Dennis, pulling on his chest protector she had knitted him for Christmas, said, "I suppose so. It looks that way."

Over the coffee pot she began making her plans. "I could go if only I had a coat. It should be a fur one against this weather. A coat is what I"ve needed all these years. If I had a coat I"d go this very day."

"You"ve a greatcoat with fur on it," said Dennis.

"A rag of a coat!" cried Rosaleen. "And I won"t have Honora see me in it. She was jealous always, Dennis, she"d be glad to see me without a coat."

"If she"s sick and dying maybe she won"t notice," said Dennis.

Rosaleen agreed. "And maybe it will be better to buy one there, or in New York-something in the new style."

"It"s long out of your way by New York," said Dennis. "There"s shorter ways to Boston than that."

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"It"s by New York I"m going, because the trains are better,"

said Rosaleen, "and I want to go that way." There was a look on her face as if you could put her on the rack and she wouldn"t yield.

Dennis kept silence.

When the postman pa.s.sed she asked him to leave word with the native family up the hill to send their lad down for a few days to help with the ch.o.r.es, at the same pay as before. And tomorrow morning, if it was all the same to him, she"d be driving in with him to the train. All day long, with her hair in curl papers, she worked getting her things together in the lazy old canvas bag. She put a ham on to bake and set bread and filled the closet off the kitchen with firewood. "Maybe there"ll come a message saying Honora"s better and I sha"n"t have to go," she said several times, but her eyes were excited and she walked about so briskly the floor shook.

Late in the afternoon Guy Richards knocked, and floundered in stamping his big boots. He was almost sober, but he wasn"t going to be for long. Rosaleen said, "I"ve sad news about my sister, she"s on her deathbed maybe and I"m going to Boston."

"I hope it"s nothing serious, Missis O"Toole," said Richards.

"Let"s drink her health in this," and he took out a bottle half full of desperate-looking drink. Dennis said he didn"t mind. Richards said, "Will the lady join us?" and his eyes had the devil in them if Rosaleen had ever seen it.

"I will not," she said. "I"ve something better to do."

While they drank she sat fixing the hem of her dress, and began to tell again about the persons without number she"d known who came back from the dead to bring word about themselves, and Dennis himself would back her up in it. She told again the story cf the Billy-cat, her voice warm and broken with the threat of tears.

Dennis swallowed his drink, leaned over and began to fumble with his shoelace, his face sunken to a handful of wrink"ss, and thought right out plainly to himself: "There"s not a word of truth in it, not a word. And she"ll go on telling it to the world"s end for G.o.d"s truth." He felt helpless, as if he were involved in some disgraceful fraud. He wanted to speak up once for all and say, "It"s a lie, Rosaleen, it"s something you"ve made up, and now let"s hear no more about it." But Richards, sitting there with his ears lengthened, stopped the words in Dennis"s throat. The moment pa.s.sed. Rosaleen said solemnly, "My dreams never renege on me, 121.

Mr. Richards. They"re all I have to go by." "It never happened at all," said Dennis inside himself, stubbornly. "Only the Billy-cat got caught in a trap and I buried him." Could this really have been all?

He had a nightmarish feeling that somewhere just out of his reach lay the truth about it, he couldn"t swear for certain, yet he was almost almost willing to swear that this had been all. Richards got up saying he had to be getting on to a shindig at Winston. "I"ll take you to the train tomorrow, Missus O"Toole," he said. "I love doing a good turn for the ladies." willing to swear that this had been all. Richards got up saying he had to be getting on to a shindig at Winston. "I"ll take you to the train tomorrow, Missus O"Toole," he said. "I love doing a good turn for the ladies."

Rosaleen said very stiffly, "I"ll be going in with the letter-carrier, and many thanks just the same."

She tucked Dennis into bed with great tenderness and sat by him a few minutes, putting cold cream on her face. "It won"t be for long," she told him, "and you"re well taken care of the whole time. Maybe by the grace of G.o.d I"ll find her recovered."

