He held the cup over his lap in his left hand and she leaned closer to pour the coffee. Suddenly she moved the pot to the side and emptied the scalding coffee on Red"s gun hand.
His hand went up as he screamed and the gun flew over the foot of the cot, and in the instant she pushed the palm of her hand over his mouth forcing his head against the wall and m.u.f.fling his scream.
Boland came up with the gun. He did it without thinking; and now, as he leveled it in Red"s face he looked at Virginia with disbelief in his wide-open eyes. They followed her as she moved across the room, replaced the coffeepot on the stove and returned to stand awkwardly near the cot. She bit her lower lip nervously, watching the man.
The violent motion had ripped open his wound and now it was bleeding again. He hugged his arm to his side, groaning, with his scalded hand held limply in front of him.
Virginia"s head lowered closer to his and she said, "I"m sorry," embarra.s.sedly.
For another moment Boland continued to stare at her, but now with curiosity in place of surprise, as if he wasn"t quite sure he knew this woman he had married.
He handed her the pistol. "Want me to c.o.c.k it?"
"I can do that."
"If he budges, shoot him quick."
He moved toward the door and hesitated momentarily before turning back to Virginia. He kissed her mouth softly and looking into her face as he drew away, her features seemed not so sharp and pointed. And there was more color to her skin. He moved to the door anxiously, but glanced at her again before going out.
The rain had worn itself to a cold drizzle and there was no moon to make shadows in the blackness. He moved around the house slowly, cautiously, and hugged the adobe as he pa.s.sed the garden. His pistol was in the saddlebag hanging in the barn-shed and now he thought: why in h.e.l.l didn"t I bring it in! No, then Jeffy would have it now. But he wouldn"t know it was in the saddlebag. I"ve to get the gun-and then Jeffy. But where is he?
He reached the back of the house and crouched down in the dead silence, looking in the direction of the barn-shed. He waited, listening for a sound, and after a few minutes he could make out an oblong, hazy outline. He thought of Virginia now and he didn"t feel so alone. Even the business of the afternoon, when it crept into his mind, didn"t cause a sinking feeling, and he went over everything calmly. It puzzled him, because he was used to feeling alone. He thought of the reward again. . . .
He arose abruptly and sprinted across the back section toward the 217 217 barn. He ran half-crouched, even though it was dark. At the side of the doorway, he pressed his back to the wall and listened. He waited again, then slowly inched his head past the opening. It was darker within. He stepped inside quickly and as he did, felt the gun barrel jab into his spine.
"You must be dumber than I thought you were," Jeffy said.
VIRGINIA BACKED toward the table slowly, her free hand feeling for the edge, and when her fingers touched the smooth oilcloth she moved around it so that now the table was between her and the man on the cot. She did not take her eyes from the sprawled figure as she reached behind for the chair. There was a flutter of movement within her and she held the pistol with both hands, sitting down quickly. She trained the front sight on the man and saw it tremble slightly against the background of his body.
He closed his eyes suddenly, grinding his teeth together, and when he opened them they were dark hollows in his bloodless face. His mouth opened as if he would say something, but he blew his breath out wearily and moved a boot until it slid off the cot to the floor. His teeth clenched as it hit the flooring.
He brought his left hand over to the wound, his face tightening as his fingers touched the blood-smear of shirt that was stuck fast to the wound. It was still bleeding and now a dark stain was forming on the light wool blanket that covered the mattress.
She watched the stain spreading on the blanket where it touched his side and again she felt the squirm of life within her. She felt suddenly faint.
She remembered the afternoon her mother had given her the blanket and how she"d folded it into the chest with her linens and materials. She had seated herself on the chest then and clasped her hands contentedly, listing her possessions in her mind and thinking, smiling: now all I need is a husband. She had giggled then, she remembered.
For the bed, they used Dave"s heavy army blankets. The cot served as a sofa and deserved something bright and dressy enough for the front room.
Red lifted his boot to the cot, and stretched it out tensely, and as the heel slid over the blanket a streak of sand-colored clay followed the heel in a thin crumbling line.
And then she no longer recognized the blanket. It became something else with this man sprawled on top of it. It became part of him with his blood staining it. And she saw the man and the blanketed cot as one. The wound was in the center. It was the focal point.
His face grimaced again with the pain and he groaned.
She said softly, "Haven"t you done anything for it?"
He was breathing through his mouth as if his lungs were worn out and there was a pause before he said, "I stuffed my bandanna inside till it got soaked through, then I threw it away."
She stared at the bloodstain without speaking. Then, suddenly, she laid the pistol on the table and went over to the stove.
Red watched her pour water from a kettle into a shallow, porcelain pan before reaching for a towel that hung from a wall rack. His eyes drifted to the gun on the table and his body strained as if he would rise, but as Virginia turned and moved toward him, he relaxed.
