Chapter 670-Aria"s True Thoughts.
It"s cold....
That"s what Aria Dramon felt in the last moments of her conscience before that ice descending from the power of the lost kin of icy chaos fell and covered over her, her last vestiges of power going forth to fully seal her fate to keep her safe. It was a gamble on her part, but the revelation from "that" gave her the chance that she will survive into the future, a chance to see all the good she had caused, and thus with extreme cold filling her body, making her feel lost and cold, Aria kept closing her eyes.
"Is there a family left out there for me that will mourn or miss me?"
As the ice started to fully cover her, this thought filled Aria"s mind, a sad and lost thought. The idea, that she has no children, a husband, or even a lover left behind to mourn or cry over her, is the largest blow that bloomed too late deep within the mind of this so-called ruler of mana, those dragoon-like feelings she grew up with melting away to pump one last feeling of her humane mind as it all went dark.
"I....I wish I had a family to love, few kids to raise and love would have been nice..."
With that, everything did truly go dark.
.....
"Am I awake?"
The stunned cold mind of Aria finally opened up after who knows how long, her eyes going forth to meet the one said to save her from her own coldness. She came to gaze at the boy, who seemed to be of age 18, his attractiveness of beauty being compared to the highest she had ever seen, with sparkling silver hair and deep attractive purple eyes.
All of which going to give him a certain charm and beauty that seemed to rival Aria"s, but those emotions just lasted for a second after which she started to feel the effect of her current issues coming down on her.
"It"s just as predicted."
Feeling so, Aria used all the last vestiges of her power to make her last move, going forth to talk to the young man in front of her and placing the last vestiges of her body into the hands of the one that was predicted from the past. Even without the deviation that was given to Aria, she naturally felt a certain sense of closeness toward the boy in front of her, as if he were her family.
Yet the time constrained Aria couldn"t have given too much thought into that thought, she could only press down it all and shut down her mind again, waiting for the time to go such that she would finally be able to get herself back and to reward the young man that will take care of her.
"Though I wonder how my character will be?"
With such a question in her mind, Aria"s mind shut down again, not knowing that the moment she wakes up again, she would be filled with so much emotion that she would wish she could die for real.
....
"Why? why? why?....what"s all this?"
Aria screamed deep within her mind from seeing everything happening in front of her, her mind being awakened in ways she never expected to happen in her whole life. After she regained her sense of "vision," she started to see everything in her first-person viewpoint of everything happening, she was able to see but not being able to deal with the things happening in front of her.
"What bulls.h.i.t is this?"
Levels of shame at mind chilling levels flashed through Aria"s body, the scene in front of her, the scene of her sitting in the lap of a young man G.o.d knows how much younger than her and calling him Daddy, fully short-circuiting her mind such that, all she wanted was to get back her control and run away and hide for as long as possible until she could get a sense of her own dignity back.
Aria never in a million years thought that the situation would end up like this, her, the great mage of the world, sitting and calling a young man Daddy and playing around like a little child, there being no greater humiliation than this. The only thing that kept filling Aria"s mind was to regain her body and just run far, far away from this.
She could only applaud the young man going with the flow of her broken mind, for Aria never thought that her past wishes of hers would resurface from deep within her mind to become this, to regress into her childlike mentality where she yearned for her father"s love and attention.
"But still, the young man would make an amazing father."
From then on, Aria watched, she could see and feel the new worlds around her, the walks and talks of happiness, the calm and peace surrounding all over, the growth of the world, the extremely bizarre yet accepting walking of the different species together, the ideology of growth, and above all, she watched the life of the young man in front of her.
A young man who seems to be someone with great power and potential in the world, a young man who seems to possess the standings of future rulers that might come to take over the world. And just like heroes, she could see the attraction of the different women all around forming around the child, he is fire and hope to his friends and love.
"What a fulfilling life."
Aria thought from deep within but as the real-life went by, the truth that kept falling into her eyes only went deeper and deeper and deeper. Till a certain extreme emotion burst out from within her heart.
"This!"
Her entire being trembled as Aria "gazed" upon Grace, even if she couldn"t move her body, her skills, knowledge, and sense still worked over, and it took only one feeling for her soul to fully link and understand that the one in front of Aria is her or in a certain sense, the one in form of Aria would say to be her clone, her exact copy of the living soul.
"HOW DID THIS HAPPEN?!"
Aria inwardly shouted her gaze going numb and numb as she saw so.
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"I have 2 daughters and a son."
Aria thought as she gazed almost uselessly towards the silver-haired and purple-eyed young man called as Austin, she the one who had peered a lot into the study of worldly magic understands that the soul is the final container of all relations and as such by all connection for transitivity, the kids in front of her are also hers. And this thought brought many uncertain feelings deep within Aria"s mind.
For the sight she seeing in front of her, is the very one she had hoped to live and dream of her whole life,. Jealousy, a large amount of jealousy blooming within Aria"s mind as she gazed at herself, at her copy, the one named as Grace.
"This is what I wanted at my end."
Aria could see the deep bond and love between the family, the trust and warmth filling the family fully and it was then that the thought she was suppressing fully invaded her mind.
"I am calling my son Daddy and playing around with him as his daughter."
This thought makes Aria achieve another level of embarra.s.sment that perhaps no other person living has ever reached in their life.
"Can things be more wrong than this?!"
Aria asked to herself, she trying her best to lock this part of her memory deep within her mind and to forget it, right till this moment, all she ever dreamed of was to run away after she regained control of her body but after seeing and undertaking this, that thought started to fade away little by little, many confusing emotions pa.s.sing through Aria as she gazes at what in front of her.
The scenes of her being loved and treated happily like a princess by Austin, she latching onto Grace as her Mommy due to the resonating soul, all of it flashing through her eyes, she seeing the beauty of her "family".
"The boy was truly raised right"
Aria thought, she herself falling into this atmosphere, somewhat enjoying it, the situation making her feel sad and happy, angry yet content, embarra.s.sed yet hateful, several conflicting emotions pa.s.sing through her as she kept going through the life of Austin in front of her.
"Is this pride?"
Aria asked to herself, for the first time feeling pride not for herself but for the young man in front of her, seeing him so brilliantly shine and making her feel content, it"s as if his achievement somehow translates to her achievements too.
Feeling that her "son" is such an amazing young man, making Aria go through a whole another range of emotional connections she never knew existed, though the sharp-minded Aria didn"t let it flow to her mind long, she suppressed them quite forcefully, "cause in the end, the ones in front of her aren"t fully her children.
Her clone brought them all up, they are fully related to her but she has no attachment for raising them, treating them, feeding them, and more, in the end, a connection for the recorded soul only existed and with grace already existing, there lay no s.p.a.ce for Aria to enter, so hence in the end Aria has no attachment that transcends just soul connection to the family and this thought cooled the several emotions that had been pa.s.sing through Aria.