"What shall we do? What is to become of us?"
Tadeusz came out and took her by the arm. "Enough of that, Rosa," he said, shaking her gently. "Now what happened, really?
Herr Bussen eats a sardine and makes a nuisance of himself. Go and lie down, we will look after him and not disturb anything."
"I am very nervous," said Rosa, smiling at him gratefully.
They looked in upon Herr Bussen. He was lying with his arm thrown over his face, quietly, as if the sleeping powders were taking effect. "Come along with me," said Tadeusz to Charles, "I have an odd spot of brandy, too."
Hans came in with his face done up in fresh lint and court plaster, much improved. He refused brandy and said, "Do you suppose we ought to watch him? Do you suppose?"
"No, I don"t believe it for a minute," said Tadeusz, after a small pause. "Do you?" he asked Charles.
"I think he told the truth," said Charles.
"Good," said Hans. "Have one for me," he said, and closed his door.
Tadeusz" narrow room was crowded with an upright piano, and a small silent keyboard which Charles examined, touching stiffly.
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today. We may as well get drunk," he said, showing four inches of brandy in a bottle. "Seriously, I don"t drink. But if I stayed too long in this place I would."
Charles said, "It"s getting me down, too, and I wish I knew why.
Compared to really poor people, people I have seen, here and at home, even Herr Bussen is almost rich. Compared to even well-off people, I suppose I"m almost a pauper. But I never felt poor, I never was afraid of it. I always thought that if I really wanted money more than anything else, I could get it. But here-I don"t know ... everybody seems so crowded, crowded, somehow, so worried, and they can"t get their minds off of money for a second." somehow, so worried, and they can"t get their minds off of money for a second."
"They lost that war, please don"t forget," said Tadeusz, running his fingers over the silent keyboard that gave forth an even wooden clatter. "That damages a nation"s personality no end, you know.
But I have no sympathy for them, none. And as for feeling crowded, ha, you would have to be a Pole to know what that means. These big fat ugly people," he said, and he crossed his knees and began torturing his scalp lock. "By G.o.d they should be Poles for a while to know what it is to be hungry."
"They aren"t all ugly," said Charles. "Not by a long shot."
"Okay," said Tadeusz, indifferently and his little eyes closed.
Charles thought, Well, what should I say? Am I supposed to go into an impa.s.sioned defense of the Poles? Or a denunciation of the Germans? He was thinking really of his fleece-lined coat, wondering if it would be good enough to offer to Herr Bussen and how to go about it. Could he just knock at his door and say, "Here is a coat I don"t happen to need?" Or (no, this wouldn"t do), "If you don"t have a coat with you, why not use this one for a while?"
There should be some way of doing it decently. He explained to Tadeusz and asked for advice.
"Oh, never," said Tadeusz. "You can"t do that. He is very proud and he would be furious as h.e.l.l. And besides," Tadeusz swung a foot, "we have to realize that a man"s sufferings are his own, quite often he chooses them to some ends of his own-how do we know? We pity people too often for the wrong reasons. They may not need it or want it at all, you know. Poor Old Bussen, we are able to say, and it makes us feel better, more secure, in our own fortune. Sometimes there are worse things than cold and hunger.
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Had you thought of that? Do you know him at all, his feelings, or his plan for himself? I think until you do, don"t interfere."
"If we hadn"t interfered today, he might be dead by now," said Charles.
"We may have made a mistake even so," said Tadeusz, calmly.
"Now we must wait and see. Of course if we could give him money or food without letting him know why we did it, that would be another thing. But we can"t. If you go now after all that has happened and offer him a coat, just like that, why, what can you expect? He would feel like throwing it back at you. A man might accept charity if he did not fear the contempt of the giver. But only good friends can accept or exchange favors. Otherwise it doesn"t do." Tadeusz stood up and walked about quickly, bent at the waist and peering at Charles. "Dear fellow, don"t mind if I say, you Americans have some very odd notions. Why all this benevolence? What do you expect to gain by it?
Charles said, "I wouldn"t gain anything by it, and I would expect to lose a coat. But I don"t need the coat," he said, "and so far as I am concerned that would be the end of it."
