VI
Mr. Eldred, groom and dog fancier, profoundly musing upon human nature and illuminated by his study of the lower animals, had hit upon a truth.
Once let him know that another man desired to take Rose away from him and Mr. Tanqueray would be ten times more desirous to have her. What Mr.
Eldred did not see was the effect upon Mr. Tanqueray of Rose"s taking herself away, or he would not have connived at her departure. "Out o"
sight, out o" mind," said Mr. Eldred, arguing again from his experience of the lower animals.
But with Tanqueray, as with all creatures of powerful imagination, to be out of sight was to be perpetually in mind.
All night, in this region of the mind, Rose"s image did battle with Jane"s image and overcame it.
It was not only that Jane"s charm had no promise for his senses. She was unfit in more ways than one. Jane was in love with him; yet her att.i.tude implied resistance rather than surrender. Rose"s resistance, taking, as it did, the form of flight, was her confession of his power. Jane held her ground; she stood erect. Rose bowed before him like a flower shaken by the wind. He loved Rose because she was small and sweet and subservient. Jane troubled and tormented him. He revolted against the tyranny of Jane.
Jane was not physically obtrusive, yet there were moments when her presence in a room oppressed him. She had further that disconcerting quality of all great personalities, the power to pursue and seize, a power so oblivious, so pure from all intention or desire, that there was no flattery in it for the pursued. It persisted when she was gone.
Neither time nor s.p.a.ce removed her. He could not get away from Jane. If he allowed himself to think of her he could not think of anything else.
But he judged that Rose"s minute presence in his memory would not be disturbing to his other thoughts.
His imagination could play tenderly round Rose. Jane"s imagination challenged his. It stood, brandishing its flaming sword before the gates of any possible paradise. There was something in Jane that matched him, and, matching, rang defiance to his supremacy. Jane plucked the laurel and crowned herself. Rose bowed her pretty head and let him crown her.
Laurel crowns, crowns of glory, for Jane. The crown of roses for Rose.
He meant, of course, the wedding-wreath and the wedding-ring. His conversation with the Eldreds had shown him that marriage had not entered into their humble contemplations; also that if there was no question of marriage, there could be no question of Rose.
He had known that in the beginning, he had known it from the uncompromising little Rose herself. From the first flowering of his pa.s.sion until now, he had seen marriage as the sole means to its inevitable end. Tanqueray had his faults, but it was not in him to bring the creature he loved to suffering and dishonour. And the alternative, in Rose"s case, was not dishonour, but frustration, which meant suffering for them both. He would have to give Rose up unless he married her.
At the moment, and the moment"s vision was enough for him, he saw no reason why he should not marry her. He wanted to obtain her at once and to keep her for ever. She was not a lady and she knew it; but she had a gentleness, a fineness of the heart which was the secret of her unpremeditated charm. Without it Rose might have been as pretty as she pleased, she would not have pleased Tanqueray. He could withstand any manifestly unspiritual appeal, restrained by his own fineness and an invincible disdain. Therefore, when the divine folly fell upon him, he was like a thing fresh from the last touch of the creator, every sense in him unworn and delicate and alert.
And Rose had come to him when the madness of the quest was on him, a madness so strong that it overcame his perception of her social lapses.
It was impossible to be unaware of some of them, of certain phrases, of the sudden wild flight of her aspirates. But these things were entangled with her adorable gestures, with the soft ways of her mouth, with her look when she hung about him, nursing him; so that a sane judgment was impossible.
It was palpable, too, that Rose was not intellectual, that she was not even half-educated. But Tanqueray positively disliked the society of intellectual, cultivated women; they were all insipid after Jane. After Jane, he did not need intellectual companionship in his wife. He would still have Jane. And when he was tired of Jane there would, no doubt, be others; and when he was tired of all of them, there was himself.
What he did need in his wife was the obstinate, dumb devotion of a creature that had no life apart from him; a creature so small that in clinging it would hang no weight on his heart. And he had found it in Rose.
Why should he not marry her?
She was now, he had learned, staying with her former mistress at Fleet, in Hampshire.
The next morning he took a suitable train down to Fleet, and arrived, carrying the band-box, at the door of the house where Rose was. He sat a long time in the hall of the house with the band-box on his knees. He did not mind waiting. People went in and out of the hall and looked at him; and he did not care. He gloried in the society of the sacred band-box. He enjoyed the spectacle of his own eccentricity.
At last he was shown into a little room where Rose came to him. She came from behind, from the garden, through the French window. She was at his side before he saw her. He felt her then, he felt her fear of him.
He turned. "Rose," he said, "I"ve brought you the moon in a band-box."
"Oh," said Rose, and her cry had a thick, sobbing vibration in it.
He put his arm on her shoulder and drew her out of sight and kissed her, and she was not afraid of him any more.
"Rose," he said, "have you thought it over?"
"Yes, I have. Have you?"
"I"ve thought of nothing else."
"Sensible?"
"Oh, Lord, yes."
"You"ve thought of how I haven"t a penny and never shall have?"
"Yes."
"And how I"m not clever, and how it isn"t a bit as if I"d any head for studyin" and that?"
"Yes, Rose."
"Have you thought of how I"m not a lady? Not what you"d call a lady?"
There was no answer to that, and so he kissed her.
"And how you"d be if you was to marry some one who was a lady? Have you thought of that?"
"I have."
"Well then, it"s this way. If you was a rich man I wouldn"t marry you."
She paused.
"But you will, because I"m a poor one?"
"Yes."
"Thank G.o.d I"m poor."
He drew her to him and she yielded, not wholly, but with a shrinking of her small body, and a soft, shy surrender of her lips.
She was thinking, "If he married a lady he"d have to spend ten times on her what he need on me."
All she said was, "There are things I can do for you that a lady couldn"t."
"Oh--don"t--don"t!" he cried. That was the one way she hurt him.
"What are you going to do with me now?" said she.
"I"m going to take you for a walk. We can"t stay here."
"Can you wait?"