Zhang Yunyan had already felt the love of the second prince and now she had a new cognition. She felt that it was the love between brother and sister, which was formed by the grat.i.tude.
It was different now. It was about marriage. He brother would have a new idea, which was different from their original love. It could not be replaced.
Yunyan should be scrupulous. If she was looked down by the second prince, it was not worthy.
This was really difficult to agree or to give up. It was really hard.
Zhang Yunyan thought for a while. There were two paths in front of her, giving up and marrying her brother or going back to her hometown.
It was her root and her homeland, where she should live for a whole life. There were full of unbearable feelings and unfinished vows, so she could not give up.
Xiao Tianlong saw Zhang Yunyan did not agree with the proposal. He sighed and looked a little lost.
He sighed and said, "Yun Feiyan, I know what you"re thinking. Everyone will miss his or her hometown. During the more than three years when I left Tianyue Country, I also miss it every day." He changed his content. "It will not affect the marriage when you miss your hometown. Someday, when you"re missing it, you can go back to have a look. Be at ease, I will send you back by myself."
Perhaps, what Xiao Tianlong said was a good way to satisfy both sides. She could marry her beloved brother and could also go back to her own era to have a visit. She could also relive her homesickness and complete those uncompleted vows. She would not lose either.
"This..." Yunyan opened her mouth and stopped to say something.
She nearly changed her mind after hearing the imperial master"s good method that could satisfy both sides. Her hesitation was not completely eliminated. She did not know how to answer him.
Zhang Yunyan thought about it for a while and still dared not agree. After all, they were in two different times with an interval of thousands of years. Although the Tongtian Precious Carriage could take her from and to the two worlds and could relive her homesickness, she could only go back occasionally.
This kind of chances was not much, while the time was short. She was hard to fulfill her mission and to comfort her homesickness.
In addition, Zhang Yunyan still had one thing she worried most and had to care about it. Once the Tongtian Precious Carriage went something wrong, the way to return home would be shut down for some reasons. Then, she would suffer a lot and feel depressed.
If she was kept in her own hometown, she and her husband would be separated in two different worlds. They could not meet each other for the whole life and could only miss each other in the far distance.
The situation would be even more miserable than the Cowherd and the Weaver Girl. It was like the farewell of death.
If things went like this, she would fail the family Zhang and the second prince. It would be worrying when she just thought of it.
Zhang Yunyan sighed and said helplessly, "I, I should go back. I don"t want, want to make more troubles..."
It was bitter in her mind, which made her glib tongue somewhat awkward. She said something helpless and reluctant.
Xiao Tianlong shook her head and felt deeply sorry. "I can"t force you to accept this marriage. If you"re reluctant, it would be OK. It"s a little bit pitiful to give up this good marriage and the praise of the king and the queen."
Hearing the imperial master"s words, Zhang Yunyan felt the pain of loss. She sighed in her mind. It was useless to feel painful. It was her choice and the only choice. There was no exception.
The marriage was good, but she was in a dilemma. This marriage would make her in a dilemma.
Yunyan felt bitter and upset. Why was not a way to satisfy both sides? Was it her fate?
Zhang Yunyan did not believe the theory of fate. She was striving all the time. She was struggling because her experience was always uneasy.
At this moment, she fell into a dilemma again. She was worried. Should her marriage be so rough? Why could not she get what she wanted?
She lost her fiance, brother Jiaxiang. Now, she would lose the second prince. It was really hard to realize the beautiful love.
Facing such a desirable marriage, Zhang Yunyan could either agree to stay, or return to her hometown. She had to choose one. It was useless to be trapped in this dilemma.
This was a marriage of two eras. The interval of thousands of years meant a horrible reality that she could not change. She could only choose to go back home to fulfill her unfinished vows. There were many memories since she was born that she could not abandon...
Her choice was inevitable. Although she was reluctant and hesitant, she had to make a painful decision.
Zhang Yunyan looked at Xiao Tianlong with an eager emotion and pain of giving up in her eyes. "Imperial master, I hope to ask the king to send me back home as soon as possible."
She was homesick and wanted to go back early.
In addition, there was another reason that she was tortured by the loss and no longer wanted to worry about marriage again.
She felt as if she had done something wrong. She had no face to see the king, or even the second prince. She hoped to leave the Tianyue Country immediately.
Her mentality at this moment should be described as an escape.
Zhang Yunyan refused this rare marriage and pushed the handsome man away. She was reluctant but had to. She had always been in love with her brother in the alienated world and now was tortured by another loss.
She wanted to escape her beloved brother and got rid of the fruitless love. Although she could not escape and get rid of it, she had to face it. It was the inevitable state of her mind at this moment.
The new pain of loss reminded her of her fiancé Lin Jiaxiang. She should have been with brother Jiaxiang for a lifetime, but her brother died because of saving her, which made her feel sad so far.