"You sound morally indignant," said Tadeusz. He paused before Charles and smiled. "Don"t get mad, you hear how well I speak American? You would gain from it the pride in being able to give a coat. And Herr Bussen would be warm, but he would owe his coat to the charity of a stranger, and it might spoil his whole career. Try to understand. I know more about this than you do. If ever I come to your country I will take your advice about Americans."
"I don"t believe Americans are so different from other people as all that," said Charles.
"Believe me," said Tadeusz, "you are like beings from another planet to us. Don"t offer a coat to .Herr Bussen. He will hate you for it."
Charles said, "I can"t believe it really."
"If you set yourself up as a benefactor," said Tadeusz, "you must expect to be hated. Let me tell you something. A very rich man I know wished to give good sums of money to help young musicians. But he went to his lawyer and insisted that the gift must be anonymous; under no circ.u.mstances must the giver be known.
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make work, mystery, why did his client want that? And this very wise man said, "I am superst.i.tious and I do not want them to be able to curse me by name." "
"Good G.o.d," said Charles, sincerely horrified.
"Ah, yes, good G.o.d," said Tadeusz, amiably.
Charles left the coat in his closet, and brought milk and oranges instead to Herr Bussen. Hans was there already, sitting beside the bed-offering Herr Bussen more soup.
The invalid accepted, and swallowed the nourishment as if it were bitter medicine. Charles thought, Yes, it"s true, he isn"t getting any good out of it; and he saw plainly that Herr Bussen felt himself being engulfed slowly in a debt he had no hope of paying.
Charles, at the foot of the bed, had a curious scene flash through his mind: Herr Bussen, the object of charity, fleeing like a stag across the snowy waste, with Hans and Tadeusz and Rosa and he, Charles, after him in full cry, bringing him down, by the throat if necessary, to give him aid and comfort. Charles heard the deep mournful voices of his father"s liver-spotted hounds.
When Rosa brought the coffee tray, one end of it was occupied by an ordinary looking black j.a.panned metal box. She stood, without pouring the coffee, her hands on the table, and said in a low voice, "This hasn"t been a very good day for anybody, I suppose. But I have on my conscience my sharpness to Herr Bussen. I have told him so, and he answered-he answered kindly," she said. "But I know that you, a stranger, and from a rich country-"
"The country may be rich," said Charles, "but most of the people in it are not-"
"Couldn"t be expected to understand," Rosa went on, waving his speech away without listening. "Look, I want to show you something, then maybe you will see a little of what has happened to us. Outlanders, all the world, come here with their money-"
"I tell you I am not rich, for one," said Charles, hopelessly. She gave him a stare very much like contempt for his lying speech; she knew better. He was the worst kind of rich American, the kind who pretended to be poor. "With their money," she said, angrily, raising her voice, "and then they think we are cheap because we worry about how we shall live. You despise us because we are ruined and why are we ruined, tell me that? It is because your 476.
country deserted and betrayed us in the war, you should have helped us and you did not." Her voice dropped and became bitter and quiet.
Charles said in a matter-of-fact, reasoning tone: "All the way over on the boat, the Germans kept telling me that. The truth is, I"ve heard talk about that war all my life, but I hardly remember it. I have to confess I hadn"t thought much about it. If I had, maybe I would never have come here."
"You didn"t have to think about it," said Rosa, "but here, we have nothing else to think about." She opened the black box. It was full of paper money, thick bales of it in rubber bands, such an amount of printed money as Charles had seen only in glimpses at the elbow of a clerk behind the barred windows of a great bank.
Rosa lifted one of the bundles.
"These are nothing," she said with affected airiness, "these are only a hundred thousand marks each... . Wait." She lifted another and flirted the edges through her fingers. "These are five hundred thousand marks each-look," she said, her voice wavering. "One million marks each, these." She dropped each bundle as she spoke upon the table beside them without glancing up. Terror and awe were in her face, as if again for just a moment, she believed in the value of this paper as she had once believed. "Did you ever see a note for five million marks? Here are a hundred of them, you will never see this again-and oh," she cried suddenly, in a frenzy of grief, clutching the treacherous stuff with both hands, "try now to buy a loaf of bread with all this, try it, try it!"
