"I"ve got to get back now," yelled Uncle Gabriel. The little girls felt quite deaf and confused. "Got the G.o.d-d.a.m.nedest jockey in the world, Harry, just my luck. Ought to tie him on. Fell off Fiddler yesterday, just plain fell off on his tail- Remember Amy"s mare, Miss Lucy? Well, this is her namesake, Miss Lucy IV. None of "em ever came up to the first one, though. Stay right where you are, I"D be back."
Maria spoke up boldly. "Uncle Gabriel, tell Miss Lucy we"re betting on her." Uncle Gabriel bent down and it looked as if there were tears in his swollen eyes. "G.o.d bless your sweet heart," he bellowed, "I"ll tell her." He plunged down through the crowd again, his fat back bowed slightly in his loose clothes, his thick neck rolling over his collar.
Miranda and Maria, disheartened by the odds, by their first sight of their romantic Uncle Gabriel, whose language was so coa.r.s.e, sat listlessly without watching, their chances missed, their dollars gone, their hearts sore. They didn"t even move until their father leaned over and hauled them up. "Watch your horse," he said, in a quick warning voice, "watch Miss Lucy come home."
They stood up, scrambled to their feet on the bench, every vein in them suddenly beating so violently they could hardly focus their eyes, and saw a thin little mahogany-colored streak flash by the judges" stand, only a neck ahead, but their Miss Lucy, oh, their darling, their lovely-oh, Miss Lucy, their Uncle Gabriel"s Miss Lucy, had won, had won. They leaped up and down screaming and clapping their hands, their hats falling back on their shoulders, their hair flying wild. Whoa, you heifer, Whoa, you heifer, squalled the band with snorting bra.s.ses, and the crowd broke into a long roar like the falling of the walls of Jericho. squalled the band with snorting bra.s.ses, and the crowd broke into a long roar like the falling of the walls of Jericho.
The little girls sat down, feeling quite dizzy, while their father tried to pull their hats straight, and taking out his handkerchief held it to Miranda"s face, saying very gently, "Here, blow your nose," and he dried her eyes while he was about it. He stood up then and shook them out of their daze. He was smiling with deep laughing wrinkles around his eyes, and spoke to them as if they were grown young ladies he was squiring around.
198.
"Let"s go out and pay our respects to Miss Lucy," he said.
"She"s the star of the day."
The horses were coming in, looking as if their hides had been drenched and rubbed with soap, their ribs heaving, their nostrils flaring and closing. The jockeys sat bowed and relaxed, their faces calm, moving a little at the waist with the movement of their horses. Miranda noted this for future use; that was the way you came in from a race, easy and quiet, whether you had won or lost.
Miss Lucy came last, and a little handful of winners applauded her and cheered the jockey. He smiled and lifted his whip, his eyes and shriveled brown face perfectly serene. Miss Lucy was bleeding at the nose, two thick red rivulets were stiffening her tender mouth and chin, the round velvet chin that Miranda thought the nicest kind of chin in the world. Her eyes were wild and her knees were trembling, and she snored when she drew her breath.
Miranda stood staring. That was winning, too. Her heart clinched tight; that was winning, for Miss Lucy. So instantly and completely did her heart reject that victory, she did not know when it happened, but she hated it, and was ashamed that she had screamed and shed tears for joy when Miss Lucy, with her blood-ied nose and bursting heart had gone past the judges" stand a neck ahead. She felt empty and sick and held to her father"s hand so hard that he shook her off a little impatiently and said, "What is the matter with you? Don"t be so fidgety."
Uncle Gabriel was standing there waiting, and he was completely drunk. He watched the mare go in, then leaned against the fence with its white-washed posts and sobbed openly. "She"s got the nosebleed, Harry," he said. "Had it since yesterday. We thought we had her all fixed up. But she did it, all right. She"s got a heart like a lion. I"m going to breed her, Harry. Her heart"s worth a million dollars, by itself, G.o.d bless her." Tears ran over his brick-colored face and into his straggling mustaches. "If anything happens to her now I"ll blow my brains out. She"s my last hope.
She saved my life. I"ve had a run," he said, groaning into a large handkerchief and mopping his face all over, "I"ve had a run of luck that would break a bra.s.s billy goat. G.o.d, Harry, let"s go somewhere and have a drink."
"I must get the children back to school first, Gabriel," said then-father, taking each by a hand.
199.
"No, no, don"t go yet," said Uncle Gabriel desperately. "Wait here a minute, I want to see the vet and take a look at Miss Lucy, and I"ll be right back. Don"t go, Harry, for G.o.d"s sake. I want to talk to you a few minutes."
Maria and Miranda, watching Uncle Gabriel"s lumbering, un-steady back, were thinking that this was the first time they had ever seen a man that they knew to be drunk. They had seen pictures and read descriptions, and had heard descriptions, so they recognized the symptoms at once. Miranda felt it was an important moment in a great many ways.
