The darkness thumbs your eyes, and false light swirls on them.
Then you think you heard it. You strain all your nerves, and after a stretched time during which you seem to hang poised on darkness it comes again: a faint distant sc.r.a.ping in the earth above you. You have a last nightmare glimpse of the nurse digging down to make sure you"re dead. But you know who are the only people who dig up fresh corpses. They"ve come to make you into a zombie. You lie waiting, ma.s.saging your cramped arms and tensing yourself. Will they be surprised enough not to use their spades as weapons?
When you hear metal strike the lid you"re ready. But when the first nails pull free and the lid creaks up, light pours in with a sifting of earth. For a second you freeze, trapped. But it isn"t torchlight, only daylight. The gap in your memory was daylight, or perhaps it was death. To you they"ve become the same. You realize that one sound you haven"t been hearing is the sound of your own breath.
You leap up and pull one of the startled men into the coffin until you"re ready for him. Then you clasp the other to you, unlipping your fangs, thinking: red.
Bait (1983).
"That light is all that is left of your life," Lord Robert said, gesturing negligently toward the torch set in its niche in the wall opposite that to which Thomas was chained. "Though perhaps I should not be so n.i.g.g.ardly. You would scarcely have time to savour the attentions of your new companion. Perhaps when you have had a taste of the dark, I may return to discover whether your thoughts are of your wife or of what will visit you."
He turned away. Then, as if inspired, he swung back and slit Thomas"s forearm with his sword. A minute later Thomas heard the door slam stoutly, amid the new stone which walled off this extremity of the cellars. The torch-flame streamed away from the gust, dragging its niche and part of the wall by their shadows.
Thomas slid down to squat on the damp stone floor. The short chains gyved to his ankles collected in a heap beneath his thighs, cutting dully into them, but he squatted unmoving. The wall before him panted with the flame.
The light reached out along the grey stone and fell back, unable to maintain its grip. At its farthest reach it s.n.a.t.c.hed forward what Thomas had taken to be part of the darkness: a fissure in the grey wall, moist-edged as a wound. From its apex plopped a slow deliberate drip, mud-thick. Within the fissure, m.u.f.fled and distant, Thomas heard an awakening sc.r.a.pe of claws.
Rats, he told himself. They must be the companions he had been promised. He hoped they would find him dead. He hoped death would come to him softly as sleep, and as quickly. He closed his eyes and let the plump drip pace his breathing, slow his thoughts. But the flame tyrannized his eyelids, demanding that he watch the light plucking nervously at the fissure.
Already the light was fading, unless a clinging shadow of sleep was gathering on his eyes. Deep in the fissure the claws sc.r.a.ped, growing bolder. He stared into the unsteady cleft of darkness and tried to coax its depths to draw him into sleep. The depths only filled with his memories, the hut at the edge of the forest, Marie.
Marie was crying. "Don"t let him take me, I couldn"t bear it. If he takes me I won"t be yours." Thomas"s friends were nodding their heads angrily. "He has no right," they said. "Someone must stand against him. We would have if we"d known. It only needs someone to tell him we know there is no such right, and he will never dare claim it again. We"ll stand by you."
Marie was screaming, for Lord Robert had thrown open the door of their hut. Behind him at a distance, blurred and surrept.i.tious in the twilight, Thomas"s friends peered. Thomas stood before Marie, warding off Lord Robert. "There is no lord"s right, no other lord claims it. You cannot have her. The other lords will come to our aid if you try."
Lord Robert did not speak. His sword, infamous for its sharpness that clove men as a scythe mows gra.s.s, trembled a fingernail"s breadth from Thomas"s eye. Through the doorway Thomas saw that his friends had retreated behind then-barred doors. Lord Robert gazed at Marie and held his sword carelessly at Thomas"s face until Thomas fell back. Marie was screaming, no longer in terror of her husband"s fate but of her own. She was hugging her b.r.e.a.s.t.s and pressing her legs together closely as Lord Robert"s lips. Lord Robert threat-ened her with the sword, prodding her gently with it here and there, each time drawing blood. Abruptly he seemed to tire of trying to persuade her. In a moment he had deflowered her expertly with the sword. After a while he silenced her cries with the blade.
