After a while, one of the boys said, "He ain"t hyar neither."
"Ahhhh," Mrs. May said as if something had been proven. "Where"s the colored man?"
She waited and decided no one was going to answer. "The cat has six little tongues," she said. "How would you like to come home with me and let me teach you how to talk?" She laughed and her laugh died on the silent air. She felt as if she were on trial for her life, facing a jury of Greenleafs. "I"ll go down and see if I can find the colored man," she said.
"You can go if you want to," one of the boys said.
"Well, thank you," she murmured and drove off.
The barn was down the lane from the house. She had not seen it before but Mr. Greenleaf had described it in detail for it had been built according to the latest specifications. It was a milking parlor arrangement where the cows are milked from below. The milk ran in pipes from the machines to the milk house and was never carried in no bucket, Mr. Greenleaf said, by no human hand. "When you gonter get you one?" he had asked.
"Mr. Greenleaf," she had said, "I have to do for myself. I am not a.s.sisted hand and foot by the government. It would cost me $20,000 to install a milking parlor. I barely make ends meet as it is."
"My boys done it," Mr. Greenleaf had murmured, and then-"but all boys ain"t alike."
"No indeed!" she had said. "I thank G.o.d for that!"
"I thank Gawd for ever-thang," Mr. Greenleaf had drawled.
You might as well, she had thought in the fierce silence that followed; you"ve never done anything for yourself.
She stopped by the side of the barn and honked but no one appeared. For several minutes she sat in the car, observing the various machines parked around, wondering how many of them were paid for. They had a forage harvester and a rotary hay baler. She had those too. She decided that since no one was here, she would get out and have a look at the milking parlor and see if they kept it clean.
She opened the milking room door and stuck her head in and for the first second she felt as if she were going to lose her breath. The spotless white concrete room was filled with sunlight that came from a row of windows head-high along both walls. The metal stanchions gleamed ferociously and she had to squint to be able to look at all. She drew her head out the room quickly and closed the door and leaned against it, frowning. The light outside was not so bright but she was conscious that the sun was directly on top of her head, like a silver bullet ready to drop into her brain.
A Negro carrying a yellow calf-feed bucket appeared from around the corner of the machine shed and came toward her. He was a light yellow boy dressed in the cast-off army clothes of the Greenleaf twins. He stopped at a respectable distance and set the bucket on the ground.
"Where"s Mr. O. T. and Mr. E. T.?" she asked.
"Mist O. T. he in town, Mist E. T. he off yonder in the field," the Negro said, pointing first to the left and then to the right as if he were naming the position of two planets.
"Can you remember a message?" she asked, looking as if she thought this doubtful.
"I"ll remember it if I don"t forget it," he said with a touch of sullenness.
"Well, I"ll write it down then," she said. She got in her car and took a stub of pencil from her pocket book and began to write on the back of an empty envelope. The Negro came and stood at the window. "I"m Mrs. May," she said as she wrote. "Their bull is on my place and I want him off today. You can tell them I"m furious about it."
"That bull lef here Sareday," the Negro said, "and none of us ain"t seen him since. We ain"t knowed where he was."
"Well, you know now," she said, "and you can tell Mr. O. T. and Mr. E. T. that if they don"t come get him today, I"m going to have their daddy shoot him the first thing in the morning. I can"t have that bull ruining my herd." She handed him the note.
"If I knows Mist O. T. and Mist E. T.," he said, taking it, "they goin to say you go ahead on and shoot him. He done busted up one of our trucks already and we be glad to see the last of him."
She pulled her head back and gave him a look from slightly bleared eyes. "Do they expect me to take my time and my worker to shoot their bull?" she asked. "They don"t want him so they just let him loose and expect somebody else to kill him? He"s eating my oats and ruining my herd and I"m expected to shoot him too?"
"I speck you is," he said softly. "He done busted up..."
She gave him a very sharp look and said, "Well, I"m not surprised. That"s just the way some people are," and after a second she asked, "Which is boss, Mr. O. T. or Mr. E. T.?" She had always suspected that they fought between themselves secretly.
"They never quarls," the boy said. "They like one man in two skins."
"Hmp. I expect you just never heard them quarrel."
