueline would have found it more appealing if she hadn"t already been led to believe that all the stillbirths were living with the angels. She hardly knew why she was continuing to explore the house. Though the cast-iron bath had been replaced by a fibregla.s.s tub as blue as the toilet and sink, she still remembered flinching from the chilly metal. After Cynthia"s birth their grandmother had taken over bathing Jacqueline, scrubbing her with such relentless harshness that it had felt like a penance. When it was over at last, her grandfather would do his best to raise her spirits. "Now you"re clean enough for the angels," he would say and throw her up in the air.
"If you"re good the angels will catch you"-but of course he did, which had always made her wonder what would happen to her if she wasn"t good enough. She"d seemed to glimpse that thought in her grandmother"s eyes, or had it been a wish? What would have caught her if she"d failed to live up to requirements? As she tried to forget the conclusion she"d reached Brian said "Where did they put you, then?"
"They kept me right up at the top."
"Can we see?"
"Yes, let"s," said Valerie, and Karen ran after him as well.
Jacqueline was opening her mouth to delay them when Cynthia said "You"ll be going up there now, won"t you? You can keep an eye on them."
It was a rebuke for not helping enough with the children, or for interfering too much, or perhaps for Jacqueline"s growing nervousness. Anger at her childish fancies sent her stumping halfway up the topmost flight of stairs before she faltered. Clouds had gathered like a lifetime"s worth of dust above the skylight, and perhaps that was why the top floor seemed to darken as she climbed towards it, so that all the corners were even harder to distinguish-she could almost have thought the ma.s.s of dimness was solidifying. "Where were you, auntie?" Karen said.
"In there," said Jacqueline and hurried to join them outside the nearest room.
It wasn"t as vast as she remembered, though certainly large enough to daunt a small child. The ceiling stooped to the front wall, squashing the window, from which the shadows of the poplars seemed to creep up the gloomy incline to acquire more substance under the roof at the back of the room. The grimy window smudged the premature twilight, which had very little to illuminate, since the room was bare of furniture and even of a carpet. "Did you have to sleep on the floor?" Valerie said. "Were you very bad?"
"Of course not," Jacqueline declared. It felt as if her memories had been thrown out-as if she hadn"t experienced them-but she knew better. She"d lain on the cramped bed hemmed in by dour furniture and cut off from everyone else in the house by the dark that occupied the stairs. She would have prayed if that mightn"t have roused what she dreaded. If the babies were with the angels, mustn"t that imply they weren"t angels themselves? Being stillbirths needn"t mean they would keep still-Jacqueline never could when she was told. Suppose they were what caught you if you weren"t good? She"d felt as if she had been sent away from her family for bad behaviour. All too soon she"d heard noises that suggested tiny withered limbs were stirring, and glimpsed movements in the highest corners of the room.
She must have been hearing the poplars and seeing their shadows. As she turned away from the emptied bedroom she caught sight of the room opposite, which was full of items covered with dustsheets. Had she ever known what the sheets concealed? She"d imagined they hid some secret that children weren"t supposed to learn, but they"d also reminded her of enormous ma.s.ses of cobweb. She could have thought the denizens of the webs were liable to crawl out of the dimness, and she was absurdly relieved to see Cynthia coming upstairs. "I"ll leave you to it," Jacqueline said. "I"ll be waiting down below."
It wasn"t only the top floor she wanted to leave behind. She"d remembered what she"d once done to her sister. The war had been over at last, and she"d been trusted to look after Cynthia while the adults planned the future. The sisters had only been allowed to play with their toys in the hall, where Jacqueline had done her best to distract the toddler from straying into any of the rooms they weren"t supposed to enter by themselves-in fact, every room. At last she"d grown impatient with her sister"s mischief, and in a wicked moment she"d wondered what would catch Cynthia if she tossed her high. As she"d thrown her sister into the air with all her strength she"d realised that she didn"t want to know, certainly not at Cynthia"s expense-as she"d seen dwarfish shrivelled figures darting out of every corner in the dark above the stairwell and scuttling down to seize their prize. They"d come head first, so that she"d seen their bald scalps wrinkled like walnuts before she glimpsed their hungry withered faces. Then Cynthia had fallen back into her arms, though Jacqueline had barely managed to keep hold of her. Squeezing her eyes shut, she"d hugged her sister until she"d felt able to risk seeing they were alone in the vault of the hall.
There was no use telling herself that she"d taken back her unforgivable wish. She might have injured the toddler even by catching her-she might have broken her frail neck. She ought to have known that, and perhaps she had. Being expected to behave badly had made her act that way, but she felt as if all the nightmares that were stored in the house had festered and gained strength over the years. When she reached the foot of the stairs at last she carried on out of the house.
The poplars stooped to greet her with a wordless murmur. A wind was rising under the sunless sky. It was gentle on her face-it seemed to promise tenderness she couldn"t recall having experienced, certainly not once Cynthia was born. Perhaps it could soothe away her memories, and she was raising her face to it when Brian appeared in the porch. "What are you doing, auntie?"
"Just being by myself."
She thought that was pointed enough until he skipped out of the house. "Is it time now?"
Why couldn"t Cynthia have kept him with her? No doubt she thought it was Jacqueline"s turn. "Time for what?" Jacqueline couldn"t avoid asking.
"You said you"d give me a throw."
She"d said she wouldn"t then, not that she would sometime. Just the same, perhaps she could. It might be a way of leaving the house behind and all it represented to her. It would prove she deserved to be trusted with him, as she ought not to have been trusted with little Cynthia. "Come on then," she said.
As soon as she held out her arms he ran and leapt into them. "Careful," she gasped, laughing as she recovered her balance. "Are you ready?" she said and threw the small body into the air.
She was surprised how light he was, or how much strength she had at her disposal. He came down giggling, and she caught him. "Again," he cried.
"Just once more," Jacqueline said. She threw him higher this time, and he giggled louder. Cynthia often said that children kept you young, and Jacqueline thought it was true after all. Brian fell into her arms and she hugged him. "Again," he could hardly beg for giggling.
"Now what did I just say?" Nevertheless she threw him so high that her arms trembled with the effort, and the poplars nodded as if they were approving her accomplishment. She clutched at Brian as he came down with an impact that made her shoulders ache. "Higher," he pleaded almost incoherently. "Higher."
"This really is the last time, Brian." She crouched as if the stooping poplars had pushed her down. Tensing her whole body, she reared up to fling him into the pendulous gloom with all her strength.