"Maybe she"s not sick at all," Dennis wanted to say, and said instead, "I hope so." It was nothing to him. Everything else aside, it seemed a great fuss to be making over Honora, who might die when she liked for all Dennis would turn a hair.

Dennis hoped until the last minute that Rosaleen would come to her senses and give up the trip, but at the last minute there she was with her hat and the rag of a coat, a streak of pink powder on her chin, pulling on her tan gloves that smelt of naphtha, flourishing a handkerchief that smelt of Azurea, and going every minute to the window, looking for the postman. "In this snow maybe he"ll be late," she said in a trembling voice. "What if he didn"t come at all?" She took a last glimpse at herself in the mirror. "One thing I must remember, Dennis," she said in another tone. "And that is, to bring back a looking-gla.s.s that won"t make my face look like a monster"s."

"It"s a good enough gla.s.s," said Dennis, "without throwing away money."

The postman came only a few minutes late. Dennis kissed Rosaleen good-by and shut the kitchen door so he could not see her climbing into the car, but he heard her laughing.

"It"s just a born liar she is," Dennis said to himself, sitting by the stove, and at once he felt he had leaped head-first into a very dark pit. His better self tried to argue it out with him. "Have you no shame," said Dennis"s better self, "thinking such thoughts about 122.

your own wife?" The baser Dennis persisted. "It"s not half she deserves," he answered sternly, "leaving me here by my lone, and for what?" That was the great question. Certainly not to run after Honora, living or dying or dead. Where then? For what on earth?

Here he stopped thinking altogether. There wasn"t a spark in his mind. He had a lump on his chest that could surely be pneumonia if he had a cold, which he hadn"t, specially. His feet ached until you"d swear it was rheumatism, only he never had it. Still, he wasn"t thinking. He stayed in this condition for two days, and the under-witted lad from the native farm above did all the work, even to washing the dishes. Dennis ate pretty well, considering the grief he was under.

Rosaleen settled back in the plush seat and thought how she had always been a great traveler. A train was like home to her, with all the other people sitting near, and the smell of newspapers and some kind of nice-smelling furniture polish and the perfume from fur collars, and the train dust and something over and above she couldn"t place, but it was the smell of travel: fruit, maybe, or was it machinery? She bought chocolate bars, though she wasn"t hungry, and a magazine of love stories, though she was never one for reading. She only wished to prove to herself she was once more on a train going somewhere.

She watched the people coming on or leaving at the stations, greeting, or kissing good-by, and it seemed a lucky sign she did not see a sad face anywhere. There was a cold sweet sunshine on the snow, and the city people didn"t look all frozen and bundled up.

Their faces looked smooth after the gnarled raw frost-bitten country faces. The Grand Central hadn"t changed at all, with all the crowds whirling in every direction, and a noise that almost had a tune in it, it was so steady. She held on to her bag the colored men were trying to get away from her, and stood on the sidewalk trying to remember which direction was Broadway where the moving pictures were. She hadn"t seen one for five years, it was high time now! She wished she had an hour to visit her old flat in 164th Street-just a turn around the block would be enough, but there wasn"t time. An old resentment rose against Honora, who was a born spoil-sport and would spoil this trip for her if she could. She walked on, getting her directions, brooding a little because she had 123.

been such a city girl once, thinking only of dress and a good time, and now she hardly knew one street from another. She went into the first moving-picture theater she saw because she liked the name of it. "The Prince of Love," she said to herself. It was about two beautiful young things, a boy with black wavy hair and a girl with curly golden hair, who loved each other and had great troubles, but it all came well in the end, and all the time it was just one fine ballroom or garden after another, and such beautiful clothes! She sniffled a little in the Azurea-smelling handkerchief, and ate her chocolates, and reminded herself these two were really alive and looked just like that, but it was hard to believe living beings could be so beautiful.

After the dancing warm lights of the screen the street was cold and dark and ugly, with the slush and the roar and the millions of people all going somewhere in a great rush, but not one face she knew. She decided to go to Boston by boat the way she used in the old days when she visited Honora. She gazed into the shop windows thinking how the styles in underthings had changed till she could hardly believe her eyes, wondering what Dennis would say if she bought the green glove silk slip with the tea-colored lace.