"Nor n.o.body else heard them neither," he said, looking away as if this insolence were addressed to some one else.
"Well," she said, "I haven"t put up with their father for fifteen years not to know a few things about Greenleafs."
The Negro looked at her suddenly with a gleam of recognition. "Is you my policy man"s mother?" he asked.
"I don"t know who your policy man is," she said sharply. "You give them that note and tell them if they don"t come for that bull today, they"ll be making their father shoot it tomorrow," and she drove off.
She stayed at home all afternoon waiting for the Greenleaf twins to come for the bull. They did not come. I might as well be working for them, she thought furiously. They are simply going to use me to the limit. At the supper table, she went over it again for the boys" benefit because she wanted them to see exactly what O. T. and E. T. would do. "They don"t want that bull," she said,"-pa.s.s the b.u.t.ter-so they simply turn him loose and let somebody else worry about getting rid of him for them. How do you like that? I"m the victim. I"ve always been the victim."
"Pa.s.s the b.u.t.ter to the victim," Wesley said. He was in a worse humor than usual because he had had a flat tire on the way home from the university.
Scofield handed her the b.u.t.ter and said, "Why Mamma, ain"t you ashamed to shoot an old bull that ain"t done nothing but give you a little scrub strain in your herd? I declare," he said, "with the Mamma I got it"s a wonder I turned out to be such a nice boy!"
"You ain"t her boy, Son," Wesley said.
She eased back in her chair, her fingertips on the edge of the table.
"All I know is," Scofield said, "I done mighty well to be as nice as I am seeing what I come from."
When they teased her they spoke Greenleaf English but Wesley made his own particular tone come through it like a knife edge."Well lemme tell you one thang, Brother," he said, leaning over the table, "that if you had half a mind you would already know."
"What"s that, Brother?" Scofield asked, his broad face grinning into the constricted one across from him.
"That is," Wesley said, "that neither you nor me is her boy..." but he stopped abruptly as she gave a kind of hoa.r.s.e wheeze like an old horse lashed unexpectedly. She reared up and ran from the room.
"Oh, for G.o.d"s sake," Wesley growled, "What did you start her off for?"
"I never started her off," Scofield said. "You started her off."
"Hah."
"She"s not as young as she used to be and she can"t take it."
"She can only give it out," Wesley said. "I"m the one that takes it."
His brother"s pleasant face had changed so that an ugly family resemblance showed between them. "n.o.body feels sorry for a lousy b.a.s.t.a.r.d like you," he said and grabbed across the table for the other"s shirtfront.
From her room she heard a crash of dishes and she rushed back through the kitchen into the dining room. The hall door was open and Scofield was going out of it. Wesley was lying like a large bug on his back with the edge of the overturned table cutting him across the middle and broken dishes scattered on top of him.She pulled the table off him and caught his arm to help him rise but he scrambled up and pushed her off with a furious charge of energy and flung himself out of the door after his brother.
She would have collapsed but a knock on the back door stiffened her and she swung around. Across the kitchen and back porch, she could see Mr. Greenleaf peering eagerly through the screen wire.All her resources returned in full strength as if she had only needed to be challenged by the devil himself to regain them. "I heard a thump," he called, "and I thought the plastering might have fell on you."
If he had been wanted someone would have had to go on a horse to find him. She crossed the kitchen and the porch and stood inside the screen and s. iid, "No, nothing happened but the table turned over. One of the legs was weak," and without pausing, "the boys didn"t come for the bull so tomorrow, you"ll have to shoot him."
The sky was crossed with thin red and purple bars and behind them the sun was moving down slowly as if it were descending a ladder. Mr. Greenleaf squatted down on the step, his back to her, the top of his hat on a level with her feet. "Tomorrow I"ll drive him home for you," he said.
"Oh no, Mr. Greenleaf," she said in a mocking voice, "you drive him home tomorrow and next week he"ll be back here. I know better than that." Then in a mournful tone, she said, "I"m surprised at O. T. and E. T. to treat me this way. I thought they"d have more grat.i.tude. Those boys spent some mighty happy days on this place, didn"t they, Mr. Greenleaf?"
Mr. Greenleaf didn"t say anything.