She caught the slight movement and stopped halfway to the cot, her eyes going from the man to the table. She hesitated for a moment, then went on to the cot where she kneeled down, placing the pan on the floor.
She poured water on the wound and pulled at the shirt gently, working it loose. When it was free she tore the shirt up to the armpit, exposing the raw wound. It looked swollen and tender, fire-red around the puncture then darkening into a surrounding purplish-blue.
She looked into his face briefly. "Didn"t your friend friend offer to help you?" offer to help you?"
"He had to worry about getting us out."
"After he got you in."
Red said, irritably, "I"ve got a mind of my own."
She held the wet cloth to the wound then took it away, wringing the strained water from it. "Then why don"t you use it?" she said calmly.
Red looked at her hard, then flared, "Maybe Jeffy was right. Maybe since you quit swingin" your tail in a hash-house, all of a sudden you"re somebody else."
Virginia"s head remained lowered over the pan as she rinsed out 219 219 the cloth, squeezing it into the water. "You don"t have any cause to talk like that."
She went to the wall rack and brought back a dry cloth and neither of them spoke as she folded it and pressed it gently against the wound.
And as she did this, Red"s eyes lowered to the streak of clay on the blanket and he brushed it off carefully. He looked at the bloodstain and said in a low voice, "I"m sorry about your cover." He was silent for a moment then said, almost dazedly, "I"m going to die-"
She made no answer and now his eyes lifted to her faded blond hair and then over her head to roam about the room. He was thinking about the soiled blanket and now he saw the raveling poplin curtains that looked flimsy and ridiculous next to the drab adobe. On the board part.i.tion there was a print of a girl in a ballet costume, soft-shadowed color against the rough boards. And over by the far wall was the grotesquely fat stove, its flue reaching up through the low ceiling.
He said, "You got it pretty hard, haven"t you?"
She hesitated before saying, "We get by."
"Well," he said, glancing around again, "I wouldn"t say you had the world by the tail."
Virginia looked up quickly. There was a rattling of knocks on the door and from outside she heard, "Honey, give that gun back to Red like a good girl."
JEFFY CAME THROUGH the doorway prodding Boland before him. He glared at Red who was holding his gun on his lap carelessly. "You"re some watchdog."
Red said nothing, but then he gagged as if he would be sick. He breathed hard with his mouth open to catch his breath and then seemed to sag within himself. His eyes were open, but lifeless.
"It"s a good thing I tested you out, Red."
Red was silent for a moment. Then he said, "Jeffy, did I shoot that man in Dodge?"
"I told you you did." He looked at Red curiously.
"But I don"t remember doing it."
"How many things you ever done do you remember?"
"I thought I"d remember killing a man."
Jeffy rolled the tobacco on his tongue, looking around the room. Then he shrugged and sent a stream of it to the floor. "I"m not going to argue with you, Red. I don"t have time." He glanced at Virginia. "Honey, how"d you like to go for a ride?"
There was a silence then, and Jeffy laughed to fill it. "You don"t think I"m riding out of here without some protection!" He looked at Boland. "Davie, would you take a pot at me with your woman hangin" onto my cantle?"
Boland"s face was white. For a moment there had been a fury inside of him, but his brain had fought it and now he felt only panic. There was a plea in his voice when he said, "My wife"s going to have a baby."
Jeffy grinned at him. "All the more reason."
"Jeffy."
He glanced at Red who seemed suddenly wide awake.
"Jeffy, you"re just scaring, aren"t you?"
"What do you think?"
He looked at him, squinting, as if he were trying to read his mind. "You"d take that girl on horseback the way she is?"
"Red, if I had a violin I"d accompany you." He started toward Virginia.
And with his movement the gun turned in Red"s lap, and the room filled with the roar as it went off. He c.o.c.ked to fire again, but there was no need. He looked at Jeffy lying facedown on the floor and said incredulously, "He would have done it!"
He let the pistol fall to the floor. "There," he said to Virginia. "Keep your coffeepot away from here."
Boland looked at Jeffy and then picked up the pistol. Virginia smiled at him wearily and sat down at the table, propping her elbows on it. He said to her, "Maybe you better get some sleep."
"Dave."
He turned to Red.
"I"m going to die, Dave."
Boland remained silent.
"Do me a favor and don"t holler law until the morning. Then it won"t matter."
221 221 "All right, Red." Then he said, "I don"t want to sound like a gravepicker, but how much have you and Jeffy got on your heads?"
Red looked at him, surprised. "Reward?"
Boland nodded.
"Why, nothin". What made you think so?"
"You said somebody identified you in Clovis."
"Well, it was probably somebody used to know us."
Now that he had asked him, Boland was embarra.s.sed. But, strangely, there was no disappointment and at that moment it surprised him. He grinned at Virginia. "I guess you don"t get anything for nothing."
She smiled back at him and didn"t look so tired. "You should know that by now."
