"What"s horrible?" said Miss Bickersteth, as they approached.
"Ask Mr. Brodrick."
But Brodrick, thus appealed to, drifted away towards Nicholson, murmuring something about that train he had to catch.
"What have you done to agitate him?" said Miss Bickersteth. "You didn"t throw cold water on his magazine, did you?"
"I shouldn"t have known he had a magazine."
"What? Didn"t he mention it?"
"Not to me."
"Then something _is_ the matter with him." She added, after a thoughtful pause, "What did you think of him?"
"There"s no doubt he"s a very amiable, benevolent man. The sort of man who wants everybody to marry because he"s married himself."
"But he isn"t married."
"Well, he looks it. He looks as if he"d never been anything _but_ married all his life."
"Anyhow," said Miss Bickersteth, "that"s safe. Safer than not looking married when you are."
"Oh, he"s safe enough," said Jane. As she spoke she was aware of Tanqueray standing at her side.
IX
The day was over, and they were going back.
Their host insisted on accompanying them to the station. They had given him a day, and every moment of it, he declared solemnly, was precious.
They could hardly have spent it better than with Nicky in his perfect house, his perfect garden. And Nicky had been charming, with his humble ardour, his pa.s.sion for a perfection that was not his.
The day, Miss Holland intimated, was his, Nicky"s present, rather than theirs. He glowed. It had been glorious, anyhow, a perfect day. A day, Nicky said, that made him feel immortal.
He looked at Jane Holland and George Tanqueray, and they tried not to smile. Jane would have died rather than have hurt Nicky"s feelings. It was not in her to spoil his perfect day. All the same, it had been their secret jest that Nicky _was_ immortal. He would never end, never by any possibility disappear. As he stuck now, he always would stick. He was going with them to the station.
Sensitive to the least quiver of a lip, the young man"s mortal part was stung with an exquisite sense of the becoming.
"If I feel it," said he, "what must _you_ feel?"
"Oh, we!" they cried, and broke loose from his solemn and detaining eyes.
They walked on ahead, and Nicholson was left behind with Laura Gunning and Nina Lempriere. He consented, patiently and politely, to be thus outstripped. After all, the marvellous thing was that he should find himself on that road at all with Them. After all, he had had an hour alone with Him, in his garden, and five-and-twenty minutes by his watch with Her. It was enough if he could keep his divinities in sight, following the flutter of Miss Holland"s veil.
Besides, she had asked him to talk to Nina and look after Laura. She was always asking him to be an angel, and look after somebody. Being an angel seemed somehow his doom. But he was sorry for Laura. They said she had cared for Tanqueray; and he could well believe it. He could believe in any woman caring for Him. He wondered how it had left her. A little defiant, he thought, but with a quiet, clear-eyed virginity. Determined, too. Nicholson had never seen so large an expression of determination on so small a face.
He always liked talking to Laura; but he shrank inexpressibly from approaching Nina, the woman with unquiet eyes and nervous gestures, and a walk that suggested the sweep of a winged thing to its end. A glance at Nina told him that wherever she was she could look after herself.
Morose, fearlessly disarrayed, and with it all a trifle haggard and forlorn, Nina Lempriere had the air of not belonging to them. She paused, she loitered, she swept tempestuously ahead, but none of her movements had the slightest reference to her companions. From time to time he glanced uncomfortably at Nina.
"Leave her," said Laura, "to herself."
"Do you think," he said, "she minds being left?"
"Not she. She likes it. You don"t suppose she"s thinking of _us_?"
"Dear me, no; but one likes to be polite."
"She"d so much rather you were sincere."
"I say, mayn"t I be both?"
"Oh yes, but you couldn"t always be with Nina. She makes you feel sometimes as if it was no use your existing."
"Do you think," he said, "she"ll stand beside Jane Holland?"
"No. She may go farther."
"Go farther? How?"
"She"s got a better chance."
"A better chance? I shouldn"t have backed her chance against Miss Holland"s."
"It _is_ better. She doesn"t get so mixed up with people. If she _were_ to----"
He waited.
"She"d go with a rush, in one piece, and either die or come out of it all right. Whereas Jane----"
He waited breathlessly.
"Jane would be torn to tatters, inch by inch."
Nicholson felt a curious constriction across his chest. His throat dried as he spoke again.
"What do you think would tear her most?"
"Oh, if she married."
"I thought you meant that."
"The thing is," said Laura, "not to marry." She said it meditatively and without reference to herself; but he gathered that, if reference had been made, she would, with still more dogged a determination, have kept her view.