"I think they did," she said. "I think thev did. But they"ve forgotten all the nice little things I did for them now. If I recall, they wore my boys" old clothes and played with my boys" old toys and hunted with my boys" old guns. They swam in my pond and shot my birds and fished in my stream and I never forgot their birthday and Christmas seemed to roll around very often if I remember it right. And do they think of any of those things now?" she asked.
"Nooooo," she said.
For a few seconds she looked at the disappearing sun and Mr.Greenleaf examined the palms of his hands. Presently as if it had just occurred to her, she asked, "Do you know the real reason they didn"t come for that bull?"
"Naw I don"t," Mr. Greenleaf said in a surly voice.
"They didn"t come because I"m a woman," she said. "You can get away with anything when you"re dealing with a woman. If there were a man running this place..."
Quick as a snake striking Mr. Greenleaf said, "You got two boys.They know you got two men on the place."
The sun had disappeared behind the tree line. She looked down at the dark crafty face, upturned now, and at he wary eyes, bright under the shadow of the hatbrim. She waited long enough for him to see that she was hurt and then she said, "Some people learn grat.i.tude too late, Mr. Greenleaf, and some never learn it at all," and she turned and left him sitting on the steps.
Half the night in her sleep she heard a sound as if some large stone were grinding a hole on the outside wall of her brain. She was walking on the inside, over a succession of beautiful rolling hills, planting her stick in front of each step. She became aware after a time that the noise was the sun trying to burn through the tree line and she stopped to watch, sate in the knowledge that it couldn"t, that it had to sink the why it always did outside of her property. When she first stopped it was a swollen red ball, but as she stood watching it began to narrow and pale until it looked like a bullet. Then suddenly it burst through the tree line and raced down the hill toward her. She woke up with her hand over her mouth and the same noise, diminished but distant, in her ear. It was the bull munching under her window. Mr. Greenleaf had let him out.
She got up and made her way to the window in the dark and looked out through the slit blind, but the bull had moved away from the hedge and at first she didn"t see him. Then she saw a heavy form some distance away, paused as if observing her. This is the last night I am going to put up with this, she said, and watched until the iron shadow moved away in the darkness.
The next morning she waited until exactly eleven o"clock. Then she got in her car and drove to the barn. Mr. Greenleaf was cleaning milk cans. He had seven of them standing up outside the milk room to get the sun. She had been telling him to do this for weeks. "All right, Mr. Greenleaf," she said, "go get your gun. We"re going to shoot that bull."
"I thought you wanted theseyer cans..."
"Go get your gun, Mr. Greenleaf," she said. Her voice and face were expressionless.
"That gentleman torn out of there last night," he murmured in a tone of regret and bent again to the can he had his arm in.
"Go get your gun, Mr. Greenleaf," she said in the same triumphant toneless voice. "The bull is in the pasture with the dry cows. I saw him from my upstairs window. I"m going to drive you up to the field and you can run him into the empty pasture and shoot him there."
He detached himself from the can slowly. "Ain"t n.o.body ever ast me to shoot my boys" own bull!" he said in a high rasping voice. He removed a rag from his back pocket and began to wipe his hands violently, then his nose.
She turned as if she had not heard this and said, "I"ll wait for you in the car. Go get your gun."
She sat in the car and watched him stalk off toward the harness room where he kept a gun. After he had entered the room, there was a crash as if he had kicked something out of his way. Presently he emerged again with the gun, circled behind the car, opened the door violently and threw himself onto the seat beside her. He held the gun between his knees and looked straight ahead. He"d like to shoot me instead of the bull, she thought, and turned her face away so that he could not see her smile.
The morning was dry and clear. She drove through the woods for a quarter of a mile and then out into the open where there were fields on either side of the narrow road. The exhilaration of carrying her point had sharpened her senses. Birds were screaming everywhere, the gra.s.s was almost too bright to look at, the sky was an even piercing blue. "Spring is here!" she had gaily. Mr. Greenleaf lifted one muscle somewhere near his mouth as if he found this the most asinine remark ever made. When she stopped at the second pasture gate, he flung himself out of the car door and slammed it behind him. Then he opened the gate and she drove through. He closed it and flung himself back in, silently, and she drove around the rim of the pasture until she spotted the bull, almost in the center of it, grazing peacefully among the cows.