Ah, was he eating his ham now as she told him, and did the boy come to help as he had promised?

She ate ice cream with strawberry preserves on it, and bought a powder puff and decided there was time for another moving picture. It was called "The Lover King," and it was about a king in a disguise, a lovely young man with black wavy hair and eyes would melt in his head, who married a poor country girl who was more beautiful than all the princesses and ladies in the land. Music came out of the screen, and voices talking, and Rosaleen cried, for the love songs went to her heart like a dagger.

Afterward there was just time to ride in a taxi to Christopher Street and catch the boat. She felt happier the minute she set foot on board, how she always loved a ship! She ate her supper thinking, "That boy didn"t have much style to his waiting. Dennis would never have kept him on in the hotel"; and afterward sat in the lounge and listened to the radio until she almost fell asleep there before everybody. She stretched out in her narrow bunk and felt the engine pounding under her, and the grand steady beat shook the very marrow of her bones. The fog horn howled and bellowed 124.

through the darkness over the rush of water, and Rosaleen turned on her side. "Howl for me, that"s the way I could cry in the night-time in that lost heathen place," for Connecticut seemed a thousand miles and a hundred years away by now. She fell asleep and had no dreams at all.

In the morning she felt this was a lucky sign. At Providence she took the train again, and as the meeting with Honora came nearer, she grew sunken and tired. "Always Honora making trouble," she thought, standing outside the station holding her bag and thinking it strange she hadn"t remembered what a dreary ugly place Boston was; she couldn"t remember any good times there. Taxicab drivers were yelling in her face. Maybe it would be a good thing to go to a church and light a candle for Honora. The taxi scampered through winding streets to the nearest church, with Rosaleen thinking, what she wouldn"t give to be able to ride around all day, and never walk at all!

She knelt near the high altar, and something surged up in her heart and pushed the tears out of her eyes. Prayers began to tumble over each other on her lips. How long it had been since she had seen the church as it should be, dressed for a feast with candles and flowers, smelling of incense and wax. The little doleful church in Winston, now who could really pray in it? "Have mercy on us," said Rosaleen, calling on fifty saints at once; "I confess ..." she struck her breast three times, then got up suddenly, carrying her bag, and peered into the confessionals hoping she might find a priest in one of them. "It"s too early, or it"s not the day, but I"ll come back," she promised herself with tenderness.

She lit the candle for Honora and went away feeling warm and quiet. She was blind and confused, too, and could not make up her mind what to do next. Where ever should she turn? It was a burning sin to spend money on taxicabs when there was always the hungry poor in the world, but she hailed one anyhow, and gave Honora"s house number. Yes, there it was, just like in old times.

She read all the names pasted on slips above the bells, all the floors front and back, but Honora"s name was not among them.

The janitor had never heard of Mrs. Terence Gogarty, nor Mrs.

Honora Gogarty, neither. Maybe it would be in the telephone book. There were many Gogartys but no Terence nor Honora.

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Irishman, how her dream had gone back on her. "Thank ye kindly, it"s no great matter," she said, and stepped out into the street again. The wind hacked at her shoulders through the rag of a coat, the bag was too heavy altogether. Now what kind of nature was in Honora not to drop a line and say she had moved?

Walking about with her mind in a whirl, she came to a small dingy square with iron benches and some naked trees in it. Sitting, she began to shed tears again. When one handkerchief was wet she took out another, and the fresh perfume put new heart in her. She glanced around when a shadow fell on the corner of her eye, and there hunched on the other end of the bench was a sc.r.a.p of a lad with freckles, his collar turned about his ears, his red hair wilted on his forehead under his bulging cap. He slanted his gooseberry eyes at her and said, "We"ve all something to cry for in this world, isn"t it so?"

Rosaleen said, "I"m crying because I"ve come a long way for nothing."

The boy said, "I knew you was a County Sligo woman the minute I clapped eyes on ye."

"G.o.d bless ye for that," said Rosaleen, "for I am."