Her voice rose and she wept shamelessly without hiding her face, her arms hanging loosely, the worthless money dropping to the floor.
Charles looked about as if he expected help, rescue, to come by miracle. He backed away from her thinking only of escape, saying as well as he could, "I know it is all a horrible business-but, what can I do?"
This dull question had a remarkable effect. Rosa"s tears dried almost instantly, her voice deepened a note, she spoke with intense anger. "You can do nothing," she said vehemendy, "nothing, you know nothing at all, you cannot even imagine-"
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arranging them first one way and another, stopping now and then to squeeze the end of her nose with her thin little handkerchief.
"Nothing to say, nothing to be done," she repeated, giving him a resentful look as if he had failed her, a look as personal and angry as if she were a member of his family, or at least a familiar friend, or-what on earth was Rosa to him? A middle-aged stranger who had rented him a room, someone he had expected to see and speak to perhaps once a week, and here she was, swarming all over him, weeping on his neck, telling her troubles, putting the blame for the troubles of the world on him, driving him nuts, and no way that he could see of getting out of it. She closed the box and leaned her hands on the table. "When you are so poor," she said, "you are frightened of the poor and unfortunate. I was frightened of Herr Bussen-no, I almost hated him. I thought every day, "My G.o.d, such a man will bring bad luck on us all, he will drag us all down with him." " She spoke in a very low tone. "But today, it came to me that Herr Bussen will live through everything, he is strong, he is not really afraid. And that is a comfort to me, because I am afraid of everything."
She poured the coffee, took up the j.a.panned box and went out.
The household settled down that night for a good sleep. What a relief, thought Charles, to put a long quiet stretch of darkness between you and the thing that happened. Suppose Old Bussen had popped off? He felt warmly towards Old Bussen, who was still breathing-snoring, in fact, in long rich groans, as if he couldn"t breathe hard enough.
When Charles put his head in to look at Herr Bussen the next morning, two rawboned solemn youths with identical leather-colored forelocks were sitting with him, one on the bed, one on the spindling chair. They turned and gazed at the stranger with profound blue eyes exactly alike, and Herr Bussen, looking very well and merry, introduced them. Twin brothers, he said, school friends of his, who were at that moment on the point of fulfilling a life"s ambition. On New Year"s Eve they were going to open a small cabaret of their own, a snug little half-cellar with the best beer, a supper table and pretty girls who could sing and dance. Nothing big, but a good place, and Herr Bussen hoped Charles would go with him to celebrate the first evening. Charles said it sounded a fine idea to him, and thought perhaps Hans and Tadeusz would 478.
like to go, too. The brothers eyed him without a flicker of expression.
Herr Bussen sat up as if he had new life in him. "Oh, yes, we will all go together." The brothers stood up to giant heights, and one of them said, "It will not be expensive, either." As if being able to give this piece of good news was pleasant to him, he grinned broadly and rea.s.suringly at Charles, who grinned in turn.
He said to Herr Bussen, "I"m going out. Could I bring you anything?"
"Oh, no," said Herr Bussen, firmly, shaking his head with a small glitter of resentment in his eye. "Thank you, nothing at all.
I"m getting up now."
At the foot of the shallow flight of steps leading to the new cabaret, a dish of food sc.r.a.ps had been set out for the hungry small animals. A black cat was there, eating very fast, glancing nervously over his shoulder as he swallowed. One of the twins put his head out, invited his four visitors in festively, noticed the cat and said ritually, "May it do him good." He threw open the door to disclose a small, freshly painted, well-lighted little place, full of tables covered with red checkerboard cloths, a modest bar, and at the farther end, a long table set out with cold supper. It could all be seen at a glance. There was a homemade air about the colored paper decorations, the feathery tinsel draped above the bar mirror, the rack full of steins and the small cuckoo clock.
It was hardly Charles" notion of a Berlin cabaret; he had heard about Berlin night life and expected something more sophisticated.
He remarked as much to Tadeusz.