"Uncle Gabriel"s a drunkard, isn"t he?" she asked her father, rather proudly.
"Hush, don"t say such things," said father, with a heavy frown, "or I"ll never bring you here again." He looked worried and unhappy, and, above all, undecided. The little girls stood stiff with resentment against such obvious injustice. They loosed their hands from his and moved away coldly, standing together in silence.
Their father did not notice, watching the place where Uncle Gabriel had disappeared. In a few minutes he came back, still wiping his face, as if there were cobwebs on it, carrying his big black hat.
He waved at them from a short distance, calling out in a cheerful way, "She"s going to be all right, Harry. It"s stopped now. Lord, this will be good news for Miss Honey. Come on, Harry, let"s all go home and tell Miss Honey. She deserves some good news."
Father said, "I"d better take the children back to school first, then we"ll go."
"No, no," said Uncle Gabriel, fondly. "I want her to see the girls. She"ll be tickled pink to see them, Harry. Bring "em along."
"Is it another race horse we"re going to see?" whispered Miranda in her sister"s ear.
"Don"t be silly," said Maria. "It"s Uncle Gabriel"s second wife."
"Let"s find a cab, Harry," said Uncle Gabriel, "and take your little girls out to cheer up Miss Honey. Both of "em rolled into one look a lot like Amy, I swear they do. I want Miss Honey to see them. She"s always liked our family, Harry, though of course she"s not what you"d call an expansive kind of woman."
Maria and Miranda sat facing the driver, and Uncle Gabriel squeezed himself in facing them beside their father. The air became at once bitter and sour with his breathing. He looked sad and 200.
poor. His necktie was on crooked and his shirt was rumpled. Father said, "You"re going to see Uncle Gabriel"s second wife, children," exactly if they had not heard everything; and to Gabriel, "How is is your wife nowadays? It must be twenty years since I saw her last." your wife nowadays? It must be twenty years since I saw her last."
"She"s pretty gloomy, and that"s a fact," said Uncle Gabriel.
"She"s been pretty gloomy for years now, and nothing seems to shake her out of it. She never did care for horses, Harry, if you remember; she hasn"t been near the track three times since we were married. When I think how Amy wouldn"t have missed a race for anything ... She"s very different from Amy, Harry, a very different kind of woman. As fine a woman as ever lived in her own way, but she hates change and moving around, and she just lives in the boy."
"Where is Gabe now?" asked father.
"Finishing college," said Uncle Gabriel; "a smart boy, but awfully like his mother. Awfully like," he said, in a melancholy way.
"She hates being away from him. Just wants to sit down in the same town and wait for him to get through with his education.
Well, I"m sorry it can"t be done if that"s what she wants, but G.o.d Almighty- And this last run of luck has about got her down. I hope you"ll be able to cheer her up a little, Harry, she needs it."
The little girls sat watching the streets grow duller and dingier and narrower, and at last the shabbier and shabbier white people gave way to dressed-up Negroes, and then to shabby Negroes, and after a long way the cab stopped before a desolate-looking little hotel in Elysian Fields. Their father helped Maria and Miranda out, told the cabman to wait, and they followed Uncle Gabriel through a dirty damp-smelling patio, down a long gas-lighted hall full of a terrible smell, Miranda couldn"t decide what it was made of but it had a bitter taste even, and up a long staircase with a ragged carpet. Uncle Gabriel pushed open a door without warning, saying, "Come in, here we are."
A tall pale-faced woman with faded straw-colored hair and pink-rimmed eyelids rose suddenly from a squeaking rocking chair.
She wore a stiff blue-and-white-striped shirtwaist and a stiff black skirt of some hard shiny material. Her large knuckled hands rose to her round, neat pompadour at sight of her visitors.
"Honey," said Uncle Gabriel, with large false heartiness, "you"ll 201.
never guess who"s come to see you." He gave her a clumsy hug.
Her face did not change and her eyes rested steadily on the three strangers. "Amy"s brother Harry, Honey, you remember, don"t you?"
"Of course," said Miss Honey, putting out her hand straight as a paddle, "of course I remember you, Harry." She did not smile.
"And Amy"s two little nieces," went on Uncle Gabriel, bringing them forward. They put out their hands limply, and Miss Honey gave each one a slight flip and dropped it. "And we"ve got good news for you," went on Uncle Gabriel, trying to bolster up the painful situation. "Miss Lucy stepped out and showed "em today, Honey. We"re rich again, old girl, cheer up."