Thomas stood drained of all feeling, too drained even to impale himself on the sword. He waited for the blade to cut him down, but Lord Robert was speaking. "Since you desire a companion who will be yours alone, you shall have one."
The turnkey had led Thomas through the cellars, his torchlight glancing at huddles of chain and starved flesh. Behind Thomas, Lord Robert"s sword was ready in its scabbard, a fang in a snake"s mouth. When the turnkey had unlocked the door in the depths of the cellars, he"d thrust his light through the opening so sharply that the darkness had almost gulped it up. He"d held the light while Lord Robert had fettered Thomas; then, at a gesture from his master, he"d niched the torch and had fled beyond the new stone wall. Now Thomas wondered dully what that wall had been built to contain.
The torch was sputtering. The cellar wall gasped feebly as its light drained. Thomas was trying to determine how close the sounds within the fissure were, the sounds of something hard scratching faintly and stealthily against stone - he was trying to think how rats could make so measured and purposeful a sound - when darkness doused everything.
The chains bruised his thighs, which throbbed. He wished he had moved before. Now, if he moved, he would betray himself to the rats, which would fasten unseen on him. Unseen: that was the worst, as Lord Robert had intended.
It denied Thomas the chance to fend them off before they reached him. It denied him everything save the sounds of encirclement, the tearing of sharp teeth.
He moved, spreading the chains on either side of him. Let the rats come, he would best them yet. Without the nagging of the iron links, he could sleep. Lord Robert was starving his body to weaken him, but had forgotten that he had already starved Thomas"s soul. All Thomas need do was let himself sink into the void he had become. Not even rats could awaken him from that sleep.
But sleep hung back, its presence close yet impalpable as the dark. As Thomas tried to m.u.f.fle himself in sleep, strove to calm himself so that it could take hold of him, part of him remained doggedly alert to the sounds within the fissure. He tried to judge if they were approaching, to satisfy the sleepless part of him, but each time he had almost grasped their distance the slow drip interrupted, distracting him. The hushed claws sc.r.a.ped in the dark. The drip prodded Thomas awake. Exhausted, he forced himself to listen. The drip pulled his mind down, down into sleep.
He awoke in the forest. Lips were moving timidly over his cheek. It was Marie. He opened his eyes gradually. Above him, swarms of leaves drifted gently over one another; pools of light rippled over him, soft as breath. He couldn"t see Marie, for she was kissing his forearm shyly. If he raised his head he would see her. He awoke, and a tongue was lapping thirstily at his sword-wound in the dark.
He roared and kicked out, until the fetters wrenched his ankles. Amid his terror was a deeper horror, that his mind had accepted what Lord Robert had given him in exchange for Marie, accepted it even if only in sleep. He thrust the thing from him, and his hand touched an arm. He felt bone and dust-stubbled wiry muscle, that twitched his fingers away, but no flesh at all. Then the thing scuttled dryly back into the fissure.
Thomas held himself still, though the links bit into his thighs. The lethargic drip mocked the scurrying of his heart. Now he knew why the turnkey had fled, knew the extent of Lord Robert"s cruelty. Thomas had heard tales of hungry cadavers that roamed from their graves at night, writhed where they lay impaled beneath crossroads, tapped stealthily at doors to be let in. Only Lord Robert could have made a pet of such a thing. Thomas"s folded legs trembled, blazing with pain, but he held himself still, clinging to the silence.
When the hollow sc.r.a.pe of bone emerged from the fissure onto the cellar floor he began to roar like a beast in a fire, shaking his chains. There was nothing else he could do. In a moment he froze aghast, for his noise might have allowed the thing to creep to his side unheard.
But it was scuttling back into the cleft. He listened to the aimless shuffling of bone, and thought the darkness was deceiving him until he remembered how the thing had waited for the light to fail. Suddenly he realized why it had delayed until he had fallen asleep. It was as timid as anything else that might crawl from a hole in a rock.
