You"d think she had to catch a train, she continued in the same ugly vein as they entered the chapel when the sisters were kneeling on one side and the girls, all in brown uniforms, on the other. The chapel smelled of incense. It was light green and gold, a series of springing arches that ended with the one over the altar where the priest was kneeling in front of the monstrance, bowed low. A small boy in a surplice was standing behind him, swinging the censer. The child knelt down between her mother and the nun and they were well into the "Tantum Ergo" before her ugly thoughts stopped and she began to realize that she was in the presence of G.o.d. Help me not to be so mean, she began mechanically. Help me not to give her so much sa.s.s. Help me not to talk like I do. Her mind began to get quiet and then empty but when the priest raised the monstrance with the Host shining ivory-colored in the center of it, she was thinking of the tent at the fair that had the freak in it.The freak was saying, "I don"t dispute hit. This is the way He wanted me to be."
As they were leaving the convent door, the big nun swooped down on her mischievously and nearly smothered her in the black habit, mashing the side of her face into the crucifix hitched onto her belt and then holding her off and looking at her with little periwinkle eyes.
On the way home she and her mother sat in the back and Alonzo drove by himself in the front. The child observed three folds of fat in the back of his neck and noted that his ears were pointed almost like a pig"s. Her mother, making conversation, asked him if he had gone to the fair.
"Gone," he said, "and never missed a thing and it was good I gone when I did because they ain"t going to have it next week like they said they was."
"Why?" asked her mother.
"They shut it on down," he said. "Some of the preachers from town gone out and inspected it and got the police to shut it on down."
Her mother let the conversation drop and the child"s round face was lost in thought. She turned it toward the window and looked out over a stretch of pasture land that rose and fell with a gathering greenness until it touched the dark woods. The sun was a huge red ball like an elevated Host drenched in blood and when it sank out of sight, it left a line in the sky like a red clay road hanging over the trees.
The Artificial n.i.g.g.e.r (1955)
Mr. Head awakened to discover that the room was full of moonlight. He sat up and stared at the floor boards the color of silver and then at the ticking on his pillow, which might have been brocade, and after a second, he saw half of the moon five feet away in his shaving mirror, paused as if it were waiting for his permission to enter. It rolled forward and cast a dignifying light on everything. The straight chair against the wall looked stiff and attentive as if it were awaiting an order and Mr. Head"s trousers, hanging to the back of it, had an almost n.o.ble air, like the garment some great man had just flung to his servant; but the face on the moon was a grave one. It gazed across the room and out the window where it floated over the horse stall and appeared to contemplate itself with the look of a young man who sees his old age before him.
Mr. Head could have said to it that age was a choice blessing and that only with years does a man enter into that calm understanding of life that makes him asuitable guide for the young. This, at least, had been his own experience.
He sat up and grasped the iron posts at the foot of his bed and raised himself until he could see the face on the alarm clock which sat on an overturned bucket beside the chair. The hour was two in the morning. The alarm on the clock did notwork but he was not dependent on any mechanical means to awaken him. Sixty years had not dulled his responses; his physical reactions, like his moral ones, were guided by his will and strong character, and these could be seen plainly in his features. He had a long tube-like face with a long rounded open jaw and a long depressed nose. His eyes were alert but quiet, and in the miraculous moonlight they had a look of composure and of ancient wisdom as if they belonged to one of the great guides of men. He might have been Vergil summoned in the middle of the night to go to Dante or better, Raphael, awakened by a blast of G.o.d"s light to fly to the side of Tobias. The only dark spot in the room was Nelson"s pallet, underneath the shadow of the window.
Nelson was hunched over on his side, his knees under his chin and his heels under his bottom. His new suit and hat were in the boxes that they had been sent in and these were on the floor at the foot of the pallet where he could get his hands on them as soon as he woke up. The step jar, out of the shadow and made snow-white in the moonlight, appeared to stand guard over him like a small personal angel. Mr. Head lay back down, feeling entirely confident that he could carry out the moral mission of the coming day. He meant to be up before Nelson and to have the breakfast cooking by the time he awakened. The boy was always irked when Mr. Head was the first up. They would have to leave the house at four to get to the railroad junction by five-thirty. The train was to stop for them at five forty-five and they had to be there on time for this train was stopping merely to accommodate them.
This would be the boy"s first trip to the city though he claimed it would be his second because he had been born there. Mr. Head had tried to point out to him that when he was born he didn"t have the intelligence to determine his whereabouts but this had made no impression on the child at all and he continued to insist that this was to be his second trip. It would be Mr. Head"s third trip. Nelson had said, "I will"ve already been there twict and I ain"t but ten."