Miss Honey turned her long, despairing face towards her visitors. "Sit down," she said with a heavy sigh, seating herself and motioning towards various rickety chairs. There was a big lumpy bed, with a grayish-white counterpane on it, a marble-topped wash-stand, grayish coa.r.s.e lace curtains on strings at the two small windows, a small closed fireplace with a hole in it for a stovepipe, and two trunks, standing at odds as if somebody were just moving in, or just moving out. Everything was dingy and soiled and neat and bare; not a pin out of place.
"We"ll move to the St. Charles tomorrow," said Uncle Gabriel, as much to Harry as to his wife. "Get your best dresses together, Honey, the long dry spell is over."
Miss Honey"s nostrils pinched together and she rocked slightly, with her arms folded. "I"ve lived in the St. Charles before, and I"ve lived here before," she said, in a tight deliberate voice, "and this time I"ll just stay where I am, thank you. I prefer it to moving back here in three months. I"m settled now, I feel at home here,"
she told him, glancing at Harry, her pale eyes kindling with blue fire, a stiff white line around her mouth.
The little girls sat trying not to stare, miserably ill at ease. Their grandmother had p.r.o.nounced Harry"s children to be the most un-teachable she had ever seen in her long experience with the young; but they had learned by indirection one thing well-nice people did not carry on quarrels before outsiders. Family quarrels were sacred, to be waged privately in fierce hissing whispers, low choked mutters and growls. If they did yell and stamp, it must be behind closed doors and windows. Uncle Gabriel"s second wife was hop- 202.
ping mad and she looked ready to fly out at Uncle Gabriel any second, with him sitting there like a hound when someone shakes a whip at him.
"She loathes and despises everybody in this room," thought Miranda, coolly, "and she"s afraid we won"t know it. She needn"t worry, we knew it when we came in." With all her heart she wanted to go, but her father, though his face was a study, made no move. He seemed to be trying to think of something pleasant to say. Maria, feeling guilty, though she couldn"t think why, was calculating rapidly, "Why, she"s only Uncle Gabriel"s second wife, and Uncle Gabriel was only married before to Aunt Amy, why, she"s no kin at all, and I"m glad of it." Sitting back easily, she let her hands fall open in her lap; they would be going in a few minutes, undoubtedly, and they need never come back.
Then father said, "We mustn"t be keeping you, we just dropped in for a few minutes. We wanted to see how you are."
Miss Honey said nothing, but she made a little gesture with her hands, from the wrist, as if to say, "Well, you see how I am, and now what next?"
"I must take these young ones back to school," said father, and Uncle Gabriel said stupidly, "Look, Honey, don"t you think they resemble Amy a little? Especially around the eyes, especially Maria, don"t you think, Harry?"
Their father glanced at them in turn. "I really couldn"t say," he decided, and the little girls saw he was more monstrously embarra.s.sed than ever. He turned to Miss Honey, "I hadn"t seen Gabriel for so many years," he said, "we thought of getting out for a talk about old times together. You know how it is."
"Yes, I know," said Miss Honey, rocking a little, and all that she knew gleamed forth in a pallid, unquenchable hatred and bitterness that seemed enough to bring her long body straight up out of the chair in a fury, "I know," and she sat staring at the floor. Her mouth shook and straightened. There was a terrible silence, which was broken when the little girls saw their father rise. They got up, too, and it was all they could do to keep from making a dash for the door.
"I must get the young ones back," said their father. "They"ve had enough excitement for one day. They each won a hundred dollars on Miss Lucy. It was a good race," he said, in complete 203.
wretchedness, as if he simply could not extricate himself from the situation. "Wasn"t it, Gabriel?"
"It was a grand race," said Gabriel, brokenly, "a grand race."
Miss Honey stood up and moved a step towards the door. "Do you take them to the races, actually?" she asked, and her lids flickered towards them as if they were loathsome insects, Maria felt. "If I feel they deserve a little treat, yes," said their father, in an easy tone but with wrinkled brow.
"I had rather, much rather," said Miss Honey clearly, "see my son dead at my feet than hanging around a race track."
The next few moments were rather a blank, but at last they were out of it, going down the stairs, across the patio, with Uncle Gabriel seeing them back into the cab. His face was sagging, the features had fallen as if the flesh had slipped from the bones, and his eyelids were puffed and blue. "Good-by, Harry," he said soberly. "How long you expect to be here?"
"Starting back tomorrow," said Harry. "Just dropped in on a little business and to see how the girls were getting along."
"Well," said Uncle Gabriel, "I may be dropping into your part of the country one of these days. Good-by, children," he said, taking their hands one after the other in his big warm paws.
"They"re nice children, Harry. I"m glad you won on Miss Lucy,"
he said to the little girls, tenderly. "Don"t spend your money foolishly, now. Well, so long, Harry." As the cab jolted away he stood there fat and sagging, holding up his arm and wagging his hand at them.
"Goodness," said Maria, in her most grown-up manner, taking her hat off and hanging it over her knee, "I"m glad that"s over."