It was less timid now that it had tasted its victim. The tentative dry groping retreated into the cleft when Thomas shouted and rang his chains against the stone, but each time it came closer to him. Soon it failed to retreat even as far as the wall. He roared and shook the chains desperately, but his noises seemed to be s.n.a.t.c.hed away at once and m.u.f.fled, scarcely echoing. They hardly stirred the air, which hung damply upon him, dragging him down into sleep.
He sawed his wrists against the gyves to fend off sleep. Then he clutched his wrists, gasping. He had almost drawn blood and offered it for feasting. When he touched the sword-wound and found it moist, he plastered it with gritty mud from the floor. He hammered his elbows against the wall to keep himself awake. Nearby in the blindness he heard bone scrabbling toward him over the floor.
The dark nestled against him, urging the bony claws forward. It settled insidiously about his mind and held him more tightly than the gyves, imprisoned him outside time, choked off his furious sounds. It pressed faces of bone and working muscle against his eyes, jarring him awake. It flooded his mind entirely, while the thirsty bones crept closer.
Lord Robert returned to Thomas several hours after leaving him. He motioned the turnkey to precede him beyond the part.i.tion wall, then he took the nervous torch from the man and gestured him out. Holding the torch above Thomas, he gazed down at the slumped unmoving figure from which iron links spilled.
"You have days yet, perhaps weeks," Lord Robert said. "The last man to wear your chains lived for a month, for the others heard his screams. They found your new companion crouched over him like a spider, and you will know it has a spider"s appet.i.te. The wall was meant to help it h.o.a.rd its attentions for those who most deserved them. I am glad they were kept for you."
Thomas did not move. "You are not dead," Lord Robert said, "nor yet so weak that sleep may shield you from me. Show me your face while I prepare you further."
Still Thomas squatted, huddled into himself. Lord Robert thrust the torch into its niche and stooped to Thomas, grasping his hair. The tip of the scabbard touched the floor.
As the hilt inclined toward him Thomas s.n.a.t.c.hed the sword. His chains betrayed his movement, the hilt rang dully against the wall, but the razor-keen blade pierced Lord Robert"s groin.
The point glanced from bone and, slipping upward, emerged beside his spine.
Though Lord Robert screamed and writhed heavily, Thomas held the hilt fast until his captive fainted. Presently the turnkey"s scared face peered in. The door slammed at once, and Thomas heard the key turn.
Lord Robert found himself propped against the wall next to Thomas, impaled on the sword. His cloak lay across Thomas"s knees. Thomas gazed at him while he moaned. "I shall call the turnkey," Lord Robert said, not daring to move on the sword. "He will free you and escort you unchallenged from my castle and my domain. None shall pursue you."
"The turnkey has imprisoned us both," Thomas said, lifting the blade. "Stand up. You will be my bait. We shall see if your sword will destroy your pet."
Lord Robert obeyed. He stood before Thomas, moving with minute delicacy on the axis of the sword. Sweat poured down his face. When Thomas withdrew the blade slowly until the point was flush with his captive"s back, Lord Robert moaned but stood firm.
"Let him come now," Thomas said. Within the fissure an impatient desiccated rattling had ventured almost to the edge of the light. "He will have to come as many times as I need to impale him. We shall live until that is done."
Lord Robert was gazing down, seeking in Thomas"s eyes some sense of what was to come, when Thomas threw the cloak at the torch and gave them both to darkness.
The Sunshine Club (1983).
Will this be the last session?" Bent asked.
I closed his file on my desk and glanced at him to detect impatience or a plea, but his eyes had filled with the sunset as with blood.
He was intent on the cat outside the window, waiting huddled on the balcony as the spider"s coc.o.o.n like a soft white marble in one corner of the pane boiled with minute hectic birth. Bent gripped my desk and glared at the cat, which had edged along the balcony from the next office." It"ll kill them, won"t it?" Bent demanded." How can it be so calm?"
"You have an affinity for spiders," I suggested. Of course, I already knew.
" I suppose that ties in with the raw meat."
"As a matter of fact, it does. Yes, to pick up your question, this may well be the last session. I want to take you through what you gave me under hypnosis."
"About the garlic?"
"The garlic, yes, and the crosses."