"The gentleman is waiting on you," she said and gave Mr. Greenleaf"s furious profile a sly look. "Run him into that next pasture and when you get him in, I"ll drive in behind you and shut the gate myself."
He flung himself out again, this time deliberately leaving the car door open so that she had to lean across the seat and close it. She sat smiling as she watched him make his way across the pasture toward the opposite gate. He seemed to throw himself forward at each step and then pull back as if he were calling on some power to witness that he was being forced. "Well," she said aloud as if he were still in the car, "it"s your own boys who are making you do this, Mr. Greenleaf. "O. T. and E. T. were probably splitting their sides laughing at him now. She could hear their identical nasal voices saying, "Made Daddy shoot our bull for us. Daddy don"t know no better than to think that"s a fine bull he"s shooting. Gonna kill Daddy to shoot that bull!"
"If those boys cared a thing about you, Mr. Greenleaf," she said, they would have come for that bull. I"m surprised at them."
He was circling around to open the gate first. The bull, dark among the spotted cows, had not moved. He kept his head down, eating constantly. Mr. Greenleaf opened the gate and then began circling back to approach him from the rear. When he was about ten feet behind him, he flapped his arms at his sides. The bull lifted his head indolently and then lowered it again and continued to eat. Mr. Greenleaf stooped again and picked up something and threw it at him with a vicious swing. She decided it was a sharp rock for the bull leapt and then began to gallop until he disappeared over the rim of the hill. Mr. Greenleaf followed at his leisure.
"You needn"t think you"re going to lose him!" she cried and started the car straight across the pasture. She had to drive slowly over the terraces and when she reached the gate, Mr. Greenleaf and the bull were nowhere in sight. This pasture was smaller than the last, a green arena, encircled almost entirely by woods. She got out and closed the gate and stood looking for some sign of Mr. Greenleaf but he had disappeared completely. She knew at once that his plan was to lose the bull in the woods. Eventually, she would see him emerge somewhere from the circle of trees and come limping toward her and when he finally reached her, he would say, "If you can find that gentleman in them woods, you"re better than me."
She was going to say, "Mr. Greenleaf, if I have to walk into those woods with you and stay all afternoon, we are going to find that bull and shoot him. You are going to shoot him if I have to pull the trigger for you." When he saw she meant business he would return and shoot the bull quickly himself.
She got back into the car and drove to the center of the pasture where he would not have so far to walk to reach her when he came out of the woods. At this moment she could picture him sitting on a stump, marking lines in the ground with a stick. She decided she would wait exactly ten minutes by her watch. Then she would begin to honk. She got out of the car and walked around a little and then sat down on the front b.u.mper to wait and rest. She was very tired and she lay her head back against the hood and closed her eyes. She did not understand why she should be so tired when it was only mid-morning. Through her closed eyes, she could feel the sun, redhot overhead. She opened her eyes slightly but the white light forced her to close them again.
For some time she lay back against the hood, wondering drowsily why she was so tired. With her eyes closed, she didn"t think of time as divided into days and nights but into past and future. She decided she was tired because she had been working continuously for fifteen years. She decided she had every right to be tired, and to rest for a few minutes before she began working again. Before any kind of judgement seat, she would be able to say: I"ve worked, I have not wallowed. At this very instant while she was recalling a lifetime of work, Mr. Greenleaf was loitering in the woods and Mrs. Greenleaf was probably flat on the ground, asleep over her holeful of clippings. The woman had got worse over the years and Mrs. May believed that now she was actually demented. "I"m afraid your wife has let religion warp her," she said once tactfully to Mr. Greenleaf."Everything in moderation, you know."
"She cured a man oncet that half his gut was cat out with worms,"Mr. Greenleaf said, and she had turned away, half-sickened. Poor souls, she thought now, so simple. For a few seconds she dozed.
When she sat up and looked at her watch, more than ten minutes had pa.s.sed. She had not heard any shot. A new thought occurred to her; suppose Mr. Greenleaf had aroused the bull chunking stones at him and the animal had turned on him and run him up against a tree and gored him? The irony of it deepened: O. T. and E. T. would then get a shyster lawyer and sue her. It would be the fitting end to her fifteen years with the Greenleafs. She thought of it almost with pleasure as if she had hit on the perfect ending for a story she was telling her friends. Then she dropped it, for Mr. Greenleaf had a gun with him and she had insurance.