"Oh, no," said Tadeusz, "this is another kind of thing altogether. This is going to be nice-stuffy-middle-cla.s.s-German full of rosy emotions and beer. You could bring your most innocent child here if you had an innocent child." He seemed pleased, and so did Hans and Herr Bussen: they walked about and praised everything the brothers had done. All of them were pleasantly excited because none of them had ever known anyone who ran a cabaret, and they enjoyed a cozy feeling of being on the inside of things for once. Almost immediately they began calling Herr Bussen by his first name. Tadeusz began it.
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Otto, who did not smoke, blushed with pleasure and felt in his pockets as if he expected to find matches.
They were the first comers. As the brothers went on about their last-minute business, rushing back and forth through the swinging door leading to the kitchen, Otto led the way to the supper table, where they helped themselves comfortably but carefully, for at close range there was an air of thrift about the food, as if the cheese and sausages had been counted and the bread weighed, perhaps. A boy in a white jacket brought them tall steins of beer; they lifted them to each other, waved them at the brothers, and drank long and deeply.
"In Munich," said Tadeusz, "I used to drink with a crowd of music students, all Germans. We drank and drank, and the man who had to leave the table first paid for all. I always paid. It was a bore, really."
"A dull custom at best," commented Hans, "and of course the kind of thing foreigners would notice and tell about, as if it were typical." His face was quietly annoyed, he looked past Tadeusz, who refused to be snubbed.
"I have already agreed with you it was a bore," he said, "and after all, only an incident of life in Munich." His tone was soothing, indulgent, a little insolent. Charles, observing, thought with some slight surprise that these fellows did not like each other, after all. And almost instantly he felt indifference tinged with dislike for them both, and an uneasy feeling that he was in the wrong company; he wished pretty thoroughly he had not come to that place with them.
One of the brothers leaned over them with his open, single-minded expression, calling their attention to newcomers. A stupidly handsome young man with a careful thatch of curls above a self-consciously G.o.d-like brow was helping an olive-skinned, yellow-haired young woman with her wraps. "A star in the moving pictures," whispered the brother, excitedly, "and that girl is his mistress and his leading lady." He dived towards his celebrities awkwardly, saw them settled and was back in a moment. "There comes Lutte, a model, one of the most beautiful girls in Berlin," he said, his voice throbbing. "She is going to dance a rumba when the time comes."
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ful slender girl, her head shining like a silver yellow peony above her rather skimpy black dress. She smiled and waved her hand at them, they stood up and bowed, but she did not approach them as they had hoped. Leaning on the bar, she talked to the boy in the white jacket. The room filled then rather rapidly, there was a rush for the long table and the brothers, flushed with success, beamed and scurried with trays and steins. A small orchestra moved into the s.p.a.ce beside the bar.
Almost every guest, Charles noticed, had brought a musical instrument, a violin or flute or white piano accordion, a clarinet; and one man lumbered in under the burden of a violoncello in a green baize-covered case. A young woman with huge haunches and thick legs, a knot of sleek brown hair slipping upon her unpowdered neck, came in by herself, looked around with a vague smile which no one returned, and went behind the bar, where she began competently to set up trays of beer.
"There you see her," said Hans, looking at Lutte possessively, "the truest type of German beauty-tell me, have you seen anything better anywhere?"
"Oh, come now," said Tadeusz, mildly, "there aren"t a half dozen like her in this town. The legs and feet, surely they aren"t typical? She might have French blood, or even a littie Polish," he said. "Only she is perhaps a little flat-bosomed for that."
"What you seem never to understand," said Hans, in a slighdy edged voice, "is that when I say German I don"t mean peasants or these fat Berliners."
"Perhaps we should always mean peasants when we speak of a race," said Tadeusz. "The n.o.bility and the royalty are always mixed bloods, the complete mongrel, really, they have no nationality at all. Even the middle cla.s.ses marry everywhere, but the peasant stays in his own region and marries his own kind, generation after generation, and creates the race, quite simply, as I see it."
"The trouble with that notion," said Hans, "is that the peasantry of almost any country looks quite like the peasantry of any other."
