Chapter 779: Chapter 777-Some Rough Truths.
"There is no power without loss."
A thought which, at the beginning, doesn"t hold any value at all, and I sank into that thought. The things that happened to me can"t be spoken in single words or many at all. Change took place within me; information I didn"t want was loaded directly into me, and along with it, the presence of my mind grew to a level that I couldn"t control at all.
My mind is now capable of seeing and doing things that fall upon the divine-the presence of corruption and the light coiling around me, forming my main divinity. Around it floated the other powers. My inside which was a plain, now having become a galaxy that could go forth to hold the whole realm as a whole.
The main part of my divinity is held at the centre of myself-a mix of red and blue circling around, twisting and turning beautifully, the two halves combined yet not fully united. I know the fact that for my divinity to be complete, I need to combine the two to get to that purple level of power that can change reality as a whole.
The power is something addictive that cannot be taken away from me at all, my body now having reached the level of a half-divine. But even with that, I could tell that my body exceeds the range of any level of G.o.ds there is a presence of power and mind being combined within me that changes all laws and ideals.
"Though this does indeed look beautiful."
I thought, now floating within this single galaxy inside me, growing to perhaps even become a cosmos. My form floated beautifully within this bright world, the water and its beauty all gone, now I was in this floating galaxy with the blue and red light mixing and covering over the place, gracing this galaxy with its beauty, a mix of two stabilities holding this reality together.
"I"m the absolute master here... huh?"
I mused, feeling the power around me. I went forth to clutch my hand, feeling the wrath within me. Along with it, I waved my body forth, controlling this inner world of mine, changing everything to my will.
"Well, there goes a lot of my plans I kept."
I chuckled inwardly at that thought. Normally, I should be distraught, sad, or even feeling a bit mixed-minded about the fact that this happened. But rising to this level has brought on several complications that I will have to deal with, not to mention the truths I had just learned mere moments ago, truths that are still sinking into my mind.
"Just what makes me so special?"
Thanks to combining me back with that darker half of mine, the amazing mental stability-a high level of stability that went beyond anything I had back then in my first life-has returned to me, making it such that no kind of mental block or attack will be able to reach me. It also means that I have gained more understanding of all the evil I do.
This goes forth to show that the mental attacks and depression that I used to have won"t be affecting me anymore. But that only comes with more questions about everything about me, the truth of it being that even in my past life, even back then, the hollowed-out self of mine was born from the corruption of this world.
How did it come to affect me then?
This also directly goes forth to remove the very first thing I had come to learn about this world when I came here. The first thing the system had told me was the fact that the so-called G.o.d Of Games was the one that brought me here, having seemingly "created" this world, forcing and pushing me into this, into a state such that I will have to seduce these girls if I don"t want to end up in h.e.l.l and be tortured for all of eternity.
And now I am 100% sure that it was all bulls.h.i.t. I had slowly come to understand it as time went on, but I kept that inside me due to the very fact that the system can do things for me that are above what these G.o.ds of this world can do. I mean, helping me lie to the supreme G.o.ddess, guiding me and getting me things for other realities means that it is more powerful than this reality, right?
That is why I never acted on my suspicions. I mean, what if the so-called G.o.d Of Games really created this place? What if he really is the ultimate authority? What then? If I were to act on it, then that meant securing my spot in h.e.l.l for seemingly some kind of supreme being that is most definitely resistant to my charm or any tricks I pull at it.
Thus, the main thing the system can do is keep me in check. But that is not the case anymore. Now I know-now I know the corruption existed within me long before even coming to this world. That means this world existed long before the game and long before some kind of G.o.d of Games played it.
"I have f***ed a G.o.d of Games, and she wasn"t all that mighty when she was moaning under me."
I laughed internally at that thought, looking directly at the beautiful divinity of mine that was shining. The truth has now come to be the words of the G.o.ds and the h.e.l.l that is waiting for me, none of that is true. So the question remains: should I even hunt for these girls anymore?
"Sadly, I have to."
A bitter smile came to my face when I came to that understanding. Once I have reached this half-divine state, I have come to understand a lot about this world and the whole of reality. Along with it came the understanding of the power riffling through me. In my current state, the whole world around me is a thin paper I can crush.
A touch from me and I end continents and worlds. This also meant I could travel between the realities of this world. I am capable of ripping apart the branch of s.p.a.ce and walking into different realities, travelling through the realm of the existing cosmos. Of course, I can"t do it right now, but later down the line, when I am complete and have reached the final spot, I will be able to do it.
Thus arises the other question: what can even hurt me then? What kind of fear will have to last for me to even go after the girls anymore? I mean, h.e.l.l can"t hold me, and death doesn"t seem to be something that can be taken away from me too. Then why the fear? Why would I have to follow the rules that were placed on me?
"It"s something easy yet hard to understand, isn"t that right, system?"
I asked out, and just as I did, I heard the information filling my mind.
[That"s right, it"s something hard yet easy.]
A bitter chuckle left my lips again as I heard the voice of the system, the voice itself now has become much more human and flexible, with a more emotional quality to it, I might add, and that only brings more to the issue.
The reason I would have to fear is primarily coming to be one: it"s the fact that I will be losing everything I have right now. Having this power also means I can detect certain aspects of it and understand it better. The moment I go against it, it means the blessings, the divine might, and the final existence that holds me would be ripped off, ending my soul in seconds.
"The only way to fight against it is to become whole."
My eyes travelled through this galaxy. The truth of the issue is that I am still not whole; two more components exist for me to absorb to be full. I can tell where the 3rd component exists, but the final one-that is the one connecting me here. That final component is the one supplying the will, power, and cosmic energy to maintain the system and my sense of self.
For it isn"t something as easy as dying and getting reborn here, especially to come from my realm of reality that is being ruled by the divinity existing in that place. Certain things had to be done, and certain limitations had to be placed, and if I want to be truly free and to truly hold the feeling and power I have, I need to be complete.
Now, the irony of the fact is that I can get the 3rd part, but the 4th part won"t be one with me unless I keep at this goal. Isn"t that right, system?
[Yes, you are right. A new goal has been established, a rebirth of the past, if you may call it
that.]
[Ding!]
[Main Quest Reinitiated:
Info: Take all the girls away from the main protagonists, take all the girls for yourself while making sure that the protagonists live the full life of a bachelor. Make sure to take it all from them and leave nothing behind for them to use.
Quest 2: Turn them into the villains in the end and become the heroes they should have been
supposed to be.
Reward: Getting to live in this world freely and to get full access to yourself, to be finally free
and to hold your own fate in your hands.
Reward 2:Thw final piece shall be given to you.
Failure: To have your soul completely extinguished and the authority of power transferred over as cosmic energy feeding the growing cosmos.]