Mr. Head had contradicted him.
"If you ain"t been there in fifteen years, how you know you"ll be able to find your way about?" Nelson had asked. "How you know it hasn"t changed some?"
"Have you ever," Mr. Head had asked, "seen me lost?"
Nelson certainly had not but he was a child who was never satisfied until he had given an impudent answer and he replied, "It"s nowhere around here to get lost at."
"The day is going to come," Mr. Head prophesied, "when you"ll find you ain"t as smart as you think you are." He had been thinking about this trip for several months but it was for the most part in moral terms that he conceived it. It was to be a lesson that the boy would never forget. He was to find out from it that he had no cause for pride merely because he had been born in a city. He was to find out that the city is not a great place. Mr. Head meant him to see everything there is to see in a city so that he would be content to stay at home for the rest of his life. He fell asleep thinking how the boy would at last find out that he was not as smart as he thought he was.
He was awakened at three-thirty by the smell of fatback frying and he leaped off his cot. The pallet was empty and the clothes boxes had been thrown open. He put on his trousers and ran into the other room. The boy had a corn pone on cooking and had fried the meat. He was sitting in the half-dark at the table, drinking cold coffee out of a can. He had on his new suit and his new gray hat pulled low over his eyes. It was too big for him but they had ordered it a size large because they expected his head to grow. He didn"t say anything but his entire figure suggested satisfaction at having arisen before Mr. Head.
Mr. Head went to the stove and brought the meat to the table in the skillet."It"s no hurry," he said. "You"ll get there soon enough and it"s no guarantee you"lllike it when you do neither," and he sat down across from the boy whose hatteetered back slowly to reveal a fiercely expressionless face, very much the sameshape as the old man"s. They were grandfather and grandson but they looked enough alike to be brothers and brothers not too far apart in age, for Mr. Head had ayouthful expression by daylight, while the boy"s look was ancient, as if he kneweverything already and would be pleased to forget it.
Mr. Head had once had a wife and daughter and when the wife died, the daughter ran away and returned after an interval with Nelson. Then one morning, without getting out of bed, she died and left Mr. Head with sole care of the year-old child. He had made the mistake of telling Nelson that he had been born in Atlanta. If he hadn"t told him that, Nelson couldn"t have insisted that this was going to be his second trip.
"You may not like it a bit," Mr. Head continued. "It"ll be full of n.i.g.g.e.rs."
The boy made a face as if he could handle a n.i.g.g.e.r.
"All right," Mr. Head said. "You ain"t ever seen a n.i.g.g.e.r."
"You wasn"t up very early," Nelson said.
"You ain"t ever seen a n.i.g.g.e.r," Mr. Head repeated. "There hasn"t been a n.i.g.g.e.r in this county since we run that one out twelve years ago and that was before you were born." He looked at the boy as if he were daring him to say he had ever seen a Negro.
"How you know I never saw a n.i.g.g.e.r when I lived there before?" Nelson asked. "I probably saw a lot of n.i.g.g.e.rs."
"If you seen one you didn"t know what he was," Mr. Head said, completely exasperated. "A six-month-old child don"t know a n.i.g.g.e.r from anybody else."
"I reckon I"ll know a n.i.g.g.e.r if I see one," the boy said and got up and straightened his slick sharply creased gray hat and went outside to the privy.
They reached the junction some time before the train was due to arrive and stood about two feet from the first set of tracks. Mr. Head carried a paper sack with some biscuits and a can of sardines in it for their lunch. A coa.r.s.e-looking orange-colored sun coming up behind the east range of mountains was making the sky a dull red behind them, but in front of them it was still gray and they faced a gray transparent moon, hardly stronger than a thumbprint and completely without light. A small tin switch box and a black fuel tank were all there was to mark the place as a junction; the tracks were double and did not converge again until they were hidden behind the bends at either end of the clearing. Trains pa.s.sing appeared to emerge from a tunnel of trees and, hit for a second by the cold sky, vanish terrified into the woods again. Mr. Head had had to make special arrangements with the ticket agent to have this train stop and he was secretly afraid it would not, in which case, he knew Nelson would say, "I never thought no train was going to stopfor you." Under the useless morning moon the tracks looked white and fragile. Both the old man and the child stared ahead as if they were awaiting an apparition.