Brother Jiaxiang was also a warmhearted man. The desirable marriage was lost so easily. She could only feel pain in her mind and burst into tears.
Now, another beloved brother left her. Such a good marriage was rejected reluctantly. She was deeply saddened. The bitter heart added a new wound.
Yunyan wanted to spend the rest of her life with the second prince, but she was separated by the reality of being incomprehensible. She had no courage and ability to break through the barriers of thousands of years, so she could only make a helpless choice and be tortured by the new loss.
Zhang Yunyan sighed when thinking of the theory of fate from Samuume. Was there any fate between her and the second prince?
Even if there was, it was the love and affection of two different worlds. It was an illusion which could not be realized.
It was impossible to get what she had lost. There was only pain left. It could not fade away at a short time.
At this moment, Yunyan only wanted to escape and left her beloved brother and the Tianyue Country where she joined a war of life and death.
She had no way to get rid of the pain of loss and still had feelings of Tianyue Country. She also felt the care and enthusiasm of friends from this alienated world.
Zhang Yunyan loved the brother in this alienated world deeply and also felt too painful to escape. However, she could not forget her beloved man and would miss him from time to time. She could only let time to heal the pain of her soul.
Yunyan would leave soon and sighed when thinking of the second prince. How could such a suitable marriage end so soon? How could she say farewell to her beloved brother? Was there any other way to satisfy both sides...
Everything had no solution and it was a dead marriage that could not be solved. It was a fruitless love. She could only miss it and continue to suffer.
The next day, after Zhang Yunyan just finished her breakfast, Xiao Tianlong came to inform her that he could send her back today. The imperial master needed to look for the first prince as soon as possible and then returned to Tianyue Country.
The imperial master did not mention the marriage, nor did the att.i.tude of the king and the queen, so as to the reflection of the second prince. It seemed that things had pa.s.sed by.
Zhang Yunyan was being tortured by the pain of loss. Seeing the mood and behaviors of the imperial master was as the same, she guessed that he did not mention the marriage to the king.
Yes, she did not agree with this marriage, so the imperial master did not need to mention it.
At this moment, Yunyan felt complexed. She felt relaxed because the king did not know this issue, but still felt upset. Her thought of saving a good marriage was gone.
This page had already been turned over and it was useless to talk about it. It would only add her worries. She should consider it as nothing and forget it.
Zhang Yunyan felt that she was ridiculous and somewhat shameless. The royal family had no intention to marry her to the second prince. It was just her illusion and self-torture. She was too self-satisfied.
However, she was in Tianyue Country and could not forget her beloved brother. She could not give up the beautiful marriage and had no ability to control her own thoughts. She could not forget and considered it as "nothing happened".
Although the king did not know her illusion and the second prince did not know her affectionate love, she could not ease her mind. She was still upset and self-torture.
She lost her beloved brother. She really lost him and completely lost him. Zhang Yunyan felt a deeper loss of pain.
After the loss of the beloved, she felt this marriage was even more precious and could not forget the love of the second prince. She also felt deeply hurt in her mind.
At this moment, Yunyan was very painful. Thinking of the hard-to-find love, she could not help thinking of brother Jiaxiang and burst into tears with pain.
Her fiancé had pa.s.sed away, causing her to feel pain until now...
She and brother Jiaxiang were fated man and woman. Their affection was so sincere and deep. She had never thought that they would be separated by life and death. The beautiful marriage became a bubble.
If brother Jiaxiang was still there, they would have married and were immersed in the sweet love. How could she still struggle in pain alone?
She would have a baby with brother Jiaxiang and more than one baby. They would live a happy life. How pleasant it would be.
At this moment, Zhang Yunyan thought of brother Jiaxiang and the lost beautiful love, so as to the endless pain...
Yunyan was really painful and yearning. She hated her hardships and had no fate with brother Jiaxiang.
Now, the brother in the alienated world would leave her alone and she would lose another beautiful love. One more wound was added on her mind. The pain was aggravated by pain.
She lost brother Jiaxiang forever, so as to the second prince. Why was her marriage so unsatisfactory? Where was her love? Where was her beloved? When could she lie in the arms of her husband?
She did not know. She knew nothing, except for pain and yearn...
Both the two brothers were worthy to be loved. She would never meet such a warmhearted man. This was a dream of marriage. It could only be a dream and could not be achieved.
She lost the marriage in the alienated world and could not get it back. Zhang Yunyan could only find another way to comfort herself.
She felt that it was a good thing. She thought this marriage could not be reached in fact, so she could consider that it was not mentioned before. There was no effect on all the aspects.
Yunyan accidentally came to Tianyue Country. She was just a pa.s.senger. Everything about her would disappear after she left. She would become a page of history.
This magical journey was like a dream. She could feel it and could not forget it.
Since she was just a pa.s.senger, she could not partic.i.p.ate in. She could only consider the friendship of the second prince and the marriage as an illusion.