"I"m County Sligo myself, long ago, and curse the day I ever thought of leaving it," said the boy, with such anger Rosaleen dried her eyes once for all and turned to have a good look at him.

"Whatever makes ye say that now?" she "asked him. "It"s a good country, this. There"s opportunity for all here."

"So I"ve heard tell many"s the countless times," said the boy.

"There"s all the opportunity in the wide world to shrivel with the hunger and walk the soles off your boots hunting the work, and there"s a great chance of dying in the gutter at last. G.o.d forgive me the first thought I had of coming here."

"Ye haven"t been out long?" asked Rosaleen.

"Eleven months and five days the day," said the boy. He plunged his hands into his pockets and stared at the freezing mud clotted around his luckless shoes.

"And what might ye do by way of a living?" asked Rosaleen.

"I"m an hostler," he said. "I used to work at the Dublin race tracks, even. No man can tell me about horses," he said proudly.

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out at his wrists, and was surprised at herself for thinking, in the first glance, that he had the look of Kevin. She saw different now, but think if it had been Kevin! Better off to be dead and gone.

"I"m perishing of hunger and cold," she told him, "and if I knew where there was a place to eat, we"d have some lunch, for it"s late."

His eyes looked like he was drowning. "Would ye? I know a place!" and he leaped up as if he meant to run. They did almost run to the edge of the square and the far corner. It was a Coffee Pot and full of the smell of hot cakes. "We"ll get our fill here," said Rosaleen, taking off her gloves, "though I"d never call it a grand place."

The boy ate one thing after another as if he could never stop: roast beef and potatoes and spaghetti and custard pie and coffee, and Rosaleen ordered a package of cigarettes. It was like this with her, she was fond of the smell of tobacco, her husband was a famous smoker, never without his pipe. "It"s no use keeping it in,"

said the boy. "I haven"t a penny, yesterday and today I didn"t eat till now, and I"ve been fit to hang myself, or go to jail for a place to lay my head."

Rosaleen said, "I"m a woman doesn"t have to think of money, I have all my heart desires, and a boy like yourself has a right to think nothing of a little loan will never be missed." She fumbled in her purse and brought out a ten-dollar bill, crumpled it and pushed it under the rim of his saucer so the man behind the counter wouldn"t notice. "That"s for luck in the new world," she said, smiling at him. "You might be Kevin or my own brother, or my own little lad alone in the world, and it"ll surely come back to me if ever I need it."

The boy said, "I never thought to see this day," and put the money in his pocket.

Rosaleen said, "I don"t even know your name, think of that!"

"I"m a blight on the name of Sullivan," said he. "Hugh it is- Hugh Sullivan."

"That"s a good enough name," said Rosaleen. "I"ve cousins named Sullivan in Dublin, but I never saw one of them. There was a man named Sullivan married my mother"s sister, my aunt Brigid she was, and she went to live in Dublin. You"re not related to the Dublin Sullivans, are ye?"

"I never heard of it, but maybe I am."

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"Ye have the look of a Sullivan to me," said Rosaleen, "and they"re cousins of mine, some of them." She ordered more coffee and he lit another cigarette, and she told him how she had come out more than twenty-five years past, a greenhorn like himself, and everything had turned out well for her and all her family here.

Then she told about her husband, how he had been head waiter and a moneyed man, but he was old now; about the farm, if there was someone to help her, they could make a good thing of it; and about Kevin and the way he had gone away and died and sent her news of it in a dream; and this led to the dream about Honora, and here she was, the first time ever a dream had gone back on her.

She went on to say there was always room for a strong willing boy in the country if he knew about horses, and how it was a shame for him to be tramping the streets with an empty stomach when there was everything to be had if he only knew which way to look for it.

She leaned over and took him by the arm very urgently.

"You"ve a right to live in a good Irish house," she told him.

"Why don"t ye come home with me and live there like one of the family in peace and comfort?"

Hugh Sullivan stared at her out of his glazed green eyes down the edge of his sharp nose and a crafty look came over him.

" "Twould be dangerous," he said. "I"d hate to try it."

"Dangerous, is it?" asked Rosaleen. "What danger is there in the peaceful countryside?"