Then suddenly, before Mr. Head could make up his mind to turn back, there was a deep warning bleat and the train appeared, gliding very slowly, almost silently around the bend of trees about two hundred yards down the track, with one yellow front light shining. Mr. Head was still not certain it would stop and he felt it would make an even bigger idiot of him if it went by slowly. Both he and Nelson, however, were prepared to ignore the train if it pa.s.sed them.
The engine charged by, filling their noses with the smell of hot metal and then the second coach came to a stop exactly where they were standing. A conductor with the face of an ancient bloated bulldog was on the step as if he expected them, though he did not look as if it mattered one way or the other to him if they got on or not. "To the right," he said.
Their entry took only a fraction of a second and the train was already speeding on as they entered the quiet car. Most of the travelers were still sleeping, some with their heads hanging off the chair arms, some stretched across two seats, and some sprawled out with their feet in the aisle. Mr. Head saw two unoccupied seats and pushed Nelson toward them. "Get in there by the winder," he said in his normal voice which was very loud at this hour of the morning. "n.o.body cares if you sit there because it"s n.o.body in it. Sit right there."
"I heard you," the boy muttered. "It"s no use in you yelling," and he sat down and turned his head to the gla.s.s. There he saw a pale ghost-like face scowling at him beneath the brim of a pale ghost-like hat. His grandfather, looking quickly too, saw a different ghost, pale but grinning, under a black hat.
Mr. Head sat down and settled himself and took out his ticket and started reading aloud everything that was printed on it. People began to stir. Several woke up and stared at him. "Take off your hat," he said to Nelson and took off his own and put it on his knee. He had a small amount of white hair that had turned tobac cocolored over the years and this lay flat across the back of his head. The front of hishead was bald and creased. Nelson took off his hat and put it on his knee and they waited for the conductor to come ask for their tickets.
The man across the aisle from them was spread out over two seats, his feet propped on the window and his head jutting into the aisle. He had on a light blue suit and a yellow shirt unb.u.t.toned at the neck. His eyes had just opened and Mr. Head was ready to introduce himself when the conductor came up from behind and growled, "Tickets."
When the conductor had gone, Mr. Head gave Nelson the return half of his ticket and said, "Now put that in your pocket and don"t lose it or you"ll have to stayin the city."
"Maybe I will," Nelson said as if this were a reasonable suggestion.Mr. Head ignored him. "First time this boy has ever been on a train," he explained to the man across the aisle, who was sitting up now on the edge of his seat with both feet on the floor.
Nelson jerked his hat on again and turned angrily to the window.
"He"s never seen anything before," Mr. Head continued. "Ignorant as the dayhe was born, but I mean for him to get his fill once and for all."
The boy leaned forward, across his grandfather and toward the stranger. "l was born in the city," he said. "l was born there. This is my second trip." He said itin a high positive voice but the man across the aisle didn"t look as if he understood. There were heavy purple circles under his eyes.
Mr. Head reached across the aisle and tapped him on the arm. "The thing to do with a boy," he said sagely, "is to show him all it is to show. Don"t hold nothing back."
"Yeah," the man said. He gazed down at his swollen feet and lifted the left one about ten inches from the floor. After a minute he put it down and lifted the other. All through the car people began to get up and move about and yawn and stretch. Separate voices could be heard here and there and then a general hum. Suddenly Mr. Head"s serene expression changed. His mouth almost closed and alight, fierce and cautious both, came into his eyes. He was looking down the length of the car. Without turning, he caught Nelson by the arm and pulled him forward."Look," he said.
A huge coffee-colored man was coming slowly forward. He had on a light suit and a yellow satin tie with a ruby pin in it. One of his hands rested on his stomach which rode majestically under his b.u.t.toned coat, and in the other he held the head of a black walking stick that he picked up an set down with a deliberate outward motion each time he took a step. He was proceeding very slowly, his large brown eyes gazing over the heads of the pa.s.sengers. He had a small white mustache and white crinkly hair. Behind him there were two young women, both coffee-colored, one in a yellow dress and one in a green. Their progress was kept at the rate of his and they chatted in low throaty voices as they followed him.
Mr. Head"s grip was tightening insistently on Nelson"s arm. As the procession pa.s.sed them, the light from a sapphire ring on the brown hand that picked up the cane reflected in Mr. Head"s eye, but he did not look up nor did the tremendous man look at him. The group proceeded up the rest of the aisle and out of the car. Mr. Head"s grip on Nelson"s arm loosened. "What was that?" he asked.
"A man," the boy said and gave him an indignant look as if he were tired of having his intelligence insulted.