"What I want to know is," said Miranda, "is "is Uncle Gabriel a real drunkard?" Uncle Gabriel a real drunkard?"
"Oh, hush," said their father, sharply, "I"ve got the heartburn."
There was a respectful pause, as before a public monument.
When their father had the heartburn it was time to lay low. The cab rumbled on, back to clean gay streets, with the lights coming on in the early February darkness, past shimmering shop windows, smooth pavements, on and on, past beautiful old houses set in deep gardens, on, on back to the dark walls with the heavy-topped 204.
trees hanging over them. Miranda sat thinking so hard she forgot and spoke out in her thoughtless way: "I"ve decided I"m not going to be a jockey, after all." She could as usual have bitten her tongue, but as usual it was too late.
Father cheered up and twinkled at her knowingly, as if that didn"t surprise him in the least. "Well, well," said he, "so you aren"t going to be a jockey! That"s very sensible of you. I think she ought to be a lion-tamer, don"t you, Maria? That"s a nice, womanly profession."
Miranda, seeing Maria from the height of her fourteen years suddenly joining with their father to laugh at her, made an instant decision and laughed with them at herself. That was better. Everybody laughed and it was such a relief.
"Where"s my hundred dollars?" asked Maria, anxiously.
"It"s going in the bank," said their father, "and yours too," he told Miranda. "That is your nest-egg."
"Just so they don"t buy my stockings with it," said Miranda, who had long resented the use of her Christmas money by their grandmother. "I"ve got enough stockings to last me a year."
"I"d like to buy a racehorse," said Maria, "but I know it"s not enough." The limitations of wealth oppressed her. " What What could you buy with a hundred dollars?" she asked fretfully. could you buy with a hundred dollars?" she asked fretfully.
"Nothing, nothing at all," said their father, "a hundred dollars is just something you put in the bank."
Maria and Miranda lost interest. They had won a hundred dollars on a horse race once. It was already in the far past. They began to chatter about something else.
The lay sister opened the door on a long cord, from behind the grille; Maria and Miranda walked in silently to their familiar world of shining bare floors and insipid wholesome food and cold-water washing and regular prayers; their world of poverty, chast.i.ty and obedience, of early to bed and early to rise, of sharp little rules and t.i.ttle-tattle. Resignation was in their childish faces as they held them up to be kissed.
"Be good girls," said their father, in the strange serious, rather helpless way he always had when he told them good-by. "Write to your daddy, now, nice long letters," he said, holding their arms firmly for a moment before letting go for good. Then he disappeared, and the sister swung the door closed after him.
205.
Maria and Miranda went upstairs to the dormitory to wash their faces and hands and slick down their hair again before supper.
Miranda was hungry. "We didn"t have a thing to eat, after all,"
she grumbled. "Not even a chocolate nut bar. I think that"s mean.
We didn"t even get a quarter to spend," she said.
"Not a living bite," said Maria. "Not a nickel." She poured out cold water into the bowl and rolled up her sleeves.
Another girl about her own age came in and went to a wash-bowl near another bed. "Where have you been?" she asked. "Did you have a good time?"
"We went to the races, with our father," said Maria, soaping her hands.
"Our uncle"s horse won," said Miranda.
"My goodness," said the other girl, vaguely, "that must have been grand."
Maria looked at Miranda, who was rolling up her own sleeves.
She tried to feel martyred, but it wouldn"t go. "Immured for another week," she said, her eyes sparkling over the edge of her towel.
PART III: 1912.
Miranda followed the porter down the stuffy aisle of the sleeping-car, where the berths were nearly all made down and the dusty green curtains b.u.t.toned, to a seat at the further end. "Now yo"
berth"s ready any time, Miss," said the porter.
"But I want to sit up a while," said Miranda. A very thin old lady raised choleric black eyes and fixed upon her a regard of unmixed disapproval. She had two immense front teeth and a receding chin, but she did not lack character. She had piled her luggage around her like a barricade, and she glared at the porter when he picked some of it up to make room for his new pa.s.senger. Miranda sat, saying mechanically, "May I?"
"You may, indeed," said the old lady, for she seemed old in spite of a certain brisk, rustling energy. Her taffeta petticoats creaked like hinges every time she stirred. With ferocious sarcasm, 206.
after a half second"s pause, she added, "You may be so good as to get off my hat!"
Miranda rose instantly in horror, and handed to the old lady a wilted contrivance of black horsehair braid and shattered white poppies. "I"m dreadfully sorry," she stammered, for she had been brought up to treat ferocious old ladies respectfully, and this one seemed capable of spanking her, then and there. "I didn"t dream it was your hat."
"And whose hat did you dream it might be?" inquired the old lady, baring her teeth and twirling the hat on a forefinger to restore it. "I didn"t think it was a hat at all," said Miranda with a touch of hysteria.