"It"s not safe at all," said Hugh. "I was caught at it once in Dublin, and there was a holy row! A fine woman like yourself she was, and her husband peeking through a crack in the wall the whole time. Man, that was a sc.r.a.pe for ye!"

Rosaleen understood in her bones before her mind grasped it.

"Whatever-" she began, and the blood boiled up in her face until it was like looking through a red veil. "Ye little whelp," she said, trying to get her breath, "so it"s that kind ye are, is it? I might know you"re from Dublin! Never in my whole life-" Her rage rose like a bonfire in her, and she stopped. "If I was looking for a man," she said, "I"d choose a man man and not a half-baked little ..." She took a deep breath and started again. "The and not a half-baked little ..." She took a deep breath and started again. "The cheek cheek of ye," she said, "insulting a woman could be your mother. G.o.d keep me from it! It"s plain you"re just an ignorant greenhorn, doesn"t know the ways of decent people, and now be off-" She of ye," she said, "insulting a woman could be your mother. G.o.d keep me from it! It"s plain you"re just an ignorant greenhorn, doesn"t know the ways of decent people, and now be off-" She 128.

stood up and motioned to the man behind the counter. "Out of that door now-"

He stood up too, glancing around fearfully with his narrow green eyes, and put out a hand as if he would try to make it up with her. "Not so loud now, woman alive, it"s what any man might think the way ye"re-"

Rosaleen said, "Hold your tongue or I"ll tear it out of your head!" and her right arm went back in a business-like way.

He ducked and shot past her, then collected himself and lounged out of reach. "Farewell to ye, County Sligo woman," he said taunt-ingly. "I"m from County Cork myself!" and darted through the door.

Rosaleen shook so she could hardly find the money for the bill, and she couldn"t see her way before her, but when the cold air struck her, her head cleared, and she could have almost put a curse on Honora for making all this trouble for her... .

She took a train the short way home, for the taste of travel had soured on her altogether. She wanted to be home and nowhere else. That shameless boy, whatever was he thinking of? "Boys do be known for having evil minds in them," she told herself, and the blood fairly crinkled in her veins. But he had said, "A fine woman like yourself," and maybe he"d met too many bold ones, and thought they were all alike; maybe she had been too free in her ways because he was Irish and looked so sad and poor. But there it was, he was a mean sort, and he would have made love to her if she hadn"t stopped him, maybe. It flashed over her and she saw it clear as day-Kevin had loved her all the time, and she had sent him away to that cheap girl who wasn"t half good enough for him!

And Kevin a sweet decent boy would have cut off his right hand rather than give her an improper word. Kevin had loved her and she had loved Kevin and, oh, she hadn"t known it in time! She bowed herself back into the corner with her elbow on the window-sill, her old fur collar pulled up around her face, and wept long and bitterly for Kevin, who would have stayed if she had said the word-and now he was gone and lost and dead. She would hide herself from the world and never speak to a soul again.

"Safe and sound she is, Dennis," Rosaleen told him. "She"s been dangerous, but it"s past. I left her in health."

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"That"s good enough," said Dennis, without enthusiasm. He took off his cap with the ear flaps and ran his fingers through his downy white hair and put the cap on again and stood waiting to hear the wonders of the trip; but Rosaleen had no tales to tell and was full of home-coming.

"This kitchen is a disgrace," she said, putting things to rights.

"But not for all the world would I live in the city, Dennis. It"s a wild heartless place, full of criminals in every direction as far as the eye can reach. I was scared for my life the whole time. Light the lamp, will you?"

The native boy sat warming his great feet in the oven, and his teeth were chattering with something more than cold. He burst out: "I seed sumpin" comin" up the road whiles ago. Black. Fust it went on all fours like a dawg and then it riz and walked longside of me on its hind legs. I was scairt, I was. I said Shoo! at it, and it went out, like a lamp."

"Maybe it was a dog," said Dennis.

" "Twarn"t a dawg, neither," said the boy.

"Maybe "twas a cat rising up to climb a fence," said Rosaleen.

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