He winced and managed to catch hold of a smile." You tell me, then," he said.
"Please sit down for a moment," I said, moving around my desk and intervening between him and the cat." How was your day?"
"I couldn"t work," he muttered." I stayed awake but I kept thinking of how it"d be in the canteen. All those swines of women laughing and pointing. That"s what you"ve got to get rid of."
"Be a.s.sured, I will." I"ll have you back at the conveyor belt before you know, I thought: but there are more important fulfilments.
" But they all saw me!" he cried." Now they"ll all look!"
"My dear Mr Bent-no, Clive, may I?-you must remember, Clive, that odder dishes than raw meat are ordered every day in canteens. You could always tell them it was a hangover cure."
"When I don"t know why myself? I don"t want that meat," he said intensely." I didn"t want it."
"Well, at least you came to see me. Perhaps we can find you an alternative to raw meat."
"Yes, yes," he said hopelessly. I waited, staring for a pause at the walls of my office, planed flat by pale green paint. Briefly I felt enclosed with his obsession, and forced myself to remember why. When I looked down I found that the pen in my hand was hurrying lines of crosses across the blotter, and I flipped the blotter onto its face. For a moment I feared a relapse." Lie down," I suggested, "if it"ll put you at your ease."
"I"ll try not to fall asleep," he said, and more hopefully, "It"s nearly dark." When he"d aligned himself on the couch he glanced down at his hands on his chest. Discovered, they flew apart.
"Relax as completely as you can," I said, "don"t worry about how," and watched as his hands crept comfortingly together on his chest. His sleeves dragged at his elbows, and he got up to unb.u.t.ton his jacket.
He"d removed his hat when he entered my office, though with its wide black brim and his gloves and high collar he warded off the sting of sunshine from his shrinking flesh. I"d coaxed his body out of its blackness and his mind was following, probing timidly forth from the defences which had closed around it." Ready," he called as if we were playing hide and seek.
I placed myself between the couch and the window in order to read his face." All right, Clive," I said." Last time you told me about a restaurant where your parents had an argument. Do you remember?"
His face shifted like troubled water. Behind his eyelids he was silent ." Tell me about your parents," I said eventually.
" But you know," said his compressed face." My father was good to me.. Until he couldn"t stand the arguments."
"And your mother?"
"She wouldn"t let him be!" his face cried blindly." All those Bibles she knew he didn"t want, making out he should be going to church with her when she knew he was afraid-"
"But there was nothing to be afraid of, was there?"
"Nothing. You know that."
"So you see, he was weak. Remember that. Now, why did they fight in the restaurant?"
"I don"t know, I can"t remember. Tell me! Why won"t you tell me?"
"Because it"s important that you tell me. At least you can remem her the restaurant. Go on, Clive, what was above your head?"
"Chandeliers," he said wearily. A bar of sunset was rising past his eyes.
"What else can you see?"
"Those buckets of ice with bottles in."
"You can"t see very much?"
"No, it"s too dim. Candles-" His voice hung transfixed.
"Now you can see, Clive! Why?"
"Flames! F- The flames of h.e.l.l!"
"You don"t believe in h.e.l.l, Clive. You told me that when you didn"t know yourself. Let"s try again. Flames?"
"They were-inside them-a man"s face on fire, melting! I could see it coming but n.o.body was looking "Why didn"t they look?"
His shuddering head pressed back into the couch." Because it was meant for me!"
"No, Clive, not at all. Because they knew what it was."
But he wouldn"t ask. I waited, glancing at the window so that he would call me back; the minute spiders stirred like uneasy caviar.
"Well, tell me," he said coyly, dismally.
"If you were to go into any of a dozen restaurants you"d see your man on fire. Now do you begin to see why you"ve turned your back on everything your parents took for granted? How old were you then?"
"Nine."
"Is it coming clear?"
"You know I don"t understand these things. Help me! I"m paying you! "
"I am, and we"re almost there. You haven"t even started eating yet."
"I don"t want to."
"Of course you do."
"Don"t! Not "Not-"
Outside the window, against the tiger-striped blurred sky, the cat tensed to leap." Not when my father can"t," Bent whispered harshly.