"What kind of a man?" Mr. Head persisted, his voice expressionless.
"A fat man," Nelson said. He was beginning to feel that he had better be cautious.
"You don"t know what kind?" Mr. Head said in a final tone.
"An old man," the boy said and had a sudden foreboding that he was not going to enjoy the day.
"That was a n.i.g.g.e.r," Mr. Head said and sat back.
Nelson jumped up on the seat and stood looking backward to the end of the car but the Negro had gone.
"I"d of thought you"d know a n.i.g.g.e.r since you seen so many when you was inthe city on your first visit," Mr. Head continued. "That"s his first n.i.g.g.e.r," he said tothe man across the aisle.
The boy slid down into the seat. "You said they were black," he said in anangry voice. "You never said they were tan. How do you expect me to knowanything when you don"t tell me right?"
"You"re just ignorant is all," Mr. Head said and he got up and moved over in the vacant seat by the man across the aisle.
Nelson turned backward again and looked where the Negro had disappeared. He felt that the Negro had deliberately walked down the aisle in order to make a fool of him and he hated him with a fierce raw fresh hate; and also, he understood now why his grandfather disliked them. He looked toward the window and the face there seemed to suggest that he might be inadequate to the day"s exactions. He wondered if he would even recognize the city when they came to it.
After he had told several stories, Mr. Head realized that the man he was talking to was asleep and he got up and suggested to Nelson that they walk over the train and see the parts of it. He particularly wanted the boy to see the toilet so they went first to the men"s room and examined the plumbing. Mr. Head demonstrated the icewater cooler as if he had invented it and showed Nelson the bowl with thesingle spigot where the travelers brushed their teeth. They went through several cars and came to the diner.
This was the most elegant car in the train. It was painted a rich egg-yellow and had a wine-colored carpet on the floor. There were wide windows over the tables and great s.p.a.ces of the rolling view were caught in miniature in the sides of the coffee pots and in the gla.s.ses. Three very black Negroes in white suits and ap.r.o.ns were running up and down the aisle, swinging trays and bowing and bending over the travelers eating breakfast. One of them rushed up to Mr. Head and Nelson and said, holding up two fingers, "s.p.a.ce for two!" but Mr. Head replied in a loud voice, "We eaten before we left!"
The waiter wore large brown spectacles that increased the size of his eye whites. "Stan" aside then please," he said with an airy wave of the arm as if he were brushing aside flies.
Neither Nelson nor Mr. Head moved a fraction of an inch. "Look," Mr. Head said.
The near corner of the diner, containing two tables, was set off from the rest by a saffron-colored curtain. One table was set but empty but at the other, facing them, his back to the drape, sat the tremendous Negro. He was speaking in a soft voice to the two women while he b.u.t.tered a m.u.f.fin. He had a heavy sad face and his neck bulged over his white collar on either side. "They rope them off," Mr. Head explained. Then he said, "Let"s go see the kitchen," and they walked the length ofthe diner but the black waiter was coming fast behind them.
"Pa.s.sengers are not allowed in the kitchen!" he said in a haughty voice. "Pa.s.sengers are NOT allowed in the kitchen!"
Mr. Head stopped where he was and turned. "And there"s good reason for that," he shouted into the Negro"s chest, "because the c.o.c.kroaches would run the pa.s.sengers out!"
All the travelers laughed and Mr. Head and Nelson walked out, grinning. Mr. Head was known at home for his quick wit and Nelson felt a sudden keen pride in him. He realized the old man would be his only support in the strange place they were approaching. He would be entirely alone in the world if he were ever lost from his grandfather. A terrible excitement shook him and he wanted to take hold of Mr.Head"s coat and hold on like a child.
As they went back to their seats they could see through the pa.s.sing windows that the countryside was becoming speckled with small houses and shacks and that a highway ran alongside the train. Cars sped by on it, very small and fast. Nelson felt that there was less breath in the air than there had been thirty minutes ago. The man across the aisle had left and there was no one near for Mr. Head to hold a conversation with so he looked out the window, through his own reflection, and read aloud the names of the buildings they were pa.s.sing. "The Dixie Chemical Corp!" he announced. "Southern Maid Flour! Dixie Doors! Southern Belle Cotton Products! Patty"s Peanut b.u.t.ter! Southern Mammy Cane Syrup!"
"Hush up!" Nelson hissed.
All over the car people were beginning to get up and take their luggage of fthe overhead racks. Women were putting on their coats and hats. The conductor stuck his head in the car and snarled, ""Firstopppppmry,",,, and Nelson lunged out of his sitting position, trembling. Mr. Head pushed him down by the shoulder.
