CHAPTER x.x.xVIII.
ON THE THRESHOLD.
It was plain that Mrs. Carruth was impatient. Nor was the thing made less evident by her attempts to conceal it from herself. She lounged on a couch. A pile of books and magazines was at her side. She pretended to read--or, rather, it would be more correct to write that she tried not to pretend to read. But it would not do. It was nothing but pretence. And she knew that it was nothing but pretence. She took up a book. She turned a page or two. She put it down again. She exchanged it for a magazine--a magazine with pictures. She tried to look at the pictures. The pictures palled. She essayed a magazine without pictures.
That was as great a failure as the other. In her present mood the ministrations of print and pictures alike were ineffectual.
No wonder she had become impatient. She had been on tenterhooks all day--waiting! waiting! All the morning she had expected to receive some sort of communication--some acknowledgment of the expressive line or two which she had sent. But when lunch came, and there still was nothing, she was quite sure that, during the afternoon the gentleman would come himself.
She was ready for him by two. She did not think it likely that he would come quite so early. Still, it would be well that she should not be taken unawares. So she made herself even unwontedly charming. She put on a brand-new dress, which suited her to perfection. It really did make her look uncommonly nice! It fitted her so well that it displayed her long, lithe, and yet by no means unbecomingly bony figure, to the best advantage. She took astonishing pains with her hair. She even went in for unusual splendour in the way of shoes and stockings. And the effect produced by the few touches which she bestowed upon her countenance was wonderful.
In spite of all she was ready by two. And still--he cometh not, she said. The silvery chimes of the exquisite little clock which stood on the top of the overmantel announced that it was three-quarters after three. She looked at her own watch to see if it really was so late. The thing was true enough. Her watch was in complete agreement with the clock--it was a quarter to four.
She put down the last of the magazines with, in her manner, an appearance of finality. She rose from the couch. She went to the window. She stood there with her fingertips drumming idly and noiselessly against the pane. The only creature in sight was a milkman, who, by way of killing two birds with one stone, was serving a customer across the road, and flirting with the maid. Mrs. Carruth watched the flirtation proceed to its conclusion, and, when the milkman, springing into his cart, had disappeared with the inevitable clatter, Mrs.
Carruth, turning away from the window, came back into the room.
She stood at a little centre table. She laughed to herself.
"If, after all, he shouldn"t come--what fun it would be!"
She was very far from being an ill-looking woman, as she stood there, with smiles puckering her lips and peeping from her eyes.
"If he should suppose that I am not in earnest! His experience may teach him that many women never are in earnest. If he should imagine that I am one of the many!"
Raising her right hand, she began daintily pinching her lower lip between her finger and her thumb.
"It would be a pity for both of us." She made a little impatient movement with her head. "And yet, I can"t believe that a man with his experience could suppose that I am one of the many. If he did, it would be his fault--not mine."
The little clock struck four.
"An hour more, my friend--an hour more. And then--well, I do hope you"ll come before the hour"s out, for your sake, as well as mine. I wonder if, in this little matter, I"ve been counting my chickens before they"re hatched. I, of all women, should have known better. And, with such a hand faced on the board, one might be excused for supposing that it would take the pool. A straight flush cannot be beaten."
She laughed again, this time not quite so lightly.
"It reminds me of some of the games which I have seen played. You can"t show a hand to beat a straight, but you can fight to save the pool. I wonder if he means fighting. If he does, it"ll be against all the odds.
He has neither gun nor bow. When I start shooting, he"s bound to drop.
Sure."
The merriment pa.s.sed from her face, the laughter from her eyes--an expression of anxiety came into them instead; a look which suggested hunger, a something which made her, all at once, seem actually old.
"Perhaps he takes it that a victory, on these lines, may mean more than a defeat. And he counts on that. It would, too. It would mean farewell--a long farewell, an actual farewell--to another of my dreams.
And the brightest of them all. But I don"t care. It would mean death to him. Death! And such a death! And, after all, it would only mean a stumble to me. From the practice I have had, I have become so used to stumbles that surely one other wouldn"t count."
She began moving about the room restlessly, touching here a table, there a chair, to the window, and back again, as if a spirit possessed her which made her not know what it was she wanted to be at. She approached a corner of the room, as if she were about to take refuge in it, like some naughty child. As she went, clenching her fists, as if she were pressing her finger-nails into her palms, she gave a little cry.
"Oh, I"d give--I"d give, what wouldn"t I give?--if he"d come into the room, now--without keeping me waiting any longer, now!--and speak to me as I would have him speak! Why doesn"t he come? He has everything to gain, he has nothing to lose!"
She swept right round, with a swish of her skirts, in a sort of frenzy, echoing her own question as she swung out her arms in front of her.
"Why doesn"t he come?"
Even as the words were on her lips, at the hall door there came a knocking. She went red and white, despite the aids of beauty! She caught at a chair, as if desirous of having something to lean against.
"Thank G.o.d!"
Then, as if conscious of the incongruity of such words upon her lips, she put her hands up to her face.
"Oh, I"m so glad he"s come!"
Some one outside had hold of the handle of the door. She uncovered her face. She touched her hair. She touched the bosom of her dress. She dropped into the chair by which she was standing. In an instant she was the picture of composure.
The door opened to admit Mr. Haines.
His appearance was a shock to Mrs. Carruth. She looked negligently round, as if indifferent who the new-comer might be, and then--she stared.
"You!"
There was something in the lady"s intonation which was very far from being complimentary. She stood up, quivering with disappointment and with rage.
"I thought I gave instructions that this afternoon I was not at home to visitors."
Mr. Haines did not seem to be at all nonplussed.
"That"s what the young lady who opened the door told me. I said I would wait until you were. I will."
Mr. Haines sat down--with every appearance of having come to stay. Mrs.
Carruth looked at the clock, then at her watch, then at the gentleman upon the chair. The gentleman in question, with his head thrown back, was staring at the ceiling, as if quite unconscious of her neighbourhood. It seemed to be as much as the lady could do to retain her self-control.
"I am sure, Mr. Haines, that you cannot wish to be rude. I have an appointment this afternoon which I regret will prevent my having the pleasure of receiving you."
"I"m going to have my say. I"ll say it afterwards, or I"ll say it now.
It"s all the same to me."
"What do you mean by you"re going to have your say?"
"If you"re ready, I"ll let it out. But don"t mind me. Don"t let me spoil your appointment. Keep anything you"ve got to keep."
Mrs. Carruth seemed to be at a loss to know what to do. Her looks were eloquent witnesses as to what she would have done if she could. But, apparently, she did not see her way to do it. She temporised.
"If there is anything of importance, Mr. Haines, which you wished to say to me, perhaps you will be so good as to say it as briefly as you can, now. Possibly it will not detain you, at the utmost, more than a quarter of an hour."
"Possibly it will not. I rather reckon you"ll have a word to say in that. It won"t all be for me." Mr. Haines brought his eyes down to the level of the lady"s face. He spread out his hands upon his knees.
He looked at her very straight. "What I have to say may be said in about two words. It"s just this--I"ve found my girl."
Mrs. Carruth did not display any great amount of interest, but she did seem to be surprised.