For a few minutes there was silence. They could hear Red"s breathing, but it was soft and even. Suddenly, Boland said, "Ginny, you know I haven"t been home more"n an hour!"
Virginia nodded. "And it seemed like the whole, long night." Her eyes smiled at him and she said, softly, "When you"re telling our grandchildren about it, maybe you can stretch it a little bit."
13 The Boy Who Smiled
Gunsmoke, June 1953 June 1953 WHEN MICKEY SEGUNDO was fourteen, he tracked a man almost two hundred miles-from the Jicarilla Subagency down into the malpais.
He caught up with him at a water hole in late afternoon and stayed behind a rock outcropping watching the man drink. Mickey Segundo had not tasted water in three days, but he sat patiently behind the cover while the man quenched his thirst, watching him relax and make himself comfortable as the hot lava country cooled with the approach of evening.
Finally Mickey Segundo stirred. He broke open the .50-caliber Gallagher and inserted the paper cartridge and the cap. Then he eased the carbine between a niche in the rocks, sighting on the back of the man"s head. He called in a low voice, "Tony Choddi . . ." and as the face with the wide-open eyes came around, he fired casually.
He lay on his stomach and slowly drank the water he needed, filling his canteen and the one that had belonged to Tony Choddi. Then he took his hunting knife and sawed both of the man"s ears off, close to the head. These he put into his saddle pouch, leaving the rest for the buzzards.
A week later Mickey Segundo carried the pouch into the agency office and dropped the ears on my desk. He said very simply, "Tony Choddi is sorry he has caused trouble."
I remember telling him, "You"re not thinking of going after McKay now, are you?"
"This man, Tony Choddi, stole stuff, a horse and clothes and a gun,"
he said with his pleasant smile. "So I thought I would do a good thing and fix it so Tony Choddi didn"t steal no more."
With the smile there was a look of surprise, as if to say, "Why would I want to get Mr. McKay?"
A few days later I saw McKay and told him about it and mentioned that he might keep his eyes open. But he said that he didn"t give a d.a.m.n about any breed Jicarilla kid. If the kid felt like avenging his old man, he could try, but he"d probably cash in before his time. And as for getting Tony Choddi, he didn"t give a d.a.m.n about that either. He"d got the horse back and that"s all he cared about.
After he had said his piece, I was sorry I had warned him. And I felt a little foolish telling one of the biggest men in the Territory to look out for a half-breed Apache kid. I told myself, Maybe you"re just rubbing up to him because he"s important and could use his influence to help out the agency . . . and maybe he knows it.
Actually I had more respect for Mickey Segundo, as a human being, than I did for T. O. McKay. Maybe I felt I owed the warning to McKay because he was a white man. Like saying, "Mickey Segundo"s a good boy, but, h.e.l.l, he"s half Indian." Just one of those things you catch yourself doing. Like habit. You do something wrong the first time and you know it, but if you keep it up, it becomes a habit and it"s no longer wrong because it"s something you"ve always been doing.
McKay and a lot of people said Apaches were no d.a.m.n good. The only good one was a dead one. They never stopped to reason it out. They"d been saying it so long, they knew it was true. Certainly any such statement was unreasonable, but d.a.m.ned if I wouldn"t sometimes nod my head in agreement, because at those times I"d be with white men and that"s the way white men talked.
I might have thought I was foolish, but actually it was McKay who was the fool. He underestimated Mickey Segundo. That was five years ago. It had begun with a hanging.
EARLY IN THE morning, Tudishishn, sergeant of Apache police at the Jicarilla Agency, rode in to tell me that Tony Choddi had jumped the boundaries again and might be in my locale. Tudishishn stayed for half a dozen cups of coffee, though his information didn"t last that long. When he"d had enough, he left as leisurely as he had arrived. Hunting renegades, reservation jumpers, was Tudishishn"s job; still, it wasn"t something to get excited about. Tomorrows were for work; todays were for thinking about it.
Up at the agency they were used to Tony Choddi skipping off. Usually they"d find him later in some shaded barranca, full of tulapai.
It was quiet until late afternoon, but not unusually so. It wasn"t often that anything out of the ordinary happened at the subagency. There were twenty-six families, one hundred eight Jicarillas all told, under my charge. We were located almost twenty miles below the reservation proper, and most of the people had been there long before the reservation had been marked off. They had been fairly peaceful then, and remained so now. It was one of the few instances where the Bureau allowed the sleeping dog to lie; and because of that we had less trouble than they did up at the reservation.
There was a sign on the door of the adobe office which described it formally. It read: d. j. merritt-agent, jicarilla apache subagency- puerco, new mexico territory. It was a startling announcement to post on the door of a squat adobe sitting all alone in the shadow of the Nacimentos. My Apaches preferred higher ground and the closest jacales were two miles up into the foothills. The office had to remain on the mail run, even though the mail consisted chiefly of impossible-to-apply Bureau memoranda.