"Keep your seat," he said in dignified tones. "The first stop is on the edge of town. The second stop is at the main railroad station." He had come by this knowledge on his first trip when he had got off at the first stop and had had to pay a man fifteen cents to take him into the heart of town. Nelson sat back down, very pale. For the first time in his life, he understood that his grandfather was indispensable to him.
The train stopped and let off a few pa.s.sengers and glided on as if it had never ceased moving. Outside, behind rows of brown rickety houses, a line of blue buildings stood up, and beyond them a pale rose-gray sky faded away to nothing. The train moved into the railroad yard. Looking down, Nelson saw lines and lines of silver tracks multiplying and criss-crossing. Then before he could start counting them, the face in the window started out at him, gray but distinct, and he looked the other way. The train was in the station. Both he and Mr. Head jumped up and ran to the door. Neither noticed that they had left the paper sack with the lunch in it on the seat.
They walked stiffly through the small station and came out of a heavy door into the squall of traffic. Crowds were hurrying to work. Nelson didn"t know where to look. Mr. Head leaned against the side of the building and glared in front of him.
Finally Nelson said, "Well, how do you see what all it is to see?"
Mr. Head didn"t answer. Then as if the sight of people pa.s.sing had given him the clue, he said, "You walk," and started off down the street. Nelson followed, steadying his hat. So many sights and sounds were flooding in on him that for the first block he hardly knew what he was seeing. At the second corner, Mr. Head turned and looked behind him at the station they had left, a putty-colored terminal with a concrete dome on top. He thought that if he could keep the dome always in sight, he would be able to get back in the afternoon to catch the train again.
As they walked along, Nelson began to distinguish details and take note of the store windows, jammed with every kind of equipment hardware, drygoods, chicken feed, liquor. They pa.s.sed one that Mr. Head called his particular attention to where you walked in and sat on a chair with your feet upon two rests and let a Negro polish your shoes. They walked slowly and stopped and stood at the entrances so he could see what went on in each place but they did not go into any of them. Mr. Head was determined not to go into any city store because on his first trip here, he had got lost in a large one and bad found his way out only after many people had insulted him.
They came in the middle of the next block to a store that had a weighing machine in front of it and they both in turn stepped up on it and put in a penny and received a ticket. Mr. Head"s ticket said, "You weigh 120 pounds. You are upright and brave and all your friends admire you." He put the ticket in his pocket, surprised that the machine should have got his character correct but his weight wrong, for he had weighed on a grain scale not long before and knew he weighed 110. Nelson"s ticket said, "You weigh 98 pounds. You have a great destiny ahead of you but beware of dark women. Nelson did not know any women and he weighed only 68 pounds but Mr. Head pointed out that the machine had probably printed the number upside down, meaning the 9 for a 6.
They walked on and at the end of five blocks the dome of the terminal sank out of sight and Mr. Head turned to the left. Nelson could have stood in front of every store window for an hour if there had not been an other more interesting one next to it. Suddenly he said, "I was born here!" Mr. Head turned and looked at him with horror. There was a sweaty brightness about his face. "This is where I come from!" he said.
Mr. Head was appalled. He saw the moment had come for drastic action. "Lemme show you one thing you ain"t seen yet," he said and took him to the corner where there was a sewer entrance. "Squat down," he said, "and stick you head in there," and he held the back of the boy"s coat while he got down and put his head in the sewer. He drew it back quickly, hearing a gurgling in the depths under the sidewalk. Then Mr. Head explained the sewer system, how the entire city was underlined with it, how it contained all the drainage and was full of rats and how a man could slide into it and be sucked along down endless pitch black tunnels. At any minute any man in the city might be sucked into the sewer and never heard from again. He described it so well that Nelson was for some seconds shaken. He connected the sewer pa.s.sages with the entrance to h.e.l.l and understood for the first time how the world was put together in its lower parts. He drew away from the curb.
Then he said, "Yes, but you can stay away from the holes," and his face took on that stubborn look that was so exasperating to his grandfather. "This is where Icome from!" he said.
Mr. Head was dismayed but he only muttered, "You"ll get your fill," and they walked on. At the end of two more blocks he turned to the left, feeling that he was circling the dome; and he was correct for in a half-hour they pa.s.sed in front of the railroad station again. At first Nelson did not notice that he was seeing the same stores twice but when they pa.s.sed the one where you put your feet on the rests while the Negro polished your shoes, he perceived that they were walking in a circle.