She decided to honk. She got up and reached inside the car window and gave three sustained honks and two or three shorter ones to let him know she was getting impatient. Then she went back and sat down on the b.u.mper again.
In a few minutes something emerged from the tree line, a black heavy shadow that tossed its head several times and then bounded forward. After a second she saw it was the bull. He was crossing the pasture toward her at a slow gallop, a gay almost rocking gait as if he were overjoyed to find her again. She looked beyond him to see if Mr. Greenleaf was coming out of the woods too but he was not. "Here he is, Mr. Greenleaf!" she called and looked on the other side of the pasture to see if he could be coming out there but he was not in sight. She looked back and saw that the bull, his head lowered, was racing toward her. She remained perfectly still, not in fright, but in a freezing unbelief. She stared at the violent black streak bounding toward her as if she had no sense of distance, as if she could not decide at once what his intention was, and the bull had buried his head in her lap, like a wild tormented lover, before her expression changed. One of his horns sank until it pierced her heart and the other curved around her side and held her in an unbreakable grip. She continued to stare straight ahead but the entire scene in front of her had changed-the tree line was a dark wound in a world that was nothing but sky-and she had the look of a person whose sight has been suddenly restored but who finds the light unbearable.
Mr. Greenleaf was running toward her from the side with his gun raised and she saw him coming though she was not looking in his direction. She saw him approaching on the out side of some invisible circle, the tree line gaping behind him and nothing under his feet.He shot the bull four times through the eye. She did not hear the shots but she felt the quake in the huge body as it sank, pulling her forward on its head, so that she seemed, when Mr. Greenleaf reached her, to be bent over whispering some last discovery into the animal"s ear.
A View of the Woods(1957)
THE week before, Mary Fortune and the old man had spent every morning watching the machine that lifted out dirt and threw it in a pile. The construction was going on by the new lakeside on one of the lots that the old man had sold to somebody who was going to put up a fishing club. He and Mary Fortune drove down there every morning about ten o"clock and he parked his car, a battered mulberry-colored Cadillac, on the embankment that overlooked the spot where the work was going on. The red corrugated lake eased up to within fifty feet of the construction and was bordered on the other side by a black line of woods which appeared at both ends of the view to walk across the water and continue along the edge of the fields.
He sat on the b.u.mper and Mary Fortune straddled the hood and they watched, sometimes for hours, while the machine systematically ate a square red hole in what had once been a cow pasture. It happened to be the only pasture that Pitts had succeeded in getting the bitter weed off and when the old man had sole it, Pitts had nearly had a stroke; and as far as Mr. Fortune was concerned, he could have gone on and had it.
"Any fool that would let a cow pasture interfere with progress is not on my books," he had said to Mary Fortune-several times from his seat on the b.u.mper, but the child did not have eyes for anything but the machine. She sat on the hood, locking down into the red pit, watching the big disembodied gullet gorge itself on the clay, then, with the sound of a deep sustained nausea and a slow mechanical revulsion, turn and spit it up. Her pale eyes behind her spectacles followed the repeated motion of it again and again and her face-a small replica of the old man"s-never lost its look of complete absorption.
No one was particularly glad that Mary Fortune looked like her grandfather except the old man himself, He thought it added greatly to her attractiveness. He thought she was the smartest and the prettiest child he had ever seen and he let the rest of them know that if, IF that was, he left anything to anybody, it would be Mary Fortune he left it to. She was now nine, short and broad like himself, with his very light blue eyes, his wide prominent forehead, his steady penetrating scowl and his rich florid complexion; but she was like him on the inside too. She had, to a singular degree, his intelligence, his strong will, and his push and drive. Though there was seventy years" difference in their ages, the spiritual distance between them was slight. She was the only member of the family he had any respect for.
