"And you _would_ go and drag it out, all of you, when I was sitting there in shame and misery. And before George Tanqueray--How could you?"
"My dear Jinny----"
Brodrick was leaning forward too now, looking at her with affectionate concern.
Her brother-in-law rose and held out his hand. He detained hers for an appreciable moment, thoughtfully, professionally.
"I think," he said, "really, you"d better go to bed."
Outside in the hall she could hear him talking to Hugh.
"It"s physical, it"s physical," he said. "It won"t do to upset her. You must take great care."
The doctor"s voice grew mysterious, then inaudible, and she heard Hugh saying he supposed that it was so; and Henry murmured and mumbled himself away. Outside their voices still retreated with their footsteps, down the garden path, and out at the terrace gate. Hugh was seeing Henry home.
When he came back he found Jane in the library, sitting up for him. She was excited and a little flushed.
"So you"ve had _your_ talk, have you?" she said.
"Yes."
He came to her and put his hands on her forehead.
"Look here. You ought to have gone to bed."
She took his hand and drew him to her.
"Henry doesn"t think I"m any good," she said.
"Henry"s very fond of you."
She shook her head.
"To Henry I"m nothing but a highly interesting neurotic. He watches me as if he were on the look-out for some abnormal manifestation, with that delightful air he has of never being surprised at anything, as if he could calculate the very moment."
"My dear----"
"I"m used to it. My people took me that way, too. Only they hadn"t a scientific turn of mind, like Henry. They didn"t think it interesting; and they haven"t Henry"s angelic patience and forbearance. I was the only one of the family, don"t you know, who wasn"t quite sane; and yet--so unlike Henry--they considered me rather more responsible than any of them. I couldn"t get off anything on the grounds of my insanity."
All the time, while thus tormenting him, she seemed profoundly occupied with the hand she held, caressing it with swift, nervous, tender touches.
"After all," she said, "I haven"t turned out so badly; even from Henry"s point of view, have I?"
He laughed. "What is Henry"s point of view?"
She looked up at him quickly. "You know, and I know that Henry didn"t want you to marry me."
The uncaptured hand closed over hers, holding it tighter than she herself could hold.
"No," she said. "I"m not the sort of woman Henry _would_ want you to marry. To please Henry----"
"I didn"t marry to please Henry."
"To please Henry you should have married placable flesh and blood, very large and handsome, without a nerve in her body. The sort of woman who has any amount of large and handsome flesh-and-blood children, and lives to have them, thrives on them. That"s Henry"s idea of the right woman."
He admitted that it had once been his. He had seen his wife that was to be, placable, as Jinny said, sane flesh and blood, the mother of perfect children.
"And so, of course," said Jinny, "you go and marry me."
"Of course," said Brodrick. He said it in the voice she loved.
"Why didn"t you marry her? _She_ wouldn"t have bothered your life out."
She paused. "On the other hand, she wouldn"t have cared for you as I do.
That sort of woman only cares for her children."
"Won"t you care for them, Jinny?"
"Not as I care for you," said Jinny.
And to his uttermost amazement she bowed her head over his hands and cried.
x.x.xVI
Tanqueray"s book was out. Times and seasons mattered little in a case so hopeless. There was no rivalry between George Tanqueray and his contemporaries; therefore, his publishers had not scrupled to produce him in the same month as Jane Holland. They handled any work of his with the apathy of despair.
He himself had put from him all financial anxiety when he banked the modest sum, "on account," which was all that he could look for. The perturbing question for him was, not whether his sales would be small or great, but whether this time the greatness of his work would or would not be recognized. He did not suppose for a moment that it would be.
_His_ tide would never turn.
His first intimation that it was turning came from Jane, in a pencil note enclosed with a newspaper cutting, his first favourable review.
"Poor George," she wrote, "you thought you could escape it. But it"s coming--it"s come. You needn"t think you"re going to be so very posthumous, after all." He marvelled that Jinny should attach so much importance to the printed word.
But Jinny had foreseen those mighty lunar motions that control the tides. It looked really as if it had come, years before he had expected it, as if (as dear Jinny put it) he would not have a chance of being posthumous. Not only was he aware that this book of his was a masterpiece, but other people were aware. There was one man, even Tanqueray admitted, who cared and knew, whose contemporary opinion carried the prestige of posterity; and he had placed him where he would be placed. And lesser men followed, praising him; some with the constrained and tortured utterances of critics compelled into eating their own words; some with the cold weight of a verdict delivered unwillingly under judicial pressure. And there were others, lesser still, men who had hated Tanqueray. They postured now in att.i.tudes of prudery and terror; they protested; they proclaimed themselves victims of diabolic power, worshippers of the purity, the sanct.i.ty of English letters, constrained to an act of unholy propitiation. They would, if they could, have pa.s.sed him by.
It was Caro Bickersteth who said of Tanqueray that he played upon the imaginations of his critics as he played upon women"s hearts.
And so it went on. One took off a conventional hat to Mr. Tanqueray"s sincerity; and one complained of "Mr. Tanqueray"s own somewhat undraped att.i.tude toward the naked truth," observing that truth was not nearly so naked as "Mr. Tanqueray would have us think." Another praised "his large undecorated splendour." They split him up into all his attributes and ant.i.theses. They found wonder in his union of tenderness and brutality.
They spoke of "the steady beat of his style," and his touch, "the delicate, velvet stroke of the hammer, driven by the purring dynamo."
Articles appeared ("The Novels of George Tanqueray;" "George Tanqueray: an Appreciation;" "George Tanqueray: an Apology and a Protest"); with the result that his publishers reported a slight, a very slight improvement in his sales.
Besides this alien tribute there was Caro Bickersteth"s large column in the "Morning Telegraph," and Nicky"s inspired eulogy in the "Monthly Review." For, somehow, by the eternal irony that pursued him, Nicky"s reviews of other people could get in all right, while his own poems never did and never would. And there was the letter that had preceded Jinny"s note, the letter that she wrote to him, as she said, "out of the abyss." It brought him to her feet, where he declared he would be glad to remain, whether Jinny"s feet were in or out of the abyss.
Rose revived a little under this praise of Tanqueray. Not that she said very much about it to him. She was too hurt by the way he thrust all his reviews into the waste-paper basket, without showing them to her. But she went and picked them out of the waste-paper basket when he wasn"t looking, and pasted all the good ones into a book, and burnt all the bad ones in the kitchen fire. And she brought the reviews, and made her boast of him to Aunt and Uncle, and told them of the nice sum of money that his book had "fetched," this time. This was all he had been waiting for, she said, before he took a little house at Hampstead.
For he had taken it at last, that little house. It was one of a terrace of three that stood high above the suburb, close to the elm-tree walk overlooking the West Heath. A diminutive brown-brick house, with jasmine climbing all over it, and a little square of gla.s.s laid like a mat in front of it, and a little garden of gra.s.s and flower-borders behind.