"We done been here!" he shouted. "I don"t believe you know where you"re at!"
"The direction just slipped my mind for a minute," Mr. Head said and they turned down a different street. He still did not intend to let the dome get too faraway and after two blocks in their new direction, he turned to the left. This street contained two and three-story wooden dwellings. Anyone pa.s.sing on the sidewalk could see into the rooms and Mr. Head, glancing through one window, saw a woman lying on an iron bed, looking out, with a sheet pulled over her. Her knowing expression shook him. A fierce-looking boy on a bicycle came driving down out of nowhere and he had to jump to the side to keep from being hit. "It"s nothing to them if they knock you down," he said. "You better keep closer to me."
They walked on for some time on streets like this before he remembered to turn again. The houses they were pa.s.sing now were all unpainted and the wood inthem looked rotten; the street between was narrower. Nelson saw a colored man. Then another. Then another. "n.i.g.g.e.rs live in these houses," he observed.
"Well come on and we"ll go some wheres else," Mr. Head said. "We didn"t come to look at n.i.g.g.e.rs," and they turned down another street but they continued to see Negroes everywhere. Nelson"s skin began to p.r.i.c.kle and they stepped along at a faster pace in order to leave the neighborhood as soon as possible. There wer ecolored men in their undershirts standing in the doors and colored women rocking on the sagging porches. Colored children played m the gutters and stopped what they were doing to look at them. Before long they began to pa.s.s rows of stores with colored customers in them but they didn"t pause at the entrances of these. Black eyesin black faces were watching them from every direction. "Yes," Mr. Head said, "this is where you were born right here with all these n.i.g.g.e.rs."
Nelson scowled. "I think you done got us lost," he said.
Mr. Head swung around sharply and looked for the dome. It was nowhere insight. "I ain"t got us lost either," he said. "You"re just tired of walking."
"I ain"t tired, I"m hungry," Nelson said. "Give me a biscuit."
They discovered then that they had lost the lunch.
"You were the one holding the sack," Nelson said. "I would have kepaholt of it."
"If you want to direct this trip, I"ll go on by myself and leave you right here, " Mr. Head said and was pleased to see the boy turn white. However, he realized they were lost and drifting farther every minute from the station. He was hungry himself and beginning to be thirsty and since they had been in the colored neighborhood, t hey had both begun to sweat. Nelson had on his shoes and he was unaccustomed to them. The concrete sidewalks were very hard. They both wanted to find a place to sit down but this was impossible and they kept on walking, the boy muttering under his breath, "First you lost the sack and then you lost the way," and Mr. Head growling from time to time, "Anybody wants to be from this n.i.g.g.e.r heaven can be from it!"
By now the sun was well forward in the sky. The odor of dinners cookingdrifted out to them. The Negroes were all at their doors to see them pa.s.s. "Whyn"tyou ast one of these n.i.g.g.e.rs the way?" Nelson said. "You got us lost."
"This is where you were born," Mr. Head said. "You can ast one yourself ifyou want to."
Nelson was afraid of the colored men and he didn"t want to be laughed at by the colored children. Up ahead he saw a large colored woman leaning in a doorway that opened onto the sidewalk. Her hair stood straight out from her head for abou tfour inches all around and she was resting on bare brown feet that turned pink at the sides. She had on a pink dress that showed her exact shape. As they came abreast of her, she lazily lifted one hand to her head and her fingers disappeared into her hair.
Nelson stopped. He felt his breath drawn up by the woman"s dark eyes. "How do you get back to town?" he said in a voice that did not sound like his own.
After a minute she said, "You in town now," in a rich low tone that made Nelson feel as if a cool spray had been turned on him.
"How do you get back to the train?" he said in the same reedlike voice.
"You can catch you a car," she said.
He understood she was making fun of him but he was too paralyzed even to scowl. He stood drinking in every detail of her. His eyes traveled up from her great knees to her forehead and then made a triangular path from the glistening sweat on her neck "down and across her tremendous bosom and over her bare arm back to where her fingers lay hidden in her hair. He suddenly wanted her to reach down and pick him up and draw him against her and then he wanted to feel her breath on his face. He wanted to look down and down into her eyes while she held him tighter and tighter. He had never had such a feeling before. He felt as if he were reeling down through a pitchblack tunnel.
"You can go a block down yonder and catch you a car take you to the railroad station, Sugarpie," she said.
Nelson would have collapsed at her feet if Mr. Head had not pulled him roughly away. "You act like you don"t have any sense!" the old man growled.