He didn"t have any use for her mother, his third or fourth daughter (he could never remember which), though she considered that she took care of him. She considered-being careful not to say it, only to look it-that she was the one putting up with him in his old age and that she was the one he should leave the place to. She had married an idiot named Pitts and had had seven children, all likewise idiots except the youngest, Mary Fortune, who was a throwback to him. Pitts was the kind who couldn"t keep his hands on a nickel and Mr. Fortune had allowed them, ten years ago, to move onto his place and farm it. What Pitts made went to Pitts but the land belonged to Fortune and he was careful to keep the fact before them. When the well had gone dry, he had not allowed Pitts to have a deep well drilled but had insisted that they pipe their water from the spring. He did not intend to pay for a drilled well himself and he knew that if he let Pitts pay for it, whenever he had occasion to say to Pitts, "It"s my land you"re sitting on, " Pitts would be able to say to him, "Well, it"s my pump that"s pumping the water you"re drinking."
Being there ten years, the Pittses had got to feel as if they owned the place. The daughter had been born and raised on it but the old man considered that when she married Pitts she showed that she preferred Pitts to home; and when she came back, she came back like any other tenant, though he would not allow them to pay rent for the same reason he would not allow them to drill a well. Anyone over sixty years of age is in an uneasy position unless he controls the greater interest and every now and then he gave the Pittses a practical lesson by selling off a lot. Nothing infuriated Pitts more than to see him sell off a piece of the property to an outsider, because Pitts wanted to buy it himself.
Pitts was a thin, long-jawed, irascible, sullen, sulking individual and his wife was the duty-proud kind: It"s my duty to stay here and take care of Papa. Who would do it if I didn"t? I do it knowing full well I"ll get no reward for it. I do it because it"s my duty.
The old man was not taken in by this for a minute. He knew they were waiting impatiently for the day when they could put him in a hole eight feet deep and cover him up with dirt. Then, even if he did not leave the place to them, they figured they would be able to buy it. Secretly he had made his will and left everything in trust to Mary Fortune, naming his lawyer and not Pitts as executor. When he died Mary Fortune could make the rest of them jump; and he didn"t doubt for a minute that she would be able to do it.
Ten years ago they had announced that they were going to name the new baby Mark Fortune Pitts, after him, if it were a boy, and he had not delayed in telling them that if they coupled his name with the name Pitts he would put them off the place. When the baby came, a girl, and he had seen that even at the age of one day she bore his unmistakable likeness, he had relented and suggested himself that they name her Mary Fortune, after his beloved mother, who had died seventy years ago, bringing him into the world.
The Fortune place was in the country on a clay road that left the paved road fifteen miles away and he would never have been able to sell off any lots if it had not been for progress, which had always been his ally. He was not one of these old people who fight improvement, who object to everything new and cringe at every change. He wanted to see a paved highway in front of his house with plenty of new-model cars on it, he wanted to see a supermarket store across the road from him, he wanted to see a gas station, a motel, a drive-in picture-show within easy distance. Progress had suddenly set all this in motion. The electric power company had built a dam on the river and flooded great areas of the surrounding country and the lake that resulted touched his land along a half-mile stretch. Every Tom, d.i.c.k and Harry, every dog and his brother, wanted a lot on the lake. There was talk of their getting a telephone line. There was talk of paving the road that ran in front of the Fortune place. There was talk of an eventual town. He thought this should be called Fortune, Georgia. He was a man of advanced vision, even if he was seventy-nine years old.
The machine that drew up the dirt had stopped the day before and today they were watching the hole being smoothed out by two huge yellow bulldozers. His property had amounted to eight hundred acres before he began selling lots, He had sold five twentyacre lots on the back of the place and every time he sold one, Pitts"s blood pressure had gone up twenty points. "The Pittses are the kind that would let a cow pasture interfere with the future," he said to Mary Fortune, "but not you and me." The fact that Mary Fortune was a Pitts too was something he ignored, in a gentlemanly fashion, as if it were an affliction the child was nut responsible for. He liked to think of her as being thoroughly of his clay. He sat on the b.u.mper and she sat on the hood with her bare feet on his shoulders. One of the bulldozers had moved under them to shave the side of the embankment they were parked on. If he had moved his feet a few inches out, the old man could have dangled them over the edge.
"If you don"t watch him," Mary Fortune shouted above the noise of the machine, "he"ll cut off some of your dirt."
"Yonder"s the stob," the old man yelled, "Ill hasn"t gone beyond the stob."
"Not YET he hasn"t," she roared.