"Oh, superficially," said Otto. "Their heads are very different, if you will study them." He leaned forward earnestly. "No matter how it came about," he told them, "the true great old Germanic type is lean and tall and fair as G.o.ds." His forehead formed a deep wrinkle which sank to a meaty cleft between his brows. His small 481.
puffy eyes swam tenderly, the roll of fat across his collar flushed with emotion. "We are not by any means all the pig type," he said humbly, spreading his thick hands, "though I know the foreign caricaturists make us all appear so. Those were perhaps the old Wendish people, and after all, they were a single tribe, they are not of the old true great Germanic-"
"Type," finished Tadeusz, mildly rude. "Let"s agree then, the Germans are all of the highest type of beauty and they have preposterously fine manners. Look at all the heel-clicking and bowing from the waist and elegant high-toned voices. And how polite and smiling a seven-foot policeman can be when he is getting ready to crack your skull open. I have seen it. No, Hans, you have a great culture here, no doubt, but I think no civilization. You will be the last race on earth to be civilized, but does it matter?"
"On the other hand," said Hans with extreme politeness, smiling, a cold gleam in his eye, "the Poles, if you like that high-cheeked, low-browed Tartar style, have also great physical beauty, and though they have contributed exactly nothing to world-culture, they are civilized in a medieval sort of way, I suppose."
"Thanks," said Tadeusz, turning towards Hans as if to show his flat cheeks and narrow high forehead. "One of my grandmothers was a Tartar, and you can see how typical I am."
"One of your grandfathers was an Austrian, too," said Otto; "I"d never think of you as a Pole. You seem to me an Austrian."
"Oh, by G.o.d, I can"t have that," said Tadeusz, decidedly, and he laughed with his hps tighdy closed. "No, no, I"ll be a Tartar first. But I am a Pole just the same."
Charles had never seen any Poles except a few short-legged broad-faced men laying railroad ties somewhere in the South, and he would not have known they were Poles unless someone had told him, and the man called them Polacks, besides. He could make nothing of Tadeusz, but Hans and Otto both seemed persons he had known before; Texas was full of boys like Otto, and Hans reminded him of Kuno. It seemed to "him that the discussion was getting nowhere, and it reminded him of quarrels during his school-days between the German boys and Mexican boys and the Kentucky boys; the Irish boys fought everybody, and Charles, who was partly Irish, remembered that he had done a good deal of fighting in which all sight of the original dispute had been lost in the simple 482.
love of violence. He said, "All the way over on the boat the Germans kept telling me I was not a typical American. How could they know? Of course I am perfecdy typical."
"Oh, not at all," said Tadeusz, and this time his good humor was real. "We know all about you. Americans are all cowboys or very rich, and when they are rich they get drunk in poor countries and paste thousand-franc notes on their suitcases, or light cigarettes with them-"
"Oh, G.o.d," said Charles simply. "Who started that story?"
Even American tourists went about repeating it with complacent horror, as if to prove they were not that sort of tourist.
"You know what is the trouble?" asked Tadeusz, amiably. "The Americans we know are all so filthy rich. There is nothing Europeans love and crave and covet more than wealth. If we didn"t believe your country has all the money, there would be nothing wrong with you, particularly."
"We"re punch drunk, anyhow," said Charles. "We don"t give a d.a.m.n any more."
"Europeans hate each other for everything and for nothing; they"ve been trying to destroy each other for two thousand years, why do you Americans expect us to like you?" asked Tadeusz.
"We don"t expect it," said Charles. "Who said we did? We, naturally, like just everybody. We are sentimental. Just like the Germans. You want to be loved for yourselves alone and you are always right and you can never see why other people can"t see you in the same rosy light you see yourselves. Look what a glorious people you are and yet n.o.body loves you. Well, that"s a great pity."
Otto gazed earnestly at Charles from under his deep brows, wagged his head and said, "I do not think you really like anybody, you Americans. You are indifferent to everybody and so it is easy for you to be gay, to be careless, to seem friendly. You are really a coldhearted indifferent people. You have no troubles. You have no troubles because you do not know how to have them. Even if you get troubles, you think it is just a package meant for the people next door, delivered to you by mistake. That is what I really believe."
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